His stops were so hard and so hard that if I hadn't been wearing my seatbelt, I would have been thrown out.

In fact, I don't know in my heart that Peng Zhen will not choose to leave the capital at this time if there is a little way, and he will not choose to leave the capital at this time, seeing that the New Year is coming, he has been gone for three months, and it is obvious that he is not even there for the New Year, such a trip, if it is not a last resort, he will not go.

But I was just very annoyed, and my heart was burning with panic.

I don't know how to think about the things I have experienced in the past few months, I have been able to face it steadily, all because I have Peng Zhen by my side, and the sense of security he gives me is that I have all the confidence to face it, and now that he is leaving, what should I do?

Peng Zhen was silent for a while, and slapped his head twice.

His hair is getting longer and longer, and when I first met him, it was the kind of inch that was close to the scalp, and it looked sharp, and the whole person was sharp and angular to the point of fierceness. Later, when he joined An's, he slowly grew his hair longer, and I sometimes joked that his current hairstyle was almost close to the Oba in Korean dramas, and Peng Zhen immediately glared.

muttered and complained, "If it weren't for the fact that those old men would look more pleasing to the eye, I wouldn't have left a few heads." ”

I knew in my heart that he had made a lot of compromises, and now he slept less and less every night, often getting up after I fell asleep to read the papers. Maybe in the eyes of outsiders, he is still the prickly Peng Zhen who behaves arbitrarily, but as the person closest to him, of course I understand everything he has paid.

There was a burst of heat and a burst of cold.

Peng Zhen opened his mouth and said, "Otherwise, you go with me, and I'll take you there." ”

After saying that, he denied it himself, "It's not possible!" An's has invested recently, Latin America, Africa is the most, the place I want to go, the conditions are difficult, where can you bear it. ”

I saw that he was entangled by himself, and I felt that I was unreasonable, and he must have gone through countless contradictions and entanglements before finally making a decision.

I reached out to take his hand, his hand was cold, "Where can I go, my mother can't leave, and besides, the final exam is coming soon, can I, the head teacher, still ask for leave?" I have taken too many leave in the past six months, and the next semester is the final sprint of the third year of junior high school, and this holiday is definitely going to make up for classes. ”

Peng Zhen grabbed my hand with his backhand, squeezed it tightly, and didn't say a word.

I knew that he must be uncomfortable in his heart, and after being with him for a long time, I could actually feel his feelings, and I couldn't help but persuade him, "Don't worry about me, I'm fine." Now no matter how I say it, I am also the daughter of the Ye family, your grandfather and they don't dare to really do anything to me, if you can really do that, they won't compete with you, right? ”

Peng Zhen listened to my chatter, turned sideways from the driver's seat, and plunged into my arms, he was always hot, like a big fireball, and the air exhaled was hot and hot.

It's just that today I found out that the situation was wrong, and my other hand, which was not being held by him, quickly touched his forehead, and it was hot.

When I held his hand just now, I still felt that his hand was cold, but I didn't notice that his body was very hot, at this time I was anxious and annoyed, "Tell me about you, it's snowing this day, how cold it is, you are standing outside the car like a fool and waiting, this is good, I have a fever!" ”

Peng Zhen didn't speak, his body was still a little soft.

He's always been tough and domineering, he feels like a Transformer and will never fall, and I've never seen him sick.

was completely panicked at the moment, "Peng Zhen, Peng Zhen?" ”

"Hmm." He can still talk back, but his voice is a little confused.

It's not a matter of waiting on the side of the road like this, my first reaction is that I will always follow the few bodyguards behind me, as the days go by, I already know those people very well, push the car door, I shouted at the back of the car: "Huzi!" Big ghost! ”

Sure enough, a few people came out in the black night, and the big ghost Huzi was the bodyguard sent by Peng Zhen behind me, and of course there were girls, but my situation at this time naturally needed a man to help.

Wait for them to come, "Hurry up, get someone out of the driver's seat first, let's go to the hospital." ”

Peng Zhen is really sick, and it is too rare for someone to be a little confused like this, so my first reaction is, of course, to go to the hospital.

However, although Peng Zhen was sick, he was conscious and resolutely did not go to the hospital and wanted to go home.

There was no way, so we could only get into the bodyguard car, and then let Huzi drive Peng Zhen's own car back.

In the bodyguard car, there were not only the people I knew before who protected me, but also Xu Zhu.

