Dreams wake up - in the past, I always said this sentence to others, but now I have changed positions, I have become the questioner, and Li Yan is the answerer. I was silently chewing on this sentence repeatedly, and thoughts of impermanence rose in my heart.

"And ah, I don't want to stay in this kind of place all the time and be killed by monsters." Li Yan continued, "If you have to choose between 'continue to be tortured by monsters as a young man' and 'wake up as a middle-aged man', then you can only choose the latter. ”

"That's right." I couldn't help but laugh when I heard this, but it was laughing at myself. The reason why I had the option of "staying in the healing dream" was because the healing dream was a world that would be kind to me. If the Blue Bird really seals the Majin, I can live a peaceful life in that world, and even join the Witcher Department to become my ideal hero.

But what is there in the dream here? Empty ghost towns, eternally dark skies, monsters that choose people to eat...... It's not a big deal to return to the real world and be a middle-aged man than to stay in this kind of place.

What answer did I expect from Li Yan just now?

"However, it is within my expectation that I will not have much success in the future, but I will still have a wife and even a son?" A surprised and unacceptable color appeared on Li Yan's face, "Are you really not deceiving me?" ”

"Absolutely." I said, "What's wrong with that?" ”

"Seriously, I have a headache." "I didn't even want to have children, I didn't even want to ......get married," he said.

As he spoke, he was still looking at my face with suspicion, and said coldly in a tone that seemed like a joke, "From the beginning of the meeting, I had a feeling that your face seemed to be a little familiar, as if it was ...... You look a little like me, could it be that you are my son in the real world? ”

"Your son is nineteen years old and disappeared a long time ago. Do you look at my face like nineteen? I tensed my facial muscles and asked without changing my face, "What's more, my name is Ren Sai, not Li Sai." ”

Maybe it was me who looked like I was in a bad mood, and he quickly apologized. I also felt that I had a problem with my attitude, so I explained that I wasn't angry. Back to the topic. I asked, "Why don't you want to get married and have children?" ”

He thought for a moment and asked me in turn, "What kind of person do you think I am?" ”

I mentally reviewed his previous performances and experiences, as well as the bits and pieces of clues about my father in my memory. He is very intelligent, and he has not gone insane after so many deaths, and he can also talk to me fluently, showing that he has a good psychological adaptability to the harsh environment, and it is not an exaggeration to call him resilient.

But his character lacks hardness, and it may be difficult to break through on his own when he encounters difficulties. Some people may find ways to resist when they encounter something that makes them miserable, or even take an attitude that they would rather be broken than destroyed. And he is more inclined to accept it helplessly and try to adapt.

I put these evaluations simply, and he laughed self-deprecatingly after listening to them, and then said, "Lack of hardness...... You're right. I'm really not a man enough, and sometimes I'm looked down upon, and I just know how to go with the flow. So, if I get a wife who is similar to me, the husband and wife will just stare at each other stupidly when they encounter difficulties; And if I get a tough wife, that is, I am being bullied by my wife, it will be even more distressing. So I might as well be on my own, at least I can be at ease, and I can also avoid many expenses of married life, don't you say? ”

"And what about the kids? Isn't it okay if you don't have children to inherit yourself? I asked.

"It's okay, I don't expect my children to provide for themselves. Besides, my family is very poor, and I don't have much income, so I won't be able to earn much money in the future. If I were a child, I would definitely not expect to be reincarnated into this family. "And I hate children, and if I really want to give birth, I'm sure I'll regret it in a few months." ”

"Really? But I heard that many parents felt the same way at first, but later changed their views, and even though they were tired and tired, they still loved their children, and felt that their children were angels in their lives. I said.

"That's absolute self-deception. Still 'angels'? They haven't been children before, and they don't know how annoying they used to be? It's just a scene for others to hear. I don't know how to do it, and my parents still have to do it, and it's no different from a hero. "Besides, since they've all given birth to a child, they can't say anything like 'if only they hadn't given birth to that child.'" Naturally, you can't say it to children, and you can't say it to anyone. So I had to say it in the opposite direction. Even if you can't fool others, it's good to fool yourself. ”

He added, "I don't know what I think of the future, but I'm still young and want to find a chance to play outside. After giving birth, there must be a lot of trivial things that make people want to die. ”

"But what if your parents persecute you? For example, arranging a blind date for you and forcing you to meet the other party in the past, and you really can't refuse. I began to paint a picture like, "After you go, you find that the blind date is in a similar situation to you, and you also think that the child is very troublesome. After chatting, I found that the other party was okay, so I made do with marriage, but you agreed not to have children, most of the living expenses are responsible for yourself, and marriage and living together are purely to cope with each other's parents. ”

"That's the ...... It's not impossible. He said.

"But it's not surprising that even if a man and a woman live together, even if they get off the gun, and even if the security measures are good, there is a risk that you will accidentally 'kill someone'." I continued to paint a picture of the future, or rather the past, "And the news leaked to your parents and elders, and then your parents forced you to do everything you could to give birth to your child, even if you dared to have a baby, you would hang yourself." You have nothing to do, and in the end you have to obey. ”

"Hmm...... I don't know what the other half is, but I've been unable to assert my own opinions since I was a child, and I probably will really end up like that......" After hearing this, he let out a long sigh, "But if that's the case, that kid will be too unlucky......"

"Haven't you ever thought about changing yourself for the sake of your children?" I asked.

Without hesitation, he said, "No! ”

I'm speechless.

He thought for a moment, "But ......"

