Chapter 334: Widowhood and Loneliness
People are social animals, so we can't live alone, we all need friends.
No matter what kind of personality you are, as long as you are still human, you probably won't like to be lonely and lonely.
When people live, they must have love in their hearts, and then it will be more interesting for us to live.
If we no longer have love in our hearts, we no longer have any thoughts about it, we no longer think about the opposite sex, we no longer keep our faith in old friends, then we have become walking dead in a few books.
To live like this is to die as well.
However, in this world, there are still such people.
In their hearts, they have long lost their love for others, and what they love most in their hearts is always themselves. They think that the world is so big that no one else can live without him. They are extremely selfish and never put themselves in the shoes of others. They are ruthless, but they are also people with extremely inflated desires and ambitions. They abandoned the world, so they were also abandoned by the world, and they were destined to be widowed and lonely for the rest of their lives.
When being strong has made you lose friends, then being strong is a mistake.
When you think that others don't know you well enough, then you should try to understand them first, because you don't know the world either.
In this world, there are everyone, and naturally there are people who can endure strong loneliness and loneliness.
Such a person is either a god or a nerve.
God is lonely because they are on high and few people can really see their world.
Nerves are also lonely because they live only in their own world forever, and few people are able to understand their world.
There is only a thin line between a genius and a madman; God and nerves are just one word.
In the rivers and lakes, most of the top masters in the martial arts are lonely.
For example, Xiaoyao, the director of Xiaoyaomen, is the best in the world in martial arts, and few people can reach his realm at all, so he is lonely, and he has become a god in the eyes of the world.
is also like Mei Yun Shitai, she was originally like Ren Xiaoyao, a god-like character in the martial arts. However, she was so hard to get rid of her demons, and finally gradually went to the extreme because of this, and became a crazy woman's nerves. She could have become a god, but on the contrary, she became a nerve in the eyes of the world.
All her life, she wanted to kill someone, the so-called rival in her heart. She had always believed that Master could not accept her feelings only because of the existence of that woman. However, she may not have thought that in the eyes of others, she is not even someone else's rival.
Before Mei Yun went mad, her concentration was not bad, and she was a complete ascetic. For this reason, she spent a long period of time in retreat in order to get rid of the demons in her heart. However, it backfired, and in the end she was defeated by the desires in her heart. She's gone to the real extreme, she's really going crazy.
Fortunately, his mentor was still there, so he subdued her and imprisoned her, hoping that she would not be angry with the world.
But in her own opinion, she was abandoned by her master, abandoned by her brothers and sisters, and abandoned by the world.
As a result, she also abandoned the world, so she was destined to be widowed and lonely.
She was imprisoned in the Kunlun sect dungeon for more than ten years, and as soon as she got out of the customs, she sucked human blood to help the demons, so now the demonic nature in her heart is already deep-rooted. Even if Qi Yongsen, a master of the Kunlun faction, crawled out of the coffin again, I am afraid that he would not be able to save her.
Now, she had a thought in her heart, she was going to kill the vixen in her heart. Because she thinks that her current widowhood and loneliness are all abandoned by her.
The fox spirit in her heart is naturally the jade-faced lady Shen Lingyu is also! Other than that, there is no one else.
Qi Yongsen, Qu Qingwei (Mei Yun Shitai) and Shen Lingyu, the entanglement between them is actually not well known to outsiders. Even those who are very close to these three people don't know much about these complex relationships.
The world only knows that Qi Yongsen died alone in Kunlun Mountain in the end, so it seems that he did not marry a wife and have children. However, this is only a façade, in fact, he not only has a wife of his own, but also a daughter, who is now sixteen years old. His wife is Shen Lingyu, a jade-faced lady, and the daughter they gave birth to is named Qi Xiaoling, who is a very lively little girl. But she hadn't seen her father since she was sensible, and she didn't even know his own name, because his father had abandoned them when she was two or three years old, and for what reason, she didn't know at all. However, believing that her mother should know why, she tried to ask her mother several times for information about her father, but her mother seemed so angry that she wanted to reprimand him. Since then, she has not dared to ask anything about her father.
However, the rumors in the rivers and lakes are indeed true, and Shen Lingyu, a jade-faced lady, has indeed rarely gone down to Tiansheng Mountain. The reason why Qi Yongsen knew Shen Lingyu was because he heard that there was a magic doctor in Tiansheng Mountain, and he was Shen Lingyu's master. Qi Yongsen was also interested in medical skills, so he went up the mountain to ask for medical advice, so he met Shen Lingyu, who was still studying medicine at that time. Since then, Qi Yongsen has been obsessed with Shen Lingyu and can't extricate himself. Because Shen Lingyu didn't like to see outsiders, Qi Yongsen went to Tiansheng Mountain to accompany her whenever he was free. Later, Shen Lingyu took charge of the Yulin faction, and Shen Lingyu's master had also died, so Tiansheng Mountain simply became a comfortable nest for the two, and it was during that time that they gave birth to their daughter Qi Xiaoling.
