No, it's not.

Sensibility and reason are constantly in conflict,

For a moment, I even wanted to rush over and hug him and tell him that I was not leaving, and that I would be with you forever.

But this gorgeous and cold palace, the eunuchs and palace maids standing outside the hall, and the luxurious clothes on Gu Hanzhou's body, all made my rationality occupy the peak.

Even if I have lived here for more than ten years, I will not be able to fully integrate into this world.

There is a clear distinction between dignity and inferiority here, and the lives of slaves are as cheap as mustard in the eyes of nobles, and the lives of commoners are as low as ants.

I can't develop affection for my parents in this world.

The father raised eyebrows with his mother while bringing his aunt home one by one. My mother put the piano, chess, calligraphy and painting in front of me, and told me that this was a compulsory course for a noble girl in Kyoto, and only if she learned it well would she please her future husband.

I can't develop camaraderie for my peers in this world.

The nobles of the family regard the family very much, and my indulgence seems to them to be deviant. And the palace maids and eunuchs like Poria who have been following me all the time, and they talk about humility, and my thanks will make them sincerely afraid.

I can't have pure love for Gu Hanzhou in this world.

In the past, it was because I had a problem with the future of his Wanwan class, but now, it is because of the inequality of status. One word from him can trap me in this cage, even if I have feelings for him, I don't want to be a canary under him alone and above ten thousand.

I want equality, I want freedom.

Gu Hanzhou and Du Qingyan changed their thinking under my influence.

But Gu Hanzhou knew that I wanted to leave, but he still disregarded my wishes and trapped me here.

After Du Qingyan greened Gu Hanzhou, she felt that if Gu Hanzhou didn't kill her, she should be grateful to Dade.

I know this is the sadness of the times, no wonder they are.

Even myself am changing.

Now that I can accept the eunuch palace maid kneeling on the ground to serve me, I am afraid that one day, I will be completely assimilated by this world, thinking that Gu Hanzhou only guards me, and I should be grateful for his affection.

Probably out of grief, I fell to the ground in a state of dizziness.

Two voices appeared in my ears.

An anxious call from Gu Hanzhou:

"Qinglan! Qinglan, what's wrong with you? I don't ask, I don't ask anything, don't scare me. ”

One from the system:

"Warning, warning! The host has finished the plot, please return to death as soon as possible, otherwise the system will forcibly obliterate the host of the two worlds. ”

This isn't the first time I've fainted suddenly, but the first few times I didn't pay attention to it, the imperial doctor didn't diagnose anything.

They looked at me very strangely, and seemed to think that I was deliberately pretending to be stunned in order to win Gu Hanzhou's attention.

I have already heard the rumors outside, all talking about why Gu Hanzhou, the quasi-emperor, did not kill me, the former queen, but let me live in Fengqi Palace.

Some people have already guessed Gu Hanzhou's intentions and scolded Gu Hanzhou for his unrighteous actions.

But more than that, scolding me.

scolded me for bringing disaster to the country and the people, scolded me for not being honest, scolded me for why I didn't hang myself, and set an example for the chaste martyrs in the world.

I didn't do anything, but I became a heinous person.

But Gu Hanzhou knew that I wouldn't use the method of pretending to be stunned to win his attention, and I wished he could kill me. So he was furious with those imperial doctors, thinking that they were not good at medicine, so they couldn't diagnose why I fainted.

"Don't embarrass them, I know why I faint so often, it's a heart disease, and it can't be cured."

Gu Hanzhou held back his anger: "Don't talk nonsense!" ”

I eased my emotions: "If you really love me, you can give me death, it is better than me dying of depression later." ”

Gu Hanzhou naturally couldn't kill me, and I spared no effort to stab a knife in his heart.

In the end, he was angry with me again.

I called Poria in and stared at her closely, and at night, I confirmed that Zhao Heng appeared in Poria's body before I spoke: "Do you like me?" ”