Approaching the day of production, Xu Heng couldn't help but feel panicked, and he was still scared in his heart. I stayed by Xu Heng's side, in fact, psychologically not much better than Xu Heng, after all, the situation of my birth was too miserable, and now in retrospect, I only feel that my heart is full of despair and pain, and because of that birth, I was left with a body of illness.

So Xu Heng and I began to feel tense as the date of her labor arrived.

The only thing outside of complete ignorance is probably Heaven. He's been obsessed with those gun parts lately, and as for other things, they can't distract him at all.

Xu Heng's face was already swollen, and he looked at Heaven and said with a smile: "This is really beautiful for you, eating cherries and playing with guns, it is completely a fairy day." I can't find anyone who eats cherries in March in the capital! ”

Heaven was lying on the ground, and the cherry pit like the tip of a small mountain had already been eaten next to his small body.

Not only does Heaven love to eat, but Xu Heng also loves to eat, and his mouth kept saying to me: "Tell me, this person is really a god, just this kind of cherry, how many years have we not eaten it?" As for the cherries that are sold so expensive now, how can our original cherries be delicious. ”

The person Xu Heng said in his mouth, I was a little irritated when I heard it.

Impatiently said, "Next time he sends it back, will you throw it out?" ”

Since I finished talking with Peng Zhen that day, my family has received things one after another, from food to use, and there is nothing that is not carefully prepared. A fool can guess who sent it, I didn't plan to accept it, but I couldn't bear to eat it, and Xu Heng didn't refuse to come, which made me even more irritable.

Xu Heng's eyes widened, "Why not?" Should he pick up such a big son for nothing? This is all he owes you, he dares to give it, why don't you dare to accept it! ”

"Be quiet, don't let Heaven hear." I was shocked by what Xu Heng said.

I'm afraid that Heaven will hear this, I don't want Heaven to have anything to do with Peng Zhen anymore, it's better not to have any involvement at all. Through the kitchen door, staring at Heaven who was lying on the ground, pouting and eating cherries, I couldn't help but want to cry when I remembered what Peng Zhen said about snatching the child away.

In fact, I can't sleep every night these days, and I go back to the beginning, the days when I had to stare at heaven day and night.

I'm afraid he'll be gone in an instant.

It's not that I haven't thought about leaving with heaven, but this earth is no longer a round place, even if the country of rice is far away, as long as Peng Zhen is willing, he can easily find it, and abroad, I don't have the protection of Ye Gaochi and these people, the country of rice is not domestic, many privileges cannot be enjoyed, in fact, it is more dangerous for heaven.

can only hold on so strongly, and endure it desperately.

I don't dare to let my child leave me.

Xu Heng stared at my face, "Can you not look like I'm going to die of worrying all day long, I'm flustered by you, and I always feel that things are going to be bad." ”

No matter how difficult it is in my heart.

I don't dare to tell Xu Heng, she is now the most critical time, I was pregnant back then because there were too many things pressed in my heart, and in the end there would be such tragic consequences. So far, I don't really have anything to complain about myself, but the fact that Heaven has a bad system because of premature birth makes me feel guilty to this day.

Originally, a four-year-old boy should have been naughty for a minute and couldn't stop, but my heaven was able to sit there quietly all day without moving because of his body.

It's too cruel for a mother.

Xu Heng still maintained a character of saying one thing and saying one, and she scoffed at me cautiously, "You don't know in front of the child? I've been watching those family search programs on TV recently, but I've never seen them, and when I grow up to 30 or 40 years old, I'm still looking for my biological parents all over the world. Since you decided to give birth, you should understand that there are some things that cannot be escaped, and you will always have to face the father of the child. ”

Be! Xu Heng was right.

I know that there is no way to escape the fact that the father of the child is Peng Zhen, and I have never thought to avoid this question. I decided to give birth to Heaven because my mother was gone, and for me at that time, this child was my closest person and even the motivation for me to live.

I said the most heartfelt words to Xu Heng, "He is the father of the child, but the child is nothing more than a piece of life to him." But for me, children are everything. ”

A lot of words, I don't know how to say, for Peng Zhen, the child may become his heir, can become his pet, and can even become a bargaining chip in his hand. Anything goes.

But for me, a child is life.

This is not equal, so now Peng Zhen and I are Heaven's parents, but from a completely different perspective, what Peng Zhen wants is what he thinks he doesn't want or lacks in his life. But for me, heaven is all.

Without heaven, I can't imagine how I'm going to spend my next days.

So I can't relax, I don't have the slightest intention of maneuvering, negotiating or even compromising with Peng Zhen, because even the slightest possibility of failure is something I can't bear.

My whole person was even more depressed and anxious.

Xu Heng probably couldn't stand me like this, and said to me: "Let's go, let's go out for a walk, you stay at home all day and night, and the children have been nested for several days, if you continue like this, you both will collapse!" ”

Children always have to exercise, I know that.

But I was so scared that I was even scared to walk out of this room with Heaven.

Xu Heng patted me, "What are you afraid of, he still dares to rob people on the street, just because we are vegetarians." ”

I was still timid, Xu Heng said angrily: "I really haven't seen you like this, he wants to see the child, just come and see it." The child is yours, don't scare yourself, the other party hasn't come to grab it yet, you will destroy the child first. ”

I can imagine the impact of these words on me.

I woke up all at once.

It's me who is on the tip of the horns again, I always want to be able to guard heaven, but I forget that heaven is now grown up, he needs to go out and exercise, and he is not an object that can be imprisoned by me all the time.

It's just that...... I looked at Xu Heng's somewhat scary stomach, "You ......."

It's such a big belly, how can you go out.

