I've never considered myself someone who is innocent.

When Sabertooth asked me for his life for the second time, if it weren't for the fear that the bluebird and the siren would be implicated, I would probably have given my life as if it were the first time. And at this moment, Jo Licorice seems to have given up for the time being to persuade me on whether I am a bad person or not, but has retreated to trying to make me feel at least not a damn person by other means. I can understand her words and intentions. As much as I knew, I couldn't find a way to win against her head-on.

However, I still feel that there is something wrong with her words. What's the problem, for example, that human life shouldn't be measured by numbers? That alone doesn't seem like enough, but I can't find any more convincing arguments for a while. I thought, maybe I was caught up in her point of view; Or rather, it was my inner meanness that unconsciously wanted to climb up according to her words. That's why I can't argue with her here.

"For the relatives and friends of the people I killed, no matter how many people I have saved from afar, I can't compare to the important people with whom I spend their days and nights." In the end, I could only avoid her words a little bit, and respond to her from a less positive point of view.

And this is not empty words. In fact, that's why Sabertooth can't forgive me. Even if I join the camp of the righteous path, I can't change it, no, maybe in his opinion, because of this, it is even more bad. And although it is not appropriate to use evil tricks as an example, I did think about the experience of evil tricks at this time.

For the victims, if there is anything more evil than "worsening the harm", it may be that the perpetrator has reformed his evil ways.

My shame against my sins is true, but is it true that the desires that have prompted me to commit sins in the past are false?

"Do you remember Xiaojing's parents' gratitude to you for saving Xiaojing?" Joe Licorice asked.

"Of course." I replied.

"You also once gave your life to save me from the hands of the old bones, do you remember this?" She asked again.

"Yes." I recall the memories of being at a loss in the face of her thanks, and being teased by the blue bird with a smile.

"The relatives and friends of those who were killed in the past must still be cursing you from afar." "But is it only the curse that is real, and the gratitude false?" she said. ”

I felt like I had penetrated into her heart, and I couldn't even see what I was thinking, and I didn't know how to respond, "How is this...... How can this be the same. And no matter how much I try to save others in the future, the past will not be resurrected. In this world, there are doomed and irreparable faults. ”

Suddenly, she stood up, walked up to me, who was seated, and looked at me condescendingly. I thought she was about to say something that tried to invade my heart, and I even felt a little nervous. She was so eloquent and seductive, and I was worried that I would really be swayed by her words. She must have had a lot of ideas in her heart, and she knew how to wrap them in a form that I couldn't refute, and I was speechless.

But in the end, she didn't pour out the words as I expected, but just gently put her arms around my head and slowly touched my hair. I was taken aback, but there was nothing sensational about her action, and it even made me subconsciously think that if I had a sister, maybe it would be like this. Now it's like she's really become my sister.

"However, I still hope that you and the blue bird can be happy, and I hope you can usher in a good ending like a dream." She said slowly, "It's not 'should or shouldn't', I want you to be happy from the bottom of my heart." Only the bluebird can bring you true happiness, and only you can make the bluebird happy. ”

"I ......" I was speechless again.

"This is neither a reason nor a debate. This is my wish. She let go of my head, held out her finger again, and gently tapped my head, a smile on her face, "So, be happy, Lido." Then bring your happiness to the blue bird. ”

——

Joe Licorice's words lingered in my mind.

Can I really do it to make Bluebird happy?

Of course, it's not a question of whether you can do it or not. Even if I don't say it, I know very well that this is something I have to do anyway. It's just that when it comes to the specific direction, I only have entanglements. Whether it's a question of my own good or evil, or a question of how to make the blue bird happy, I always do that. It seems that what I have said to myself in the past has become a prophecy, and the strong entanglement is like a punishment at all times, and it is like a shadow of the rest of my life.

I thought, I must be sorry for the blue bird.

It was like this from the beginning, when she was lost in the mountains in the past, I just had to wait honestly, but I had to do superfluous things and involve me and her in a world of pain.

Now, too, after the joy of turning the clouds and rain every night, I can capture the strong loneliness hidden in her close embrace with her.

Because I could not give the right feedback to her flesh, she seemed to feel the intense pleasure of the flesh and the despair of the spirit to the point of shouting at the wall in vain. Even if a voice comes back, it is nothing more than an echo of loneliness. Sometimes I want to act and make her think I'm having a good time, but she's too perceptive, and my poor acting skills only make her more sad.

Because of the radical physical modification on a biological level, I couldn't even give her a child. When I die in the near future, she will be alone. What should I do?

Even if I find a way to prolong my life in the future, should I accept it shamelessly? Or is it like Joe Licorice said, it's not really a question of whether you should or shouldn't want it, but whether you want it or not?

I slept a little, but not to rest, but to examine the memories of the demon sorcerers in my dreams to see if there were any clues that could help break through the fog or defeat the fanatics. Unfortunately, that kind of clue is not something that can be found casually. I had to wake up from my dream and walk out of my room, trying to go to the window of the corridor on the second floor and see the scenery outside.

There is no difference between day and night, and until now it is still daytime, and the ruins of the city shrouded in a gloomy mist can be seen through the windows. In front of the window, there was already a first comer, a girl in a thin white dress who looked weak. Even though she had her back to me, I recognized her as Xiaojing.

