At Sister Tao's house, Sister Tao and Zhang Tao were drinking wine and chatting. Both of them had a bitter stomach, and while chatting, they both entered the state.

It's really that everyone is drunk if they are not drunk, everyone is self-suffering if they are not bitter, and everyone is self-obsessed if they are not charming.

"Taogu, let's have another drink with my sister!" Sister Tao spits out words like pearls, phoenix-eyed Bodhi, and her demeanor is charming.

"Sister, can you still drink?" Zhang Tao's heart lake rippled, scratching his ears and cheeks.

Sister Tao realized her gaffe and immediately stood up.

"Just this little bit of wine, can you get Sister Tao drunk? You look down on your Sister Peach too much! She said with a haha.

"Today, I can pour out the words and depression in my heart, and my sister is much happier. Come, sister will have a few more drinks with you. ”

"That's fine! As long as you're not drunk, you're done! ”

Zhang Tao knows that usually, Sister Tao occasionally drinks some beer alone, and she also has a little bit of alcohol, four or five bottles of beer is not a problem.

Now, after drinking these two bottles, you shouldn't get drunk.

Zhang Tao drank the liquor in the cup, and also grabbed a bottle of beer and drank it.

"Sister, you say, how can this society be so complicated and so dark? Why is it so difficult for a poor family to have some head-to-head work? ”

Looking at the foaming beer bottle in his hand, Zhang Tao looked extremely confused.

"Yes! It's hard to do anything. ”

"It's like I do this business, I have my own car, I go out early and return late every day, it's okay in the countryside, and it's just to support my family."

Sister Tao also sighed, "Compared with those officials and big bosses, this money is not enough to stuff their teeth!" ”

"Countrymen's children may be the only bright road to study and go to university."

"Not to mention, the high tuition and miscellaneous fees make most rural people unable to afford to educate their children."

"Even if the whole family is used to educate their children, how many people are famous for reading? What about getting into a university that is more difficult than climbing the ladder? ”

"As far as the university entrance examination is concerned, there is a huge gap between rural children and urban children, it is not at the same starting point, there is a huge gap in economic conditions, learning environment, psychological burden and so on!"

"First of all, children in the city don't need to think about money, but children in the countryside have to worry about three meals every day, and sometimes they even have to go to school hungry because they have to squeeze the little living expenses out of their family's teeth."

"The years of study are the stage when a person grows physically. Especially in the sprint stage of the third year of high school, it takes a lot of physical and mental power and requires sufficient nutrition. ”

"In addition to a good life, children in the city eat all kinds of nutritional supplements every day, but children in the countryside are so hungry that their eyes are dizzy, where can they have enough physical and mental power to concentrate on studying?"

"The second is the learning environment and conditions, which are incomparable. Children in the city receive various training and counseling from an early age, and their horizons are broadened and their knowledge is broadened. As soon as they have short legs in school, they will immediately get all kinds of professional tutoring outside of class..."

After a pause, Zhang Tao took a big sip of wine and continued: "These are still secondary, and the most important thing is the gap in psychological burden. ”

"The kids in the city travel light, and going to university is just the icing on the cake. If you can't pass the exam, you can choose to repeat it at will. If they don't repeat their studies, their families will also plan for their future. ”

"But for rural children, this is not only the burden of their families' cold blood for their own education, but also the change of identity and fate, and the heavy pressure of the whole department on the university entrance examination."

"In a word, getting into college is their ultimate goal, and the results have an immeasurable impact on them and their families."

"Under such heavy pressure, no matter how good his psychological quality is, can he play his level normally?"

"My failure this time is actually not due to poor grades, but due to psychological tension and abnormal performance."

Sister Tao also said depressedly, "Yes! The government calls for narrowing the gap between urban and rural areas every day, but the urban and rural hukou alone artificially divides society into two strata, and there is an insurmountable huge gap between the two. ”

"What the country people do, no matter how hard they work, the result can't catch up with the city people."

Zhang Tao's words also made Sister Tao realize that this little man's heart is far from being as easy as it seems on the surface.

He shouldn't nag about some unpleasant things anymore and arouse more worries in him.

"Come, Taogu, drink!" She picked up her glass and said heartily.

"Man, don't think too much! No matter how hard life is, no matter how much pressure there is, no matter how many worries there are, people have to live. ”

"That's better to have a happier and more free and easy life every day!"

"Maybe one day, I will adapt to such a day, or I may suddenly find that life has changed for the better."

Sister Tao's words did not make Zhang Tao's dull heart relax.

After he drank a bottle of beer in one gulp, he instead borrowed wine to kill his sorrows.

Sister Tao in front of her is so beautiful, gentle and empathetic, as if she is her mother, or a backer and pillar.

