There was a rumbling thunder, a bolt of lightning piercing the sky, followed by a torrential rain that crackled down from the sky, all too fast without warning. A handsome young man with a clear silhouette and clear eyebrows stood in front of the banana tree, staring at the huge green leaves on the plantain tree, but his eyes were empty and misty, as if he was in a fugue.

The soybean-like raindrops hit him so hard that he didn't even know it. Another bolt of lightning streaked into the sky above him, and he suddenly looked up and was shocked to find that it was raining heavily, but he was not in a hurry, but moved slowly into the thatched house behind him. This young man is Chen Xiang.

After graduating from college, Chen Xiang continued to study in junior college after graduating from secondary school, but now the national policy has been adjusted, and all graduates have to implement their own work and implement two-way choices for enterprises and individuals. Chen Xiang suddenly felt confused about his future, he stood in front of the banana tree in the yard for almost a whole morning, his mind was turning a thousand times, but he couldn't find the direction.

Students with some backgrounds or connections at home have already implemented their jobs before graduation. For as long as Chen Xiang can remember, his family has been very poor, and he is still poor, and his family has no powerful relatives, and the only uncle who has become a bureau chief in the city is not a relative.

The country's newly implemented graduation policy caught Chen Xiang's parents off guard, they worked hard and spent money for Chen Xiang to study for so many years, and now they see that Chen Xiang has nothing to do, not even a job, and his parents are in a hurry.

Chen Xiang studied late, and was 26 years old when he graduated, which is a very old age in the countryside (rural customs are engaged at 18-20), and it also attracted gossip from the villagers. His parents felt at a loss and had no choice but to urge him to get married quickly, so that he could be independent and no longer have to bear any responsibilities for him. However, the wedding gift prepared for him by the family was not only a slag room, but also a sewing machine. Is there a girl who is willing to marry into such a family?

Originally, during school, Chen Xiang fell in love a lot, and talked about it a few times. But when I was in college, I had a serious girlfriend, who graduated a year before him, was a little beautiful, and worked in a garment factory. His parents urged Chen Xiang to get married, and Chen Xiang had to mention the marriage to the girl. The woman said that her parents wanted a bride price of 2,000 yuan, and if she couldn't get 2,000 yuan, the marriage would not be concluded.

Chen Xiang is very sad, he hasn't studied hard in college for a few years, and his mind is spent on falling in love, he is a perfectionist, in his imagination, love is pure and beautiful, when he is in love, he talks darkly, and he only pretends to be this person in his eyes. obviously felt that the other party also liked him very much and was willing to marry him, but who knows, in the face of the so-called love, he lost in the 2,000 yuan bride price. He remembered the words that his parents often muttered: "Money is father, money is mother, don't want to marry a bride if you don't have money." ”

The dream of marriage was shattered, the job was not settled, and the person seemed to be emptied, wilting all of a sudden, and languishing all day long. Chen Xiang didn't know what to do for a while, but felt that the pressure of survival suddenly fell from the sky and fell heavily on his shoulders, which were not yet tough, and the future was confused. Seeing that he was in a trance all day long, his father still couldn't help but be angry: "Guy who has no interest, for you to study, and after you finish studying, you will stay at home all day long." I can't even marry a daughter-in-law! ”

Chen Xiang was angry and sad, he sighed that he was born in such a poor family, and he couldn't even marry a daughter-in-law. On the other hand, he lamented the hypocrisy of love even more.

Chen Xiang's mother has a younger sister who has a son and a daughter, and that daughter is Chen Xiang's own sister, and it is said that she has a good job in Beijing, which is to work as an editor. Due to the early death of my mother's sister, the two families have not been in contact for many years. On this day, his parents suddenly called him to him and told him about this cousin.

The father said: "Chen Xiang, you have an aunt in Beijing, and now she is running a cultural company with her brother in Beijing. Now his brother has heard that you have graduated, and he asked someone to come to him. I've discussed it with your mother, so you can go to Beijing. Our family's financial situation is not good, you know. If you marry her, people don't want any gift money. Just go through the door. "My father is a village accountant, he has read some books, and he speaks a little sly, and has a bit of a settling flavor.

When Chen Xiang heard this, he became angry: "I don't go to Beijing, I don't marry her, and close relatives can't get married." He had seen the cousin, who was short and ugly: on a long, flat face, with flat facial features, none of them stood out, and especially, the nostrils were still "facing the sky". Of course, that was the impression I had many years ago. However, men are like this, if in his heart, the impression of ugliness left is difficult to beautify.

