*This chapter is also known as "The Way of the Morning Message"

The crowd was still fighting against the shadows in the mirror under the bridge.

Xiao Yao's swordsmanship is obviously more proficient than a few days ago, and Yu Luying's freezing range is getting bigger and bigger, the two people cooperate, one slows down and controls the field, and the other attracts hatred and slashes monsters, which is an incomparable tacit understanding.

It's just that Yu Bo has never tapped into any potential, let alone an advanced spiritual fortress, and has been reduced to an oil bottle.

"It's good for anything, it's just missing the fireball."

On the way back, Xiao Yao thought so.

Don Quixote: I just finished practicing the level, and now I go to Yu Luying's house for lunch.

oO Shuhe Oo: It's almost 2 o'clock before you have lunch? Go to Yu Luying's house again?

Shen Jie usually doesn't reply to messages at this point, but today is abnormal.

Don Quixote: Well, her mother bought watermelon yesterday, and I promised to eat it today.

Don Quixote: I wanted to hide it from you, but then I felt that honesty is trust, and it is the basis for your peace of mind.

Don Quixote: I'll try to go as little as possible in the future.

oO Shuhe Oo:... OK

Yu Lihua is already preparing dishes at home and waiting.

Stir-fried eel, fried shrimp, three buttons, four happy roasted bran, plus a bowl of vegetable soup.

Of course, it can't compare to the luxury of the Shen Mansion's family banquet, but this is made by himself, and it takes a lot of thought.

"The dishes are too rich," Xiao Yao said not out of politeness, but from the bottom of his heart: "...... next time"

The boy wanted to say, "It's good to be simple next time", but after thinking about it, it seemed that he was going to come to be a diner every day in the future, so he quickly stopped the car again.

"Where is the abundance," Yu Lihua seemed to see through Xiao Yao's thoughts: "It's all simple home-cooked dishes, whether you come or not, I'll burn them the same, just more pairs of chopsticks and multiple bowls—right, Yingying?" ”

"Ah, yes." Yu Luying said busily.

Yingying, this kid, really can't lie, Xiao Yao thought.

"Eat more if you like." Yu Lihua saw that Xiao Yao had a soft spot for oil eel, and pinched a few big chopsticks for Xiao Yao.

"Hey, hey, hey," Xiao Yao hurriedly picked up the bowl: "Auntie, I'll come by myself, come by myself." ”

"Mom, you let the family come by themselves." Yu Luying showed a dissatisfied look on her face.

……

The second time he came to the door, he was much more relaxed than the first time, and with the hard work of leveling, Xiao Yao made three bowls of rice in a row and swept away the dishes on the table.

"Auntie's cooking is really delicious." Xiao Yao praised sincerely.

After the meal, Yu Lihua served the iced watermelon with a smile.

The sliced watermelon exudes a refreshing scent and makes people feel fresh and pleasant. Each slice of watermelon is so moist that you can't help but want to take a bite right away. They are bright and attractive in color, shining red like the summer sun, and each slice is evenly cut and the size is just the right size, making it delicious to look at.

The watermelon seeds on the cut surface made Xiao Yao see at a glance that this was Nanhui 8424, a local specialty watermelon. These small black particles are distributed in the bright red melon sacs, which look like black pearls.

Xiao Yao took a piece and handed it to Yu Luying, and then gave in to Yu Lihua Qian, and then picked a piece and took a bite.

……！！！

This chilled watermelon is really iced.

A chill went from his throat to his abdomen, and then spread to his whole body, making Xiao Yao shiver. The flesh of the watermelon was soft and juicy, very sweet, and the taste was so delicious and refreshing that he couldn't help but take another big bite.

The watermelon juice in his mouth overflowed, and the dopamine in the brain began to secrete, which gave Xiao Yao an "illusion" of overflowing happiness, coupled with Yu Lihua's kind smile, all of which made Xiao Yao feel a little "floating".

In the past, in his heart, Yu Lihua has always been a "nightmare", a strict and picky old aunt. But then again, most of the time, Yu Lihua actually doesn't have much direct contact with himself, so in the final analysis, he just pays attention to Yu Luying and the trouble that Yu Lihua brings to him.

But at this time, Yu Lihua gave him a long-lost sense of warmth, and her gentle love made Xiao Yao evoke warm memories buried deep in his brain, memories of his mother.

It was in this warm and affectionate atmosphere that Xiao Yao would twitch his brain and say the following sentence: "It's good to have a mother." ”

"This kid is strange and pitiful, and he will treat this side as his home in the future," Yu Lihua said gently: "It's okay to treat your aunt as a mother." ”

Xiao Yao was moved by Yu Lihua's words, and it took two seconds to realize that the situation was wrong, and his heart was shocked.

