Chapter 49: Do You Want the Future?
Of course, Wang Xiaobei knows Chen Xiaoyi better, after all, Chen Xiaoyi occasionally talks to him about some little-known past.
But about Wang Xiaobei's past and present, Chen Xiaoyi never dared to ask, nor did he want to ask.
Because, she was afraid to learn about Wang Xiaobei's side that was incompatible with her......
Wang Xiaobei also once asked Chen Xiaoyi why he was so obsessed with himself, but Chen Xiaoyi just said lightly:
"The past doesn't matter, I only care if I have you in the future."
It is true that although that moment was a little perfunctory, it can be seen that Chen Xiaoyi especially wants to enter Wang Xiaobei's heart.
She really wants to know if he and her have a future.
Chen Xiaoyi has tried questions like Wang Xiaobei more than once, and the future always feels so far away.
Wang Xiaobei struggled for a long time every time, because he didn't know how to answer such a heavy question!
Chen Xiaoyi wants a future, and it seems that Wang Xiaobei can't make any promises at all now......
Wang Xiaobei: Do you want the future?
Chen Xiaoyi: I want to, but I don't dare to expect extravagantly......
The chat window suddenly became a little cold, and after a long wait, Chen Xiaoyi did not immediately get another response from Wang Xiaobei.
Suddenly a little sad, and his eyes instantly moistened strangely.
At that moment, Chen Xiaoyi knew that he and she would not have a future......
Perhaps, the topic is too heavy, and neither of them is ready for the future.
After a silence as long as a century, Chen Xiaoyi pursed her lips, raised her hand to gently wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes, and took a deep breath.
I really felt the strong love from Wang Xiaobei in the early morning, and it turned out that it was just a moment of fireworks, fleeting!
Since ancient times, he has been amorous and hateful, maybe he is talking about the current Chen Xiaoyi!
's inexplicable affection for Wang Xiaobei is just from a book, but she actually feels that Wang Xiaobei has been waiting for her for a long, long time!
Here, Wang Xiaobei silently stared at the mobile phone screen, Chen Xiaoyi's helpless words deeply pierced his soul, and his heart was already messy.
At that moment, Wang Xiaobei was very entangled, and he was even more painful.
He didn't know if he had the ability to allow her thousands of miles of rivers and mountains, but at least, at this moment, he wouldn't perfunctory her at will.
Even if it just makes her, who is very melancholy on the screen, get some comfort, Wang Xiaobei doesn't want to take this risk.
Because he loves her more than he loves himself!
The future really seems to be starting to be a little far away!
An inexplicable sense of loss and despair always repeats itself over and over again in hope.
The two were silent for a long time, and the light of the WeChat chat window dimmed and was lit up again, and then continued to dim......
At this time, no one wants to continue to dwell on this very heavy topic.
In the embarrassing cold night, the air silently froze in mid-air, and the two very distant cities became cold in a single thought.
The two tangled souls gradually became a little cold, but it made the two people who were looking at each other from a distance want to get closer to each other.
Perhaps, only when we are close to each other, will each other feel warmer!
Finally, at the moment when Chen Xiaoyi decided to turn off the phone and go to bed, Wang Xiaobei sent a distant emoji.
That is the tacit understanding between the two, the deep affection for each other every day......
Of course Chen Xiaoyi knows what Wang Xiaobei wants to express!
Distant view = eager to eager, just because of this thin mobile phone screen, out of thin air a little more helplessness and sadness!
However, it takes more courage to step out of the phone screen and face each other bravely.
Wang Xiaobei did not use superfluous words to look forward to their future, but replaced it with this daily distant looking emoji, but the meaning is so profound......
He was waiting for her, preferring to use time to witness their future
Come.
Even if he can't give her the ideal future she wants, at least he is willing to work hard......
At that moment, Chen Xiaoyi cried.
She clutched her mouth tightly and cried bitterly.
In the middle of the night, the weak cry seems more bleak than the cold wind outside the window, especially in the bedroom where the sound insulation is excellent.
Wang Xiaobei can feel her sadness, and he also regrets that he can't give her the thousands of miles of rivers and mountains she wants.
After all, some promises, once spoken, can be instantly pleasurable, but if they are not fulfilled in the end, they will hurt her for the rest of her life.
Wang Xiaobei knows this very well.
Reason told Wang Xiaobei that she must not be perfunctory at will, let alone hurt this best girl, she needs to be cared for and loved with her heart.
Promises are just impulses, and if you want to fulfill them, you need to pay more.
Perhaps, a sincere heart is not enough, but also needs to have absolute execution.
After all, Chen Xiaoyi has been missing too much for too long!
This is Wang Xiaobei's most sober cognition.
From some occasional chats between the two, he could also know that Chen Xiaoyi didn't really want much, of course, he understood that she just needed a shoulder that loved her so that she could cry softly.
Wang Xiaobei didn't dare to hope that the best in her eyes would be like herself, desperately longing for him in her future!
He didn't know that what Chen Xiaoyi wanted was his and hers' future, even if he had nothing!
Because, she had already fallen in love with Wang Xiaobei at the moment when she gave her twenty-seven recommendation tickets.
As early as that moment, Chen Xiaoyi's eyes were inexplicably moist.
She couldn't believe her eyes, Wang Xiaobei would do everything she could, and confessed to herself by giving away the recommendation votes of others!
The wrong time, the wrong place, the wrong feeling......
But this feeling is so beautiful and real, so attached!
It is precisely because of this obsession that Chen Xiaoyi really decided to enter Wang Xiaobei's works, read his soul, and enter his heart.
Perhaps, the future may also be wrong.