Sitting on the low bench and staring at Chen Xiang's mother, hearing Chen Xiang speak like this, he frowned suddenly, slapped his thigh with his right hand, stood up suddenly, and shouted loudly: "If you don't marry, you have to marry." You owe so much money to school that we can't afford to pay for you. You also talked about the partner, now you have no money, people look down on you, and they won't marry you. Your cousin, what's wrong? People have money, houses, and jobs. You will only be blessed in the past. Because the tone of her voice suddenly rose, her mother's voice was highly distorted, and she was illiterate and uneducated, and she spoke straight out of her chest without the slightest detour. However, these straightforward words pierced Chen Xiang's heart like the tip of a needle, and he only felt a cramping pain in his chest.

Chen Xiang can't stand the cheesiness of his parents, he is a rural baby, although he is poor, he has read more or less and has a little culture, he wants to marry someone who he likes to see. Chen Xiang was also sitting on the bench, but when he heard his mother's roar, he suddenly got up and walked towards the door, walking towards the three mud houses next door that his parents had built for his brother. Because he was in a hurry to get up, his arm flicked, and his hand touched the small table for dinner, and it hurt for a while, and he didn't care about it.

Chen Xiang has four elder brothers, one elder brother died when he was a child, and the other three elder brothers are now married, and their parents each built them such a house for them to get married and live, the difference is that when the parents and brothers get married, the family can still take out the bride price money, and now it is his turn, and the family can't get a bride price money.

When Chen Xiang was still studying, he was thrown to sleep in the mud house that his parents had prepared for his brother's marriage many years ago, and now his brother and sister-in-law have already built a new house, which is becoming less and less common in the village, and has long been outdated, and has gradually become a symbol of their village's past life.

Chen Xiang understood that his parents had already planned to let him marry a daughter-in-law as soon as he graduated, so that he could separate from him, but he had just graduated and didn't know how to be independent. Blank and helpless wrapped around his heart, and he was about to suffocate.

When he got up the next morning, Chen Xiang came to his parents for dinner, and when he was still in the yard, he heard his mother's crying and scolding from inside the house: "You white-eyed wolf, raising you so big, you have no chance of dying, and you are still at home." Why is my life so miserable。。。。。。 He was very annoyed and wanted to turn around, but his father hurriedly called out to him, "Chen Xiang, come here." Your mom has something to tell you. ”

Chen Xiang walked into the low mud house where his parents lived, and his mother stopped crying and scolding, and asked, "Are you going or not, if you don't go, I'll die for you." Chen Xiangyi frowned, "I'm not going, I'll go out to find a job." I don't eat yours. ”

The mother suddenly got up, grabbed the rope on the table and threatened: "If you don't go to Beijing, I will die for you." With that, the mother immediately rushed out the door. His father shouted at him, "Stop your mother, she's going to the back woods." Chen Xiang rushed to his mother's side, subconsciously stretched out his hand, and stopped his mother.

The mother asked threateningly, "Are you going or not?" Chen Xiang lowered his head and replied lightly: "I'll pack my luggage." His answer was pale and weak, and there was no trace of life or emotion.

The mother looked at her father, turned to him and said, "Then let's eat." I'll pack your clothes for you and go buy tickets tomorrow. ”

Chen Xiang didn't leave the next day, and his mother knew that he wouldn't go. For three days and three nights in a row, they wept and scolded and shouted, seeking death and life. Chen Xiang saw that this family couldn't stay any longer. It seems that his parents have relented and driven him away this time. There was a desolation in my heart. He didn't know, why did his parents do this? Why would he be forced to do something he didn't like.

Chen Xiang returned to the house, slowly packed up his clothes, tears couldn't help but slide down, through the hazy tears, he suddenly saw his desolate childhood, when he was still young, not by his parents' side, there are many brothers in the family, he is the eldest of the sons, his mother threw him to his grandmother, grandma is also a rural woman, prefers grandchildren, granddaughters, a little delicious, they are also distributed to those cousins and cousins, every time it is time to eat, he is driven out by his grandmother, and he can only find wild fruits to eat in the grave. Thinking of this, the pain in his heart was less, in this family, he had never received any love.

It's just that he really doesn't want to marry the cousin he doesn't know and doesn't have a good feeling. It's okay to let him endure hardships and be tired, but for Chen Xiang, love is incompatible. However, Chen Xiang also figured it out, his parents had no choice, so they let themselves go to Beijing, standing in the position of their parents, they were also for their own good. Thinking so, he decided to wait until he arrived in Beijing and then see the opportunity to act, no matter what, he needs to solve his work problems at the moment and do something in the future. Perhaps, when I arrived in Beijing, it was an opportunity.

With 500 yuan from his parents selling livestock, Chen Xiang left the small village that made him sad. For him, tomorrow is like a mist in the winter morning, a place of confusion.