127. What I have lost, I will not be able to ask for for the rest of my life
I was sure that I was taken to the hospital by Jiang Che, and when the doctors and nurses pushed me into the operating room, Jiang Che's cries were heard in my ears. As if I might die if I wasn't saved......
This is the first time I have seen Jiang Che so excited, and it is also the first time I have seen him cry like this.
On the way to the operating room, I tried to comfort him several times, trying to tell him that I couldn't die yet. But the eyelids are very heavy, and even if you open them, you can see the fluorescent lamps overhead, one after another, very dazzling.
I don't remember how long the operation lasted. His body was anesthetic, and most of his body was numb, and he couldn't feel pain. I didn't have a clear mind, and I could vaguely feel the doctor fiddling with various scalpels and scissors in my hands.
As the operation progressed, a lot of intermittent images suddenly appeared in my mind, how Xu Jiayi asked people to beat me in that deserted cemetery. While they were beating me, Xu Jiayi said "lightly". But every time I finished these two words, the fist that landed on my stomach was a little heavier.
She said that at first, she planned to treat me badly, but after thinking about it, she felt that I was not much at fault, and the biggest mistake was to choose Liang Jinyan.
Didn't Mr. Liang always want a grandson? At the beginning, I was used by Su Rou to conceive Liang Shenyan's child, and then Xu Jiayi used a trick to get rid of it, and now she says that she wants to be thorough.
Even if I divorce Jiang Zhi, even if I can be with Liang Jinyan, if I can't have children, can Liang Jinyan and I continue to be together? Old Man Liang attaches so much importance to his heirs, he categorically will not let a woman who will not have children marry into their Liang family.
Xu Jiayi's purpose is obvious, she can't get it. Don't even think about it. What she loses, others have to lose more.
Before the operation was over, I fell asleep. When I woke up, it was already the next day, and Jiang Che was standing by my bedside, with a blue stubble on his chin, and he looked like he was going through a lot of vicissitudes.
He almost cried tears of joy when he saw me wake up, held my hand and asked me how I felt.
I shook my head, I didn't have any strength in my body, I just knew that my stomach hurt badly, as if something was missing.
"You lie down and don't move, the doctor said you're still very weak." Seeing that I had opened my eyes, Jiang Che stood up directly from the chair excitedly, and was just about to get me something to eat, but when he turned around, he thought of something, so he immediately turned back, "I know you should be hungry now, but you can't eat for the time being." I'll get you some hot water to moisten your throat first. ”
Jiang Che's expression was a little flustered, and his eyes were red. I grabbed him when he was about to turn around again, but I didn't have much strength in my hands.
"What about Liang Jinyan?" I asked.
I don't know why I always see his face when I'm asleep, I thought I could see him when I opened my eyes, but the truth disappointed me.
Jiang Che stiffened and stood in place, stunned for a long time before smiling dryly, "I'd better call the doctor first, the doctor said that you have to tell him as soon as you wake up......"
"What about Liang Jinyan?" My throat was hoarse. I wanted to get out of bed, but my stomach hurt so badly that it felt like it was about to crack.
Jiang Che didn't move at all, and the hand I was holding turned into a fist. "Zhong Xia, at this time, you still miss him?"
"He didn't come?" I almost screamed in disappointment.
Jiang Che broke my hand off his wrist, "You have a good rest, I'll go and call you a doctor first." With that, he quickly left the room. As soon as he left, my whole body went limp, and I collapsed on the bed like a puddle of mud.
The limbs are very weak, and the whole person is like an eggplant beaten by frost. Didn't die. But life is worse than death.
Several times I moved my arm to touch my stomach, but what I touched was the gauze tied to my stomach, a thick layer. I can't think of anything underneath this layer of gauze, maybe something is missing.
After a while, Jiang Che called the doctor, and the doctor asked me where I felt uncomfortable. I shook my head, my heart was so congested that it looked like a thousand pounds of stone weighing down here. But I know that the doctor didn't want that answer.
