More than three months passed in a flash, and it was Dongfang Siyi's turn to go to the working day of the Forest Farm Circuit Court.

When Dongfang Siyi and Xiao Wang, the clerk of the case filing court, walked into the circuit court, the security guard Lao Li was busy cleaning the fallen leaves and dead branches in the courtyard after pruning the flowers and trees. "Morning, Lao Li, it's hard work." Dongfang Siyi stopped and greeted Lao Li.

Lao Li put down the scissors, stopped what he was doing, looked at Dongfang Siyi and said, "You are early, president." You're on duty again? Dongfang Siyi stood in the yard and looked at the neatly trimmed flowers and trees, and said with a smile: "Yes, three months have passed in a blink of an eye, and it is my turn to be on duty again." Lao Li, you are very careful, these flowers and plants are dressed up and served by you like princesses, all of them are dignified and beautiful. ”

Lao Li said with some confidence: "This is also my business, I loved to raise flowers and plants when I was young, and I have developed a habit of seeing them every day, and I can't sleep if I can't see them." Now I am a security guard for you, usually except for looking at the house and sweeping the yard, there is not much to be busy, these flowers and plants can also beautify and beautify the environment of the court. ”

Dongfang Siyi saw that there were no visiting people and parties outside the courtroom, so he asked the security guard Lao Li: "These days, has anyone come to the court?" Lao Li thought for a while and said, "Only one person has come, and when he saw that there was no one in the courtroom, he left again." Dongfang Siyi asked, "Do you know who it is?" Did you ask why? ”

Lao Li thought for a while and said: "She is a female worker in the forest farm, the one named Yi Songjuan, I chatted with her briefly, and she said that she wanted to sue others for spreading rumors and slander or something." said that the old lady is not easy to bully, if you dare to continue to spread rumors behind your back, I will sue them for slander. I asked her which one was the rumor? Which one is she going to sue? She stopped talking, and I didn't want to ask much, but then she asked you what days you would come here to work and do these things, and I answered truthfully. She spun around and left, and here she came this time. Dongfang Siyi smiled and said, "Got it." ”

Clerk Xiao Wang also smiled, looked at Dongfang Siyi and said, "President Dongfang, you are really like a god, she really came, I don't know what will happen next?" Who exactly did she want to sue? Is it really going to be sued? Or is there something else? ”

Dongfang Siyi thought for a while and said, "There won't be anything big." However, she will definitely appear, because according to the situation reflected in the divorce case of Ling Yuan v. Du Shaoyou, she must be a controversial woman. Since she wanted to come to inquire about the relevant questions, she must have endured something intolerable. It's not easy for us to speculate too much, she's sure she'll still come. Either way, today should be an easy day. The circuit court is like that, there are occasional surprises, and most of the time it will be safe. I still have a few verdicts to write, and if someone visits, you can do a good job of receiving them first, and call me when you have something. ”

In the face of one case after another that cannot be handled, Dongfang Siyi thinks that when busyness becomes a habit, in a sense, the gap between professions is actually not so big. Is there any difference between a senior judge and a part-time worker on the assembly line? If you have time to think about what you're doing, it's different. If you don't have time to think and mechanically follow the set program to go through the process, it won't make much difference.

As a judge, thinking has naturally become an important value embodiment of Dongfang Siyi. There are many issues that need to be considered by him, both political and economic, including legal, moral and ethical, professional knowledge and general common sense.

All of this has to go into his brain, which is the main engine for him to deal with all kinds of intractable diseases and problems. He thinks that the difference between the human brain and the computer host is that the human brain is a subject that can think independently, not a machine that runs according to a set program, and he needs to turn it on at all times and at any time, let it run faster or slower, and accurately find various ways and solutions to solve the problems that are intertwined with social contradictions.

Dongfang Siyi thought that if he stopped thinking, he would become a part-time worker on the assembly line, and he could only produce a single product according to the designed plan. His products will never be single, because he has to face real people, all of whom have different stories, different encounters, and different demands and expectations.