However, if you don't work hard, mistakes will be maintained.
If you work hard, maybe there is a glimmer of life......
Thinking of this, Chen Xiaoyi took a deep sniff, gently wiped away the cold tears on her face, and then silently edited the message sent.
Chen Xiaoyi: Brother Xiaobei, are you tired from work today?
Wang Xiaobei: I'm not tired, it's just a few small things.
Chen Xiaoyi: If you're tired, you should rest early! You said you couldn't stay up late, you would have a headache.
Wang Xiaobei: I'll go to bed on time, Xiaoyi, you don't have to worry.
Chen Xiaoyi: Okay. So I'm codewording?
Wang Xiaobei: Yes! You code words, I read books.
Chen Xiaoyi finally broke the embarrassing chat between the two, she didn't want to completely entangle Wang Xiaobei because of such a heavy topic about the future!
She didn't want to see him suffer because of this, he and she weren't from the same world, they just interacted normally as book friends!
No matter who it is, after only knowing each other for more than a month, it does seem a bit stupid to suddenly ask the other party if they can give themselves the future they want!
Such an extremely childish topic will only make the other party choose to be silent and escape, or even disappear faster!
Chen Xiaoyi also suddenly woke up at that moment, she couldn't completely lose Wang Xiaobei!
At that time, Wang Xiaobei occupied a different position in Chen Xiaoyi's heart, although she never dared to expect more.
Wang Xiaobei is very good, and he is like a fish in water at work, and the leaders appreciate it very much.
and writes good words that can heal readers, Chen Xiaoyi admires him very much.
Wang Xiaobei, who exists like a god, is the best of him, and he is the most special existence in Chen Xiaoyi's heart.
The world suddenly became quiet, and only the sound of sobbing could be faintly heard.
Two people in different cities started their daily processes, and when Chen Xiaoyi coded words, Wang Xiaobei was also used to reading books quietly.
He has always believed that even if the two are not in the same city, the two loving hearts are always together.
Two lonely souls can cross any obstacle and stay by each other's side for a long time, because when they love deeply, they are interconnected......
Time passed little by little, Chen Xiaoyi's inspiration also continued to surge, and the sound of tapping on the keyboard seemed to become a little more cheerful.
At this time, Wang Xiaobei read the book for nearly an hour, and his eyes suddenly felt a little dry and painful.
He carefully took off his glasses, gently rubbed his tired eyes, and suddenly felt a mess in his mind.
Yes, he was suddenly entangled in the question about the future that Chen Xiaoyi had been waiting for for a long time.
It is understandable, it is a future that Wang Xiaobei has never dared to agree to at will!
After pondering for a moment, Wang Xiaobei took a deep breath repeatedly, trying to keep himself calm.
He wanted to respond in person, that there was a topic about his and her future!
Wang Xiaobei: Xiaoyi, if you are sure that you want a future that belongs only to us, I think I will work hard.
After editing this message, Wang Xiaobei pressed the send button without hesitation.
At that moment, Wang Xiaobei's heart was even more messy, his heart was beating faster, and it was difficult to calm down.
I saw Wang Xiaobei gently pressing his chest, exhaling deeply again, staring at the mobile phone screen with his eyes intently, anxiously waiting for Chen Xiaoyi's response.
At this time, how Wang Xiaobei hoped that he could immediately confirm Chen Xiaoyi and confirm that she was the one he had finally waited for after walking for half his life!
He didn't want to miss the best of her completely because of his cowardice and not being able to allow her a desired future!
The world is eerily quiet again! The most afraid of the silence of a sudden airborne!
The cold air instantly froze in mid-air, and it seemed that all the warm words before seemed so cold and ruthless at this moment, without any temperature!
After a long silence, Chen Xiaoyi's eyes moistened, and a few hot tears quietly slipped from the corners of her eyes.
Then, she silently edited the message and sent it.
Chen Xiaoyi: Is the future still far away?
Wang Xiaobei: It shouldn't be far off.
Chen Xiaoyi: Thank you, Brother Xiaobei! I will also try.
Wang Xiaobei: Xiaoyi, thank you! You are the best!
Suddenly, it's pitch black in the bedroom! At twenty-two o'clock in the middle of the night, there was a power outage!
Chen Xiaoyi was extremely panicked in an instant, she was most afraid of the dark!
Whenever the night comes, Chen Xiaoyi always tosses and turns for a long time and finds it difficult to sleep, so she always sleeps with the light on at night.
People who are extremely insecure are afraid of bright light during the day and especially afraid of darkness late at night.
It's a very lonely feeling, and I always feel a little out of place with this reality.
Since meeting Wang Xiaobei, Chen Xiaoyi has slowly changed a lot unconsciously.
Chen Xiaoyi: Oh my God! Brother Xiaobei, there is a power outage at home!
Wang Xiaobei: Hurry up and find a candle to light it.
Chen Xiaoyi: There are no candles at home, and now I turn on the flashlight and stuff myself in the quilt.
Wang Xiaobei: Is there a power outage at home or a power outage in the entire community? Could it be that it tripped?
Chen Xiaoyi: The whole community is without power, and it is pitch black outside.
Wang Xiaobei: Do you have any reason? When will the call come?
Chen Xiaoyi: The owners said that the nearby substation was burned down and was being arranged for emergency repairs. No one knows when the call will come.
Wang Xiaobei: Can you go out and buy a few candles now? In the future, you can have more candles at home, which can come in handy when there is no electricity.
Chen Xiaoyi: The power is out, and the elevator can't go......
Wang Xiaobei: Then take the stairs! It is also safe to shine on a mobile phone flashlight.