Just as she didn't know how to express her position, Yu Luying had already shouted: "Mom~~~ What are you talking nonsense!" ”

Xiao Yao was a little dizzy, and he almost wanted to agree.

It's a pity that a mother who is not related by blood and a daughter who is related by blood are placed on both sides of the scale, and as a responsible man, he can only choose his daughter.

Wait a minute.

Thinking of Shen Jie's kindness to herself and her dedication to herself, Xiao Yao couldn't help but scold herself in her heart.

"Auntie's kindness, I am very, very touched." In the end, Xiao Yao said this, his tone and expression were very sincere.

Yu Lihua narrowed her eyes and waited for Xiao Yao's "but", but Xiao Yao was silent and did not have a "but".

The atmosphere on the field was a little awkward for a while, and Yu Luying hurriedly interrupted: "Mom, Xiao Yao went to the catechism class this morning." ”

"Apo told me," Yu Lihua nodded, "I was about to ask you, how do you feel?" What did you learn? ”

Xiao Yao hurriedly replied: "I learned the Apostles' Creed. ”

"How does it feel?" Yu Lihua kindly repeated the question again.

"It feels good," Xiao Yao replied with some vigilance, "Father Yu speaks well, and it is good to have faith, and he can persuade people to be good." ”

"That's right." Yu Lihua's eyes became a little thoughtful, although the smile on her face was still the same, Xiao Yao just felt that she was starting to be unhappy.

"Mom," Yu Luying deliberately interjected, "Don't you have something to go out in the afternoon?" ”

Xiao Yao suddenly realized that what Yu Lihua cared about was obviously not whether her brother was getting well in class, but about her true attitude towards faith and the church.

As for why he cares, after learning about Yu Lihua's sympathetic past, Xiao Yao thinks it is self-evident.

"It's good to have faith, persuade people to be good" This kind of bullshit social compliment obviously does not satisfy the other party, and even inspires disgust; Hippie smiles and gags are difficult to fool, and once the woman in front of her is judged to be "untrustworthy", then even if she no longer changes her face and begins to oppose her daughter's relationship with herself, she will definitely not give herself such a comfortable good life.

In just ten seconds, Xiao Yao drew up a general strategic direction in his heart.

He was ready to face the magistrate.

"Chaowen said, you can die at night." Xiao Yao looked solemn and said in a deep voice.

"What?" Yu Lihua was stunned for a moment.

"As for me, I have been a person who likes to think crankily since I was a child," Xiao Yao said slowly while chewing the watermelon in his mouth, "I will think about some questions such as where I came from, where I am going, and the meaning of life." ”

"Hmm." Yu Lihua stood up and sat down again.

"I think about what the nature of self-consciousness is, who 'I' are, why I'm 'me', and so on." Xiao Yao pretended to be serious and said: "Thinking of this, I began to fall into confusion and suspicion. ”

Yu Luying glanced at herself, and stopped talking.

Seeing that Yu Lihua was listening attentively, Xiao Yao continued: "And among them, what I think about the most is what it feels like to be 'dead'.

"I asked my mom and dad, and they both told me that to die is to have nothing left, not to know anything. Anyone who can answer me what it feels like to be 'dead' can't answer me anymore.

"When I was a child, when I found out that I was going to die one day, I was so scared that I couldn't sleep well all night long—it was that kind of empty panic, and I don't know if you can understand that."

"People are inherently dead, and we are all ordinary people, so there is no need to be anxious." Yu Luying interjected.

"I imagined what it would be like after I died—the earth was still spinning, the sun was still rising and setting every day, the rivers were flowing, the waterfalls were flowing down 3,000 feet, the cities were bustling, people were going to and from factories and houses, everything was going on as usual, except that there was no 'me' in it. I can't imagine what it feels like, and every time I imagine this ......'feeling of not feeling', it only gives me a sense of panic in nothingness. ”

Yu's mother and daughter didn't interject again, both of them were listening quietly, except for Xiao Yao's voice in the room, only the "click" sound of the second hand of the wall clock was moving.

"So I don't know," Xiao Yao continued, "In the face of inevitable death, there is anything other than pleasure in such a life. ”

"You don't have to be so negative, right?" Yu Luying was worried that Xiao Yao's negative remarks would leave a bad impression on her mother, so she reminded euphemistically.

But Xiao Yao said to himself:

"I've been told that although we all die, we can have something to leave for future generations and future generations, so that we can not come here in vain and let our own spirit live forever.

"However, humanity itself will die one day, and the sun will one day flash helium and turn into a red giant, swallowing the entire solar system, leaving nothing behind.

