Liu Mu Nan didn't wake up all night because he was drunk, and when he got up, he found that it was already dawn, and Xiao Kunu went out to work in the field.

He knew that he was definitely going to be late, and he would definitely be cursed by the little foreman Pan Ergou, and maybe he would have to deduct his salary for a day. On the way to the construction site in a hurry, he heard the bell of the Banshan Temple again, and his heart returned to a sense of peace and tranquility.

When he arrived at the construction site, Liu Mu Nan was really cursed by the little foreman Pan Ergou without a head and no brain: "You are a wooden man, a fake man, you will never have a son in your life......"

Liu Mu Nan's heart suddenly gave birth to a wave of anger, he thought about slashing the brick knife in his hand at Pan Ergou, but he still held back. Then he looked at the little foreman Pan Ergou with a mocking face, he decided to retaliate with a tooth for a tooth, Liu Mu Nan thought: "Since you insulted me with the most ugly sound, I will tear your face with the most ugly sound." "The conflict erupted in the blink of an eye, and in the blink of an eye, an accident happened, and everything came so suddenly.

When Yanagi fell off the five-story scaffolding, he felt like he was flying. At that moment, he narrowed his eyes and took one last look at the bright sun, thinking to himself, "It's all over." Never again, bitter girl, you don't really know the tangle in my heart. From now on, you don't have to worry about me anymore, you don't have to tell me with a sad face that your eyelids are always jumping. ”

He also wanted to tell Xiao Kunu: "You are a good woman, and you are also the woman I feel most sorry for in my life." We shouldn't be together, after marrying you, you made me feel my own incompetence and shame, and my heart became heavier and heavier, and the heaviness was almost out of breath. Forget about me, never again. ”

Liu Mu Nan wanted to say to Liu Caogu: "You are a good wife, a good mother, and a good sister. You always have more than I think, always make me feel that I am far inferior to you as a man, and always make me feel that I owe you. Not only do I owe you in this life, but I also seem to owe you in my last life, and you always make me unable to hold my head up in front of you. I don't know if it's because you're managing too much? Or is it because I'm too uncompetitive? You make me feel like a man with a wimp, a man who has no potential, a man who is good for nothing. I only have low self-esteem in front of you, except for inferiority and inferiority. Sister Cao, I'm sorry for you, we'll never see each other again. ”

In Liu Mu Nan's eyes, what kind of husband is a cow, and it seems that he has the strength that can never be exhausted. Thanks to his cow, the two families can rely on a few acres of mountainous land to live a worry-free life. Only two women can suffer less and suffer less. He wanted to say to his husband: "You are a man, a real man, and in the future, they will ask you to take care of them." I'm sorry, I'm going to be a deserter. I'm leaving, never to be seen again. ”

In front of his eyes, it seemed to be like the picture in the TV series, flashing the shadow of Xiao Kunu's busyness, flashing the shadow of Aunt Liu Cao holding the child, flashing the shadow of the husband following the old buffalo, and then he felt that his whole body was so relaxed that he floated like a feather. At that moment, he didn't have the slightest sense of fear, and at the moment when he was about to touch the ground, the corners of his mouth rose slightly, and he closed his eyes easily.

Liu Mu Nan saw the old monk he hadn't seen for a long time again, and the old monk was shining with golden light all over his body. His disciples have gilded him with a golden body, and he has become a "bodhisattva in the flesh" that neighbors near and far kneel to worship. The old monk still looked like he had seen before, still so kind, and still looked at him with a smile on his face: "Amitabha, my Buddha is compassionate." The old monk closed his eyes that could only be seen again, and kept chanting: "The heart is not the heart, the thing is not the thing, the heart is higher than the thing." The heart is the heart, the thing is the thing, the heart and the thing are one, and the heart and the object are one. ”

Liu Mu Nan fell to his knees and listened reverently to the old monk talking to him as he had done before. Although the old monk closed his eyes, his heart was like a mirror, and every word he said contained profound philosophies.

It's just that he can't remember what the old monk said, and he can't understand everything. He could only keep nodding his head, indicating that he had been listening, but he always seemed to understand. The old monk also knew that he couldn't understand what he said, so he stopped talking and looked at him kindly in confusion, as if waiting for his repentance, and as if he wanted to tell him more philosophy of life.

