Chapter 183: The Difficulty of Choice
"What are you hesitating about?" Sheng Qingyuan asked Emperor Yanbei.
Emperor Yanbei Zhengse said to Sheng Qingyuan: "Because of your current identity, you are the princess Jing of the Great Zhou, I am not sure, if you rashly disclose your identity, it will have an impact on your life."
If he hadn't been afraid of this, he should have directly announced Sheng Qingyuan's identity and let everyone know that such an excellent and kind girl was his daughter and his only princess.
Looking at the concerns on Emperor Yanbei's face, Sheng Qingyuan narrowed his eyes.
She could see that Emperor Yanbei was really thinking about her.
After being silent for a while, Sheng Qingyuan asked, "What happened back then?"
Speaking of the events of that year, Emperor Yanbei couldn't help but sigh a long time, and there were many vicissitudes in his eyes.
Emperor Yanbei began to talk about the events of the year slowly.
"Back then, I wasn't the emperor of Yanbei, just a prince, at that time, my father was seriously ill, and the princes fought each other for that position, I didn't have much idea about the throne at that time, I just wanted to find a safe place with the princess to spend the rest of my life."
As he spoke, Emperor Yanbei's eyes softened a little when he looked at Sheng Qingyuan, and said, "At that time, the princess was already pregnant with a child, and it won't be long before she will give birth, so we found a relatively remote place, but even if they have retreated to this point, they are still unwilling to let us go."
Emperor Yanbei's eyes quickly flashed a fierce light, and said: "The princess was frightened and gave birth prematurely, but there were a lot of pursuers outside at that time, and I was afraid that they would hurt you, so I took a small group of people to divert their attention, and when I came back again, the princess had only one breath left, and the child was gone......
Speaking of this, Emperor Yanbei's face was full of remorse, "I hate myself for being useless, I can't protect the princess, let alone my children. It was also at that time that I realized that with the situation at that time, only by sitting in that position could I really protect the people I wanted to protect."
"Because of the previous evasion, they also consumed a lot of each other, and it was easier to succeed in the end. After sitting in that position, I asked the world's famous doctors to treat her and recuperate her body, and at the same time, let people look for you. But ......."
Emperor Yanbei's mood was much lower, "However, she hasn't been able to support it for too long, it's only been half a year since I ascended the throne, and your mother has already died, and you have never been found."
Emperor Yanbei looked at Sheng Qingyuan and said, "Whether you believe it or not, I have always wanted to find you for more than ten years, but I didn't expect that you would be sent to Great Zhou early."
Over the years, the relationship between Da Zhou and Yanbei has been in a very good state, and if he is not careful, a war will break out, and it is not easy for his people to go to Da Zhou to find people.
He didn't come either, and those people would send Sheng Qingyuan directly to Da Zhou.
"How much do you remember from the past?" Emperor Yanbei asked Sheng Qingyuan.
Sheng Qingyuan thought about it seriously and said, "I've been growing up in that village for as long as I can remember."
"Are you doing well?" Emperor Yanbei asked again.
"Mom and Dad are very good to me." Sheng Qingyuan said.
"That's good." Emperor Yanbei didn't know whether to feel relieved or disappointed.
However, his daughter can grow up safely, which is already a great relief for him.
There has been no news of her all these years, although he is still being found, but there seems to be a faint answer in his heart, his daughter will never come back.
"So, do you want to come back?" Emperor Yanbei looked at Sheng Qingyuan with a deep expectation in his eyes.
Sheng Qingyuan opened his mouth, but he didn't know what to say.
It stands to reason that she should be happy to finally find her family, but this identity is so sensitive.
Even if the original biological father and mother are just an ordinary family in Da Zhou, those people will talk about her humble background at most and she is not worthy of Shen Zhao.
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What she was more worried about was whether her identity would be exposed and whether it would give Chu Xuanjin and Zuo Ye a handle.
"There's no hurry about this, you think about it slowly, and then give me the answer after thinking about it, no matter what, I respect your decision, as long as you're happy." Emperor Yanbei saw that Sheng Qingyuan couldn't give an answer for a long time, so he hurriedly added a sentence.
He naturally hoped that Sheng Qingyuan could come back, but if Sheng Qingyuan was allowed to come back, it would affect her normal life and bring her trouble, so he would rather not destroy her original peaceful life.
"Hmm." With Emperor Yanbei's words, Sheng Qingyuan's heart couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.
Emperor Yanbei gave her a rough idea of what kind of person her mother was.
Speaking of the queen, Emperor Yanbei couldn't help but miss it very much, "Your queen mother is different from ordinary women when she was a child, although she was born in a famous family, she has never liked those complicated rules, she prefers to ride a horse and shoot arrows on the grassland without restraint, and she also has a benevolent heart and is quite proficient in medicine."
"She's also quite good at medicine?" Sheng Qingyuan said in surprise.
She doesn't have much obsession with her biological parents anymore.
She is used to being alone, with or without parents, and it doesn't seem to make much difference to her.
It's just that hearing that her mother-in-law, in this special era, will also like medical skills, which suddenly shortened the distance between their mother and daughter.