"But?" I asked.

"I don't think I can love him, but I don't hate him. I have been soaked in the beating and scolding of my parents since I was a child, and I still find it painful. So if I have a child, if I can't warm him, at least I can't hurt him. He said, "You can't let him go hungry." The feeling of being hungry is really uncomfortable, although I still want to play, but since I have a child, I have no choice but to make money with my heart and try to make him worry about food and clothing. You can't even eat and wear, right? And then there's ...... I really want to go to college, but my parents won't let me go, so I have to give him the opportunity to study with peace of mind. ”

I reminisce about my past. In that home, I at least had no memory of being hungry. And in fact, it is not as shabby as he predicted, I have the impression that there has never been a lack of anything at home, and I can afford to hire a nanny. Even if it can't be said to be outstanding, it can be regarded as well-off.

In this way, I am not satisfied. However, I am such a greedy person and still want more from them. I hope they tell me what they want me to be, and expect them to expect something from me.

"Wouldn't you be a good father?" I say.

"Really? But I'm sure I still don't like kids. He said, "I guess I don't even want to talk, I don't want to see it, and if the child has something to look for me, I must be far away." ”

"Why?" I asked.

"Because children are really troublesome. I've been a kid myself, so I'm well aware. And I don't know anything other than scolding. What kind of love and guidance sounds very beautiful, but how to practice it? He said, "Anyway, I have never seen anyone around me who thrives into a good child under the wise love and guidance of their parents, which shows that it is really difficult to reach the sky." ”

"So, you're afraid you'll beat and scold him?" I asked.

"Sort of. I grew up being beaten and scolded by my parents, so I know that scolding really works. But I also know that it's definitely not a good thing, and I hate them to this day. Whatever you say is for my good and for my good, in fact, it is all for your own satisfaction. And they are always self-righteously dictating my life, knowing that they can't arrange their own lives......" he sighed and shook his head, and continued, "In short, that kid can do whatever he wants, and I will not beat or abuse him, let alone try to dictate his future." Leave it all up to him. ”

Whether the words Li Yan said at this time were the motive for my future father to treat me coldly, I have no way of knowing. Perhaps after a series of experiences, my father also changed his mind, although his behavior is still in line with Li Yan's concept, but in fact, he has another way of thinking. After all, Li Yan in front of him has not yet married and had children, and after he really gets married and has children, he may find that things are completely different from what he imagined.

However, I accepted it as an answer, but I didn't know how to digest it for a while.

And things didn't turn out that much time for me.

Just when I was still having mixed tastes, the voice of the blue bird came from the Bluetooth headset, "Li Duo!" We've observed a mainstay-level spiritual fluctuation reaction approaching you at high speed! ”

I immediately broke free from my complicated state of mind, and just half a second after her words fell, I felt a vigorous and fiery evil spiritual fluctuation from the right rear of the direction of my own and the others.

Almost at the same time, Joan, who was at the front, looked back sharply.

"Qiao An, take Li Yan, run!" I warn immediately.

And the blue bird's voice in my ear tensed, "This reaction...... It's Wei Chi! ”

With a bang, the walls of the street were smashed into pieces like an explosion, and a three-meter-tall blood-red armor rushed out of the smoke. This is obviously the battle armor that Yu Chi used to make out of his own blood as described to me by the blue bird.

Wei Chi is really in this dream!

He must have appeared here to prevent us from taking Li Yan away.

As soon as he appeared, he turned the right arm of his armor into a huge blade and slashed at me with a slash on his head and face, and at the same time let out a roar, "Majin Li Duo! ”

I instantly summoned the Siren Blade to block the blow in time, but the shock and sound waves from the violent collision of the two weapons directly swept Joan and Li Yan to the ground, and deaf them on the spot. Wei Chi pressed all his weight on my weapon, trying to overwhelm me with brute force. I felt like a mountain was holding me down.

Qiao An crawled to her feet and tried to escape with Li Yan, while the latter muttered to herself in pain and dizziness, "Li Duo? Isn't it called Rensai......"

Suddenly, Wei Chi glanced at Qiao An. He seemed to think for a moment, then raised his other hand and pointed at Qiao An and Li Yan.

Although I couldn't look back, I sensed the scene behind me with my awareness: at the same time that Wei Chi pointed at them, Qiao An immediately took out the talisman to defend against blood spells from his arms, but instead of using it on his own body, he quickly attached it to Li Yan's body. In the next instant, the blood in the bodies of the two of them rioted at the same time, and it couldn't stop surging out of the seven orifices.

This is Wei Chi's blood spell!

Qiao An has a strong inner spirituality, and Li Yan has a talisman to defend against blood spells, so Wei Chi can't kill them instantly. But if it lasts for a second or two at most, Li Yan will die; In a few seconds, Joan will also die.

Li Yan is the core of this mission, and must be brought out of the dream as soon as possible; And Joan may not be able to resurrect in a dream like Li Yan. None of them can die here, and I must move the arena immediately.

Taking advantage of the slight distraction of Wei Chi's attention, I suddenly burst out with all my strength and slammed the three-meter-high huge armor in front of me into the air like a lead ball.

"Run!" I dropped the sentence and sprinted in the direction where Wei Chi had been knocked away.

I hadn't been far off when I saw him lunging towards me with a noticeably quicker movement than I did. At this moment, he was no longer the same as before, and the huge armor he wore on his body had become deformed and twisted, and even had a texture like flesh and blood. It's not so much armor as a living demon.