Chapter 10: The Time of Watch

In the late spring night, the insects all came out one after another, and after a winter of silence, their small figures can be seen everywhere, and their noisy voices can be heard everywhere, they show a sense of existence that is not willing to be lonely in their own unique way, and it seems to be from the ubiquitous corner, declaring to people that the night of this season also belongs to them.

Dongfang Siyi stared at the ginkgo leaves that slipped from the pages to the desk, and his thoughts involuntarily drifted out of the window. Every day after the day's work, he would habitually spare himself a moment to listen to a few favorite music, flip through a few pages of Tolstoy's long works, or casually think about something that he had no clue and no clue about.

When he sat down in front of the computer again, his brain had automatically switched from a continuous and rigorous state of work to a state of free and easy meditation, which was also the best state for him to enter the writing time. He is accustomed to this rhythm of life, capturing fleeting inspirations in the silent hours day after day, so that life is no longer dull and vulgar.

In the dead of night, it is the moment that Dongfang Siyi has agreed with himself, time and space seem to have stood still, but the mind is weaving their sensitive tentacles without restraint. He opened the manuscript on his computer, which had been written for more than two months, and his mind wandered in infinite time and space, looking for an entrance to the state of writing.

After pondering for a moment, he added a paragraph in the opening chapter of his novel "Meeting, the Distance of Love": Many stories have been dusted, and many stories are happening. Every day, we have the freshest time, but not all of them are fresh chapters, maybe just a copy of the same page, maybe just a revised version of yesterday, maybe just a frustrating blank page. But life will not stop, it will still rush forward as always, enveloping us forward, all you can choose is the direction of the future, you can't go back, because time will not go back, it will take your years forever and never return.

Dongfang Siyi feels like a machine with a fixed program installed, starting on time every day, and then starting to run at high speed, from going out in the morning, to returning home at night, sometimes working overtime until late at night, between two o'clock and one line, Nianhua is quietly taken by the night breeze somewhere.

It was only when he sat on the judgment bench that he realized that he was a judge who had to calmly face the many disputes and trivial matters in life and make correct rulings in accordance with the law. These trivial matters can be described as varied, and some of them will make people feel familiar and accustomed to it, such as seeing pedestrians spit at random on the road, although they are disdainful but helpless; Some will make people feel surprised, but they are not strange and laugh at it, such as a childish child who sued his father in court, believing that he should not install surveillance in his room and that he also has privacy; Some will make people angry and angry, such as an old lady in a rural area who raised seven children, but none of them supported her for the elderly, so she had no choice but to sue in court.

Two hearings were held today. In the morning, it was a divorce case, a young couple who had just finished their wedding in the cave room on the night of the candle turned against each other, just because of a disagreement, the night of the candle suddenly turned into a noisy night, under the cheer of their overly caring relatives and friends, in the blink of an eye they were noisy to break up and become passers-by.

In the face of such disputes, the first thing that is a Chinese-style trial is to conduct court mediation. Mediation is the best way to resolve conflicts, and it is also a way that both parties are willing to accept.

The mediation method in civil cases is known as the oriental experience, and in order to achieve the desired effect, the judge must exhaust the methods of the mother-in-law, patiently say good things, do all the good deeds, and spare no effort to emotionally guide and awaken the parties. In such a situation, the judge is no longer a high-ranking referee, but a well-being and trustworthy patriarch.

In the afternoon, another court was held, or a divorce case, this is an old couple who have experienced more than 30 years of ups and downs, because men like the new and hate the old cheating female subordinates, decades of affection and love disappeared in a blink of an eye, and the marriage has since come to an end.

The woman who has completely woken up resolutely decides to return to herself, and in the face of the man with a face full of remorse, her mood is no longer as heavy as before, but as relaxed as if she had let go of everything. The cheating man asked again and again, but she was only willing to respond with three words: "Forget it." ”

The cheating man still refuses to give up, he knows his wife too well, she is too kind, and the kind one never knows what fortification is. She never asked him about the unit, never asked him anything, and he didn't want to lose a big rear that had made him feel at ease for a lifetime.

He found an opportunity to speak alone, and wanted to ask Dongfang Siyi to do a little more persuasion work for his wife: "I admit that she is a good wife, a virtuous woman, and a good mother. When I was young, I was so busy with my own career that I had no time to take care of my family, and I relied on her to support everything outside the home. ”

Dongfang Siyi looked at the restless man noncommittally, knowing that he must have other things on his mind. After a pause, the man saw that Dongfang Siyi did not express his position, so he truthfully expressed his worries again: "My career is now in a rising period, at the beginning of the month, the superior unit has completed the inspection of me, I am the only person who meets the qualifications of the director candidate, and my appointment will be announced soon." It's the result of my lifelong pursuit, it's so important to me that I don't want anything extraneous at this critical moment. ”

Dongfang Siyi saw the uneasiness hidden in his heart from the man's eyes, he must have cared about his position very much, otherwise he wouldn't have said it so bluntly, his career is his promotion chart. Most men like the one in front of them always have a strong desire for promotion, because in their eyes, the position is closely linked to the resources they can control, the promotion of the position makes them feel excited and satisfied, and the concept of the official position flows in their bodies like polluted blood.