Looking at the joy on Sheng Qingyuan's face, Emperor Yanbei knew that it was the right thing to tell Sheng Qingyuan about the queen's little hobby.
"Well, she thinks she's happy to be able to help people in this way." Emperor Yanbei said with a smile. Look at the book
Although many years have passed, when I mention the bits and pieces I got along with her back then, I still can't stop smiling happily on my face.
"You have a good relationship." Looking at the happy smile on his face, Sheng Qingyuan also felt that his heart seemed to be a little warm.
"She's good, in my eyes, she's the best woman in the world." Emperor Yanbei said.
Every time he thinks of getting along with the queen in the past years, Emperor Yanbei misses it very much.
If he could have been stronger back then, or if he could have been more decisive and take her farther away, would he have been able to completely stay away from the battle for succession, so that she would not be born prematurely, their child would not be lost, and her body would not have become so bad, and she would not have left him forever after not being able to support her for long.
Emperor Yanbei narrowed his eyes, quickly put away his somewhat sad emotions, and smiled again.
He couldn't let such negative emotions affect Sheng Qingyuan.
Emperor Yanbei cleaned up his mood and said to her: "At the beginning, your mother was very happy when she knew that she was pregnant with you, obviously there is still more than half a year before you are born, but she has already begun to prepare all kinds of small things that children like."
Emperor Yanbei looked at her and said to her: "We are all looking forward to your arrival, maybe it is the mother-daughter connection, at that time, it was obviously not long before there was joy, but your queen mother is very determined that she must be a little princess, and all the gadgets and small clothes prepared are prepared according to the little princess."
"What about you?" Sheng Qingyuan suddenly asked Emperor Yanbei.
"What?"
"Do you want a little prince or a little princess?" Sheng Qingyuan asked a question that would be asked to many future parents.
Emperor Yanbei said with a smile: "I didn't think about this at the time, the little prince or the little princess can do it, if it is a little prince, then the future little princess can have an elder brother who can protect her." However, I also want a little princess who can be like your mother."
Emperor Yanbei said, "But no matter what, we are looking forward to your arrival, and this is also our first child."
Sheng Qingyuan looked at him with some surprise.
Is she their first child?
Then the other princes and princesses of Yanbei are younger than her?
Emperor Yanbei said: "At that time, there was only one woman in my backyard, your mother, and I didn't think about taking a concubine, if I was just an idle prince, and there was a princess in the house, it would be enough."
He really wanted to live a good life with his princess.
It's a pity that creation makes people, and it is in vain.
"I'm not telling you this to put any pressure on you, it's just that maybe you'll want to know the past." Emperor Yanbei was worried that these would make Sheng Qingyuan feel pressured, so he hurriedly explained.
Then he said, "I'm still the same, no matter what you decide, I will respect you."
"Hmm." Sheng Qingyuan nodded lightly and didn't say anything.
Her mind was in a mess right now, and she really didn't know what to decide next.
"I'm tired too, help me go back to rest." Emperor Yanbei said.
"Okay." Sheng Qingyuan got up, helped Emperor Yanbei, and accompanied him to the dormitory.
Leaving from Emperor Yanbei's dormitory, Sheng Qingyuan did not rush back to the house, but went to the imperial garden, facing the pond in the imperial garden in a daze.
She needed a quiet environment where she could think about the way forward.
If she agrees to Emperor Yanbei's request, what will happen to her life in the future, and what impact will it have on Shen Zhao?
What if you don't say yes?
Sheng Qingyuan's mind couldn't help but recall Emperor Yanbei's temples that had begun to turn white.
According to the age of Emperor Yanbei, it is actually not to this extent.
It's just that he has worked hard all these years and has been affected by the innate influence of his body, which has had a very great impact on his body and mind, so he is obviously still in the prime of life, but he has begun to look old.
Shen Zhao looked at Sheng Qingyuan standing by the lake from a distance, and did not rush over.
After a while, the breeze blew, and Shen Zhao walked over and put a cloak on her.
Sheng Qingyuan saw Shen Zhao's arrival, raised a smile at him, and leaned into his arms.
"What's bothering?" Shen Zhao asked her.
Sheng Qingyuan shook his head.
Shen Zhao gently pinched her nose and said, "Don't lie."
Sheng Qingyuan chuckled, "I can't hide anything from you."
After a pause, Sheng Qingyuan told him what he was struggling with, and said, "Just now, Your Majesty and I talked a lot...... Before he ascended the throne and the princess, there were ...... What happened back then."
"He wants to reveal your identity?" Shen Zhao asked.
Sheng Qingyuan nodded, "That's what he thinks, but he also said that he will respect my choice, as long as I'm happy."
Shen looked at her and said, "Then accept it."
Sheng Qingyuan looked at him in astonishment.
Shen Zhao's eyes lit up and said firmly, "This is your innate dignity, that is your father, you should naturally admit it."
Sheng Qingyuan opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but before he spoke, Shen Zhao said again: "Don't worry about the problem on my side, I can handle it, and besides, my princess is a noble princess, isn't this a greater help for me?"