My sister has amnesia.

The memory is stuck in four years ago, when she and my boyfriend Lu Zhou still hadn't broken up.

On the day of my wedding to Lu Zhou, my mother locked me in my room and asked my twin sister Qin Yun to complete the wedding for me.

I always thought that Lu Zhou was also kept in the dark by them, until I cried and pushed Qin Yun to the ground, Lu Zhou hugged her who was crying and became angry at me, "Qin Shi, Xiaoyun, she is sick, can't you be more considerate of her?" ”

If you have amnesia, will you die?

I will.

Because the one whose days are running out is me.

1

Qin Yun took Lu Zhou's hand and swore sovereignty to me, "Xiaoshi, I know you also like Lu Zhou, but from today on, he will be your brother-in-law." You must know that from childhood to adulthood, you will never be able to compete with me. ”

My mother pushed me out, "On the big day, you have to make trouble, don't you?" You were born to torment me. ”

Lu Zhou avoided my harsh gaze the whole time, and didn't say another word.

I looked at the absurd farce in front of me, and it was as if I had been drained of my strength.

The wedding room that I arranged with my own hands has now become the most incompatible person with this.

I couldn't stay for a second, and went back to my rental room with Lu Zhou like a ghost.

Lu Zhou didn't come back until three o'clock in the morning, the moment the lights came on, Lu Zhou was startled by me sitting on the sofa, I extinguished the cigarette in my hand, and said in a low voice, "Lu Zhou, let's get a divorce, can I give Qin Yun a place?" ”

Lu Zhou didn't speak, poured out the cigarette butts full of ashtrays, and skillfully put away my cigarette case and lighter.

Then he sat down on the couch next to him, "Don't make a fuss, okay?" Shishi, if you didn't have to hold a wedding at this juncture, today's events would not have happened, and Xiaoyun's current situation can't be stimulated. The wedding is just a formality, we have all received the certificate for a year, what else do you have to worry about? ”

I looked him in the eye and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I've occupied this position for so long, and I should have returned it to Qin Yun a long time ago." ”

Lu Zhou's expression froze, and he took my hand in a panic, "Shishi, don't talk angry, Xiaoyun and I are already in the past, and my wife is you Qin Shi." ”

I withdrew my hand and said, word for word, "Not anymore." ”

After speaking, he entered the bedroom and locked the door.

Lu Zhou's voice sounded outside the door, "Shishi, I know you're angry now, you can't listen to what I say, you rest early, I won't divorce you." ”

I kept my head shut out, shutting out all his voice.

Lu Zhou is right, this wedding was originally what I begged for.

It's a pity that what I asked for was not my own after all.

2

Lu Zhou and Qin Yun were originally a talented couple in college, and the two originally agreed to go to A University together, but in the first year, Lu Zhou failed the list, and Qin Yun was admitted.

Qin Yun, who was studying alone, empathized and fell in love with a rich second generation, and the two broke up.

It was at that time that I took advantage of the situation and stayed by Lu Zhou's side until he completely walked out of the shadow of lovelorn.

Then go with the flow of love to talk about marriage.

We got our license a year ago, but our wedding was postponed due to the pandemic.

It wasn't until half a year ago that Qin Yun came back and naturally lived in my house with Lu Zhou.

My own sister, the first person to contact when she came back was not me, but my husband Lu Zhou.

After that night, Lu Zhou hugged me and said, "Shishi, your sister may have to come to our house for a while." ”

Hearing this, my body stiffened, and their once sweet scenes flashed through my mind in an instant, and I tentatively asked, "Is she coming back?" I didn't know about it, and my mom didn't mention it. ”

Lu Zhou carefully worded, "She is not doing well now, and she doesn't dare to tell your mother, not to mention that you are her sister, in our family, you can still take care of her." We're just friends now, and I want to help her, you don't mind, do you? ”

I turned my back to him, and Lu Zhou came to hug me again, in a gesture of pleading.

I said, "What if I say I mind?" ”

Behind him, Lu Zhou sighed and said with a slight accusation, "Shishi, she is your sister after all." ”

In the dark, I couldn't help but laugh at myself, "You know she's my sister, too." ”

Lu Zhou was choked by me and stopped talking, withdrew his hands that were holding me, turned over, and turned his back to me.

I thought that this matter would be over, but unexpectedly, when I came back from work the next day, I saw Qin Yun wearing my pajamas and lying leisurely on the sofa.

I looked at her clothes and forgot to say hello for a moment.

This is my birthday gift from Lu Zhou on my birthday, it is a brand I like, I am reluctant to buy it, after Lu Zhou bought it for me, I treasured it and was reluctant to wear it.

Lu Zhou laughed at me, "Clothes are just used to wear, why are you reluctant." You look good in your clothes, and you will often wear them to me in the future. ”

Maybe now that the clothes are worn on Qin Yun's body, he will feel better.

Seeing me enter the door, Qin Yun shouted in the direction of the kitchen, "Lu Zhou, did you forget to buy pork ribs, my sister likes to eat them." ”

It was as if she were the mistress of the house, and I was just an uninvited guest who disturbed their sweet life.