Looking at her, Zhang Tao couldn't help revealing that he was easily unwilling to show his vulnerability.

"Sister, I don't dare to go back, I don't dare to face my parents and sister who have made great sacrifices for me." He said pitifully.

"Although they won't blame me and will pretend to be indifferent, I know that in their hearts, they will definitely be extremely painful and angry."

"Sister, what should I do? I am strong, but what is the use of being strong? Will it alleviate their suffering? Can you suppress my remorse? ”

"The main thing is, if I'm strong, can I change my current situation? Where is my way out? ……”

Speaking of the back, various emotions such as grief, anger, resentment, and confusion surged in Zhang Tao's heart, making him unable to say complete words.

He had to stop, gasping for air, his body trembling violently, apparently suffering from all sorts of suffering.

The little man in front of him, usually giggling and cynical, is now in deep pain and can't extricate himself.

Seeing him like this, Sister Tao couldn't help but feel pity in her heart and hugged him lightly.

She patted him on the back, hoping to ease his pain with motherly love and feminine tenderness.

Sister Tao wants to say something comforting, but what can she say?

No matter how beautiful it is, it can't change the situation that is currently plaguing him!

Perhaps, just let him be like this, quietly release and vent the depression and distress accumulated in his heart, and maybe make him feel better.

Maybe......

Drunkenness and inner sorrow, Zhang Tao's consciousness gradually blurred, and his behavior began to get out of control.

It was as if he had fallen into a rose-colored dream, indulging in galloping and fighting hard.

When he woke up, he was naked, lying on Sister Tao's bed, and he was wearing only a pair of pants on his lower body.

The bed was neat, even the sheets had been replaced with new ones, and there seemed to be no sign of a fight.

"Sister Peach! Sister Peach! Zhang Tao exclaimed.

"You're finally awake!"

Sister Tao walked in, her expression was neither happy nor sad.

"Sister, why am I sleeping here?" Zhang Tao said confusedly.

Sister Tao didn't answer, just looked at Zhang Tao seriously, trying to find out from his expression whether he was pretending to be confused, or if he really didn't remember.

"Sister, what do you keep seeing me doing? You're embarrassing people. Zhang Tao said with a hippie smile.

He was worried that he had done something wrong and made Sister Tao angry, so he wanted to distract her.

This guy is either too good at acting, or he really doesn't remember what he did when he was drunk. This is the judgment made by Sister Tao after introspection.

Whatever it is, he pretends to be confused, and he really doesn't remember.

Anyway, she had already decided to treat this as a dream and hide it in her heart forever.

If he doesn't take the initiative, she won't be good, and she won't break it.

Today's incident was of her own volition, and she had no complaints.

But there is still a trace of loneliness in her heart.

If he really didn't remember, it would have made sense.

What if he is pretending to be confused, doesn't that mean that he is an irresponsible man?

However, she quickly threw away the loneliness and pretended to be confused.

"You were just drunk, don't you know?"

"Yes! I remember drinking with you, why did I end up in bed again? ”

Zhang Tao patted his head and recalled with his heart.

"Besides, I don't seem to have drunk much, so how can I be drunk?"

"You really don't remember anything?" Sister Tao asked suspiciously.

"I don't really remember anything about it, I just remember leaning on... Leaning on... Your..."

After the words, Zhang Tao stammered and didn't say anything.

His throat moved, and unconsciously, he made another deep swallowing motion.

Obviously, the sight he remembered made him salivate.

Zhang Tao's cringeful expression, Sister Tao is not surprised.

She knew the meaning of Zhang Tao's words.

However, her mind did not stop at this now.

"How so? Aren't you drunk? ”

She still didn't give up and asked, "How could you not remember at all?" ”

Zhang Tao thought about it again, but he really didn't remember anything.

He hesitated and said, "When I was a child, I fell from a tree and hit my head. An old Chinese medicine doctor said that it may have some effects on the brain in the future. He hesitated to explain.

"Later, there were two such cases, and after being stimulated, drinking and my memories were fragmented, and I fell into a deep sleep for no reason. Maybe that's the case this time too. ”

Sister Tao recalled Zhang Tao's appearance at that time, his eyes were slightly closed, his expression was excited, his movements were powerful and rough, but his expression was a little sluggish, wooden, and lacking aura.

Besides, with her understanding of Zhang Tao, he doesn't seem to be the kind of man who doesn't dare to take responsibility.

She breathed a sigh of relief. This thing made it rot in my heart.

In the future, I can continue to pretend to be confused like this, and continue to maintain this kind of relationship with him, not a brother and sister are better than brothers, not a lover, but there is a little bit of flavor.

Updated 09-01

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