After a while, the blue bird spoke, "If the truth is that I didn't implant a malignant factor into your healing dream, then it means that the situation in which the demon in the dream is stronger than you represents your natural psychology, which means that your nature is evil...... Are you trying to say that? ”

"Isn't that so?" I asked rhetorically.

"You're so stupid, Li Duo." She said softly, "If you are really a real villain, why should I lie to you? At the time, it seemed to me that although you were my crush for five years, it was our crush when we were children. Now that we have all grown up, we have all walked different paths in life, and we are no strangers to each other. Do you think I'll stand by your side when I find out you're a wicked person? ”

"There may be other reasons. For example, you think that although I am a wicked person now, if I hadn't had what happened five years ago, maybe I would have been on a normal trajectory in life. And then you lied to me on impulse out of guilt......" I said.

"Do you think that what I have for you now is not love, but just guilt?" She asked.

I looked into her open, hot eyes, and couldn't say "yes" anyway. That's right, the bluebird loves me. So that's all my thoughts. However, I still can't believe that I'm not evil. You can't believe it.

And it's not like I'm completely out of the question. For example, although Lieq said that he had found traces of intervention in the healing dream through the device, it was not necessarily the traces of the malignant factor implanted by the blue bird, and it could also be the traces left by the siren when he hacked into the healing dream when he first hacked; For example, if I had been brainwashed by the power of "it", then the brainwashing I had received would have been lifted with the death of "it", although Liewan explained reality with the reason that "the effect of that charm was so powerful that even its death could not be completely eliminated", or even "it could charm others even if only the remains remained", it was nothing more than speculation without evidence.

Is that view really more persuasive than if I was a psychopath that even an authoritative psychological test could not detect? Maybe the reason why I have a dirty desire for a demon girl like biting blood is because I'm such a psychopath.

Maybe I've been relaxed lately, and even the warlocks from the Liucheng Security Bureau have gradually softened their gaze at me, so I unconsciously let my guard down. I may really just be a victim of brainwashing—and while I've repeatedly stressed to myself that this view is unacceptable, I may have unconsciously accepted it. So much so that he became more and more carried away, immersed in the despicable fantasy that he thought he could become a hero if he couldn't do it.

"You're always punishing your own heart." Blue Bird said softly, "From joining the Security Bureau to now, you have come all the way and have saved so many people, aren't these things enough to prove the kindness and bravery in your heart?" ”

"The ......truth," I said, "what is the truth?" ”

The presence or absence of malignant factors. As long as I figure this out, I can touch my own truth.

"Haven't you found out yet? You're not actually looking for the truth, you just want a reason, a reason to deny yourself entirely. So, even if I tell you the good truth, that you are really a kind person, you will not be able to accept it. Because you only pursue the bad truth. She took me in her warm arms and stroked my hair slowly, "Stop thinking about all those things that catch the wind and shadows, or, if you really can't believe yourself, then trust me." And I believe in you so much, so don't doubt yourself anymore, okay? ”

I can't respond. Because I am also aware of my own contradictions. In any case, Blue Bird would insist that the malignant factor existed, but even if it was her truth, I couldn't believe it. Because she loved me so much, anything she said in favor of me seemed to be partial.

She alone holds the key to the truth, and whether the truth is good or bad, she will never be able to put the key in my hands.

On this path of self-search, it seems that I will only accept the worst truth. Either continue to be lost, or prove yourself to be an evil person. I am undoubtedly on a path of psychological suicide. And she may have seen that from the beginning, and she wanted to pull me back from this dark track. However, I couldn't forgive myself. I'm sure I'll run wildly along this dark track without looking back until I fall into the deepest depths of hell.

The bluebird gently caressed me as if it were weaving a sweet dream. What a warm, illusory dream, I was so confused that I just wanted to indulge in it. She silently stroked my hair with a smile, whispered in my ear in a gentle voice, and hugged my body tightly.

But somewhere in my heart, I was praying for her to revive me. Because, it was in order to accept my true self that I rejected her in the past and chose to wake up from a healing dream, but now I find myself still in the beautiful dream that she has carefully prepared for me. Or is it actually her who dreamed?

Or am I having a nightmare that I'm an evil person, and that I'm trapped in a nightmare, as she puts it?

Dreams wake up.

But from which dream should I wake up from? ——

Unable to get a convincing answer from the bluebird, I was once again caught in a whirlpool of contradictions. And no matter how much my mind struggles, time will not stop for me.

More than half a month has passed since the mass sleepiness incident in Liucheng, and the date has entered late December. A few more things happened during this time, and here are some of them explained.

First of all, the Tianhe City Security Bureau has recovered the bodies of Sabertooth and others, and also confirmed the remains of Wei Chi, but did not find the "wooden box" at the scene.

The wooden box mentioned here refers to the one that Wei Chi used when he tried to separate the ashes from Qiao An's body. Although his attempt failed, the wooden box absorbed some of the mist that made up Ash's body. If there is no accident, the wooden box was probably taken away by bitten blood.

I also investigated information related to the eve and the bite of the blood in Wei Chi's memory, but unfortunately it was not many days before Wei Chi joined the night, and he was not able to touch the secret information of the night before, and he did not have any clues related to the next whereabouts of the bite blood. Although I was curious about where the fanatics were going to do next, Wei Chi didn't know anything about this either.