Lu Zhou wiped his hands around his apron to help me take the things in my hand, and explained to me in a low voice, "I was originally going to help her book a hotel, but she said that she had just come back, and it would be uncomfortable to live alone." Shishi, don't be angry, she is just staying for a while. ”

The matter was a foregone conclusion, I didn't talk much, washed my hands and went to the kitchen to help Lu Zhou cook.

Qin Yun and I really have nothing to say, although we are twins, since we were children, the two of us are more like strangers living under the same roof.

At this moment, the kitchen and the living room are clearly separated, because Lu Zhou is by my side, and the anger I just entered the door has been more than half gone.

I just wanted to question Lu Zhou's pajamas, but in the next second, Lu Zhou caught me off guard.

"Shishi, Xiaoyun's favorite braised pork is better than your craftsmanship, so I won't get an axe." Lu Zhou took off his apron as he spoke, then put his hands around my waist and said softly, "She just came to our house, she must not be used to it, I will go out to talk to her for a while, can you do it alone?" ”

The apron was worn on me like this, compared to Qin Yun wearing luxurious pajamas outside the door, I was like a wife who couldn't go to the hall.

Now that I think about it, Lu Zhou's obvious preference, how did I think about marrying such a man?

3

Stomach aches and heart worries kept me awake all night.

When I went out in the morning, I felt sick to my stomach when I thought of Lu Zhou's resolute attitude of not divorcing last night.

As soon as I left the room, I saw that the house was already empty.

There was a burst of rice aroma on the dinner table, and it turned out to be my favorite sweet and sour pork ribs.

It turns out that this person doesn't remember what I like to eat, but he never takes it seriously.

Now he is so naïve that he wants to use a plate of food to save our precarious marriage, and he is really sick and rushed to the doctor.

I waited for Lu Zhou for a day to discuss the divorce with him, but he didn't come home until the evening.

I called him, and Lu Zhou on the other end of the phone explained, "Shishi, after I left yesterday, she made trouble all night, and said nothing today and won't let me go, otherwise, I'll sleep here tonight, okay?" His voice was very low, sounding more like a thief, "She's in a bad mood, in case something happens again." ”

At this moment, I didn't have much emotion, and asked rhetorically, "So you want to sleep with her?" ”

Lu Zhou's eager voice came from the other end of the phone, "Shishi, I won't do anything to be sorry for you." ”

So in his opinion, he repeatedly ran to other women, isn't it sorry for me?

I snorted coldly and said sarcastically, "Lu Zhou, divorce, you can sleep together justifiably after the divorce, how bad it is to say this, you two are cheating/love like this." ”

You don't have to look at the face of the person opposite to look good, Lu Zhou's voice suddenly rose, "Qin Shi, the more you talk, the more you go too far, why can't you be considerate of a patient?" When did you become so cold-blooded, how can you say that she is also your own sister. ”

My hands holding the phone trembled uncontrollably, "Yes, my sister is cold-blooded, and your brother-in-law is quite warm-hearted, and he takes care of everyone in bed." ”

After speaking, he hung up the phone in a hurry without waiting for him to speak again.

I sat on the sofa weakly, and soon the phone rang suddenly, and after I picked up the phone, I was scolded, "Are you willing to force your sister to death, you are a debt collector..."

I listened while crying, and suddenly interrupted her, "I must not be your own, otherwise how could you do this to me?" ”

The other end of the phone was quiet for a second, and then continued, "Your sister can't do without Lu Zhou, you are still young and have more choices, just let your sister once, can't you?" ”

I wiped the tears on my face and said with a smile, "Okay, why not, I can give her anything from childhood to adulthood, my husband can give it to her, and my mother can give it to her, no, you have never been mine, how can you talk about it." ”

The other end hung up the phone with a snap.

Qin Yun and I are also her daughters, but my mother has always favored one over the other.

Qin Yun has a separate room, and I can only build a bed in the utility room;

When I was bullied by my classmates in junior high school, she asked me to apologize to my classmates who bullied me and made me promise not to make my classmates angry in the future. Qin Yun bullied her classmates in the class and was pushed down, she resolutely asked the other party to apologize, and went to the principal's office for three days;

When I was in college, she said that I was 18 years old, and I wouldn't look for her after the tuition and living expenses. Qin Yun said that she was going to take the postgraduate entrance examination, she smiled and said, Xiaoyun is really promising, and your mother will raise you for a lifetime;

...

All of this is just because, that rainy night, I killed my father.

From that day on, my mom hated me.

If you hate me, you shouldn't have been born into this world.

Because I am a sinner, I have let Qin Yun do everything since I was a child, until she wants to leave the person I love the most.

She doesn't even need me to let her, she doesn't have to destroy it, and those I love will automatically approach her.

4

The next day, I packed my luggage and took a taxi to my wedding room with Lu Zhou.

The moment I opened the door, my mother in the house was obviously stunned, watching me pull my luggage, and couldn't help but push me out, "What are you doing here, why can't you see the good at home?" ”

I walked past her and into the door, "This is my home, why can't I come." ”

As soon as I entered the door, I saw Qin Yun lying lazily on the sofa I had carefully selected.