Dongfang Siyi told him without thinking: "There is a necessary procedure for divorce cases that is court mediation, you can seize this opportunity yourself and strive for her forgiveness." I can't help you, you know that you need to be tied to the bell to untie the bell, and for what reason your wife filed for divorce, you should be very clear, what you need to do is for her to forgive you. You are no longer a newlywed, long past the age of youthful impulsiveness, and I cannot preach to either of you the philosophy and principles of life. Being responsible for oneself, one's family, society, and one's own behavior is the most basic attitude to life as an adult with rich life experience. ”

Although the man was a little disappointed, he understood very well what Dongfang Siyi meant, because the judge had saved enough face for him. He originally thought that he would be rebuked or morally preached by Dongfang Siyi, but Dongfang Siyi did not do so, but only tried not to hurt his self-esteem and reminded him of the problems that he should pay attention to. He also understood that Dongfang Siyi didn't say anything, perhaps because of a kind of contempt for him, or a kind of disdain.

At a critical time, he failed to pass the beauty pass, and no amount of confession was in vain. He could only face his wife's cold eyes and reprimands in court. However, his wife only looked at him indifferently, and no longer wanted to accuse him. On the contrary, he was a little lost, he knew that in the eyes of his wife, he had become an insignificant character, and his wife had chosen the same contempt for him as the judge.

"Now for court mediation, what do you want, plaintiff? Are you willing to be mediated by the court? Dongfang Siyi looked at the woman in the plaintiff's seat and asked.

The woman said succinctly and clearly: "My only request is a divorce, and I do not accept any mediation in the matter of divorce." ”

Dongfang Siyi looked at the defendant again: "Defendant, the plaintiff asks for a divorce and is unwilling to accept mediation, what do you have to say?" ”

The man knew that the judge was giving him a chance, so he raised his eyes to look at the woman opposite, and said with some emotion: "I sincerely ask you to forgive me again, you have forgiven me so many times, and you will not let it go this time?" We've been living together for thirty years, and next week we're celebrating our thirtieth wedding anniversary. Thirty years is a pearl wedding, we have experienced thirty years of ups and downs together, so that our marriage is as smooth as a pearl, I cherish this pearl very much. ”

The woman's face was still calm: "It's been thirty years in the blink of an eye, and I have only felt thirty years of ups and downs, but I haven't gotten the pearl you said." If this pearl really exists, it may belong to you alone, but I don't feel the slightest feeling, so pearls and pearl marriage are completely different things. You can continue to play with your pearls for the rest of the time, and I don't want to accompany you anymore. ”

The man continued to confess: "I don't want to lose you, you are a good wife." As long as you forgive me this time, we can continue to have a happy marriage as we have ever been. Children do not want to lose a warm home, and we have an obligation to maintain this family and leave them a place to shelter from the wind and rain. ”

The woman finally spoke again: "I know you too well, just as you know me." What you said is unwilling to lose me, this meaning seems too clear to me, your real thoughts are not willing to lose such a home that has no ups and downs and can sit back and relax at any time. You can enjoy a peaceful and peaceful life cheaply, and no matter what you encounter outside, you will not have to worry about the future. Yes, I have watched over this family for thirty years, and I want to give you such a day, but you only know how to enjoy this feeling, but you completely ignore my existence, and take all my efforts for granted, and this disregard is the greatest humiliation of my emotional giving. You're enjoying it all with peace of mind, but you're out there looking for your so-called feelings. You can look for your stuff, but you can't let me watch over this place for you anymore, without ups and downs, without love, without family meaning. Don't kidnap me with children, they deserve their lives. I have done my duty, and it is time to choose my own life. ”

The man finally understood, and his wife, who had completely woken up, also completely gave up the watch over the family, and completely gave up the watch after 30 years of ups and downs. He wanted to say something more, but was interrupted by the woman's words: "Since you are not willing to take my hand, I will never grow old with you again." I don't want to be in the same space with you anymore, I don't want to see you in front of my eyes again. Do you know how it feels to see you now? Disgusting! You know? Nausea like eating a fly, I only have one feeling now, seeing that you can't find any other sensation but nausea! I hope you don't continue to disgust me. ”

She no longer needed a man who had changed his mind to keep the promise he had made, and it didn't make any sense anymore. The woman who no longer believed in love became resolute and determined, and the man listened to the woman's words that hit the heart and finally saw her disappointment and determination in herself.

After the man bowed his head and was silent for a long time, he unexpectedly did not make any futile excuses for himself, but said to himself: "I also feel disgusting, since you insist on divorce, I now agree to divorce and agree to all the demands you make." I just hope that you will give me a little face, for the sake of the husband and wife of thirty years, this matter will not be mentioned in front of outsiders. ”

(Next Notice: Chapter 11: The Distance of Encounters)