I've imagined many times where people go when they die, and I'm sure this is a topic that many people have pondered. Will it be like sleeping forever, or will it go to heaven and hell, or like some people's pessimistic imagination, even if people die, their consciousness will not disappear, but they will no longer see or hear, and they will be lonely in the infinite darkness.

The end of the undead is even more tragic than that pessimistic imagination. It is not that there is no restriction on lifespan when you become an immortal, and the "shelf life" of the body still exists. It is only immortal, but there is no immortality. Once the end of life is reached, the body will still decay and eventually turn into a pile of dry bones. The soul, on the other hand, cannot be freed, and is left in the dry bones to endure endless despair and pain.

Even I am no exception. Within a year, my body will reach its limits. The great regenerative power could not save me, because my body was dying in a more fundamental realm.

Is that the end of my destiny? I still don't have a sense of reality and feel that something is wrong. Am I really an immortal?

At the same time, I also remembered the conversation that Lieq had had with me. He must have known about my situation, so when I went to Tianhe City to bite blood, he said some very strange things to me:

- Maybe I'm asking this and you're feeling confused, assuming she really killed you, would you really die?

- You have never died, how do you know that you have lost your immortal body?

I couldn't understand why Lieq asked me like this, but now the truth is revealed.

Subsequently, many previous doubts were solved. Why did Hakuko, when he snatched "it" hand, say to me, "Your soul will never escape its spell, and what awaits you in the future will be never-ending loneliness and pain". Even fanatics expressed a similar attitude towards me at the end of the mass slumber in Liucheng, claiming to feel sorry for my fate.

A complex of magical emotions welled up in my mind.

"How could it be ......," the blue bird said at a loss.

I asked Lieq, "You knew about the existence of the undead from the beginning, but why didn't you tell me?" ”

"Even showing you the problem will not get a solution, it will only make you despair. Your life is already running out, and instead of making you desperate for the endless pain that is destined to come in your last days, you should be left to do what you want to do without knowing anything. That's what I thought before. He replied, "Of course, I am well aware that this is self-righteous thinking, and that it is wishful thinking that has been imposed on you. Perhaps I should tell you the truth, and it would be better for you to decide how you view your fate. So I hesitated all the time. ”

"What made you change your mind?" I asked.

"You're getting closer and closer to the white horse, so it's better for me to tell you than to be suddenly shocked by the truth from the enemy." He said, "If you hate me......"

"Why should I hate you? It's not me you polluted. I said, "And, I've thought a lot about it just now, and I really don't think I'm immortal." ”

"Why?" He asked, "Do you have any basis for that?" ”

"There is not much basis. Still, do you remember? You asked me before, why I was sure that I had lost my immortal body even though I had never died. I said, "My answer is simple: I can't be wrong about my own life and death." ”

Perhaps during the low period when I was recently acquitted and lost my siren blade, I may have misjudged many things due to my lack of awareness, but after I regained my strength, my awareness was restored to a level that I could trust me. Actually, I don't always trust my own awareness, but when it comes to life and death, I can make a clear and undoubted judgment - I will die if I am really killed.

So, perhaps the "pollution" of the undead was once really present in me, but now it must have receded; Or maybe it didn't exist in the first place.

By all indications, the truth should be the former, but why did the "pollution" recede out of thin air? According to the doctor, this must be an unsolvable problem that has not yet been developed to clear the problem, right?

Since "pollution" has a curse-like nature, could it be that the sirens have transferred it for me without saying a word? But the Siren's ability to awaken and transfer the curse came after the Fog of the White Sun event, and I've felt like I'm not immortal ever since I became able to summon the Siren Blade again during the Old Bone Event.

Hearing my words, the blue bird breathed a sigh of relief, and Lieq was still thinking, while the doctor asked, "Can you be 100% sure?" How could 'pollution' go away on its own......"

"I'm absolutely sure." I said, "I have a few more questions than that." Why does 'it' spread such pollution? Also, why did Hakuma research such a thing as an undead? ”

"The details of the Kraken remain a mystery to us." Lieku said, "As for the purpose of the white horse......

"Probably to develop immortality technology." The doctor replied dismissively, "Whether that's his real purpose or not, at least that's how he advertises it to the outside world." One by one, the foolish men who were looking for eternal life provided him and the eve with money and equipment, and even some corrupt elements in the Security Service were operating in the shadows. Didn't it be mentioned earlier that the troops tracking the White Pony had discovered the undead of Stage 2 and Stage 3 from his laboratory? Generally speaking, how could it be so easy to get something from the Grand Karcist's laboratory, it was clearly Bai Ju using alternative means to show his technical prospects and phased results to some people in the headquarters. ”

I glanced at the empty room behind the glass walls, "This can also be used to promote the effect?" ”

"At this stage, 'pollution' also has the side effect of degrading the body and mind of the infected, and the standard of the complete immortality technology should be to create an immortal like you in the Majin period." The Doctor said, "Besides, stupid people who pursue immortality technology are willing to eat as long as they need to, and they are not so easily deterred." ”

"Won't immortality through 'pollution' work?" Bluebird seemed to judge so based on the Doctor's contemptuous tone.

