Seeing Changsheng constantly crying, Xue Jin felt a little uncomfortable in his heart, but he didn't hesitate at the slightest when he held the long knife.

After thinking about it, Xue Jin spoke softly.

"Ugly, you should know that when a person really wants to die, no one in this world can stop it. The river has no lid, no quilt on the wall, no scissors that are not bladed. I've tried so many times before and I didn't die, just because a mortal sword can't kill a monk. But now that I'm determined to die, do you want to see me try all kinds of ways to die every day? ”

"No, I don't want to!"

Changsheng doesn't want to watch Xuejin commit suicide, even if he doesn't die, but it will hurt a lot. She didn't want Xuejin to die, and she didn't want Xuejin to hurt.

It's just that Xuejin didn't promise to be good before, why is he suddenly so determined to die now? What's going on?

Xue Jin looked at Changsheng, his expression was unprecedentedly gentle, his eyes were sad, but there was a smile that was finally relieved.

"Ugly, you should be happy for me. I can finally be free. I'm sorry, I lied to you before, and it's true that I want to live well with you, but at this moment, my heart to leave is also real. ”

"You know, it's a gift to me to be out of this world. Maybe in ten or twenty years, I will be able to survive in a different way and appear in front of you. When that time comes, we'll continue to be friends. Don't worry, when that time comes, I will never speak to you as loudly as I do now, and I won't yell at you anymore. ”

"When that time comes, shall we be friends again?"

Changsheng trembled her lips, she didn't want to say yes at all, but looking at Xue Jin, who had sad eyes on the other side, she couldn't refuse. She just didn't want to admit it.

"However, by that time, the person I had met was not you. The one I know, and I want to live with, is not Seokjin at that time, but you now. ”

Changsheng looked at Xue Jin on the other side, and couldn't help but speak.

Yes, what she wants to take care of, her friend, is just the current Xuejin. Even if he has a bad temper, even if he loses his temper from time to time, it's all complete Xuejin. That's what Seokjin does. She wants to get along well, and it's always been Xuejin.

Xue Jin's eyes were also red, and he looked at Changsheng with great reluctance. He knew the child's loneliness, and he knew that the child had been afraid of being alone. Her appearance may be a consolation for that child, a consolation that allows her to live a good life.

But, I'm sorry, ugly, I really can't hold on.

"I'm not as strong as you, I'm a coward, I don't dare to look at the past, I don't dare to look at the disappointed eyes of the old people, I even feel unbearable just thinking about my image in the eyes of the old people becoming low. I'm so cowardly......"

"I'm also very selfish, and I don't even dare to tell you about my plans openly. I just want the river to take my body away. I don't even want to think about what you're going to look like when you don't see me tomorrow morning. I'm not a good person. ”

"I'm really sorry, Changsheng, but you just let me go."

"But, we're just a little bit close. It's just a little bit closer, and everyone can live a good life......"

Xuejin's nose was sour for a moment, and she almost cried without ability.

When he was young, he was just a little close to being discovered by the orthodox sect and became a monk, and now, he is also just a little short of being able to let go of the past and start a new life.

"In my life, I've always been a little bit closer, maybe, this is my fate......"

Changsheng's age is too young, although she is a little more mature, but it is all a trick of fate, at this time begging for her only friend like this, I really don't know what to do. But the only thing she knows for sure is that Seokjin is not happy.

If he is forcibly allowed to live, Xuejin will not be happy for the rest of his life. She didn't know what to do, but after hesitating for a long time, she saw Xuejin's begging face, and her heart trembled.

She had always known what a proud person Xue Jin was, but Xue Jin, who was so arrogant, looked at her like this with a begging look. Does Seokjin need to beg for others? He just didn't want to make himself sad. He wants to be recognized by himself.

Because, they are friends.

And being able to be understood, this is probably what Seokjin has been pursuing.

Staring at Xue Jin opposite, Changsheng clenched his teeth, and seemed to be able to feel the bloody breath coming from his mouth. The bloody breath rushed to her head, almost making her vomit.

But Changsheng still held back. On a cold and windy night, Changsheng finally understands that what you think is good may not be approved by others. You can counsel a friend, but you can't force someone to change their will. In fact, sometimes, you just need to say "yes".

Even though, that's hard.

It was so difficult that Changsheng felt that the meat in his mouth was about to be bitten away. She had never felt a word so difficult to say, it was like a stone weighing a thousand pounds, pressing against the base of her tongue, making it difficult for her to even breathe.

But she finally spoke. Changsheng's ears were buzzing, and he heard his words that were extremely calm and steady.

"Okay."

She said yes. The moment this word blurted out, Changsheng thought that he was a dumb person, and how much he wanted to swallow this word back regardless of his face. It seems that as long as he does this, his only friend will not die. But she had already spoken it.

Words spoken are like water that cannot be taken back. Changsheng closed his eyes in pain, but tears came out of his trembling eyelids, and he couldn't wait to flow down.

Xue Jin took a rare look at the bubbling river under his feet, and the three or five scattered river lamps above the river.

"Originally, I wanted my corpse to float away, but since you're here, fulfill one of my last wishes. Ugly, when I die, you will burn me. I can't change what happened before I was alive, but after I die, I want to die a clean death, leaving no trace in this world. When I die, you can scatter my ashes in the river, let them drift in the wind, in short, don't bury me in the ground. To put it mildly, I'm actually a little afraid of the dark. ”

Xue Jin rarely said a joke, but Changsheng couldn't laugh at all, her eyelids trembled, and she didn't want to see the death of her only friend anyway.

Glancing at Ugly, Xue Jin took a light breath, he had been on the battlefield and killed the enemy, and he knew where the parts could make him die quickly in the shortest time. It's just that Changsheng is still watching here, he doesn't want Changsheng to see his miserable appearance of learning blood all over the place, after all, this kid still has to collect his own body. So Xuejin adjusted the position of the long knife, aimed it at his heart, and slammed it hard!

Just as the long knife was about to pierce the heart, Xue Jin heard the wailing of the long knife and its unwilling tremor in a trance. Of course, the most piercing thing was Changsheng's exclamation.

"Nope! I regret it! Don't-"

It's just that it's too late.

(End of chapter)