In the face of Cheng Xuedong's urgent inquiry, Liu Yan couldn't help but feel empty, and quickly covered up: "What are you nervous about?" Sister Shuzhen is very good. I'm just afraid that she doesn't need me anymore, and I feel like a useless waste. ”

Cheng Xuedong was a little dumbfounded: "Girl, why do you think like this?" Do you like to take care of the sick? ”

"Sister Shuzhen is no ordinary patient. She used to be my mentor and my idol. I feel that taking care of her is the most honorable thing for me. ”

"Yan'er, I know that Shuzhen once took you, but you don't have to feel any debt. In fact, she is full of enthusiasm for every young college student who has just started a career in astronomy. In fact, it's so condescending that you spend all your energy with her and take care of her. ”

Liu Yan didn't seem to want to talk to him anymore, because she was a little excited, worried that if she said too much, she would lose: "Don't say anything, I've grown up, I know what I'm doing, and I have no regrets about my choice." If you don't have anything else, then I'm going to hang up. ”

"Do you have a problem?"

"Well, it's time for me to go out grocery shopping."

"Okay, say hello to Shuzhen on your behalf."

"Sorry, I can't do that."

"Why?"

"Because if she knows that you call frequently, she should think that you don't feel at ease at work and only cares about your family."

Cheng Xuedong couldn't help but smile bitterly: "Okay." ”

Before ending the call, Liu Yan did not forget to tell the other party a few words: "Teacher Cheng, you have a heavy burden, you must cherish yourself, eat on time, rest on time, and don't always stay up late······"

Cheng Xuedong was accustomed to listening to her advice, and he didn't feel bored at all, but felt a little moved, feeling that she was worthy of being brought out by his wife, and she cared for her exactly the same as her wife. He couldn't talk to his wife directly every time he called, but he found a family-like warmth from Liu Yan, which made his body surge.

With tears in his eyes, he put his phone away and let out a long breath with his head up. He feels that his family affection is really good, it is the motivation for him to give everything willingly, listen to Mr. Nan's advice today, adjust himself well, and wait until tomorrow to start again.

Besides, Liu Yan was worried that she couldn't control her emotions and had to end the call, but as soon as the phone was put down, she burst into tears.

In fact, she is under unprecedented pressure. Wang Shuzhen was terminally ill, but insisted on not being hospitalized. In fact, Wang Shuzhen's condition had deteriorated to a very serious extent a few months ago, but I don't know what kind of perseverance she relied on to survive a few months. It's just that she looks even more incurable now.

In this case, Liu Yan has to provoke the burden of the family on the one hand, and on the other hand, he has to perfunctory Cheng Xuedong and even his daughter Xiaowei. This is undoubtedly a huge pressure on her body and mind. What a cruel thing for her to be a girl in her twenties. How she wishes that a man would help her bear all this, but in reality, who else can she rely on besides Cheng Xuedong? But she just needs to hide all the truth from this man.

Liu Yan could only knock out her teeth and swallow it in her stomach at this time, vented alone for a while, and hurriedly wiped away her tears and entered the bedroom.

At this time, Wang Shuzhen was almost thin into a piece of skin, which made her eyes extraordinarily protruding, but it was so dim that she couldn't see any brilliance, and her mouth opened a few times before she made a faint sound: "Yan'er... Xuedong called..."

Liu Yan nodded slightly: "Well, he is still very worried about your situation." ”

"Ahh You... Why don't you let me hear his voice..."

Liu Yan hurriedly explained: "I found you sleeping just now, so I came out to answer the phone." ”

"Just... Even if I'm asleep... You're going to wake me up too..."

Liu Yan's eyes turned red: "Sister Shuzhen, you haven't had a good night's sleep for a long time." I can't bear to disturb you. ”

Wang Shuzhen's dim eyes were wet: "I... I have fewer and fewer opportunities to hear him... I really don't want to miss any of it..."

Liu Yan couldn't hold back her tears anymore: "Sister Shuzhen... I was wrong... Why don't I call again? ”

"Don't... Don't... Don't let me disturb his work..."