Looking at each other, Qin Yun's face suddenly became ugly, and he began to cover his head with a painful expression, calling out for a headache.

This is the sequelae after she fell to her head, her memory of amnesia stayed four years ago, and the doctor also diagnosed that Qin Yun also suffered from severe depression, in order not to irritate her, we did not tell her about the forgotten past.

Even if she called my husband to her side again and again.

I kept backing down, only to get them even worse.

I'm dying, and I finally don't want to take it anymore.

I threw my luggage aside, took out a cigarette and lit it, and then said casually, "Qin Yun, you live quite comfortably in my house, right?" ”

While taking care of Qin Yun, who had a headache, my mother wanted to rush up and block my mouth, but she was really lacking in skills.

Qin Yun cried and told me to get out, "Qin Shi, what nonsense are you talking about, this is my home, this is my home with Lu Zhou, you are not welcome in our family, please get out." ”

I don't plan to get used to her anymore, so I hit the nail on the head, "Four years ago, you broke up, and Lu Zhou is now my husband." But soon it won't, you want me to give it to you. ”

Qin Yun hugged his head with both heads and repeated in a low voice, "Impossible, impossible, you lied to me, you lied to me..."

My mother hugged her tightly in her arms and comforted her in a low voice, "Xiaoyun, mom is here, she is talking nonsense, don't believe her." The land boat is yours, and no one can take it away. ”

It wasn't until Qin Yun's state slowly calmed down that she rushed up and slapped me hard, "How could I give birth to a daughter like you, it's not enough to kill your father, and you want to kill your sister?" ”

I was knocked over the shoulder, and before I could come to my senses, a ceramic water glass exploded in front of me, splashing shards across my face, and a tingling pain followed by a warm liquid flowing out.

I don't know which sentence stimulated Qin Yun again, she actually smashed me with a cup like crazy.

That cup was the first couple item that Lu Zhou and I bought, and I kept it in the wedding room as a treasure.

was easily burned by Qin Yun.

The sound of opening the door sounded behind him, and he hurriedly passed by me, stepped on the fragments of the cup on the ground, and finally stopped in front of Qin Yun.

Lu Zhou looked nervous and checked Qin Yun's situation, as if I was the flood beast, "Xiao Yun, how are you?" ”

Qin Yun threw herself into his arms and cried pitifully, "Shishi, she blamed me for snatching you and wanted to hit me with a cup, but fortunately my mother stopped her in time." ”

Lu Zhou turned his head to look at me at this time, and if the anger in his eyes had substance, I would have been crushed and ashes a long time ago.

I looked at the mess in distraction, and said tiredly, "Lu Zhou, don't you know what that cup means to me?" ”

Lu Zhou seemed to notice the ceramic shards on the ground and the wound on my face.

After a while, he lightly dropped a sentence, "Isn't it just a cup, if it breaks, it will break." ”

5

That's right, a few years of affection can be said to be nothing, let alone an insignificant cup.

After appeasing Qin Yun, Lu Zhou cleaned the debris on the floor in the living room alone.

I watched him crouch down, carefully trying to put the cup together, and I thought it was funny.

This is what it looks like, and who is it for?

I dragged the box past him into the empty bedroom, and was about to close the door, when Lu Zhou blocked the door.

I thought he was going to continue to settle accounts with me again for his little rhyme, but who knew that the first thing he said made me vomit stomach acid.

Lu Zhou's expression was painful, and his eyes were full of puzzlement, "Shishi, do you no longer love me?" ”

The answer to him was my back running wildly towards the bathroom.

Sorry, I really threw up.

How could he still have the face to ask this question?

When I came out of the bathroom, Lu Zhou's expression was no longer as good as it had just been, his brows were frowned, his face was very ugly, he gritted his teeth and asked me, "Qin Shi, am I just making you sick like this now?" So what do you want to do when you come to make trouble? ”

"I said it yesterday, divorce." I wanted to laugh, but the wound on my face was torn and my nose ached.

Seeing this, Lu Zhou reached out and gently touched my face, "I know that you are deliberately angry with me, and I will not divorce me." Don't make a fuss, I'll go get you some medicine. ”

As soon as he went out, I locked the bedroom door, "Then I'll stay here, when do you agree, when will I move out." ”

The cat cries and the mouse is fake compassion, obviously he doesn't love it, why does he refuse to let go.

Lu Zhou knocked on the door and asked me to rub the medicine, and my mother knocked on the door and told me to get out... Qin Yun cried to Lu Zhou outside the door, "Lu Zhou, I don't want Xiaoshi to live in our house, can you let her move out?" ”

Lu Zhou comforted softly, "Okay, I'll let her move out tomorrow." ”

Listening to the whispers outside the door, I lay on my bed and scanned the décor and furnishings of the room, and couldn't help but laugh.

At the beginning, Lu Zhou let Qin Yun live in our house despite my objections, and I wanted her to go, but Lu Zhou always shirked everything.

