The bluebird wants me to resurrect "it".

This may seem shocking, but for good reason.

She was always looking for a way to prolong my life, because I had less than a year left to live. But at the end of the day, why would my remaining life become so short? The permanent damage inflicted on me by fanatics using the power of the True Spirit is only secondary, and furthermore, only a trivial part of it. The real reason is that after losing the connection with "it", my modified special body can no longer receive the support from "it".

Just as a car can no longer start after running out of fuel, my body will lose power in the near future. There is no substitute for that fuel, and even if there is a 1 in 10,000 chance that an alternative fuel will be found, I don't know what form and along what route it should be delivered to what part of my body. It can't be said that pouring gasoline on the shell of the car or the driver's seat can be regarded as replenishing the energy of the car. I'm the same here.

And even with the above reasons, it is shocking enough that the blue bird would actually ask me to resurrect "it". Since Bluebird considers herself my lover and loves me from the bottom of her heart, it is self-evident to her how vicious and taboo "it" is. It's just that after experiencing the bite of blood, I can be regarded as having a certain degree of resistance to the "outrageous" blue bird, and I will not be surprised by this under the premise of expectation.

Yes, I had a forethought for that.

Actually, I shouldn't have let Bluebird know that it was possible to resurrect it, because I didn't want to prolong my life, let alone resurrect it with my own hands. To others, I am a demon whose mind has been manipulated by charm, and once "it" is resurrected, it means that I may fall again; And even in my own opinion, resurrecting "it" with my own hands has a huge negative connotation, which is equivalent to pushing me towards my "past self" with my own hands.

It's just that if it's just a matter of my own life, the problem is that Hakukoma also told me that if "it" is in a state of death for a long time, it will slowly realize its ghost identity, and eventually bring horrors to our world that are unimaginable in scale and form.

In other words, it is imperative to resurrect "it."

Then I have to release this extremely important information to the people around me who can be trusted, and it's not just my personal business. On top of that, it became almost impossible to hide the blue bird from the past alone. Blue Bird is a very sharp person, both a serious and main-level law enforcement warlock, and has an innate intuition as a super genius, she will definitely see the truth soon. Therefore, it is better to be honest now.

It is important to note that I still have no intention of resurrecting "it" in my lifetime.

According to the information provided by Hakuko, it can be as short as two years or as long as four years, and the binding force of "it" flesh on its essence will completely disintegrate. Originally, since it was information provided by the enemy, I shouldn't have believed it without hesitation, but this time corresponds to the life I have left after I disconnected from "it". I have a lot of assumptions about this coincidence, but even if I put those assumptions aside, the coincidence itself can be a testament to the credibility of the information. And since I now have less than a year to live due to the interference of fanatics, I can wait until I die and have someone else resurrect "it".

Actually, I have the desire to resurrect it with my own hands.

However, I was afraid that I would change back to my old self, and I was afraid of the self in my heart who was longing to resurrect "it" with my own hands.

What's more, if I'm with "it" again, what will the bluebird do?

So far, I have been running around so far to be able to die on the way to fight evil, wanting to accept the real punishment, and how can I accept this kind of thing like a "reward" with peace of mind?

"I'm not going to resurrect 'it' with my own hands." I said without hesitation, "Besides, the knowledge of resurrecting 'it' is in Hakuko's mind, and Hakukoma can't tell me everything." Even if I plan to obtain it through the ability to kill people and refine souls, I must have the strength to kill the white horse with my own hands. But even Lieku can't defeat Hakuko, let alone me? ”

"It's just your excuse. You just don't want to live. If you really want to live, you will think about the premise of 'defeating Hakukoma with your own hands no matter what', because even if you fail, the ending will not get worse, and you will usher in death. Blue Bird spoke to me in such a very direct tone, and she saw through my heart completely, "Instead of being afraid that you will not be able to defeat Hakukoma, on the contrary, you are more likely to be afraid that if you do defeat Hakukoma, you will gain the knowledge to resurrect 'it'." ”

Her words seemed to strip me of all my cloak so that I could only stand naked in front of her, and when she finished speaking, she looked at me and her tone weakened again, which made my heart shake even more, "Next year...... By next year, you'll be gone, and I'll never see you again, and I don't want that ......"

“…… Is it okay, then, to resurrect 'it'? I asked, "I'm really not brainwashed, but I must admit that my feelings for 'it' do seem to be brainwashed to the outside world." Therefore, after resurrecting it, I may betray you and hunt humans for it again, feeding it fresh human flesh as before. ”

"No, there's a way...... You can hunt human flesh for her, and you won't betray us. "Just eat the guilty condemned prisoners, and the demonic sorcerers who don't die a sorry death." Although the current Security Bureau does not explicitly allow this behavior, in order to prevent the Otherworldly Ghost from brewing a huge disaster due to its inability to imitate the eating of living beings, the Security Bureau will definitely grant permission, and at the same time, it will not violate the secret law. The teacher will definitely nod in agreement after understanding the inside story. ”

There is a degree of feasibility in her proposal. In fact, most of the psychology of me during the Majin period and the current me are the same, the difference is that I had the necessity to hunt humans for "it" during the Majin period, and the addiction to "it" itself is enough to overwhelm all ethics and conscience in my heart.