In this regard, Xu Heng was eloquent, "The doctor said that pregnant women should exercise more, I am not afraid, what are you afraid of." ”

Although I was still worried, seeing Xu Heng's insistence, I didn't object much.

He went out and told Heaven to get up and go out for a walk, and he had been staring at those gun parts for several days, not moving or speaking, in fact, such a state was very dangerous.

I still hope that heaven can be lively.

Heaven was not very reluctant to go out, and his little expression was very unhappy, and from time to time he turned his head to continue to look at the parts. Xu Heng can only use the mourning policy, "You should accompany your aunt and baby to go for a walk, okay?" The little baby is bored to death, and the little brother doesn't talk to him. ”

At this time, I am afraid that only the baby can arouse heaven's attention.

Heaven is still not very happy, but fortunately, it is not so repulsive.

I hurriedly dressed Heaven and took the child to help Xu Heng out for a walk. Xu Heng went out and said that there were still a few things in her production bag that had not been added, and if it was too late, it would be too late, so we could only go to the mall and buy something for the newborn.

The so-called production bag is what Xu Heng takes to the hospital when he plans to give birth, in addition to documents and necessities such as sleepiness, things for the child should also be prepared.

So we went straight to the children's store.

Now this kind of place that sells children's things, the decoration is called a pink, and being in it is like following a fairy tale world.

Heaven, who has been a little unable to lift his spirit all the way, can only be regarded as evoking his spiritual power here, staring at this, looking at that, very curious.

Xu Heng is also very loving.

Small shoes, small clothes, just a big palm, looking at it makes people's hearts soft.

Xu Heng pulled Heaven to pick it together, Heaven had the right to decide, and he was even more enthusiastic, "Little baby wants this, well, and this." "The mouth is full of little babies, and I am relieved to see Heaven return to its normal appearance.

Secretly, he also secretly scolded Peng Zhen twice, what is wrong with sending the child, I have to send that part, there is no way to assemble it with heaven, these days, I don't know how many brain cells have died in heaven.

Xu Heng is quite scared these days, after all, it is a child, and it is a difficult hurdle for women no matter what.

When she arrived here today, she was in a better mood, only when she saw these pink and tender things, fantasized about the beautiful appearance of her child, and the pain of childbirth, it seemed that she could be forgotten.

Xu Heng and Heaven were happy, and I was naturally happy, so I bought a lot of things and went shopping for a long time.

When I came out, Xu Heng was still giggling and haha, who knew that not long after walking out of the baby goods store, Xu Heng suddenly grabbed my hand. Her face turned pale as paper in an instant, and then I heard her panicked voice like the sky had fallen, "Flails, I feel like my amniotic water has broken." ”

All of a sudden, memories of the past seemed to resurface in my mind.

That night many years ago came back to my memory, the wet feeling, the cold hospital, the pain, and the unknown life of the child.

Everything was injected into my whole body in an instant.

The feeling of coldness came again.

The so-called nightmare is that it can inflict a second damage on you when you are most vulnerable, and it may be the most important blow that breaks you.

I opened my mouth and found that I couldn't make a sound.

The whole body was soaked with anxiety.

I watched with my own eyes that the color of Xu Heng's pants was slowly darkening, and her amniotic water really broke.

Someone around noticed something unusual, and suddenly screams and cries for help were endless, and the crowds in the mall seemed to be pouring towards us!

I held Xu Heng tightly and kept whispering, "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid." ”

I don't know if I'm talking to Xu Heng, or if I'm talking to the helpless and lonely self back then.

Xu Heng couldn't stand anymore, her body fell backwards, and I could only put all my strength on her to prevent her from falling.

There were a lot of people around to help, and some people were clamoring to call 120 and call an ambulance.

During the whole process, my mind was chaotic, and there was only one thought, that is, Xu Heng had something else to do, something else. Reality and the memory of the past seem to overlap, I followed the crowd to help Xu Heng out of the mall, Xu Heng was already sweating in pain, she was frightened, today is not her due date, although it is not far away, but such a sudden situation, she is not afraid.

She kept calling my name.

I could only follow her step by step, and kept saying, "I'm here, I'm here." ”

It wasn't until Xu Heng was put in the ambulance and the nurse asked me to follow me to the hospital that I suddenly turned around like a thunderbolt.

The blank ones are all unfamiliar faces.

I looked down and searched!

No!

There is no heaven.

My eyes were black, and the man fell to his feet.

The nurse came to help me, but at that moment, I seemed to burst out with amazing strength, and I pushed away the person who was helping me and ran back!

Crazy, really crazy.

heaven，heaven。

I kept looking, and everyone in the mall looked at me like they were looking at a monster, but I didn't care.

The despair in my heart spread layer by layer, I couldn't care about anything, and kept grabbing people and asking if I had seen a child, who was only four years old.

Every negative answer was a reason to completely crush me.

I know I'm done, I've lost heaven.

Tirelessly, my legs seemed to have no feeling at all, I kept running, up and down, constantly asking, mechanical, dazed.

More and more people in the mall know that they have lost their children.

A lot of people helped me find it.

Even the mall radio began to broadcast the search for the child.

But it didn't work, my heaven was like the world had evaporated.

I couldn't stop, in fact, I couldn't stop at all, I kept looking. Someone called the police for me, and the police came quickly and asked me how and where the child was lost.

I tried my best to think about it, but I only despaired, Xu Heng's water suddenly broke, and I probably had a short circuit in my brain at that moment, why didn't I notice heaven.

The police said, "You come with us, first go to check the surveillance, and then look for clues." ”

I nodded blankly.

Without shedding any tears, he followed the police to the monitoring room.