Now that Qin Yun wants to get rid of me, he promised not to drag the mud and water at all.

The day after Qin Yun moved to my house, I went home to pick up the documents left at home, and accidentally bumped into Lu Zhou, who was washing his hands and making soup at home during work hours.

Xu didn't expect me to go home suddenly, Lu Zhou's expression was very embarrassed, "Xiaoyun said that she had a stomachache, so I went home and sent her some medicine, you know that the stomach medicine at home is long gone." By the way, I boiled some stomach porridge, do you want to drink some? ”

Qin Yun sat at the dining table, drinking hot porridge and smiling innocently, "Lu Zhou, your skills are still as good as back then, you learned to cook for me at the beginning, and now you are happy with my sister." ”

Lu Zhou was even more embarrassed when he heard this, after we were together, the person who entered the kitchen was often me, and I could only taste Lu Zhou's craftsmanship occasionally.

The porridge that Qin Yun drank was specially learned by me at that time for Lu Zhou, who often had stomach pain.

I boiled pot after pot of porridge to learn, Lu Zhou is quite smart, just drink it and can reproduce it perfectly.

I pretended to be calm and said with a light smile, "Then my sister will stay for a few more days, so that your brother-in-law can honor you well." ”

Qin Yun's face stiffened, and he trembled and dropped the spoon in his hand.

After saying that, he left the house without looking back, Lu Zhou chased me out and coaxed me for a long time, and when he saw that I had not let go, he decided to rent a house for Qin Shi.

Half a month later, the rented house was confirmed.

Qin Yun dragged her suitcase away with a dark face, Lu Zhou sent her to her new home, and I planned to go over to help her clean up the house, but Qin Yun didn't appreciate it.

I finally sent her away, I was in a good mood, and I didn't care about her, but just told Lu Zhou, "Go home early, I'll wait for you to eat." ”

I kissed him on the cheek and watched them go downstairs.

At the corner of the stairs, Qin Yun was constantly wiping Lu Zhou's side face with his sleeve, muttering something in his mouth, I couldn't hear it clearly.

I naively thought that my happy life was coming after Qin Yun moved away, but I didn't know that what was waiting for me was a bigger storm.

Qin Yun had a problem on the first day of moving.

6

On the night Qin Yun moved, I didn't wait until eight o'clock in the evening to wait for Lu Zhou to come back.

The dishes on the table were all cold, and I endured a stomach ache to call Lu Zhou, but he didn't answer and hung up on me.

Cold sweat was dripping, my stomach was burning and cramping, I was lying on the toilet and vomiting, and my head seemed to weigh a thousand pounds. I endured the nausea, called Lu Zhou's phone again, and was hung up again.

I didn't insist anymore, kept the last bit of sobriety and called myself 120.

After a long night of examination and treatment, the doctor asked me to seriously inform me to come and get the results in a week, and then added, "It's best to bring your family members with you." ”

I nodded, in fact, I was already prepared.

As soon as I walked to the entrance of the hospital, I saw Lu Zhou and Qin Yun coming towards me.

Qin Yun's head was wrapped in gauze, his face was pale, and the little bird leaned on Lu Zhou's arms.

Coming head-on, but Lu Zhou passed by me without squinting, carefully placed Qin Yun on the bench beside him, whispered something to her, and then he walked to my side.

Before I could ask, he explained, "Shishi, Xiaoyun, she fell her head last night, and the doctor said that the concussion caused by the impact caused her temporary amnesia, and I was with her in the hospital last night, so I didn't receive your call." ”

Last night, I was lying alone in a cold hospital bed waiting for the doctor's verdict, while my husband saddled up for another woman.

Looking at Lu Zhou in front of me, I said thoughtlessly, "Lu Zhou, shall we have a wedding next month?" ”

Lu Zhou's face was puzzled, "Shishi, this is too hasty, and now we are all still..."

I interrupted him and stubbornly repeated, "Shall we have a wedding next month?" ”

Lu Zhou looked at me silently for a long time, and then nodded.

The idea at that time was too naïve, the living can never win the dead, will this man feel the slightest guilt because of my death?

After this battle, I realized that punishing someone who didn't love me with my own death was just self-moving.

I overestimated my place in Lu Zhou's heart.

However, fortunately, I don't want this person anymore.

I'd like to see how Lu Zhou will kick me out of my own house tomorrow?

As soon as I opened the door the next day, I saw Lu Zhou guarding the door, "Shishi, I've made breakfast, you can eat as much porridge as you like." I'm going on a business trip for three days, is there anything to wait for me to come back? ”

He reached out to hug me, but I dodged him.

Lu Zhou withdrew his hand awkwardly and added, "You've lost weight recently." ”

I ignored him and looked at the messy living room, Lu Zhou grabbed a life-saving straw at this moment, and hurriedly explained, "Shishi, don't worry, I didn't sleep with her, I slept on the sofa, I won't do anything sorry for you." During my absence, don't embarrass Xiaoyun. ”

I didn't bother to listen, so I grabbed the prepared divorce agreement from my luggage and said straight to the point, "Don't delay your time, just sign it." ”

Lu Zhou's face sank, picked up the car key and slammed the door and left.