Since the last time I was watched by Xu Zhi in the hospital, he returned to Peng Zhen's side, and now continues to be Peng Zhen's assistant, I think he came back with Peng Zhen tonight, but Peng Zhen came to pick me up, and he went to the bodyguard car behind.

Because the bodyguard car has to follow me every day, there is more space inside, which is convenient for everyone to rest, so Peng Zhen has a place to lie down. He fell asleep in a daze, his hands still clenching my fingers, not relaxing at all.

I looked at Peng Zhen's red face, and I was really anxious.

Xu Zhu said to the side: "Tonight, he knew that you went to see the Ye family, he was so anxious that he couldn't go on the meeting, so he ran to the hospital to pick you up, and he was afraid that your mother would be angry when she saw him, so he waited outside for forty minutes." ”

In such weather, he stood on the road for forty minutes, and it was no wonder that he did not freeze.

I really can't do anything about this person, I know Peng Zhen's worries, he is anxious, he is afraid that I will be hurt on the one hand, and more importantly, that person is Xiao Qing's mother.

Peng Zhen was afraid that the other party would say something not very good to me, which would make me feel estranged from him.

I always say that Peng Zhen looks straightforward on the surface, but in fact, there are a lot of twists and turns in his heart, if he wasn't thoughtful, he wouldn't have been able to sit firmly in An's position in such a short period of time.

Seeing that Peng Zhen was a little more stable, I asked Xu Zhu, "Are you going to follow him on a business trip?" ”

Xu Zhu nodded, his face was not good-looking.

endured and endured, Xu Zhucai said: "Don't lose your temper for him to go on a business trip, he is also forced to be helpless, I have followed him for many years, I have never seen him smile when he sees everyone like now, and people with a good temperament say that he is easy-going." He has now lost all his temper, and he may not be more aggrieved in his heart. ”

It is really unbelievable to let Peng Zhen accompany people with a smile. But Peng Zhen did it so sweetly that people couldn't see his true feelings at all.

He became more and more like a brilliant businessman outside, talking and laughing, hiding all his personal emotions.

The people who followed Peng Zhen were all distressed by him, and the only one who was happy was probably Ms. An, Ms. An now completely let go and let Peng Zhen take over the company, and faintly had the meaning of confronting her father. Ms. An has always lived under the control of her father all her life, whether it is growing up, or the marriage of the year, even if it is the child born, she has not escaped the arrangement of Mr. An.

Peng Zhen can now compete with Mr. An, for Ms. An, there is actually a kind of pleasure, what she wanted to do back then, she didn't do it, but now her son can do it, she is naturally happy.

In the face of Peng Zhen in such a situation, it is not good to say, his mother will press everything on him, and he will be tired a lot.

I raised my hand and touched his sweaty forehead, a little regretful that I had just lost my temper with him, he was already so tired.

Back at the apartment, Xu Zhu and they put down Peng Zhen and went out to buy medicine and left, I put a fever patch on Peng Zhen's head and fed him medicine. Guarding the bedside, he was not stable, and his body was cold and hot.

I couldn't stand it, so I fetched water to wipe his body, and the warm towel was rubbed on his body, and he felt a little more comfortable. Consciousness cleared a little, "Flails? "He called me.

I responded, the water was a little cold, and I was afraid that he would not feel well, so I changed to a hot one.

He looked at me with red eyes, like a dream, and then smiled, "It's nice to have you by my side." ”

I wasn't angry, "When am I not here?" I'm thankful you don't get sick. ”

He was so sick that he couldn't sleep, so he pulled me and asked, "You saw Mrs. Xiao today, what did she tell you?" ”

Even when he was sick, I could hear the temptation in his tone.

I'm still not at ease.

I sat on the edge of the bed, not knowing what he was worried about, and said, "What else can I say, just talk about my parents back then." ”

Peng Zhen put the back of one hand on his forehead and whispered, "Zhun Bao said a lot of bad things about me. ”

I was silent, I couldn't refute what he said, what Xiao Qi's mother said was not as simple as bad words.

Peng Zhen grabbed my hand and put me down on top of him, his body was soaked with sweat, hot and wet, I wanted to get up, but he wouldn't let me. said to himself: "It's me who is sorry for Haruko, she is affected by me." ”

What is the ...... What do you mean.