Dongfang Siyi was about to turn on the computer, when he heard Xiao Wang, who was in the reception room outside, say in surprise: "It's really strange why you came here with you, could it be that you are a shadow." I'll tell you, I don't have time to receive you today. A familiar voice smiled and said, "I'm not here to find you, I'm here to find President Dongfang." ”

Xiao Wang was even more strange: "How do you know that President Dongfang is also here today?" He's also very busy, so you're not going to tell him your story again, are you? ”

Dongfang Siyi listened to the voices and tones of the two people outside, and knew that Zhao Ermei must have found it. He also felt a little strange, so he walked out of the office inside and stood at the door looking at Zhao Ermei.

Zhao Ermei looked at Xiao Wang with some embarrassment, and when she saw Dongfang Siyi coming out, she explained with a smile: "My hometown Qinglong Town is just across the river, and there is a bridge across it from here. In the past few days, the town has been demolished, and my house will also be demolished, although my household registration is no longer in the town, and the demolition subsidy or something may not have my share. Still, I wanted to go home and have a look. After all, those houses have been lived in since I was a child, and they don't exist after they are demolished. I came back a few days ago, and this morning, when I was talking to someone at the intersection, I overheard your police car driving past the town, and I knew that you must have come to the courtroom, so I thought I would come to speak with President Dongfang. ”

Clerk Xiao Wang looked at Zhao Ermei with a complicated expression, and said with a smile: "Your eyes are really good, President Dongfang has a lot to do, and he is not an idler, so he can't always listen to your arrangements?" If you say you want him to receive you, he will receive you. Zhao Ermei looked at Xiao Wang with a red face, and then looked at Dongfang Siyi, not knowing what to say.

Dongfang Siyi waved his hand to Xiao Wang, smiled and said to Zhao Ermei: "Don't talk about this, since you're here, please come in, if you want to talk, let's talk." Zhao Ermei looked at President Dongfang gratefully, hesitated for a moment, and walked into the office in the middle of the courtroom. Xiao Wang grimaced helplessly at Zhao Ermei's back, but still got up and poured a glass of water for Zhao Ermei and handed it to her, which moved Zhao Ermei a little unexpectedly.

When Zhao Ermei sat opposite Dongfang Siyi, Dongfang Siyi put down the thick dossier materials in his hand, put them back on the side of the table, and let out a long sigh.

Zhao Ermei laughed rarely: "Why is President Dongfang also sighing?" ”

Dongfang Siyi said sincerely: "Everyone has things that are not easy, things that don't go well, and times when they are unhappy. This method may work for a lot of people, including me. ”

Zhao Ermei felt a kind of kindness like a big brother in the neighborhood from Dongfang Siyi's calm and simple language, in her eyes, Dongfang Siyi is no longer a high-ranking judge, but a friend who can chat and talk.

She seemed to think of a lot of sleepless nights, and said very approvingly: "What you said is really like that, sometimes I can't figure it out and I have insomnia, and I can't close my eyes anyway, until I can't stand it anymore, and in the end I often sigh helplessly, and I will fall asleep unconsciously." ”

Dongfang Siyi smiled and said: "Yes, sighing is actually a kind of letting go, a kind of pressure release. Although it is a negative attitude, it is the simplest and most effective method that we often use. It will allow us to slowly let go of some of our obsessions and some of our burdens, which will make our lives a little easier. There are some problems that we can't figure out and can't figure out, we can put them down for the time being, we don't need to drill the horns, and there is no need to choose to carry it hard. As long as it has nothing to do with the principles of real life and work, you must also choose to let go of some people and things in the past, and you don't need to be stubborn. In fact, after you make a decision and choose to let go, sigh the breath that you have been holding in your heart for a long time, maybe everything will disappear. ”

Zhao Ermei nodded thoughtfully, a hint of something new flashed in her blank eyes, and the expression on her face became indifferent.