Probably because my mother is here, Lu Zhou walked very crisply, and he walked very reassuringly.

Just to avoid the war between these three women.

My mother was angry with me and didn't leave, but it was Qin Yun, because of my existence, she was very angry.

As soon as Lu Zhou left, it was four days, and the divorce was delayed again and again, and I finally made a big move in order to force him to go home.

7

I hung my wedding photo with Lu Zhou in the living room.

Although Qin Yun and I are twins, she will not be blind to the bright words "Groom Lu Zhou, Bride Qin Shi".

Qin Yun began to make noise about cutting her wrists and committing suicide again, and my mother summoned Lu Zhou over with a phone call.

Sure enough, it's a business trip or something, it's just an excuse.

Qin Yun's hand was only broken with a few skin wounds, Lu Zhou stared at me viciously, and then smashed our wedding photo with his own hands.

He stepped over the debris and asked me, "What are you doing this for?" ”

Looking at each other, I spat out two words lightly, "Divorce." ”

Lu Zhou seemed to be completely incomprehensible, "But didn't you ask me to marry me, Qin Shi?" ”

I looked at the smiling face he had stepped on the ground and laughed to myself, "yes, but I don't want it now." ”

Lu Zhou gritted his back molars, frowned, his eyes were full of anger, and the words he said pierced his heart, "In order to divorce, you want to kill your own sister?" No wonder your mother said that you were a mourning star, killing your father and your sister. Okay, divorce is divorce, you betray your relatives and leave, just wait for you to die alone. ”

But he was right.

Not exactly, I'm going to die, I can't even live to be old.

The closest relatives know best how to hurt each other.

I slapped Lu Zhou hard, which can be regarded as a not-so-perfect end to the time that I have paid for all these years.

Qin Yun was laughing, I knew that the farce I stirred up just happened to take advantage of her intentions.

What amnesia, depression, slitted wrists... It's just a trick on her.

Because people who really want to die will clearly know where the major arteries are.

8

I moved out of the wedding room that night and made an appointment to meet Lu Zhou at the Civil Affairs Bureau the next day.

I really didn't expect Lu Zhou to bring Qin Yun over.

Rao is now at a loss for him, and I still can't help but sneer, "Leave with me, do you want to get the certificate with her when you turn around?" You're too anxious to wait for a month's cooling-off period. I swept over Qin Yun and said, "Don't worry, I'm more anxious than you." ”

Lu Zhou's eyes sank, and he squeezed out a few words from between his teeth, "I really don't know when you became so mean." ”

"I've always been so mean." After saying that, I didn't bother to talk to them anymore, and turned around and entered the Civil Affairs Bureau.

You and I want to divorce, and the formalities are done quickly.

In the bathroom, Qin Yun followed again.

Seeing that there was no one around, she didn't bother to pretend anymore, "Qin Shi, sometimes, I actually pity you." Every time I make a little trick, you lose a lot. ”

Looking at the person in front of him, where is the slightest bit sick.

Out of curiosity, I finally asked the doubt in my heart, "So, you really love the landing boat after so much effort?" ”

Qin Yun stroked his lower abdomen with both hands and said with a smile, "I want to find a father for the child, Lu Zhou is very suitable." ”

In the end, I couldn't imagine that the person I once regarded as a treasure was just a spare tire in her eyes.

Who can say who is worse between us?

I asked her, "Aren't you afraid that I will tell Lu Zhou?" ”

Qin Yun's fingers lightly swiped my cheeks, arousing goosebumps all over my body, "I actually know you quite well, my sister, I can feel that you really don't love him anymore, don't you?" ”

The doubts in my heart were answered, I turned around and was about to leave, but Qin Yun behind me suddenly stopped me again, "Sister, I will give you a secret at the end, in fact, back then, it was me who killed my father, not you." ”

A layer of cold sweat floated on my back, propping myself against the wall, and I turned around slowly and stiffly, and said word by word, "You... What did you just say? ”

Qin Yun didn't care about me, and said to herself, "I've seen you vomit blood, so you're terminally ill, right?" In order for you to die blindly, I will tell you the truth of the year. When Dad finished buying you an exercise book that day, he actually went home..."

The air was deathly silent, and I could hear the sound of blood running backwards around me.

Qin Yun paused for two seconds and then continued, "I begged him to buy me ice cream before he drove out again, and he had a car accident..."

The cold touch of the wall spread from my hands to my body, and there was a roar in my ears, and I could no longer hear what she was saying.

Remembering that rainy night many years ago was the nightmare of my life, my dad died on the way to buy me an exercise book.

For this, my mother resented me for so many years, and in the end it turned out to be the truth.

But what if you figure out the truth, Dad will never come back.

I twitched my stiff arms, hugged Qin Yun's arms tightly, and prayed, "So what about the exercise book, can you give me the exercise book back?" ”

Will you give me back the last thing my dad left me?

Qin Yun tore my hand away, stunned for a few seconds, and then turned his head away from looking at me, "It's already burned." ”

Suddenly, a muffled whimper came from the cubicle of the last row of toilets.