Liu Yan hurriedly explained: "Teacher Cheng has just returned to Northern Qi from Qianxi, and he should rest today." Otherwise, he wouldn't have called. ”

"Since that's the case... Then you can't bother him... He's running all the way... Definitely tired... Just let him rest steadily..."

"Sister Shuzhen... You're all like that... I still care about him... But he doesn't know anything about you..."

Wang Shuzhen smiled hard: "Exactly... He didn't know I was sick like this... It's the motivation that I've been holding up to now... Because of my existence... It will inspire his fighting spirit... And Xiaowei... I'm going to take the college entrance examination soon... I can't let her be distracted by grief... So... I... I can't afford to die..."

"Sister Shuzhen... Let's go to the hospital... That's the only way... You'll be able to live a little more comfortably..."

"Ahh Useless... Even if you go to the hospital... There is no special medicine available... Xiaowei will definitely be affected... Will definitely call Xuedong... I insisted on not being hospitalized... It's to prove to their father and daughter that I... I'm in stable condition..."

"But... You're standing strong at home like this... It's so sinful..."

"As long as everything goes well with both of them... No matter how hard I suffer... Suffer a great sin... It's all worth it... Although I know that I will be liberated when I die... I really can't afford to die now... Although I can't see the completion of our country's eye of heaven... But at least you have to survive until Xiaowei finishes the college entrance examination... I... I'm happy to be sinned now... Because I can live..."

"Sister Shuzhen... Please don't say it... You must take care of yourself..."

One of them had a weak voice, and the other was sobbing, so the conversation was very incoherent.

Liu Yan couldn't hold on anymore, and interrupted the conversation again: "Sister Shuzhen... It's time for me to go out grocery shopping. You have to lie down. ”

Even though Wang Shuzhen has become like this, she still has a certain amount of self-care ability, but she suddenly struggled to sit up...

Liu Yan was startled, and hurriedly went up to help: "Do you want to go to the toilet?" ”

"No, please help me to the balcony. I want to breathe. ”

"This... But I'm not at home? ”

"Don't worry, I won't move, I'll wait until you come back."

"Okay."

Wang Shuzhen has almost no strength in her body, and basically relies on external support. However, since her weight was already very light, although Liu Yan was a weak woman, she could still move her step by step from the bedroom to the balcony outside the living room. There is a chair there. can make Wang Shuzhen very comfortable to enjoy the traffic outside the building. In fact, Wang Shuzhen often stays like this, especially when her daughter Xiaowei occasionally comes home, she has to pretend to show her daughter. Although it will be very hard, fortunately, my daughter is facing the college entrance examination, and she needs to tutor at school on weekends, and she has to wait a long time to go home. Especially now, my daughter has to wait until the college entrance examination to go home. Therefore, although the daughter knows that her condition is very serious, she does not know that she is about to come to the end of her life.

"Sister Shuzhen, you must stay well, don't move yourself."

When Liu Yan was about to go out, she repeatedly told her, until she repeatedly promised that she would stay still obediently, and then opened the door and went out with peace of mind.

As soon as Wang Shuzhen waited for Liu Yan to go out, she looked down at the scenery outside the balcony window with her dull gaze. There is a wide street a few hundred meters away, and at this time there is a bustling traffic and traffic. In her opinion, these people are lucky with both the flow of people and the flow of traffic. They are free to move freely in this world that belongs to them. She can imagine their lives for no reason, whether they are happy or miserable, satisfied or frustrated. However, they all have a free world, and they are the masters of their own world, and they are painful and happy in places that others can't reach. It's a pity that she can only enjoy it here, and she can't blend into this torrent of happiness anymore.

"Heaven, be merciful, don't take me so soon. I haven't seen enough of this wonderful world, and I still want to hear the good news from my lover from afar, and the good news that my daughter has brought me. I'd rather suffer all kinds of pain and suffering for the sake of this breath..."

Wang Shuzhen's eyesight has seriously deteriorated due to complications of diabetes, and now her blurry eyes can't see everything outside her body clearly. But she is still praying desperately, this is not because she is afraid of death, but because she understands that her death will not only have a negative impact on her lover, but also directly threaten her daughter's college entrance examination. Now, she has been taking her daughter's college entrance examination for less than a month, so she is unwilling to die at this time.

