"Dad, you... What's the matter with you? Zhang Tao saw his father's tense and extremely serious face, and his heart was a little frightened.

"Sit down! I have something to talk to you about. Renlong pointed to the chair beside him and said solemnly to Zhang Tao.

My father, who has always been giggling and not very careful, rarely speaks with this attitude! What is worthy of his prudence and seriousness? And this posture doesn't seem to be a matter of words, Zhang Tao muttered to himself in his heart.

"Tugu, in the past few days, I have talked a lot about you with Gao Zi and these classmates from your city, which has given me a better understanding of your performance in school. Overall, your life, work and study are still good, and the failure of the college entrance examination this time is also an unexpected accident. I know you're feeling very uncomfortable, and the family is actually uncomfortable, and your mother has secretly cried several times. ”

Zhang Tao didn't answer, but a mist appeared in his heart.

Renlong then asked lightly, "We'll leave those things behind, what are your plans in the future?" When he said this, he looked at Zhang Tao with sharp eyes, as if he wanted to dig some secret in Zhang Tao.

Zhang Tao couldn't stand his father's eyes, he lowered his head and said uneasily: "I... I haven't thought about it yet. ”

Renlong was a little angry and said, "Do you still need to think about this? What did your classmates and brothers say? They are all very sad and unconvinced, shouting that you will be responsible for all your expenses next year, and hope that you will be admitted to a top ten school next year to show their faces. What a classmate! I'm all proud and happy about that. Your school and teachers will also give you encouragement and comfort through Gaozi's message, waive your tuition and fees, and invite you to continue your studies. Not to mention the family, even if you don't eat or drink, you have to continue to repeat your studies and be admitted to university. We have discussed your affairs together several times, your mother said that she would raise two more pigs in the second half of the year, Mengxue said that she would pick up charcoal as soon as she got ashore, and Mengfang also shouted that she wanted to drop out of school to protect your studies. ”

After a pause, he said earnestly: "I am not saying this to put pressure on you, but to tell you that you are the hope of the whole family!" The family spends so much money for you to study, and now it is only one step away, and the family is looking forward to you raising your eyebrows after high school, and you also have advantages and strength, as long as you use a little more snacks, you can make a comeback. ”

Zhang Tao's head was pressed low, and his eyes were a little moist. His father's words hit him again and again like a hammer, and he felt sad and confused again. There are three paths in front of me, repeating, working, and farming, how should I choose?

Renlong continued to say in a deep voice: "I guess the reason for your uncertainty now. Maybe you still want to continue your dream of running away from home and wandering the rivers and lakes, but with a high school diploma, you can run around blindly without any skills, what kind of fame can you run? Besides, wasn't that a lesson you learned that summer? Maybe you want to work as a farmer at home and do something to change the face of your hometown. But what do you use to change it? With your mouth or with your full strength? Your heart is good, but if you think about it seriously, is this possible? It's not me who strikes you, Tugu, don't be whimsical and daydream! As long as you decide to farm, not for a few years, I dare to say, not only will you not change your hometown at all, but you will let your hometown change you. What kind of enthusiasm and ideals do you! It will all go to the mud of your hometown with your sweat. Although going to university is not the only way in life, compared to farming at home and running around the world, perhaps this is the safest and brightest way. ”

Although almost everyone in the village knew about Zhang Tao's investment of 2 million yuan to set up a farm, Renlong did not know about it, and Zhang Tao did not dare to tell his father, who was naturally afraid of his father. Besides, he also knew that his father had only college entrance examination in his mind as the right way out, and would never agree to him doing this. It was only in this way that he took the first cut and then the play. And he also thought about it, this matter will be told to his father by the village cadres and some prestigious elders, and after there is a buffer process and time for his father to think, if he explains it, maybe his father will be more likely to accept it.

However, his father's words tonight still touched Zhang Tao a little and hit his soft underbelly, and the thoughts he had generated during this time were a little shaken, as if he felt that a certain university was really beckoning to him. Yes! Repeating is the easiest and most convenient way to go, and it is in line with everyone's wishes. With his own strength, it is entirely possible to squeeze onto the single-plank bridge for the university entrance examination. Part-time work and farming are full of many unknown risks and hardships. Maybe this is actually just a dream that I built because of cowardice and cowardice to escape the reality of falling off the list.

Renlong's words continued, and he especially emphasized: "You are the eldest son in the family, you must think carefully about everything, you can't be rash and impulsive, you must consider yourself, but also the people around you, especially your relatives." ”

Speaking of which, he solemnly mentioned Zhang Tao's tired mother and sister who dropped out of school, "When you make any decisions, you have to think about whether you are worthy of what they have given you." ”

Finally, Renlong patted his son on the shoulder and comforted him, "Okay, don't think too much!" Dad also suffers from this, so don't fall in the same place again. I heard from Mengzi that they plan to go back tomorrow, so you can go with them. There's not much going on at home anyway, you go to see Nana, and by the way, go to the school to talk to the teacher and see when it's time to make up the class. After speaking, he left Zhang Tao in a daze and walked away.

Zhang Tao felt that it was time to think about his father's words and his own future, and there was no escaping it. He walked out of the bay. The two gangs of people on the Heping were fighting in the wine field, and shouts and shouts sounded from time to time. A large number of children gathered on the playground of the elementary school, they were playing, chasing, and playing carefree. Some adults also stood there in twos and threes, smoking cigarettes and chatting about topics of interest to each other.

Tonight, the stars are brilliant, the moonlight is like silver, and all kinds of sounds are also colliding, intertwining and reverberating in the sky above the mountain chong, setting off the peaceful and lively atmosphere of the countryside. But all this has nothing to do with Zhang Tao, his heart is full of contradictions, and all kinds of contradictions are entangled, weaving annoying sorrows.

"Repeat it? I will continue to repeat my studies, but will I be able to get into university? What if you fall off the list again? ……”

Zhang Tao didn't dare to think about it, and the result of thinking about it made him afraid and afraid.