As for the information related to Wei Chi's family, let alone it, because he has been away from Wei Chi's family for too long, and what I got is part of his spirit fragments, which only have memories close to the present, so I can't find much new information in them. It seems that these memories are really not very useful.

Joan, on the other hand, returned to his normal school life after the removal of the succubus, and of course, he was also audited by the Security Bureau for him and Ash. After determining that the demon Ash was indeed completely obedient to his command, he was registered as a special séance by the Security Service.

It is worth mentioning that the doppelganger "Little Joan" made by Joan at the beginning did not disappear even after he lifted the succubus, and he was able to continue to remotely control Joan Xiao Joan with his own consciousness.

The Security Bureau must not be able to ignore the clone of Xiao Qiao'an's succubus form, and at first it seemed that it was necessary to leave it to me, a person who is not affected by the power of charm, to be supervised as before, but then it was isolated inside the Security Bureau. Because Qiao An made irreplaceable contributions to the collective sleep incident, as part of the reward, Lieq opened most of the secret knowledge of the Liucheng Security Bureau to him, and chose Xiao Qiao'an's "isolation place" in the library of the Security Bureau, nominally as a librarian.

Now Joan has adapted and trained to restrain the charm of the clone on his own, so the isolation conditions of the clone are also relaxed. He can remotely control little Joan while going to school, and learn all kinds of secret knowledge in the security bureau.

Joe Licorice didn't want to mention how happy she was when she found out about it, and in popular parlance, her happy appearance made people want to "call the police". But every time she went to the library to look for little Joan, the latter would go into hiding. When Joan talked to me about it, she said worriedly that he was worried that his sister would "not like her" if she had more contact with little Joan.

I haven't punctured his beautiful illusions about his sister for the time being.

In addition, I have seen the gray ash who is inseparable from him several times. The strange thing is that Ash reacts violently every time he sees me, although he is already afraid of life, but when he sees me, his reaction is beyond fear of life, it is more like being frightened to the point of being gone. Maybe it's because I've killed the succubus and the demon of fog that were its predecessors.

It didn't ease until JoAnn gave me something.

It was a red amulet, and according to him, he used little Joan to explore more techniques that the succubus had learned during his lifetime, including a method of integrating the power of charm into the amulet. He manipulated little Joan to make the talisman according to this method.

"In other words, this amulet allows me to charm others?" I looked at the amulet in his hand.

"No, although this amulet is based on the power of charm, its main function is to make it easy for others to open up to the wearer, increase the sense of trust, and unconsciously pour out the truth." He explained, "After infusing the amulet with spirituality, the effect will continue to intensify, and additional effects will appear. For example, the phrase 'make the other person open up' means 'breaking down the other person's psychological defenses', so this amulet can actually make the other person easily submit. And based on this effect, even if you make some unreasonable demands, it will be difficult for the other party to resist your words, and it will be easier to follow your instructions. ”

He adds, "I call it the 'quick talk' amulet. ”

"Doesn't sound like a serious talisman." I first said my own evaluation, and then looked at him, "It didn't take long for you to learn secret knowledge before you were able to make this kind of talisman......"

"It's also thanks to Ash." He said as he gave way slightly. Ash hid right behind him, looking at me in horror like a victim in a horror movie hiding behind a bunker and spying on monsters.

Joan continued, "The raw material for this amulet is the mist that makes up the gray body. ”

When I heard this, I couldn't help but be surprised. Some time ago, Ash was removed by Wei Chi during the separation ceremony, and it was only after a few days that he finally recovered. I didn't expect Joan to use it when making talismans, and I couldn't figure out what the intention was for a while.

But when I took the amulet, Ash was somewhat relieved. I keenly captured the emotion of the moment in it. It seems to feel that it has "bribed" me, or rather, paid me tribute. So it's no longer the same as before, when I see me, I'm scared of the six gods.

No wonder Joan gave me this amulet...... Although I had a bit of a complicated mind, I still accepted it.

Before leaving, Qiao An asked with concern, "Is Uncle okay now?" ”

"It's back to normal." I replied. He asked Li Yan, my father.

Although I answered Joan in this way, I only heard about my father's situation from the Security Bureau. After the mass slumber event ended, I didn't go to see my parents again. It would take some psychological construction to muster up the courage to meet them again, and the blue bird also understood me and did not urge me again.

They've probably gone back to their original lives. Most of my father remembered the adventures in the collective dream, but he was an ordinary person without advanced awareness, and that bizarre experience would quickly marginalize him in his inner world regardless of his will. After a while, maybe he would begin to doubt his impression of the experience, thinking that it was really just an ethereal dream. As long as no one mentions it to him, and he doesn't encounter relevant clues in his life, he has difficulty even remembering it.

So he won't come to me on his own initiative. For this, I felt a faint sense of happiness and a deep loneliness.

In order to keep myself from feeling sad, I focused on other things, such as practicing runes.

Now that I'm proficient in the "Ignite the Flame" rune, as long as I concentrate on drawing it, I won't fail again. As for how effective it is, it can only be said that it is quite reluctant to say that it can be used in battle. Although a very spectacular flame can be ignited as long as the number of runes carved and the amount of spirituality infused are enough, it is nothing more than a superficial firework, which is not worth mentioning in terms of the density of power, and in battle, you can't expect your opponent to wait for you to carve the runes. For a while, I could think of things like "it's convenient to light a fire when camping."

But the subsequent development is beyond the normal track.

Sirens have also learned the "Ignite the Flame" rune.

(End of chapter)