He looked at the old monk with a compassionate face and muttered to himself, "I don't want to shirk my responsibilities, and I can't leave them without worry. I really can't feel at ease when I leave them like this. But I never knew how I could be a good husband. And how to be a good man? I don't know what to do with that life. I've always lived in pain, the kind of pain in my heart. ”

The old monk still looked at him kindly and admonished: "Amitabha, life is a practice, no matter who you meet or what you have experienced. Whether it is bitter, sweet, sad, happy, long or short, it is just a practice. So, life is practice, and practice is life. Since they are all necessary practices in life, we must do everything according to fate, and we must do everything with our hearts, and we must do things with our hearts. As long as you let go of your thoughts, everything in the world will be natural. ”

He wanted to ask something more, but before he could speak, the old monk had already drifted away. Watching the old monk disappear into sight like a cloud, he remembered what happened when he was a child again.

He still remembers the conversation between himself and the old monk when he was boiling water for the old monk in the temple. He asked the old monk, "Are you a bodhisattva?" The old monk smiled and said, "I am a disciple of the Bodhisattva." ”

He asked the old monk again, "Who can become a disciple of the Bodhisattva?" The old monk said kindly, "Everyone can become a disciple of the Bodhisattva." He was puzzled and said, "Then, what is a disciple?" The old monk explained, "A disciple is also a cultivator, and a disciple is a cultivator." As long as you have good intentions, you can be regarded as a Buddhist disciple. ”

The figure of the old monk disappeared completely, Liu Mu Nan suddenly felt that he couldn't move in pain, he wanted to shout but couldn't shout, "Where am I?" Why are you here, why are you meeting them, why are you meeting the old monk? His head began to ache violently, and he struggled to get up, but found that his whole body was limp on the ground, unable to exert any strength, and his hands and feet were stiff and unable to move.

In the haze, Liu Mu Nan saw his father appear in front of him again. Dad looked at him with an angry face: "You shouldn't have come here, and you're not qualified to come here." You rebel, you forgot all the things I said to you when I left, haven't you? Is our old Liu family in Beishan like this? You made me uneasy underground, and let me see my ancestors without a face. ”

Liu Mu Nan knelt on the ground with a "whoop", and cried bitterly with tears in his eyes: "Dad, I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for my ancestors." I am willing to accept family law, and I am willing to be a cow and a horse for your old man. ”

Dad sighed with a sad face: "I don't want you to be a cow and a horse for me, as long as you are a man, a man who can continue the incense for the Liu family." You have to remember, I'll say it again, you have to be a man, you can't let our old Liu family break off from now on. Remember? You must remember that you can't come here yet, you get back to me! Get lost! ”

Liu Mu Nan opened his mouth to explain something, but his father suddenly disappeared, he looked around in panic, and there was no one in the darkness. Instinctively, he reached out into the darkness, he wanted to grasp something, but there was nothing, nothing. He struggled desperately in the darkness, once again reaching out in vain, desperately trying to grasp something, but there was still nothing around him.

In despair, he thought of the bitter girl who would never leave him, and he shouted loudly to the surroundings: "Bitter girl, I don't want to go, I can't go!" Come and help me, help me, I don't want to go. I can't go, and my dad won't let me go! Help me! Help me! The bitter girl came over and glanced at him, but walked past him with a blank face.

He thought of Aunt Liu Cao again, and shouted loudly into the void with reluctance: "Aunt Cao, I don't want to go, my father won't let me go, I can't go." You help me, you are my sister, you are my own sister, my father always says, only you can help me, quick, quick, quickly stretch out your hand to hold me, help me......" Liu Caogu walked over, but gave him a blank look, turned around and left.

He remembered what kind of husband, what kind of husband came over, and looked at him casually. He didn't like the contemptuous look in his husband's eyes, and he didn't want any kind of husband to help. He looked at the husband with grievances in his heart, but he didn't want to beg him, he waved his hand as if nothing happened, and said, "I'm leaving, after I'm gone, only you can help me take care of them." ”

Liu Mu Nan fell into deep pain and desperate fear, and he suddenly remembered a passage that the old monk had said to him when he was alive. He didn't understand the deep meaning of the old monk's words at that time, so it seemed that he had long forgotten about the passage of time. Now, he suddenly remembered clearly again, the old monk said: "If you save yourself, people can save you." ”

On that day, Liu Mu Nan and a few neighbors followed his father up the mountain to plant sweet potatoes for the old monk, and he stayed in the temple to help the old monk boil water and cook. A middle-aged couple who often come to the mountain temple to make incense, put incense in the main hall, kneel on the ground and worship devoutly, and after praying again and again, they say goodbye to the old monk with a smile on their faces.

