Chapter 35 Zhao Paner's thoughts
After Xiao Fan instructed Jia San and his wife to appease the panicked subordinates at home, he took Jia Quan to find Zhao Paner.
As soon as the two arrived at the door of Zhao Paner's house, Jia Quan hurriedly rushed up, grabbed the knocker and knocked on the door and shouted: "Sister Pan'er, Xiao Zhao, the officials and I have come to see you." β
After a while, the door opened from the inside, revealing Xiao Zhao's face that was about to cry.
"Master, go and see Sister Pan'er, she has been locked in her room since she came back, and she didn't even light the light, if it weren't for the crying from time to time, I'm really afraid that something would happen to her."
signaled Xiao Zhao not to worry, and when he entered the door, he found that Sun Sanniang was also in a hurry behind the door.
"Xiao Fan, you hurry up and take a look, Pan'er won't even open the door for me now, I can only look at you!"
Xiao Fan nodded to her: "Okay, you and Xiao Zhao and Jia Quan will stay here, I'll go over and have a look first." β
After Xiao Fan finished instructing the three of them, he walked straight to Zhao Paner's room.
When Jia Quan called the door, Zhao Paner already knew that Xiao Fan was definitely here.
But at this moment, Zhao Paner, like Xiao Fan, didn't know how to face each other, because of Xiao Qinyan, there was a blood feud between her and Xiao Fan.
When Xiao Fan's study heard Xiao Qinyan say that he was the one who impeached his father, Zhao Paner felt that the sky had fallen.
Originally, more than ten years have passed, and she has already let go and no longer clings to the past.
As a result, I learned from Xiao Qinyan that it was he who caused Zhao Paner's family to be ruined, and he was also the father of his fiancΓ©, so I had to sigh that it was really a creation and a trick!
"Pan'er!"
Hearing Xiao Fan's anxious shouts and knocks outside the door, Zhao Paner ran to the door happily, and almost hit the desk and fell down in the black light.
Xiao Fan was relieved when he heard the movement in the room, but he was distressed when he heard the impact, and hurriedly said, "Pan'er, be careful, don't hurt yourself." β
The moment she touched the door bolt, Zhao Paner's hand suddenly stopped, turned her back against the door, slid down the door and sat on the ground, buried her head in her knees with both hands to hide her face and wept.
Xiao Fan heard the crying, knocked on the door and shouted anxiously: "Pan'er, what's wrong with you?" Open the door! β
Zhao Paner wanted to see Xiao Fan, but she was extremely entangled.
"Fan Lang, my heart is so messy, what do you think I should do?"
Listening to Zhao Pan'er's sad cry, Xiao Fan's heart ached like a knife: "Pan'er, I want to see you, no matter what you think, I support you." β
Seeing that Zhao Pan'er didn't open the door, Xiao Fan sat on the ground with his back against the door, and Zhao Pan'er was back to back across the door, and couldn't help but let out a faint self-deprecation: "Pan'er, do you know?" Just now, I confirmed one thing. I'm guessing you wouldn't have imagined that my father was the one who planned my attack. β
"What?" Zhao Pan'er stood up and opened the door, ignoring Xiao Fan, who almost fell, and checked his body: "Then did he embarrass you just now, and were you injured?" β
"He didn't embarrass me, how can I say that he and I are also father and son. Besides, the little manpower he brought with him couldn't hurt me. Xiao Fan stood up and wiped the tears on Zhao Paner's face: "Pan'er, you are finally willing to see me." β
Zhao Pan'er let Xiao Fan caress his face, and asked anxiously, "Tell me what's going on?" Why did your father want to harm you? β
"Actually, it can't be said that it harmed me, he just treated me as a chess piece, and then he made my chess piece almost eaten for the sake of his own overall situation." Xiao Fan was very helpless.
"Then your heart must be painful, right? Betrayed by those closest to him, and kept in the dark. Zhao Paner leaned on Xiao Fan's arms and stroked his face distressedly.
