Different from factories and government agencies, schools usually arrange work in academic years, from September to January of the following year is the first semester, that is, the autumn semester, followed by winter vacation, February to June is the second semester, that is, spring semester, July and August summer vacation. A full academic year spans two years.

The spring semester involves enrollment and college entrance examinations, and the work is busy, from the middle level of the school to the teachers, students and staff, all of them are like whipping spinning tops, turning around. Some people are busy working, some people are busy rushing to dinner, but these busyness are other people's, Chen Siping stays in the forgotten corner, and lives a very leisurely life.

On this day, Director Lu of the Teaching Office called Chen Siping over, and without asking for his opinion, he directly assigned him a job. The teacher in charge of the library is old and needs someone to help her do some physical work, and the school can't spare manpower for a while, so let him go over to help, half a day in the library, half a day in the auditorium, take care of it.

This is not a difficult matter, Chen Siping agreed very happily, and his attitude made Director Lu very satisfied, and he felt that he had not seen the wrong person in the recruitment.

Director Lu led Chen Siping to the library, informed the teacher, and arranged for Xiao Chen to come over to help and take a hand. She mentioned it to the teaching office several times, but she didn't expect it to be Chen Siping.

The so-called "manual work", that is, moving books and tidying up the bookshelves, Aunt Guan is old after all, it is no problem to wear reading glasses and sit and catalog, it is not convenient to climb high and squat low, Chen Siping is still young and has great strength, so it is not a matter of doing more work.

Helping in the library, there is also a little benefit, the library has to eliminate the inventory every year, buy new books, what books you want to read, you can buy them back together, and the catalog is not in the warehouse for the time being, a sneak peek. The old books in the library have gone through the hands of many people, they are both broken and dirty, and they are not as good as the new books.

Aunt Guan just mentioned it casually, but Chen Siping went to his heart, and when he returned to the storeroom, he slowly drank hot tea, pondering what books to buy for public and private purposes.

After work, Chen Siping bought some pig's head meat and a bottle of beer, planning to go back and relax. When I passed through the intersection and waited for the red light, I looked at the busy flow of people, the traffic was busy, and I was at a loss.

The mountains and rivers are originally dust, he is the dust of the dust, he came to this world by chance, and one day he will leave. The departure of his father deviated from the usual direction of his life, the single-parent family lacked love, restraint and interference, he had no desire to get married and have children, he hid alone in the storage room at work, and hid alone in a small room after work, but he was also unrestrained and happy.

Chen Siping looked at the men, women and children on the cross street, hurrying, rushing for their livelihood and their children, and felt that he was lucky. It is a blessing to be free from the worldly life.

The sun sets, the sunset is like a brocade, the high-rise buildings are smeared with a layer of warm gold, Chen Siping likes such a tone, bright but not dazzling, like an old man who has experienced ups and downs, others don't care about you, you don't care about others.

Chen Siping rode a bicycle and returned home slowly, and his mother saw that he came back with pig's head meat, picking fat and thin, and nagging for a while, but her son ignored it, and she was angry, and she dropped the rice spoon and didn't want to cook. Chen Siping cooked a pot of instant noodles, drank beer with pig's head meat, waited for the noodles to cool down, snorted and ate his stomach, and sweated profusely.

After taking a shower and hiding in the air-conditioned room and closing the curtains, Chen Siping picked up a book casually, turned a few pages, his eyes gradually drifted, and he remembered his father for no reason.

Chen Siping took his mother's surname, and his father's surname was Zhou. He remembers very well that in the spring of his 11th year, when he was in the fourth grade of elementary school, his father suddenly ran away from home, and he never came back, and his mother was angry and irritable, but not very sad.

In Chen Siping's impression, his father was a tall person, and he always hid in his room, reading silently alone, and rarely laughed like ordinary people. Their life is only noisy, on weekdays, his mother forces him to do his homework, hates that iron is not steel, his throat rings like a quarrel, he watches TV on holidays and has fun, laughing back and forth, and the whole house echoes.

At that time, Chen Siping didn't read, and his mother didn't read either, their throats were very loud, they were impulsively noisy for a little thing, spilling things, and life was bumpy.

Chen Siping didn't understand his father, and he instinctively noticed that his father didn't like him. Chen Siping is very close to his mother, and even has some mother-love complexes, but they will fight for a few days, one crying, the other screaming, and then get back together, never going to their hearts. Maybe this is the worldly life, there is no elegance at all, the father obviously can't accept it, he is powerless to change, he can only tolerate, restrain and escape.

Tolerance, restraint, escape, there is always a limit, metal will also fatigue, when the string in the heart is broken, the father has to run away from home.

He thought it through and walked calmly, the keys and passbooks were left in the drawer of the desk, the personal belongings were neatly packed and piled up in the corner of the balcony, the inconsequential things, the ones that should be thrown away, the ones that should be given away. He walked alone, without letters, without a message, and disappeared into this world like air, and since then he has been flying away without concern.

can't stand the worldly life, escape from the torture of the family, have no nostalgia for his wife and children, and if he is determined to leave, he can't stop it. In any case, life has to go on, and for Chen Siping and his mother, the lack of such a person does not affect anything, and in a sense, they are also relieved to relieve themselves of the invisible burden that they are not aware of.

Time has changed everything, and no one expected that Chen Siping would become more and more like his father, silent like him, read like him, and crave and enjoy solitude like him. Many years later, Chen Siping began to look at the past with a detached mentality, and began to understand his father, how can a person live a life of chickens and dogs, reading Dostoevsky? Reading is an experience, and reading is an exclusive, solitary way of life.

However, with his shallow life experience, Chen Siping has never been able to understand how a person can not like his son.