Liu Mu Nan looked curiously at their departing backs, his heart full of doubts. When this middle-aged couple dressed up, they should be a wealthy family, and every time they come to burn incense and worship Buddha, they will bring a lot of offerings, which can be seen to be sincere.

Liu Mu Nan heard their prayers, and the middle-aged couple had already given birth to six daughters. They wanted a son, but they couldn't. So every time I come to the temple to burn incense and worship the Buddha, I pray for the same thing, praying for a son.

Liu Mu Nan asked the old monk puzzled: "Don't they have daughters?" And there are six daughters, why pray? Why do you have to have a son? Is there a difference between a daughter and a son? Do bodhisattvas really respond to the requests of those who come to pray? I've seen them come to pray many times, they still come to pray, will they have a son? ”

After the old monk closed his eyes for a long time, he finally opened his eyes again, and his blind eye could not be seen by outsiders, because that eye was still like an unfathomable old well, rippling with the light of wisdom. The other eye has a magical power that seems to penetrate everything in the world, making people look awe-inspiring.

The old monk looked at him kindly and said, "The sea of suffering is boundless, and you can only cross it by yourself." Those who save themselves are saved by God, those who help themselves are helped by God, and those who abandon themselves are also abandoned by God. What is it? Suffering is born from desire, worry is born because of desire, and fear is born because of worry. Blessed are those who are content, but those who are not content invite misfortune. Self-realization and self-reform is self-help, and persuading others to be good is to save others. Amitabha. ”

Liu Mu Nan remembered the words of the old monk, a survival instinct made him gradually wake up, he felt his body like a free fall, constantly falling down from the dark air, a fear that he had never had before finally made him cry out the question in his heart: "Where am I?" Ahh......h

Yanagi finally opened his eyes, and around him was a blurry white world. He thought this was heaven. It wasn't until he saw the bitter girl sitting beside him that he knew that he had not passed away. He struggled to remember everything he had woken up to, but found that he had a splitting headache and had to close his eyes again. He wanted to say hello to Xiao Kunu, but his mouth only moved, but he couldn't make any sound.

"Doctor, doctor, doctor!" He heard Xiao Kunu's voice, and then he figured out that he was in the hospital. "Doctor, doctor, doctor, he seems to have woken up!" Xiao Kunu noticed that his eyes were moving, and his mouth was moving, and she knew that he had finally woken up.

Xiao Kunu looked back at him, then got up and smiled at him, laughing excitedly and bitterly. As she left the ward and ran out to find the doctor, she kept shouting, "Doctor, doctor, he's awake, he's awake......

A rush of solid footsteps came from far and near, and the footsteps of Xiao Kunu following behind were nervous and hectic, and the footsteps stopped gently until they reached his bed. Liu Mu Nan felt in a daze that it was a man in a white coat, the white coat stared at the Liu Mu man lying on the hospital bed, and then looked at the monitor placed on the cabinet next to the hospital bed, with a smile on his face.

"Are you awake?" The man in the white coat asked in a very calm voice, as if he was asking Xiao Kunu, and as if he was asking Liu Mu Nan.

The corners of Liu Munan's mouth moved, and the white coat saw his efforts: "You don't need to speak." I know you're awake, you're okay, don't worry about yourself, your life is not in danger. You're lucky, just have a few broken bones and you'll be fine soon. Now all you have to do is relax and lie down and recuperate. Your physical condition is still a little weak, and you still need to recuperate. Don't hurt your mind, don't move. ”

The white coat comforted him after confirming the condition shown by the monitor, and Liu Mu Nan felt that the pain in his body was much better and not so severe. He tried to move, but he still couldn't. So, he closed his eyes and began to try to remember the moment he fell, trying to figure out why he had flown off a five-story scaffold. He tried his best to get rid of the sounds and images that were crammed into his mind, and little by little he figured out some of the events that had happened that day.

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