Chapter 60: Don't want to be the one who makes you grow
When you see what I don't love you, you'll know what I looked like when I loved you.
Ren Sheng muttered to himself.
Ren Sheng is always talking about himself now.
You said you were different to everyone, and I believed it
But every time I look at that nonchalant face on the screen, I feel that I don't know where I am so special, and at this moment, I feel less and less important than before.
Been together for a long time, yes, I know.
There has been no extravagance, love is shh
However, I cried really seriously, and you still watched me play like a play, right? I've always told myself to be grateful, but what do you want me to do with memories? In fact, I am the one who covets your goodness, and I have always wished that I would like you and love you more. Because I think in the end I'm together because I like you and fall in love with you. It's not because you're good to me that you choose to be together.
I've done a lot of hard work, but I hope you don't see my efforts, and I want you to think that what I'm doing is as simple as eating and drinking. Because that way, it doesn't appear to be working hard.
True love is not because I try to love you, but because I love you so hard.
We are so good friends, if I cry, you must not ask me what is wrong at the first time, but know who I am crying because of someone or something as if I have mind reading skills. Now I don't even have the performance and psychology of impatience. I guess it's not that you can't, but that I'm not enough to occupy the place in your heart.
Because none of these things started because of you, it is good to have your comfort.
Now my world is all about you, the so-called unhappy disputes, disputes, uncomfortable grievances are gradually related to you, I know that this is a happy and sad thing, glad that my emotions are related to you, sad I have no one to confide in my sadness except myself. I'm really sad to lose such a good friend. It's sad. Now you, will you no longer be anxious because I cry, like a person who has nothing to do with me, silently watching me make a fool of myself, and perform on my own?
It may happen that because of you, you understand that what I am doing is not a bargaining chip and a reason to be unhappy.
You will say, just because I didn't get up that you don't think it's appropriate? God knows it's a matter of your attitude, it's complicated to say that I don't care if I say one sentence, it's okay twice, 3 times, 4 times, 5 times, I'm so annoying, I can't even say it. But do you know that when I say 5 times, 6 times, 7 times, every time I am full of hope? It doesn't matter what you do when you get up, the moment you get up, I know that this boy cares about me.
When you are indifferent again and again, I know that in fact, I have nothing to do with you. I especially want to say that we have to calm down with each other for a while. In fact, we really don't fit everywhere. Maybe you won't get it all the time.
I want to say that one day, when we really get to the point where we leave and see what I don't love you like, you will definitely know what it is like to love someone. Otherwise, how can you grow. I don't want to be the person who makes you grow, because that would end even more sad. Hopefully, not everything backfires!