Such happy days have been going on for two or three years, and Qi Yongsen has never talked about Shen Lingyu to outsiders, and even Cao Yonglin, the senior brother of his Kunlun faction, doesn't know much about this matter. Shen Lingyu doesn't like to see people in the rivers and lakes, and because of this, Qi Yongsen is afraid that someone will go up the mountain to disturb her, so she doesn't talk about it to outsiders, the purpose is just to protect their mother and daughter, but it's not an exaggeration.
However, things finally took a turn for the worse.
One day two years later, someone from the Emei faction suddenly asked to see Qi Yongsen, saying that Mei Yun was too closed to practice, and he went mad.
After Qi Yongsen heard this, his expression was very complicated, so he still didn't think much about it, so he went back to Emei Mountain with his Emei disciples, and it didn't take long for him to bring Mei Yun Shitai back to the Kunlun faction. But because of this, Qi Yongsen only felt guilty in his heart, so he didn't dare to return to Tiansheng Mountain, nor did he dare to see Shen Lingyu's mother and daughter again. There is another reason, Mei Yun is so enchanted that no one is willing to take care of him except him. Since then, Qi Yongsen has been taking care of Mei Yun Shitai in the Kunlun Sect, and has never set foot on Tiansheng Mountain again. Although Tiansheng Mountain is not too far from Kunlun Mountain, Shen Lingyu also knows that Mei Yun Shitai is in the Kunlun faction, so she is embarrassed to go up the mountain to find Qi Yongsen, and she gradually thinks that Qi Yongsen is precisely because of that female apprentice, so he abandoned his wife and daughter and left them.
Qi Yongsen finally realized that there were too many people to live up, so he no longer had any other love, and since then he has little desire, widowhood and loneliness, and his desire ends.
In this way, it's not just that Mei Yun hates Shen Lingyu too much, but in fact, Shen Lingyu hates Mei Yun even more. Without her, she could have had a happy family and a husband she could have trusted. However, Qi Yongsen was finally dragged down by Mei Yunshi for a lifetime, and abandoned his wife and daughter for her. How can this kind of hatred be too small than Mei Yunshi?
In fact, the crux of the problem is not in Qi Yongsen, nor in Shen Lingyu, but in Qu Qingwei (Mei Yun Shitai). Because she couldn't let go, she dragged Qi Yongsen all his life. After Qi Yongsen took Mei Yun Shitai back to the Kunlun faction, it was not that he didn't want to go to the Heavenly Holy Mountain, nor was it because he was ruthless, so he could give up his wife and daughter.
The main reason is because he understands too clearly, he deeply understands one thing, if he returns to Tiansheng Mountain at this time, he will definitely not be able to come down.
First, Shen Lingyu also knew about Qu Qingwei's existence, if he returned to Tiansheng Mountain, Shen Lingyu would definitely not let him go down the mountain again; Second, even after he went up the mountain, Shen Lingyu was reasonable to let him come back, but in the face of his wife and daughter, he was afraid that he would be reluctant to leave immediately; Third, if he stayed on the Heavenly Saint Mountain, then in the Kunlun faction, even his senior brother Cao Yonglin, most of them would not take care of a crazy woman from another sect. Of course, it is even more impossible for her to take Shen Lingyu back to the Kunlun faction, with Shen Lingyu's character, he would rather die than go.
In this way, what was originally a beautiful woman has become an endgame like this.
Mei Yun's martial arts are extremely high, and Shen Lingyu is just good at medical skills, although her martial arts are not low, she still can't compare with Mei Yunli's master at all.
After Mei Yun broke Shen Lingyu's formation, she searched everywhere on Tiansheng Mountain, but she still couldn't find the entrance to the Yulin Sect Cave Mansion.
Although Mei Yunshi also knew that Shen Lingyu lived in Tiansheng Mountain in her early years, and even threatened to kill her, she had never been to Tiansheng Mountain. The two had met, and Shen Lingyu's master was still there at that time, and when he went to the Kunlun faction to discuss martial arts and medical skills with Qi Yongsen, he often took Shen Lingyu with him. It's just that under normal circumstances, Shen Lingyu herself would never go down to the Heavenly Sacred Mountain lightly.
"Vixen, get out of here?" Mrs. Mei Yun searched around the mountain again, but she still couldn't find the entrance, and she couldn't find Shen Lingyu herself, so she immediately became impatient, and only scolded loudly in the forest.
However, the Tiansheng Mountain is densely forested, and she only allows Mei Yun to scold in the forest, and there is always only an echo in response to her.
Some people want to fight; And some people, not fighting, fighting.
Shen Lingyu can actually fight for it. As long as she wants, she can take Qi Yongsen back very lightly, because the person Qi Yongsen loves in his heart is her after all, but she doesn't.
Mrs. Mei Yun, in fact, there is nothing to fight for. Even if she is not Qi Yongsen's female apprentice, there is still no possibility between them, because he doesn't love her at all.
Tragedy is often caused by misalignment, nothing more.