9

The door to the bathroom cubicle was pushed open with a thud, and my mom staggered out of it in a cleaner's clothes.

She rushed to Qin Yun's front in three or two steps, grabbed Qin Yun's arms with her hands wearing plastic gloves, and said in a dumb voice, "What did you say?" You repeat..."

No one would have imagined that the arrogant department manager in the past would be willing to do cleaning work.

We didn't expect to meet her here.

Qin Yun, who was still calm and relaxed just now, turned pale with fright, and stammered, "Mom, you... You listen to me explain, I... I lied to Qin Shi..."

I didn't want to stay any longer, so I forced myself out.

Lost his soul crashed into Lu Zhou's arms.

I pushed him away in disgust, and Lu Zhou reached out to hug me, "What's the matter, Shishi, your face is so ugly?" ”

I smiled miserably, pushed his hands away, and walked out without saying a word.

I don't even have the strength to say anything cruel to him again.

Lu Zhou chased a few steps behind, and after seeing that I ignored him, he finally stopped calling me.

If it had been in the past, his arms would have been my best haven.

And now, even on the stormy road, I can only set sail alone.

In the next few days, I quit my job and moved my family to City C, my hometown.

Looking at the person who came to pick me up at the airport, I finally showed a smile that I hadn't seen for a long time, "Yu'an, long time no see, don't you come to hug me?" ”

The little girl swooped into my arms, "You said you were sick, did you lie to me?" ”

I smiled and stroked her soft/soft hair, jokingly, "Chinese/Chinese people don't lie to Chinese/Chinese people." ”

As a result, the child didn't say a word to me along the way.

When I opened the door of the room that had not been occupied for a long time, I couldn't help but boast, "It's so clean, even if it's sister, I didn't hurt you in vain." ”

In the next second, Yu'an's crying voice sounded behind me, "If you hurt me, don't die, okay, Sister Xiaoshi." ”

I used to make a lot of promises to her, to visit her during the summer vacation, to send her her favorite dolls, to attend her graduation ceremony, to take a photo with her...

I stroked the old scars on my wrists that had been obscured by the thorn tattoos, and my throat felt as if it had been poured with lead.

When I wanted to live, God wanted me to die.

He was the one who changed his mind, so why was it me who died?

10

Yu An persuaded me to go to the hospital, but I refused.

If there is only one last time left in my life, I just want to use it to do meaningful things and spend time with important people.

During this period, Lu Zhou has been contacting me unremittingly.

"Shishi, why did you resign?"

"Aren't you home?"

"Where have you been?"

I didn't bother to talk to him, and I often turned off my phone all day.

I just didn't expect that I would meet my mom in front of my dad's tombstone.

She hadn't seen her for a week, and she seemed to have aged a lot overnight.

When she saw me, her expression was a little cramped at first, and then she looked me up and down before she cautiously asked, "Did you eat on time?" ”

Xu hadn't heard her words of concern for too long, and I was stunned for a second or two before nodding sneeringly.

Relatively silent, when I felt my legs numb, she tentatively took my hand again, just touched my wrist, and then shook it off like a hot potato.

Her pain came so suddenly.

I bowed to the tombstone without paying a deaf ear, then turned and walked down the mountain.

Her voice kept coming from behind me, and I walked faster and faster until it drifted into the wind.

"Shishi, it's my mother who is bad, it's my mother who is sorry for you...."

For the next few days, I would always meet her at the cemetery, and then I would simply not go.

Anyway, I won't be with my dad in this day or two, and soon I will be able to sleep here with him.

At that time, I would tell him, "Dad, I wanted to write a Mother's Day gift to my mom that night, but I didn't give it away." ”

11

It's just that I don't know how my mother found the house, after all, the house back then, she said she would sell it.

After my dad died, my mom sold the house and moved out of City C with us.

Later, I bought the original house without telling anyone.

Since then, she has come every day and brought me her best dishes.

None of them are my favorite food.

Those dishes are always in the trash can in the kitchen and living room.

I also felt distressed after many times, and I couldn't help but let Yu An's subordinates show mercy, "Cherish food, everyone is responsible." ”

She looked at me, and she stopped talking.

The next day the trash can in the house was clean, and I thought my mom was finally no longer bored.

Yu An said, "You said you can't waste it, I sent it to the homeless man on the street, she likes to send it, just let her send it." ”

I didn't stop it, probably in my heart, I was happy to toss her like this.

I always had insomnia all night long.

I lay on the bed, cold sweat soaking through my clothes again and again.

In the middle of the night, I always think about the past over and over again.

In the earthquake that year, my mother rushed out of the door with the sleeping Qin Yun on her back, completely ignoring me who was still asleep.

Fortunately, the earthquake was not serious and did not cause serious consequences, and when they finished evacuating and returned home, I slept soundly.

Qin Yun laughed at me innocently, "Qin Shi, you are really a pig, and the earthquake has not been able to wake you up." ”

Then she turned to my mother and said, "Mom, we won't run away next time, it's so cold outside, I want to sleep too." ”

I slept in a daze, looking at Qin Yun and my mother as if I didn't understand, but she stopped looking at me with a dodgy look.