"Actually, it's nothing," Xiao Fan said as he walked into the room and lit the candle, "He didn't care much about me since I was a child, and when I was sixteen years old, he even said that I couldn't support the wall with mud, and then drove me back to my hometown in Suzhou from Tokyo." β
"My mother has loved me since I was a child and quarreled with him about it, but after all, he is the head of the family. In the six years I've been in Suzhou, I can only go to Tokyo every year when my family is reunited on New Year's Day. Later, I told you six years ago when I was a yaina in Suzhou, and you know it. β
"And what do you say he's using you?"
Zhao Paner blinked her big eyes that were red from crying before and looked at him curiously.
"Didn't he lose ground in the DPRK this time and move to the left? In order to return to the court, he heard that the double ears of wheat were found in Tonglu, and he was going to present them to the official family as auspicious Ruijin. β
So he came to me and said that he had snubbed me all these years, and now he saw that I had grown a lot, and he wanted to take me with him for a long time. So he took me to Tonglu in the name of the provincial relatives, in fact, to see if Xiangrui was true. β
"Some people in the Qingliu party in the DPRK knew that he was going to Tonglu and that he didn't have many guards with him, so they were ready to intercept and kill him."
Unexpectedly, he secretly got off the ship halfway, but said to the public that he was sick and needed to rest in the cabin. Because my second son is here, no one else suspects that he has already left. β
In the end, Qingliu and his party were calculated by him, and their power in Jiangnan was uprooted by him, not to mention, and he also caught a lot of Qingliu in the DPRK and China. And it didn't delay him to offer auspicious luck to the official family. β
Zhao Paner couldn't help but sigh: "It's really a deep calculation, it's just a lot of one stone." used the strategy of luring the snake out of the hole to weaken Qingliu's strength, eradicated his constraints in Jiangnan, offered auspicious rui to win the favor of the officials, and won the sympathy of the officials when he was attacked, the key is to also grasp the handle of Qingliu's party, so that they dare not act rashly. And the price of all this ......"
"That's right, the price of all this is just my insignificant son, not to mention that I'm okay now, wouldn't everyone be happy?" Xiao Fan laughed as he spoke.
Zhao Pan'er looked at Xiao Fan, who was laughing more and more crazy, and worried: "Don't be like this, I feel distressed when you look like this." β
"Pan'er, do you know? Actually, I didn't feel much heartache when I found out, because I knew that he was that kind of person, and I wasn't surprised. Xiao Fan lay down and pillowed his head on Zhao Paner's lap and said softly: "What really hurts my heart is that when you ran away and ignored me just now, at that moment I was really like a knife, I was afraid that you would ignore me again, I was afraid that I would lose you." β
Zhao Pan'er gently touched Xiao Fan's temples to help him relax: "Fan Lang, do you know? Actually, I thought about it a lot just now. I thought I'd never miss you again, but I found I couldn't. I thought about leaving, but the thought of life without you made my heart feel like a knife. β
When Xiao Fan heard this, he happily hugged Zhao Pan'er's waist and rubbed his head on her waist: "It turns out that I am so important in your heart, I know that Pan'er, you can't bear me." β
"Don't make a fuss! Itchy. Zhao Pan'er controlled his head with his hand, and said slowly: "Actually, I also know that your father was not at fault at the beginning, and his impeachment of my father was his duty as a speech official." It wasn't your father who made me a lowly member, nor was it an official family. It's my dad's own choice. β
"My father knew that it was a big sin to open the door and release people, but he still chose to do it. Just because he couldn't watch the people of the Great Song Dynasty being plundered and killed by the Liao, he was indifferent. β
"When my father's old ministry came to redeem me, he told me that when my father was dying, he said that he was sorry for me and my mother, but he didn't regret it."
"Fanlang, do you remember? I also told you that I don't regret it at any time! β
Seeing Zhao Paner, who was crying again as she spoke, Xiao Fan quickly sat up and hugged her in his arms.
"Pan'er, I will definitely make you happy every day in the future, and I don't even have the idea of regretting it."
"Well, I believe you!" Zhao Paner drilled into Xiao Fan's arms again.
Xiao Fan was happy when he heard it: "Then our marriage?" β