Dongfang Siyi saw that Zhao Ermei drank the water in the disposable paper cup, so he poured her another cup of hot water and handed it to her and said: "Every time you came to me before, it was always because I had some things, and the words were broken off without pleasure, which made you feel that there were some things you always wanted to say, and you didn't have a chance to say them." There is nothing particularly important in the courtroom today. Since you have the idea of chatting, you don't have to be restrained, and the person sitting in front of you is just an ordinary person, a person with flesh and blood and feelings like you, you can not treat me as a judge now, I am a few years older than you, and you will treat me as your brother. It might be easier to say whatever you want, and then we'll talk about your case in a matter-of-fact manner, okay? ”

Zhao Ermei said gratefully: "Thank you, President Dongfang, for understanding my feelings and speaking from the heart, I just wanted to find someone to complain, but no one was willing to listen to me." No one in my family wanted to listen to them, they used to be the people I thought were the closest to me, but every time I tried to talk to them about those things, they indiscriminately thought that I had a bad brain, that I must have been stimulated by something, and that something was wrong with my spirit. It's not that I have a bad brain, I just can't figure out some things, and if I can't figure it out, I feel very depressed, and the more depressed I am, the more I can't figure it out. When I was most depressed, I once thought about committing suicide, and I really wanted to kill myself! I think it's too much to live, it's better to die, and if you die, you'll be a hundred. I have thought of many ways to end myself, but I am really unwilling to think about it, and I think it will be more ridiculous, even if I want to leave this world, I have to find a decent way, I can't let myself leave like a dog. In that case, I feel like I'm going to die. Some things, right or wrong, are destined to be unchangeable, and they are not very important. But there are some mistakes that should not be borne by me alone, because there are many reasons, not my own reasons, nor my subjective mistakes, and it may still be a problem that will only arise in an era. ”

Dongfang Siyi nodded: "I feel that you are a very thoughtful person, you have actually thought very clearly about some things, and what you said is also very right." I agree with what you just said, some things, some mistakes, not because of one person, but also because of the times. A person cannot be divorced from reality, nor can he survive in isolation from the environment of the times in which he lives, and will be more or less affected by the trend of the times. There are some things, some mistakes, that you can't let yourself carry alone, and you shouldn't carry them by yourself. I understand your feelings, and I agree with what you just said. ”

Zhao Ermei slowly took a sip of hot water, Dongfang Siyi's words finally gave her the courage to regain her confidence, and she seemed to have regained her past self-confidence and self-esteem. There was a hint of wetness in Zhao Ermei's eyes, she hadn't been understood by others like this for a long time, and now someone finally affirmed herself.

Zhao Ermei raised her head and looked at Dongfang Siyi, her eyes became clear and natural, without that hesitation and doubt, she sighed a long sigh, and finally decided to open the last barrier in her heart, let go of all the ideological baggage, she wanted to tell Dongfang Siyi her story, and tell her bitterness and entanglement that she had held back for more than ten years.

Zhao Ermei said calmly: "Everyone has their own youth and their own stories hidden in their hearts. Some things will be like innocent wine, the longer you put it in your heart, the more mellow it will become, and every time you think about it, you will feel a kind of sweetness. And some things are like Coptis chinensis, always unintentionally in you, flooding with bitter water, making your heart full of bitterness. Everyone is willing to think about those good things, and they don't want to talk about the embarrassing past. However, everyone's state of mind is different, when things go well, they often only remember those good things, and when they are in adversity, they often think of those things that make them unbearable, so that you always have a bitter water in your heart that you want to pour out, but you can't pour it out. The more I can't pour it out, the more painful it is, and I feel like this now, many things I want to forget in my heart, but I can't forget them, they are like bitter water that can't be poured out. ”

Zhao Ermei recalled her past when she was passionate about life and worked hard to pursue her dreams. Her mind went back to more than ten years ago, and her face had both joy for the profession she once loved, confidence in her career success, and melancholy because of her past troubles.

A line of tears unconsciously flowed from her eyes, and she couldn't help but sigh to herself: "Without personal experience, who can understand the bitterness in the hearts of others?" What you want but can't get, what you once thought was very important, one day it becomes worthless, how much grievance and disappointment will you have, even despair? I've been through all of this myself, and I've come to understand that there are many things in life that are not static, and that past opportunities can become current traps that can catch you off guard. ”

Zhao Ermei said that the biggest problem she wanted to solve at that time but had never been able to solve was the problem of urban residents' household registration that made her think about it day and night. Because this issue involved too many of her interests and pursuits, she finally waited for a rare opportunity and a day full of hope.

(Next Issue: Chapter 23: The Crisis of Unemployment)