For a long time after that, I was afraid of sleeping, and I was afraid that when I fell asleep, I would be firmly abandoned.

The reason for falling in love with Lu Zhou was very simple, and after graduation, I coincidentally became colleagues with Lu Zhou.

When my plan was plagiarized, when everyone blamed me, he was the only one who stood firmly by my side and finally cleared my name.

I asked him, "Why do you believe me, just because I'm Qin Yun's sister?" ”

Lu Zhou raised his eyebrows, looked at me with a smile, and pretended to be mysterious, "Because you are Qin Shi." ”

I think that was when I first got my heart struck.

However, in front of Lu Zhou, if the opposite of Qin Shi is Qin Yun, then I will never be the one who was firmly chosen by him.

Such a simple truth, I didn't see it clearly until I died.

What is it that has been confusing my heart?

13

Early in the morning, Yu An came to knock on the door, "Did you sleep well?" ”

I pretended to be woken up by her and complained, "If you don't mess with me, I can sleep until the afternoon." ”

Probably because my face was too ugly, she didn't believe my words at all, and said to herself, "I cooked your favorite porridge, hurry up and wash up, and I'll bring it to you right away." ”

She has been becoming more and more like an old mother lately, bringing three meals a day to my mouth, holding my hands down and not letting me move when I am struggling in pain.

I laughed and teased her, "I don't know, I thought you were my mother." ”

But she didn't take it as a joke at all, "In the next life, I will be your mother, I will always love you, take care of you, and never let you suffer again." ”

To have such a care before I die, God treats me well.

After my face turned as pale as three days after my death, and I simply transformed myself into a human being, I begged Hello to take me to my father's grave.

Looking at each other, I knew she understood what I meant.

Now that I'm having trouble traveling, Yu An doesn't know why, my condition is getting worse so quickly.

I couldn't sleep at night, and I forcibly ate what I ate, and finally I was quietly vomited out... I put my last time on the accelerator with my own hands.

In a short period of time, I was in a wheelchair.

Usually when I accompany me to the cemetery, she will stand from a distance and watch.

Today, she insisted on staying by my side, and when a gust of wind rose, Yu An carefully helped me arrange the blanket on my body.

I leaned sideways, holding my stomach with one hand and pulling her sleeve with the other, and there were many things I wanted to say, and my words to her had already been written in the letter.

What I said to my dad will come a long way in the future.

Visions blurred, and Yu An leaned close to hear what I was saying.

I watched as a figure moved from far to near, her head slowly leaning back in her wheelchair, and her hand slowly loosened.

I heard two people calling my name, and then I died.

Extra 1 (Yu'an's perspective)

In the years when I was abandoned by my parents, I grew up with my grandfather, and Sister Qin Shi met me when she came to our hometown to collect style.

Since then, she has been sponsoring my education, and in addition to that, she has also cared for me in life.

If Qin Shi was older, I would think she was my irresponsible mother.

After Sister Qin Shi died, I notified her mother, who was also irresponsible, and followed me to deal with her funeral.

I have seen her mother many times, and the first time I saw her so embarrassed, she grabbed me and asked me what Qin Shi's last words were.

I shook my head and said nonchalantly, "She didn't say anything. ”

Then I watched her cry in front of me.

Actually, I heard it clearly at that time, and at the last moment of my life, I heard Sister Qin Shi shouting "Mom".

It's just this secret, I just want to keep it in my heart forever.

Some people are destined to spend their entire lives with regret and remorse.

When I was sorting out Sister Qin Shi's relics, I charged her mobile phone that had been turned off for a long time and turned it on.

I saw that the person named Lu Zhou had called her a lot and sent a lot of messages, and the last one was, "Do you regret divorcing me, don't forget that tomorrow is the last day of the divorce cooling-off period." ”

If Sister Qin Shi hadn't been cremated yet, I would have liked to knock on her brain to see if it was a love brain, how she had fallen in love with such a man in the past.

I replied to a message with him and stopped looking at my phone.

Early the next morning, I went to the Civil Affairs Bureau, which I had made an appointment with in advance.

I have seen Lu Zhou's photos in Qin Shi's album, and for a while, it was difficult to link the slightly vicissitudes of life in front of me with the high-spirited appearance in the album.

The word deserved ran and ran in the bottom of my heart, so that the word "hello" that was originally greeted suddenly became "deserved." ”

Lu Zhou frowned and looked at me, puzzled.

I briefly explained to him what I meant, "Qin Shi asked me to help her get a divorce certificate." ”

Lu Zhou's face sank, and he asked me repeatedly, "What does she mean by this?" Just so unwilling to see me? You tell her that if she doesn't come in person, she won't want to leave this marriage! ”

Looking at his angry appearance, I really felt worthless for Sister Qin Shi.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Lu Zhou asked again, "What about her?" Where did she go? ”

I looked at the person in front of me and couldn't help but show a gloomy smile that is common in horror movies, "She's here, can't you see it?" ”

Doesn't it say that good is rewarded with good, and evil is rewarded with evil? If Sister Qin Shi has a spirit in the sky, she should do the right thing for the sky.