As long as both are resolved, then the resurrection of "its" will change me very little.

It's just that this solution only solves the former, but not the latter.

"This method only defuses the risk of me betraying 'you', but not the risk of me betraying you. After the resurrection of 'it', it is entirely possible that I will turn around and throw myself into the arms of 'it'. I asked, "I will not only give my body but also my soul, and from now on I will only want to dwell on 'it', and I will not want to think about anything but 'it' in my head, and even if you appear in front of me and 'it', I may not glance at you again...... In your opinion, is that also acceptable? ”

The blue bird may generously allow me to be physically united with the bite of blood, but she will not be so tolerant of my spiritual union with other members of the opposite sex.

Although she did something to force herself last time, in order for me to be able to self-accept, she tried to make me accept and bite blood. But she must also know very well that even if I really accept the bite of blood, the most important and unique thing in my heart is still the blue bird. This time it was completely different, and the most important and unique figure in my heart might change from a blue bird to "it".

Blue Bird's request of me at this time is equivalent to pushing my body and mind into the arms of other people of the opposite sex with his own hands.

Sure enough, the blue bird showed an expression of extreme struggle and pain.

However, after a while, she actually said, "I think...... Even that's fine. ”

Even if I had been mentally prepared, her words hit me like a lightning strike. I couldn't help but be speechless, and then said, "To you, what the hell am I ......"

"It's not like that." She interrupted me and said, "I love you from the bottom of my heart, and I don't want to push you into the arms of other women, but everything has a priority." I would never say that even if I watched you die, I didn't want you to be snatched away by other women; On the contrary, even if you are temporarily snatched away by other women, I want you to live first. Because only living is the premise of all happiness. Then, I'm going to snatch you this time. ”

"This time?" I asked.

"I used to think that as long as she died, you would be completely liberated, and when I confessed to you, I also thought that I could slowly get all your heart...... But I was wrong, even if she died, she would still dominate you, and I couldn't get rid of her. Or rather, because she's dead, I can't defeat her no matter what. She said, "So this time, I'm going to snatch you back from her who is still alive." ”

At first, I couldn't understand what she had thought about to give that kind of reply, but now even I could understand it. If I had reversed my position, I might have the same way of thinking as the blue bird.

But that doesn't mean I'll agree.

"You said before that if I die on the way to fight evil, you can accept it." I say.

Those were the words she had said the day after she knew I had paid for my saber tooth. As long as she said it, I remember it clearly.

"I said that. But I don't think it's right for you to do what you're doing now. She said.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Even if it is death, I want you to die to fight evil. Because that's happiness for you, I'll try to convince myself that I'm proud of you. After all, as long as you walk on this dangerous road, even if you extend your life to a hundred years, you may die next year because of a strong enemy. This cannot be changed even if you become very strong now, no one who is always on the battlefield can protect their lives, and death will come to everyone equally. "But dying to fight evil is not the same as fighting evil to die." I want to at least change your mind, and less than a year is too short......"

"Assuming that I really have the means to defeat the White Pony and gain the knowledge of the resurrection, Levus will not agree to me resurrecting it, but on the contrary, he is more likely to ask me to copy the knowledge out of my mind and resurrect it after I die. That would be the safest option to avoid the risk of my rebellion. I said.

"No, a teacher wouldn't do that. Because in the last five years, the Kraken has never been polluted around you. Didn't Hakuma tell you that even if she was given human flesh on a regular basis, she would pollute her surroundings from time to time, but she never did that when she was around you. Hakukoma thinks it's because you're feeding her human flesh while breeding with her day and night, immersing her in the experience of mimicking creatures - but who can guarantee that Hakukoma's assumptions are correct? Perhaps you have exhibited other traits that make her quiet, so your presence will be necessary when she is resurrected. "And she also has a kaleidoscopic nature, in front of you in the form of a weak opposite sex, in front of the white horse in the form of a huge monster, no one can guarantee how she will appear after the next resurrection, and what kind of creatures will imitate the habits of the creatures." But if it's up to you to resurrect herself, it's entirely possible that she'll present herself in the same way she would be with you. ”

She conclusively concluded, "In any case, the resurrection of the Kraken is imperative, and your own existence is indispensable. ”

"No...... In fact, there is no need for a resurrection. "A method gradually came to my mind, and the source of this method was the move used when I was biting blood and plotting the dawn.

She looked at me strangely, "But if you don't resurrect her, the real her will be liberated......"

"Then let 'it' free." I said, "It's just that it's to be liberated in a different place." ”

"Change places......" Bluebird was puzzled.

"Why can't we launch 'it' into outer space with a rocket?" I say.

Hearing this, she was stunned, Rao is definitely not that she imagined that there was such a method.

Since biting blood can send dawn into outer space with spatial transfer, trying to make it never return, we can use the same method for "it".

The thought of using this method against "it" makes me feel resistant from the bottom of my heart. On the other hand, it seems to be a real way to go, and if successful, it could eradicate the threat posed to the planet by otherworldly ghosts once and for all.

"So...... What about the sirens? After a moment of silence, the blue bird finally asked the most deadly question in the literal sense, "What will happen to that child if you die?" ”

(End of chapter)