I suddenly remembered that Xiao Qi's mother said in tears how old Xiao Qing was back then, if Peng Zhen hadn't taken the initiative to seduce, Xiao Qing would not have been so desperate at all. I didn't believe it at the time, after all, Xiao Qi's mother spoke so extremely, and it was not impossible to climb casually.

Who knew that Peng Zhen would have said the next moment: "If I hadn't deliberately approached, Haruko might not have died in the end." ”

My heart went cold all at once.

I don't know how to describe the feelings in my heart, since I knew what happened back then, I have always been considerate of Peng Zhen, and after thinking about it, I don't think that what happened back then has anything to do with him.

I thought he didn't do anything.

But the fact is often like this, the partiality in my heart can blind my eyes, and I think of Peng Zhen's goodness in my heart, so I never feel that there is still his fault in the past.

I didn't say anything, just listened to his pounding heartbeat.

Peng Zhen hugged me and sat up, the medicine had come up, he was a little dizzy, his body was in a trance, and then he held my face with both hands, his eyes were red, full of me, he said: "Flails, I have never been a good person, will you dislike me?" ”

I don't know how to answer him, Peng Zhen is not a good person, I know this, what kind of good person can be the person who threw me into a mental hospital.

It's just that compared to other people, he is really my most solid support at this stage, so I deliberately ignored those injuries. At this time, he mentioned it, and I still found it difficult to accept.

What I care more about is back then.

I lowered my voice, "Tell me clearly, what the hell was going on back then?" ”

Peng Zhen smiled evilly, he was already too delicate to be a little feminine, but at this time, because of the fever, his face was flushed, and he looked even more weird.

"Unwilling!" Peng Zhen seemed to have been depressed in his heart for too many years, and tonight, taking advantage of his illness, he suddenly vented, "We are obviously the same in everything, even our looks are the same, but why is he the pride of the sky, and I am a wild child!" At that time, my grandfather said more than once that I was more impulsive and not calm enough, and it would have been nice if Ah Ting had been left in the Peng family back then. Not only grandfather, but also father and grandfather, they are full of smiles when they mention Ah Ting, and they are not eyebrows when they talk about me. Ah Ting was taught badly by my grandfather, even if my mother had a bowl of water and took us to the playground, he would lose his temper, so he had to force my mother to take him alone. ”

Peng Zhen chattered, like an aggrieved child.

I put my arms around him and patted him on the back.

I don't have much to say about the education of the Peng and An families. Even I sometimes think that the people of the Peng family don't dislike Peng Zhen, Jin Ge said that the old men of several families have said that Peng Zhen is a good material for being a soldier, but in front of them, they will not say such things.

And Peng Zhen's father ........ Such a cold-faced person, I am afraid it is even more difficult to speak softly to his son.

"You tell me the point!" I accentuated my tone.

Peng Zhen raised his eyebrows and looked at me, so he reluctantly said about Qingzi, "Ah Ting is good at everything, there is nothing he can't get, but he touched a nail at Xiao Qing, Xiao Qing grew up together in our compound, she was not in good health when she was a child, and she was always bullied, I trained those people twice, and they were afraid, so they didn't dare to bully her." So that girl ran after me all day long, I was annoyed to death by her, I didn't expect that Ah Ting would make trouble to the extent that she had to do it later. I watched the excitement and thought it was really good, I had already gone to military school during that time, and when I came back, I uncharacteristically gave Xiao Qing a good face a few times, and gave her the model of the plane that your brother planned to buy for you, and she couldn't look at Ah Ting at all. ”

The intrigue of youth sounds childish and ridiculous.

It's just that Peng Zhen didn't expect that his mischievous actions would end up killing two lives, if Xiao Qing hadn't imagined the future with the aircraft model, he wouldn't have told Ah Ting that she only liked the Air Force, so Ah Ting wouldn't have gone to join the army, and he wouldn't have died later, and Ye Gaochi wouldn't have died because of saving Peng Ting, so that Xiao Qing wouldn't have died in the end.

This is the deepest pain that Peng Zhen has pressed in his heart for many years, in fact, he is the initiator of all the events back then.

He didn't dare to look back, and he didn't even have a chance to make amends.

After listening to so much, my heart felt like I had fallen into an ice hole, and it was getting colder and colder layer by layer.

"Peng Zhen, tell me again, what did you think of the first time you saw me?"

His guilt was hidden in his heart, so much. So how much true love does it have for me?