After doing some simple examinations, Jiang Che turned around and sent the doctor out, lingering outside the door for a long time before returning. When he returned, his face seemed even worse than before.
"Now, can you answer my question?" Jiang Che was silent after entering the door, and poured me water with a water bottle. But the water was spilling out of the cup, and he didn't even notice it. It wasn't until he heard me say that he came to his senses.
But he chose to remain silent, and when he walked up to me, he took a cotton swab and moistened it on my lips. The eyes are red. Tears seemed to be falling.
Seeing him like this, I feel even more uncomfortable, do you have to hold back what you have to say? Even if he doesn't say anything now, I know what my situation is.
"Jiang Che, do you think I'll be fine if I don't speak now, and I'll be fine?" I fixed my eyes on his face, and my hand grabbed the corner of his coat.
Jiang Che snorted, then smiled reluctantly at me, "You're fine, I'll take you out of the hospital in a few days." As he spoke, he prepared to get up and leave for the third time.
I immediately stopped him, "Jiang Che, is it true that Liang Jinyan will not come, have you contacted him?" ”
"Liang Jinyan! Liang Jinyan! You're fucking murdered like this. Why are you still thinking about him? Zhong Xia, how cheap you are! Suddenly, Jiang Che smashed the glass in his hand, and the broken glass splashed on the ground with the hot water. He glared at me with rage, his eyes burning with rage.
yes, how cheap I am! It's all here, I still think about him, I still miss him. I know that the way I am now is because of him. Because of him, I will be dealt with by Xu Jiayi like this.
But I just want to see him, I just want him to see me like this. I want to see if he knows that I can't have children in the future, and is still willing to have me?
"Call him and let him come see me!" Even if Jiang Che misunderstands it, what can it be, even if you want me to die, you have to let me die completely!
"Okay, you want him to come to see you, don't you? Okay, I'll call him now, I'll ask him to come over! Jiang Che said, angrily took out his mobile phone, and after the call was dialed, he didn't answer it for a long time.
If it didn't work once, Jiang Che hit it a second time, so he tried tirelessly over and over again, and finally Jiang Che dropped the phone directly against the wall.
He pointed to the broken phone and shouted, "See, this is the consequence of your cheapness!" Doesn't he care about you? Doesn't he love you? See for yourself, if he really cares about you so much, it is not me Liang Weiyan who is standing here now, but him Liang Jinyan! ”
After Jiang Che roared, I couldn't help laughing. yes, if he cares about me, why not come to me? As long as he wants to, there's nothing he can't do! Just like before, no matter how I was bullied by Jiang Zhi, he could always rush over as soon as possible.
He'd been able to do it before, so why not this time?
Why didn't he show up now, when I wanted to see him the most?
"Jiang Che, let's try again later, maybe he hasn't seen something now? Maybe ......"
"Zhong Xia, wake up!" Jiang Che rushed to the bedside. Picked up my bag and pulled out my divorce papers, "I'm married to you, I don't care what you become." I don't care if you can have children in the future, I don't care. If we get married, I can live the life you want. What money, what power. I can do neither! I won't go to Liang Jinyan for revenge, and I won't go with him to grab those things that I don't care about at all. Zhong Xia, why can't you just look at me? Compared with Liang Jinyan, I am not as good as him! ”
Jiang Che scolded bitterly, looking hideous, but it was even more distressing.
"Jiang Che......" I called his name weakly, and my heart seemed to be pierced by a sharp blade.
"I beg you to stop calling me by name......" Jiang Che snorted and knelt directly in front of me, "You know, every time you call me like this, it always seems like you want to give me hope, but every time you give me disappointment." This time, if you still choose him, I have nothing to say...... But later, the bridge will return to the bridge, and the road will return to the road...... I will no longer show mercy to Liang Jinyan's subordinates! ”