I didn't hide my footsteps, she looked back alertly. Seeing that it was me, she relaxed and said hello unskillfully, "Li Duo." ”

I noticed that her face looked tired, even visibly melancholy, not like the happy girl who had finally been reunited with her parents. Is it what's going on? I tried to ask her to see if there was anything I could do.

I don't know if the effect of the "Quick Talk" amulet is still there, but she is more comfortable with me, or if she also wants someone who can consult her troubles. In a few words, she spoke her troubles.

"Dad saved thousands of people here, and everybody said he was a great man, and that's what I thought. For the people of this refuge, he is like a savior. She said.

"That's true." I also agree with Mingyi's merits.

"However, I used to think that he was an alcoholic gambler, and a rotten father who lived up to his family's expectations." She said, "Even my mother thinks he's a husband who brings danger to the family and works in a way that he doesn't know."

"You can't help it if you think so, it's force majeure." I say.

"Yes, force majeure. So......" she turned her head and looked straight at me, "after we get out of the fog, my mother and I will go back to the same life as before, forget everything that happened here, and treat my dad like a rotten person again, right?" ”

I was tempted to tell her that it wasn't going to be like that, but unfortunately, she guessed it that she was right.

The reason why she is able to correctly understand so many unfamiliar situations now is because she is in the present tense of a hidden event. Just as living beings show a stress response when their lives are in danger, even people without advanced awareness can continue to recognize the secret until they return to the normal world, which can also be regarded as a kind of survival instinct.

On the other hand, once she is out of this environment full of extraordinary knowledge, her consciousness will inevitably return to the form of common sense.

If there's anything wrong, it's that after the incident is over, although she won't be able to recognize the secret, she won't really continue to treat Mingyi as a bad gambler. Because secret memories are not really forgotten, they are just precipitated in the unconscious. So she will unconsciously understand that her father is a powerful character.

However, that perception can also deteriorate over time.

After returning to the normal world, Narushiroshi will continue to work in what their mother and daughter do not know about what they call dangerous, and they are destined to be deprived of the world in which Naru lives. It's as if the two sides are intersecting lines, but they just intersect at a certain point, and then they only get farther and farther apart from each other.

Mingyi was not an ordinary person from the beginning, he had a high level of awareness, so he could become a part of the hidden world after encountering a secret event, and for their mother and daughter, encountering a secret event, and even meeting Mingyi, was just a discordant accident in life.

After a long time, the memories of "thinking that Mingyi is a dangerous man who doesn't know the so-called" have precipitated a lot, and sooner or later they will see Mingyi as a dangerous man who doesn't know the so-called danger.

In the common sense of secular society, the term "yin and yang" means that the living and the dead cannot be contacted. However, in the tradition of the sorcerers, secrecy represents the feminine side of nature, and the separation of yin and yang means that the inhabitants of the secluded world are destined to be separated from the people of secular society.

I could only tell Xiaojing what I knew, and she showed a sad expression, looked at the scenery outside the window, and didn't speak for a long time.

——

Naruyoshi approached me, and he said that he was going out to collect supplies and asked for my help.

He had been out collecting supplies, but unfortunately he ran into us halfway through, so he had to interrupt what he was doing to take us to the shelter. But the work still has to be done, and he has no intention of being lazy because of this. It's just that his strength can't be said to be strong even if it's a compliment, and there are often dangers in the process of collecting supplies, but with my help, the action will become fast and safe.

I have no intention of eating rice in the shelter either. I also told him before that I would try my best to help with any trouble in the shelter, although I was a little worried about whether there would be a problem with Qiao Licorice left alone in the shelter, but I couldn't break my promise on this little trouble. After repeatedly discussing with Qiao Licorice how to deal with the safety hazards, I set off with Naruyoshi.

As he walked in front, Naruyoshi mentioned to me that the need for food and water in the shelter was not so urgent, and that they had enough supplies to survive in the shelter for more than twenty days. It's just that it's always bad to sit on a mountain and eat empty, and the purpose of going out is not only to collect supplies, but also to search for and rescue survivors.

The Vault's perception of new people joining is not so positive, after all, having one more person is having one more mouth to eat. There is no need to expand the number of people and forces, and if the Vault is invaded by demons, or if some demon warlock defeats Naruyoshi, there will be no decisive difference between the number of people in the Vault being 1,000 and 10,000.

Half an hour later, we came to an empty street. After a brief inspection, there don't seem to be many demons moving in this area, probably because there are no prey here. Naruto lent me his model of the container he used to store supplies, and took another storage prop to temporarily separate activities with me to collect supplies. Soon, I found a convenience store and was ready to start here.

And at this moment, the strongest and fiercest crisis that I have been in since my debut as a law enforcement warlock broke out.

Before I could enter the store, I suddenly felt a huge, if not unprecedented, sense of danger in my heart. Out of the dimly lit shop, a swarm of bats burst out like droplets of ink, and the situation was so sudden that I didn't even have time to react. The bats drowned me like a tsunami, and when I summoned the Siren's Blade, the bats flew behind me.

As I turned my gaze, all the bats quickly converged in the middle of the road into a dark mass that could not be distinguished from each other, and formed a human-like silhouette. Then, the black of the substance slid off like ink from the glass, turning into a black dress, revealing deeper white hair, red eyes, and a girl's face with a magical charm.

"I've been waiting for you for a long time, Majin Li Duo."

Biting the blood showed a malicious smile.

(End of chapter)