Chapter 22: Lost Heart
Li Xueyang came outside the house.
He took his father's cigarette gun and began to smoke, spitting out circle after circle of smoke.
He bowed his head slightly and sat on the edge of the door.
Zhang Man was a little worried when he saw this, so he followed.
"Li Xueyang, don't worry, you have to face all this like a man, don't let me look down on you."
"To cheer up, you have to face difficulties."
I'm afraid that Li Xueyang will get that ...... Lose your mind.
Zhang Man hurriedly comforted.
But Li Xueyang just smiled weirdly and said bluntly: "This thing won't hit me yet!" ”
After speaking, he turned to look at Zhang Man again: "I will definitely solve this matter!" ”
looked at the confident light in Li Xueyang's eyes.
Zhang Man was a little surprised again.
She didn't know where Li Xueyang got the confidence to be so confident.
But.
Zhang Man didn't ask much, everyone has their own inner thoughts.
She just opened her mouth and said, "By the way, I'm going back to the county in the next few days, and there are still a lot of things to deal with over there." ”
"Stay safe."
Li Xueyang smiled and admonished.
It looks the same as usual.
It seems that what just happened really didn't hit him hard.
Zhang Man had some comforting words on his lips, but he couldn't say anything.
……
A few days later.
Li Xueyang goes up the mountain every day.
As soon as he reached the mountain, he stood by the withered spring orchid grass.
Li Xueyang will continue to follow the usual procedures and start fertilizing and weeding Chunlan grass.
It's like it's business as usual.
"Uncle Ang Li, come out to dig the soil?"
"Good morning."
"Have you eaten?"
When he saw the villagers, Li Xueyang always smiled and greeted him warmly, like a nobody.
However.
The more normal Li Xueyang is, the more abnormal it looks to those villagers.
After all, a person who has suffered a major blow should be in a state of hesitation, anxiety and panic.
No matter how bad it is, it should be uncomfortable and aggrieved.
How could it be like Li Xueyang, who greeted everyone with a smile on his face the next day?
How could an ordinary person maintain such a good attitude?
The news soon spread throughout the village.
After all, Li Xueyang didn't say hello to one or two villagers.
Anyone who passed by that piece of land basically greeted Li Xueyang.
It is precisely because of this that many villagers feel that it is unusually evil.
"You say, is Xueyang crazy? Why do you smile when you see people now? ”
"I've heard that's how crazy it is."
Sister-in-law Wang spit out melon seeds and said seriously: "They often make some abnormal expressions, such as they are very sad now, but they will smile at people, I think Li Xueyang is this symptom." ”
Li Daqing next to him snorted coldly: "Hmph, didn't you say that you would spend money to hire someone to open up the wasteland?" ”
"Can't open it now? Isn't this a stupid brain, in fact, I have already guessed today. ”
Li Daqing originally wanted to fall into the well and ridicule Li Xueyang with the villagers.
But there were also many good-hearted villagers next to him, and they hurriedly counted: "Li Daqing, what's the matter with you?" ”
"Some words are just said once or twice, why do you keep saying them."
"That's it, Li Daqing, do you have any humanity? ”
Several people spoke one after another, and Li Daqing saw that there were no friends around, so he was bored, so he simply closed his mouth.
But no matter what, Li Xueyang's matter spread to everyone's ears again.
Even.
The more it spreads, the more it goes overboard.
There was even a new rumor at the end of the day.
That is, because Li Xueyang has suffered a major blow, he has gone crazy, and he will only guard the withered spring orchid grass on the mountain every day.
……
this day.
Li Xueyang was fertilizing and weeding as usual.
In the past few days, there is basically no grass to be removed, so he is basically staring at Chunlan from the side!
One stare at it for hours.
Then.
Qiu Ya happened to be on the way up the mountain when she saw this scene.
Remembering the rumors in the village in the past few days, he simply walked a few more steps and came to Li Xueyang's side.
"Li Xueyang."
"Qiuya?"
Li Xueyang saw that someone was coming, and hurriedly moved a position on the stone: "You sit!" ”
Li Xueyang's smile made Qiu Ya even more sure that the previous rumors were true.
After she sat down, she became more serious and said seriously: "Li Xueyang, in fact, you don't need to be so decadent, you can cheer up." ”
Li Xueyang looked dazed.
"I'm not decadent, am I? Am I not weeding every day? ”
But as soon as she finished saying this, Qiu Ya spoke again.
"I've heard from the people in the village, you've been weeding in the field for the past few days, and you smirk when you see people, and I told you that it's not necessary at all."
"Why don't I tell you about my experience?"
Li Xueyang originally wanted to explain, but when he heard this, he was also a little interested.
After all, sitting alone is also sitting, but it is also a little boring, someone tells a story to himself, that is indeed not bad, not to mention Qiu Ya, this woman in her twenties, is actually quite rare in the village.
Li Xueyang is also interested in this story.
"Okay." Li Xueyang agreed.
Qiu Ya began to speak slowly.
"My story is much worse than yours, I was forced to marry in Shanwan Village, I don't want to stay here, I heard that there are a lot of good things outside, there are cars, I heard that there are airplanes that can fly in the sky, and I heard that you can do business."
"Anyway, when I was in school, I read about these things in textbooks, but before I finished junior high school, I was married here by my family."
When Li Xueyang heard this, he was immediately confused: "But what do you want to do, can't you do it now?" ”
"It's not that simple."
Qiu Ya hurriedly said: "I don't do farm work every day, where do I get to eat?" I was in the field every day, from morning to dark, and the man went out to work, and every day he went back to the house to be in the dark, and then he had to cook for himself. ”
"This is not the life I want! But what can this be, can it still be changed? It's better to think about it. ”
"But you're different, you're still young, since you have chosen the path of entrepreneurship, then you must stick to it and don't be unable to bear a little blow."
"If that's the case, then you shouldn't have chosen the path of entrepreneurship in the first place."
Listening to Qiu Ya's narration, Li Xueyang was a little surprised for a while.
I didn't expect the other party to have so many things in their minds.
These few sentences directly reflect the helplessness of an intellectual woman who yearns for life in the outside world, but chooses to accept her fate under the pressure of reality.
"Are you done?"
"I say this and nothing else, I just want you to cheer up."
Qiu Ya added.
Li Xueyang hurriedly said: "I'm done, but I don't think you have to worry, after all, there are still long days to come." ”
"Anyway, as long as people don't die, they can still choose a way out after all."
Li Xueyang's wave of comfort instantly stunned Qiu Ya.
She came to comfort Li Xueyang today, but she didn't expect to be comforted.
Suddenly, she felt that Li Xueyang seemed to be different from the rumored vulnerability.