Matoya still clearly remembers seeing a scene in the countryside more than ten years ago, and it touched her deeply-

It was around the time she was a teenager when she and her father went to visit a relative's house in a farming area one year. When I passed by the village headquarters of that village, I happened to catch up with the poverty alleviation team of a unit in the city to go to the countryside to distribute poverty alleviation materials. Among the villagers who received poverty alleviation materials, there was such a couple who touched Toya's heart. The husband and wife were blind and his wife had a disabled leg, so the husband got on his bicycle and asked his wife to sit on the beam in front of the car, and the two cooperated and walked slowly. The wife is the husband's eyes, and the husband is the wife's legs - Toya has always remembered such a "husband and wife riding a bicycle" painted with love.

At that time, some people jokingly said, "These two people, that's a perfect match", behind the banter words expressed respect for the two of them. To be honest, the couple had a hard time, because a few donated clothes made their faces bloom and made them feel the satisfaction of being loved. Toya was sure at that time that the life of the two must be very harmonious, there must be few contradictions, and from this special riding style of the couple, you can feel the tacit understanding and mutual cherishment in the depths of the two people's hearts. Both husband and wife are over forty years old, and the wind and frost of the years have carved vicissitudes on their faces. Toya doesn't know if they have children or not, but it doesn't really matter at all, because the couple gives the impression that they are loving and happy, enough, and this is the greatest treasure in their lives.

Toya likes this kind of "little life", not because she is negative, not because she has that kind of narrow-mindedness that is a little rich, but because it reflects another pursuit of a quiet, peaceful, and indifferent life.

Yes, everyone has their own way of living, and everyone has their own pursuit. But everyone should not complain and complain in life, because a happy life needs to be created, not passively to enjoy and wait. Everyone has seen the life of being able to share hardships and hardships, and everyone has heard of the fact that they were burned so much that they couldn't find their wives in the north. Although it is only a very small number, compared to the couple that Toya has seen, I believe that there will still be a large number of people who should blush.

To live an ordinary life to the fullest is a kind of happiness and the true nature of life. Even if there is a small yurt in the depths of the grassland, with only a dozen sheep and one or two horses, as long as the family is harmonious and peaceful, it is the "little life" that Matoya yearns for the most.

However, fate did not fulfill Matoya's little wish, and did not guarantee the safety of her family......

Now, Toya, who lives in relative comfort, still doesn't dare to remove the scarf and walk out of the courtyard. Many times, as long as Dong Jing comes to the house, there is work to help and no work to chat with, and she keeps enlightening Toya, hoping that she will not always be a "cat" in the house, let alone always "hide" her face behind a scarf. Toya smiled, but didn't dare to do that.

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Lotus, like her sister Lotus, cares about Matoya very much and comes to chat with her whenever she has time. Sometimes when she sees a car driving into the door of Toya's house, she knows that someone has come to visit Toya again, and she will quickly hand over the store to her husband, and run to the house to help boil water and pour tea to greet guests, just like that Spring Festival.

Lotus always persuaded Toya: Sister, you have to go out, at least you can't hide it anymore, you have to boldly go out of the yard.

Toya replied truthfully: Sister Lotus, I'm afraid.

"My silly girl, no one will laugh at you."

"I'm scared — I'm afraid I'm scared like this, especially scared — scared children." Toya has her own worries.

"No, it won't. Take Xiaoshan and Xiaoling as examples, are they afraid of you? ”

Toya shook her head.

"That's right. Sister to tell you the truth - don't take it to heart - when you first saw you when you were discharged from the hospital, everyone would be a little surprised, and once you get used to it, it's nothing. You don't know what our people are like in Sarentai, how can everyone care about your appearance if everyone respects you so much? Listen to my sister, you have stood up bravely, so go out bravely. "The lotus's persuasion is tireless.

"I-" Toya hesitated.

Lotus continued: It's been almost a year, you can't always cover it like this. Every time Lotus calls me, this is what she worries and cares about the most. Besides, Aginai grazes sheep for other people's families to work, and Uncle Ma and Aunt Ma's bodies are there, so the family's affairs must not all depend on you? What if you don't get out of the house? Can't live this day?

Toya was moved, but she just couldn't make up her mind. She was embarrassed to say, "Sister, I—I have to take my time."

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On this day, Toya, who can do some simple household chores, stews in the kitchen. Of course, the vegetables are picked from the back garden and washed and cut in advance by her mother, Naren Tuya. Toya's hands still didn't dare to touch the cold water, and it was the same in summer, as soon as she touched the cracks in the cold water, her heart hurt, and she couldn't hold the knife when chopping vegetables.

The dishes prepared by my mother, Toya can be stewed in the pot. She had done this carefully, and when she was about to add salt to the pot, she found that the salt shaker had bottomed out. I want to call my mother to buy it, but she goes to the door, and my father's legs can't walk, what should I do?

The dish was already boiling, and Toya was in a hurry with the empty jar. I had to go by myself - Toya went to find a scarf, but asked her mother to wash it and it didn't dry yet.

Looking at the empty salt jar for a while, and looking at the steaming vegetable pot for a while, Toya gritted her teeth and quietly opened the back door......

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Toya followed the path in the back garden and quickly "slipped in" into the Lotus Family's shop.

Lotus, who was wiping the shelves in the store, saw that Toya did not "break in" with a scarf, and was surprised and delighted, and threw the rag and greeted her.

Lotus took Toya's hand and said happily: Toya, it's great that you finally came out without a scarf.

Toya lowered her head in embarrassment and looked around out of the corner of her eye, for fear that someone else would see her.

"Don't be afraid, it's good if others see it. Let's go, sister will take you around the street. ”

Toya was so frightened that she took two steps back and quickly explained:

"Sister, I'm here to buy salt, the vegetables are stewed in the pot, and the salt is gone."

"I'm going to get salt. Great, I'll have to call Lotus in a moment, she's always thinking about you. She would be glad to know that you would dare to come to the store without a scarf. "The joy of the lotus flower comes from the heart. She took a bag of salt and handed it to Toya, and said: This is your first step, and in the future, you will go to the street openly, and we will not be afraid of anything! If anyone dares to make irresponsible remarks, my sister will go up and scratch him!

Toya smiled and asked, "Sister, how much?"

"Don't want money, just use it, and take whatever you want."

Toya hurriedly threw down the two yuan and turned around and left, saying, "Sister, I'll go first, the vegetable pot is still open."

"You, you—that's good, just get out."

Yes, Toya can walk out without a scarf, that is, out of the shadow of the past. This step is not small......