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It's the same day, it's the day I miss you

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"To tell the truth, they are all laymen who collapse in the night"

Zhou Xiansen changed his signature on the night of 2022.04.02 and disappeared on the morning of 2022.04.03.

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I haven't recorded it for a long time, on the one hand, I'm lazy, and on the other hand, I feel that the days are trivial, and there is nothing to record. Our schools are only a kilometer apart, but they are very similar, and I remember the last time we met was the last time. I really hope that the epidemic can end sooner, and when the lockdown is lifted, I must run to see you, walking on my little short legs, I think the wind at that time was sweet. Wow-ha-ha.

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Ahem, off track. This is a follow-up record......

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Today is the weekend, and unlike usual, Zhou Xiansen did not send me a good morning today, nor did he have a phone service. Our news is still stuck in his unusual "Ann" yesterday. When I saw his updated signature, I realized that something was wrong with him, but it was late at night, so I didn't ask much, just a few simple words, telling him "This world is beautiful, don't be sad" and "Good night"

"Good dreams" His reply was an hour later, late at night. In the morning, I didn't receive any message from him, so I took the initiative to say goodbye. But he remained silent. I thought he probably didn't wake up, but he could finally sleep lazy and sleep longer, which is understandable. But it was ten o'clock, and he was still silent. I don't know exactly what's going on, why all of a sudden, there's no information. I contacted him in all the ways we could, but he didn't hear back. I never thought it would be like this, so suddenly, for no reason. I thought, maybe he has class today, and he doesn't have time to train. I asked his college classmates if there was any arrangement for today, and I thought he would not return, but he replied and said that there was no arrangement. It turned out that he just didn't want to pay attention to me......

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Zhou Xiansen and I also have a group chat where we only have each other

Me: Hello

ZHOU: Hello

He replied to me, but there was no follow-up

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At noon, I called him again to make a video, uh-huh, yes, it didn't connect, and after a while, he responded that he was cooking. I inadvertently clicked on his QQ space and needed to apply for access. At that moment, I broke the defense. Obviously everything was fine yesterday, why is it like this all of a sudden, I seem to understand something.

Me: "I see"

Me: "I see"

Me: "I hope you are happy"

Me: "I'm bothering"

After a while......

ZHOU: "Makes you worried"

Zhou: "I'm so embarrassed"

Zhou: "Just returned to the dormitory"

Me: "It's okay"

Me: "Slept"

Me: "I know how to back down"

Me: "There's no need to be this way"

I changed my profile picture, changed my nickname, turned off my phone, and closed my eyes. It was terrible, it was really terrible, and I never thought we would end this relationship like this......

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Zhou: "What?"

Zhou: "I just don't want to talk for a moment without knowing why"

Zhou: "I don't know why"

Zhou: "Maybe it's been too much pressure lately."

Zhou: "I feel like I haven't done anything well lately"

Zhou: "I'm doing it every day"

Zhou: "It just can't achieve the desired effect"

Zhou: "And then I was very disappointed"

Zhou: "It's not because of you"

Phone...... (Not Answered)

Zhou: "Hmm"

Zhou: "You're definitely not asleep right now"

Zhou: "But it's okay"

Zhou: "I'll just talk about mine"

Zhou: "Tell the truth"

Zhou: "I don't know why I suddenly looked like this"

Zhou: "Maybe it's really too much negative energy and I want to release it."

Zhou: "But the way I released it was very inappropriate"

Zhou: "I just thought that I would be fine after a while."

ZHOU: "It's really hard to control"

Zhou: "Actually, I want to tell you about it, but I just don't know how to say it."

Zhou: "You know what?"

Zhou: "I just want to talk but I don't have a thought in my head"

Zhou: "I don't know how to say it"

ZHOU: "It's really been lately"

Zhou: "It feels like everything is regressing"

Zhou: "Obviously I keep practicing every day"

Zhou: "He just didn't grow"

Zhou: "Every time I practice, my hands are shaking"

Zhou: "But I just can't see the effect"

Zhou: "I see that the people around me are improving"

Zhou: "And then it's annoying"

Zhou: "Very lost"

Zhou: "And then I couldn't sleep last night"

Zhou: "I've been thinking about it"

Zhou: "And that's it"

Zhou: "But I really didn't mean to ignore you"

Zhou: "My QQ has been offline since yesterday"

Zhou: "Then the phone didn't charge last night, and when I went to the library in the morning, I didn't bring my phone because the phone was out of battery"

Zhou: "Hmm"

Zhou: "That's all"

Zhou: "I'm really embarrassed"

Zhou: "But you're your own person"

Zhou: "You can't blame me, do you?"

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I woke up and read his message, which I could understand but couldn't

Me: "I'm sorry, I'll blame you"

Me: "The teacher said that there is no hatred for no reason, and there is no love for no reason"

Me: "Release indeed, there is no problem, but the premise is that it should not be said"

Me: "It's like disappearing out of nowhere"

Me: "Who knows what you're trying to express"

Zhou: "I didn't bring my phone?"

Me: "I clicked on your QQ at noon"

Me: "Invisible"

Me: "Nothing else"

Me: "It's probably very clear"

Me: "I just don't think it's necessary"

Me: "Shouldn't a husband just be able to afford to put it down?"

Me: "That's what I think anyway"

Zhou: "I didn't take it much seriously at first"

Zhou: "But you know?"

Me: "I don't know"

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Later, Zhou Xiansen told me what I didn't know and shared what happened to him last night.

Me: "Man"

Me: "Always go and answer people's questions and tell them to be happy"

Me: "Once replaced by myself"

Me: "I was at a loss"

Later, Zhou Xiansen told me the story about him

And then, ah, and then he was back to normal, and we switched back to the original channel

Zhou: "I don't know how much I like you, but if I go to see you, I must use running." Dandelions are floating all over the mountains, you are standing at the end of the road, I have been looking for the spring of half a life, you just smile! I like you like the cats in the South City, bohemian. I like you like the stone bridge in the North City, so old! ”

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We're going to have a lot of things going through and we're going to go through a lot. But my dear Zhou Xiansen, we are not alone, you and me, uh-huh. I'm also going to be like you today, and suddenly I collapse, and suddenly I don't want to respond to everything, this world is not completely beautiful, it also hides its dirt, there will be things we don't like, but, but don't be defeated by it just because you don't like it. We all know it, I know it.

The original Zhou Xiansen was very mature, very strong, and very optimistic, and today's Zhou Xiansen let me know the other side of him, I am very happy, and I know you a little more. Uh-huh. It's not early, good night, good dreams!