Is it not her who is heartbroken at this time?

Liu Yan was walking on the street outside at this time, wiping her tears as she walked to the vegetable market. The helplessness in her heart has reached the extreme. However, she had no one to talk to, which was simply unfair to her as a young girl. Her former best friends are all married and have children, and they all have a coquettish object, but she still says the same thing - she knocked out her teeth and swallowed it in her stomach!

As she walked, she suddenly saw a bus stop sign with the words "No. 17", and she couldn't help but move. Originally, the car had to pass through a temple. In that place, you can offer incense to some good men and women to make wishes. Although she was not a devout Buddhist, she was eager to pour out the bitter water in her stomach to the Buddha at this time. So, she strolled to the site.

It was a coincidence that she had just arrived there, and before she had the opportunity to hesitate, a No. 17 bus arrived, which forced her to make no more choices, so she boarded the bus with others.

There weren't many people in the car, so she found a random seat and kept looking out the window with a melancholy face.

After about twenty minutes of bumpy ride, the No. 17 bus finally delivered her to the small temple.

At this time, it was already four o'clock in the afternoon, and it was not very long before the evening, so there were many people coming out of the temple at present, but few people entered. Liu Yan didn't have long in line, and then she had the opportunity to face the Buddha statue directly.

She was now extremely religious, respectfully put on a stick of incense, knelt on the futon in front of the Buddha statue with her hands folded, and began to pray with words -

"Buddha, please be merciful and save poor Sister Shuzhen. She's so pitiful, she's in the midst of a catastrophe. What a woman she is... Still so young... Please let her live well, okay... If she had any debts in her previous life... I'd rather pay her back for my life... Please have mercy on her..."

When she whispered this, she couldn't stop crying.

An eldest sister who visited with her noticed her poignant, so she quickly reminded softly: "The girl can't shed tears in front of the Buddha, she can only make a wish." Otherwise, the Buddha would not be pleased. ”

Liu Yan nodded gratefully: "Well, thank you." ”

The eldest sister stared at her sympathetically: "The girl must be out of love, right?" Pray to the Buddha sincerely to give you a wishful husband. ”

Liu Yan hurriedly controlled his emotions, raised his sleeves to wipe his tears, and began to pray calmly: "Almighty Buddha, disciple Liu Yan prays to you sincerely. I am twenty-nine years old this year, I am already an old girl, I secretly liked a man a few years ago, he is the teacher Cheng Xuedong I admire. Maybe it's because he's a senior in the astronomy world, and he's the husband of my colleague Sister Sojin, so I only admire him. However, Sister Shuzhen was suddenly diagnosed with a serious illness and could no longer work, and she may not live long, which gave me hope. So, I rejected the pursuit of a male colleague of the same age in the unit and silently waited for the moment when he was single. However, Sister Shuzhen's love for him is so deep that in order to support his career and dreams, she made up a white lie with good intentions, the purpose of which is to let him carry out his ambitions in a down-to-earth manner. Sister Shuzhen has seen that I admire him, and when her love cannot satisfy him, she keeps me by her side to take care of her with good intentions. I know that she is not for herself, but for her lover and me. She wanted to give me a chance to give her family and touch her lover. I also accepted her arrangement with peace of mind. However, as her condition gradually deteriorated, I couldn't take it anymore... Almighty Buddha, although I long for Cheng Xuedong to become a family and be able to get the favor of a loving man, but for Sister Shuzhen to get the last happiness that the world gives her, I would rather go down alone, even if the sea is dry and rotten... If I exchange my life for Sister Shuzhen's life, I will give my life without hesitation. Almighty Buddha, please fulfill my request and have mercy on poor Sister Shuzhen! ”

Because Liu Yan was pressed for time, even if he still had a thousand words, he couldn't come in front of the Buddha statue one by one, and when he said the most critical words, he could only leave unsatisfied.

However, when she just got up and turned around, she was blocked by a tall figure.

She looked at the scrutinizing face in amazement—"Is that you?" ”