"No, it's a path that doesn't hold you clear yet, but it might work. However, most of the corrupt elements who funded the eve of becoming immortal did not think clearly about what eternal life was, and only pursued eternal life out of fear of death. The doctor said, "They must have thought carefully about their lives after becoming eternals." First of all, if relatives and friends fail to live forever, they will definitely die before themselves, even countries will perish before themselves, and even civilizations will be destroyed before themselves. Then they will make new relationships, join new nations, and witness new civilizations...... For such a future, eighty percent of them think like this: although this kind of eternal life is a little lonely, but since they have become immortal, it is helpless, and maybe they will be happy in it at that time. ”

"Isn't that so?" I asked.

"Of course not. The rise and fall of nations? The rise and fall of civilizations? What kind of small pattern is not worth mentioning, and it deserves to be the subject of eternal life? The Doctor said contemptuously, "Eternal life achieved through 'pollution' is a truly eternal life that has been completely stripped of even the concept of 'extinction', and what such an eternal person must really face is the desperate evolution of the astronomical scale of the universe." When all the stars in the universe have gone out, all matter has decayed, and the universe itself has fallen into a heat death, or has entered into other final endings equivalent to heat death, such as a great tear or a great collapse...... Such a universe is already an apocalyptic hell that forbids no civilization and life, but for the universe itself, for the eternals, it is actually just lingering at the starting line. And what extends into the future is only endless monotonous darkness. ”

He continued: "Leaving aside the 'a little far' future, consider the 'little things that are about to happen' – in 'short' five billion years, our sun will become a red giant and swallow the Earth." If humanity is unable to develop an interstellar civilization, or simply perishes in the midst of infighting and resource depletion, will those immortals want to live in a red giant and take a bath? Or do they think that after the red giant turns into a white dwarf, they can use the same materials to develop space ships? ”

"You think eternal life is a curse?" I asked.

"'Eternal life' is a blessing, but 'eternal life' is not." "I wish I wanted to live without anything that would make me die, and vice versa," the doctor said. Whether it is forcibly embraced by death, or being turned away by death, it is essentially a manifestation of the inability to overcome death. And when the pain is so painful that you want to die, you can only be forced to live, but it is more painful than death. ”

I had no intention of commenting on his view of life and death, but as I listened to his words, something else suddenly occurred to me, "Wait...... That's weird. ”

"What's weird?" The doctor asked.

I looked at Leq, "You once said that 'it' as the source of 'pollution' has been killed. ”

"I know what you're trying to say. Since 'Pollution' has the power to transform people into immortals, is the Kraken as the source really dead - right? Lieqi said.

"Yes." I said, "I used to think that the reason 'it' was able to bring me immortality was because 'it' was constantly repairing my body that had been shattered in battle with its own power, and this active power could not be used in the event of 'it' own death." It's like even a doctor who is so skilled that he can revive even the dead, but he can't have the strength to revive himself after he dies. Therefore, it does not have the ...... of immortality itself."

"But 'pollution' still exists even when the Kraken dies, so maybe she didn't die at all, but continued to live with the power of pollution." Even if there was only that hand left, she might still be alive. ”

"You told me last time that even if 'it' is dead and only remains of wreckage, it can continue to maintain its charm for me to a certain extent." I looked at Lieq, "I don't believe in seduction, but the reason you said that at the time was because you knew that 'it' wasn't actually dead, so you came to such a strange conclusion, didn't you?" ”

Under my intently gaze, Lieque replied without thinking, "No, the Kraken is dead. ”

"Really?" I have a hard time accepting this answer.

"Have you ever seen a Siren's severed hand? Tell me, what was your impression when you saw that hand? Do you feel like it's a living thing? He asked rhetorically.

I remembered the pale severed hand. Is that alive? I asked myself in my heart - on the contrary, it was a dead thing that was so dead that I couldn't say anything. There is no breath conveyed in it.

"Besides, there is no need for me to deceive you now, am I deceiving you in this matter, and you will give up chasing that hand?" He said.

"No, it won't." I admit it.

"It's normal for you to suspect that the Kraken isn't dead. It would be too suspicious for something that is the source of immortal pollution to die casually. "When it first died, I had doubts about whether it was faking death, and I tested it in countless ways during the autopsy." And my conclusion remains the same, it's dead, dead. ”

Lieque has experienced decades of winds and waves in the hidden world, and he doesn't know how many bizarre and strange things he has seen, and he has also encountered immortal monsters, and he may have seen this kind of thing more than once in his opinion. And it is not surprising that a strange monster as incredible as "it" is not surprising even if it has an immortal body that is so powerful that it is impossible not to know such a simple truth.

And on this basis, Lieq is still able to assert categorically: it's dead.

It is self-evident how important this is.

What's more, even I, who used to be so closely connected to "it", could not give the slightest feeling that "it" could be alive.

"It" is really dead.

For a moment, I felt that my heart was full of complex and contradictory feelings. There is both disappointment and the opposite emotion.

"Now that you've seen it all, it's time to get out of here." "But before that, I want you to do a good medical examination here." Although you say that you are not immortal, and I want to believe you, it is better to check it out to be on the safe side. ”

"To be honest, we don't have a way to detect Stage 3 contamination here, but you, as a former immortal who may have been liberated from Stage 3 contamination, I'm very interested in your physical and spirit information." The doctor said as he turned his head to face Lieqing, "Then again, you are his superior, can you put him in our institute for a while?" ”

"I'll have to ask his opinion." Column said.

When I said that I would leave after my medical check-up, Dr. was disappointed, but he tried his best to keep me. And the blue bird plans to accompany me to complete the physical examination. I looked at the blue bird and thought about what I might find in my medical checkup, and I finally made up my mind.

I told me that I had less than a year left on my life.

(End of chapter)