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Eighth meeting

——00：04

ZHOU: "Happy New Year"

"Yang Xiansen, I feel like I haven't been able to enter your heart until now"

"Really, I'm so dispensable in your life"

"I don't feel the slightest sense of presence"

"I still remember that it was rude for you not to reply to other people's messages, but when it comes to me, you would rather play games than reply to my messages"

"I said I don't like to take the initiative, but I'm always active in front of you, and I've really been feeling so tired lately"

"It feels like my initiative is not being answered"

"I admit I genuinely like you"

"But it's really, really, tiring to keep going like this."

"It's like I'm the one who is being rude and keeps knocking on a door repeatedly"

"I know I'd be naïve like that"

"But if I don't care about you"

"Really, I'm not going to be a little naïve in front of you"

"I won't tell you so much"

"Very tired"

"It's annoying"

"My initiative is like sinking to the bottom of the sea"

"Got no response"

"It's not just girls who need a sense of ritual"

"Really"

"I don't seem to be as important to your roommate as you are"

"I know maybe I'll be with you for a shorter time"

"But I'm sure I'm better than they are to you."

"Of course, I'm not saying that your roommate treats you badly"

"I just don't think it's fair to me"

"In my daily life, they always like to joke with me, and they feel like I don't have anything to worry about for a day."

"But they don't know my inferiority complex deep inside"

"I don't like to let my negative energy affect others"

"You said your heart was dark"

"I think there's a dark side to everyone's heart"

"But it's up to you how you hide it."

——00：40

Me: Phone ×

Sorry, your call can't be reached, please call again later

At this moment, I am deeply aware that I may have really disappointed him

The phone finally came through, but I didn't know what to say, only the sparse noise of his roommate on the other side, he didn't speak, and my broken words were slurred, and finally ended the short voice call

Zhou: "I'm fine, I just don't want to talk for the time being"

Zhou: "I don't know what to talk about"

ZHOU: "Really"

Zhou: "I'm fine"

Zhou: "Just be quiet"

……

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What do you mean by liking?

What is love, what is love, what is important, and what is caring?

Maybe the answer is hidden in my heart, but I don't know if it's because I don't want to push the door open, or I'm waiting for someone else to open the door

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……

I have one by one to reply to his messages, to reply to his words

I know I spend a lot of my time ignoring him. I also admit that there are times when I see a message and pretend not to see it. I'll admit that my roommate is still more important to me than he is. I didn't want to try to explain anything, but every word I said seemed to excuse myself. One of the things I say the most is to take your time. I want to take my time with you in this fast-paced era, slowly get to know each other, slowly run in, and slowly walk into each other. When I look at it, it suddenly feels like a joke, because it's like an excuse. I don't seem to fit in the role of a girlfriend, I play it so badly that I don't like myself like it. He's good, he's really good. As my friend said, it's a pity that the person he met was me. yes, what a pity. We talked for a long time that night. What he wanted was simple, a response. But, but, but many times, I didn't give him a response. Zhou Xiansen said that he just wanted to tell me that he could hold on with me, but that he also needed a response, otherwise he would think it would be rude for him to do so.

——12：12

I thought about it for a long, long time

Me: "I seem to get it"

Zhou: "Huh?"

Zhou: "Got it?"

Me: "You deserve better"

Zhou: "Why do you suddenly say that?"

Me: "I think I'm a good fit for the role of a girlfriend"

Me: "I'm not fit for a relationship"

Me: "And then I feel like some of my actions have disappointed you"

Me: "I don't like that either."

Zhou: "Why are you still depressed?"

Zhou: "There's nothing really right in the world"

Zhou: "It's all a process of continuous running-in"

Me: "I don't want to hurt anyone"

Zhou: "Don't think so"

Me: "Really"

Zhou: "Fake"

Zhou: "I won't give up on you"

Zhou: "My heart tells me"

Me: "I'm going to give up on me"

Zhou: "Since I will feel sorry for you, it means that I really care about you"

Me: "I've seriously thought about it"

Me: "I don't seem to be a good fit for the role"

ZHOU: "Please trust me"

ZHOU: "I won't give up"

Zhou: "Can be run-in"

Me: "I played badly"

Me: "It's bad"

Zhou: "It's okay"

Zhou: "I don't care"

ZHOU: "Please don't deny yourself"

Zhou: "You're worth it"

ZHOU: "Maybe there's a better one to come"

ZHOU: "But I'm not looking forward to it"

Zhou: "Don't think about it"

Zhou: "It's over, it's over"

Me: "I didn't think much of it"

ZHOU: "Let's change slowly together"

Me: "I'm just getting to know myself"

Zhou: "Please don't think about it"

Zhou: "Eat well"

Zhou: "Take a nap"

Me: "I'm not cranky"

Me: "I'm very rational"

Zhou: "I'll come to you later"

Zhou: "Please don't choose to run away when you encounter problems"

Zhou: "OK"

Me: "......"

Zhou: "Even if you are not good, I will not give up on you and leave you"

Zhou: "There are contradictions before every couple"

Zhou: "Just go and solve it"

Zhou: "I hope you don't be late"

Zhou: "I'll be at your school at 2 o'clock"

Zhou: "The person I want to see the most in the new year"

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……

I've always felt that the best way to solve a problem is to get to the root of the problem. In order to avoid the end, I am willing to avoid the beginning of everything. So I think it's probably best for us to separate, because then he won't be unhappy because of me. I told Zhou Xiansen all my thoughts truthfully

Zhou: "I'm really happy to be with you"

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Let's get acquainted again

Okay

Hello Zhou Xiansen

Hello Yang Xiansen