"Even this universe itself, one day, will blueshift, collapse, die, and finally become a singularity.

"In Liu Cikang's 'Morning Story', Stephen Hawking finally asks the ultimate question: 'What is the purpose of the universe?' As a result, the alien representative himself couldn't answer, and said with a sad face, 'How do I know?'

"When I was in junior high school, I was obsessed with particle physics and chemistry, really, Auntie, don't look at me like this, when I was in my third year of junior high school, I once got the only perfect score in chemistry in the whole grade in a monthly exam.

"Atomic Physics, Quantum Mechanics, Chemistry, String Theory...... Whether I could understand these things or not, I gnawed on them so hard that I thought that with this knowledge I would be one step closer to the nature of the universe: and this feeling of seeking truth would make me feel at ease. ”

"I understand." Yu Lihua said softly.

"But in the end, I realized that the more I learned, the more I didn't understand. Not only myself, but we humans are still far from the theory of unification......

"Physics doesn't exist anymore," Xiao Yao recalled a fragment of "The Three-Body Problem" he had seen: "Physics never existed. ”

"Xiao Yao, what do you want to say?" Yu Luying asked puzzled.

"This morning's class opened the door to a new world for me, and to tell you the truth, I am still very excited." Xiao Yao suddenly said in a sincere and surging tone, which made even him believe it: "Do you know why? For it was said to me that death is not the end of everything, but only the beginning of a new life for eternity, because it was said to me that our life, our world, our universe, are meaningful in the Most High.

"We can find meaning in life.

"In the past, I just regarded these as feudal superstitions and disdained them. But now I can feel that this is another way to the truth," Xiao Yao said, "and this new way of looking at the world makes me very interested and comforted." ”

Xiao Yao saw Yu Lihua's face and showed a sincere smile: "Okay, very good." ”

OK, pass, play.

After Yu Lihua went out satisfied, Xiao Yao collapsed on the sofa exhausted.

Yu Luying stared at herself with a very strange gaze.

"What's the matter, silly girl?" Xiao Yao took his schoolbag and took out the volume: "Let's start studying, right?" ”

"Philosopher Xiao, what you said to my mother are true? Or fool her? Yu Luying stood in place and did not move: "You have to tell me the truth." ”

"To tell the truth," Xiao Yao opened the stationery box and pulled out the pen inside: "It's fooling her." ”

"Oh."

"Honestly, too."

“…… Oh? Yu Luying walked over slowly and sat down at the dining table.

"For me," Xiao Yao explained to Yu Luying, "since I saw such a huge shadow world, I am indeed re-establishing my understanding of the world. ”

"Hmm." Yu Luying said.

"For me," Xiao Yao looked into Yu Luying's eyes, "After seeing so many 'shadows' of the wrong path with my own eyes, I have never been so eager to believe in the existence of the 'light' of the righteous path. ”

"Hmm."

"Chaowen said, it is okay to die at night," Xiao Yao said, "I really think so." What I said to your mother, the fear of death, the longing for eternity, the confusion about the universe and existence, and the search for meaning, all of them were true. But for me, there are so many philosophies and so many theories in the world, and I am still too young and too little to read, and I am not sure for the time being, but your 'Tao' is the 'true Tao'. ”

"Why do you suddenly like to say 'for me' so much?" Yu Luying pursed her lips and smiled: "However, I understand what you mean." Let's learn. ”

"But, I'm willing to believe it." Xiao Yao looked at the girl's angel-like pure face, and suddenly his heart moved, and he blurted out: "I want to believe you." ”

"What?" Yu Luying was puzzled.

"There is a sentence in your scripture, which I also saw by accident, and I like it very much." Xiao Yao said.

"What?"

"Your nation is my nation; Your God is my God. Xiao Yao said.

"Ah......" Yu Luying seemed to be electrocuted, and sat still.

"Do you understand?" Xiao Yao smiled.

"W-what?" Yu Luying looked panicked.

"Yu Luying," Xiao Yao stretched out his hands, pressed them on her shoulders, and deliberately said in an affectionate tone, "Look at my eyes." Yu Luying, your nation is my nation; Your God is my God. ”

Yu Luying half stood up, leaned forward with her upper body, and came over with lightning speed, like a bird, pecking at Xiao Yao's face.

The chair under Xiao Yao's ass made a screeching sound of rubbing against the floor, and the boy covered his cheek and sat there as if he had been slapped in the face.

"What's the fuss?" Yu Luying sat back in her place and buried her face: "Even if physics doesn't exist, the physics exam will still be immortal - take out the paper for me!" ”

(End of chapter)