Lu Zhou's eyes swept back and forth between the things in my arms and my face, and it took a long time before he slowly spit out a sentence: "You... What did you say? ”

It seems that what I was holding in my hand, he was not unaware of it from the beginning.

I buried my head, stared at the ash jar in my arms, and said sharply, "She's dead, can't you see her ashes here?" ”

Then I watched as the tall man in front of me stumbled and almost fell to the ground.

Looking at his coy appearance, I only felt disgusted, and asked in a cold voice, "The person is dead, who are you playing this look for?" She's here, so can she go for a divorce? Entangled with you for a second longer, it's all torment for her! ”

Lu Zhou didn't seem to believe it, his eyes were gloomy, his eyebrows condensed a touch of coldness, and he scolded me in a low voice, "You lie, I don't believe it, how can she die, you must be lying to me, lying to me!" ”

As he spoke, he was about to snatch something from my hand.

I couldn't control my strength, and slapped him hard, my palms were numb, but I didn't feel much happier in my heart, "This slap, I slapped him for Qin Shi." She's dead, and she has nothing to do with you, don't touch her again, it's dirty for her reincarnation. If you still have a conscience, set her free. ”

At that moment, the man in front of him seemed to have been drained of his soul, and kept whispering, "She can't die, and I won't divorce..."

I resisted the urge to slap him again and said coldly, "It's her last wish to divorce you." ”

Lu Zhou stared at the void with blood-red eyes, the blood on his face faded little by little, and he tore open the corners of his chapped mouth for a while, revealing an expression that was more ugly than crying, "She must have hated me to death." ”

"How old are you? Not so much time! ”

If Sister Qin Shi could still hear it, I think she would probably say so.

In the last days of her life, she had already let go of this man she loved wrong.

I had expected this day for a long time, and the materials and proofs needed had already been prepared.

The formalities went smoothly, and the moment I got the divorce certificate, I put the documents with her ashes.

From this day on, she is truly free.

Fanwai 2 (Land Boat Perspective)

I woke up from my dream in the middle of the night, and I grabbed her clothes and hugged her tightly in my arms.

I messaged my assistant to put off tomorrow's work and pack my things to see her at dawn.

It's just that I didn't expect that Qin Yun, who was blocked by me, would block me at the door of my house early.

"Lu Zhou, what do you mean? You drove me away, where can I go by myself now? ”

Looking at the face in front of me that was exactly the same as Shishi's, my heart ached, and the scene when the two of us last met at the Civil Affairs Bureau kept coming to my mind.

If I had chased her out, if I had been able to tell her firmly that I loved her and that I didn't want a divorce, would everything have been different.

"Qin Yun, I've made it clear, if it weren't for the sake of you being her sister, if it wasn't for you saying that you were sick... How could I hurt her again and again for you, that is my home with her, and you are not welcome. ”

Qin Yun tugged at my arm and sarcastically mocked me with a hideous face, "Who are you playing affectionate to now, are you blaming her death on my head now?" If it weren't for you shaking again and again and letting her down, would she not tell you about her illness until she died? You're the one who killed her..."

I couldn't listen anymore, pushed Qin Yun's hand away, and ran into the elevator as if I was running.

Because I broke her heart, she didn't tell me about her illness, and even after she died, she didn't want to give me a dream, even once.

Shishi's grave was cleaned and cleaned, and I swept aside the offerings in front of the tomb and placed the things I had brought with me in the middle.

Two couples' water glasses, facing the smiling face on the tombstone.

One of the cracks was full of cracks, and I managed to fix them, but now they are useless.

The people on the tombstone smiled brightly at me, and the three words of Xu Yu'an, the person who erected the monument, were so dazzling that I didn't even have the qualifications to erect a monument for her.

She gave everything she had to this little girl named Xu Yu'an, including the wedding house we bought together.

I wanted to buy the half of the girl's hand, there were so many memories that I shared with Shishi, but she told me mercilessly, "Don't mention memories to me, disgusting people." ”

It is worthy of being a child brought out by poetry.

I chattered and talked to her, as if every morning, she put her hands on her cheeks and quietly listened to my gossip, "Shishi, you don't want to give me a dream, okay, I miss you so much~"

A gust of wind passed, the leaves fell, and suddenly an unkempt man came out from behind the tombstone, carrying a broom in his hand, and beat me indiscriminately, muttering while beating, "It's dirty, dirty, it's time to sweep~"

The broom swept over me, swept around the tombstone, and my neatly placed pair of cups slipped down in response, making a piercing cracking sound, and the man stared at the debris all over the ground and grinned, "If it's broken, it's broken~"

I stared at the familiar person in front of me, listening to her delirious thoughts, and finally my eyes fell on the fragments of the place.

She was about to sweep the splinters away, and I quickly reached out to grab them, and the splinters dug into the flesh, and I only felt a throbbing pain in my heart.

The person in the photo was still smiling at me, as if to say, "Lu Zhou, you really deserve it." ”

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