062: Determination
"Emiya Shirou, I'll just say it straight, I'm already ready to use you as the next target for hostile actions, please don't come over with a smile in the future, I will really kill you."
Bai Hua admonished solemnly.
Of course, he didn't really have murderous intentions towards Emiya Shirou, but wanted the other party to withdraw from the center of this troubled vortex.
As long as he is no longer involved in the Holy Grail War, Shirou Emiya, who has almost no contact with other magicians, will not be stepping into the mysterious world.
In this way, the other party will be able to return to the life of ordinary people, and even if he still has the vision of a 'righteous partner', he will be involved in trouble in the future, but as long as it does not involve mystery, with the ability of Emiya Shirou, it can be easily solved.
He's not going to be a hero anymore, is he?
Yes, heroes.
Emiya Shirou will become a hero at some point in the future, Bai Hua can be sure.
Because, he has already seen the posture of Emiya Shirou after becoming a hero - Archer!
There can be no two identical leaves in the world, and there can be no identical people.
In the same way, the relationship between Shirou Emiya and Archer, who have exactly the same magic circuit, can be concluded with a little thought.
And, when the two were getting along, Archer's looming murderous aura was enough to explain the problem.
Archer···
No, it should be the future Emiya Shirou who wants to strangle or stop his current self.
Perhaps, it is for this reason that he responded to the call of the Holy Grail to come to this world.
Rather than waiting for Emiya Shirou to have endless remorse after becoming a hero, it is better to strangle this possibility in the cradle with a tough attitude now.
So...
"It's cruel, but if I don't tell you here, you'll be on this path blindly, and you won't turn back even if you encounter setbacks.
So, listen to me carefully, your magic talent is limited, you can't even be called a magician, you can only strengthen magic, no matter how hard you try, the reward will be limited after all.
Perhaps, you can help others in small things, but that's all, please face yourself, that weak force cannot save others. ”
The cold tone that stifled all feelings made it impossible to guess Bai Hua's thoughts.
There is no way around it, he is not good at lying, and only in this way can he deceive others.
"If you understand this, please give up your unrealistic ideas, live as an ordinary person, and stop trying to set foot in the mysterious realm."
And so it is.
It is precisely because of the lack of ability that the students who appeared in the school, who were absorbed by the Blood Temple, are still lying in hospital beds.
Although he was not explicitly told, Emiya Shirou could have guessed it.
Even if the students were healed, it would be only superficially.
The transformation of life force into magic is nothing more than a normal thing for magicians, and it is carried out all the time.
However, for ordinary people who do not have the special organ of magic circuits, their vitality is forcibly deprived, and their bodies will definitely be weak for a while, and even the symptoms of memory loss will appear, and they will leave scars that will accompany them for a lifetime.
Emiya Shirou had already discovered the barrier, but he didn't have the power to solve it.
He was well aware of the fact that there was nothing to be done.
Even with the help of external forces, I was able to prevent the calamity from happening and avoid the end that should have been fatal. ’
In this way, it should be okay, there is no need to feel remorse, there is no need to feel ashamed? ’
But...
I can't fool myself with this excuse! ’
Accurate!
Accurate!
"Don't be kidding, because of my own powerlessness, I turn a blind eye to the disasters that happen around me, and I recognize my own incompetence and go with the flow, this kind of stupid thing, I can agree with it so much!?"
Emiya Shirou stepped forward excitedly and grabbed Bai Hua's collar.
"Ordinary people can't resist magic in the face of magic, and they can only escape in the face of disaster, and if they can't escape, they can only wait for disaster to come, I hate that kind of sight, so I can only find a way to make that kind of thing happen again.
What is the point of me gaining this power if I refuse to help the victim because I am only capable of self-preservation, and close my eyes when nothing has happened?
Ten years ago, right here, there was a fire, everything was burned down, only I survived, I was saved, the feeling of being saved, I don't know how to express it in words until now, in short, I am very happy, very happy!
So, what's wrong with thinking that I want to be like the person who saved me, and that I want to be like him, so that other people can feel how I felt at that time? ”
Emiya Shirou grabbed Bai Hua's collar tightly, his eyes revealed unwaveringness, and his body trembled slightly, as if he was suppressing his feelings.
In the words spoken, every word, every word was sonorous and powerful.
Because, these are the deepest thoughts in his heart.
It's a wish, it's a determination, it's something he's been prepared to run through since the beginning and will not change in the future.
But in this regard, Bai Hua said a little impatiently.
"Emiya Shirou, don't you understand? You think that······"
"I understand!!
There must be something that cannot be saved, and it is impossible to save everything, this kind of thing, I understand it without you saying it!
This kind of thing is a matter of course, saving one side means giving up the other, and gaining what means throwing away something, but I just want to save them all greedily, isn't it?
It doesn't matter if it's a fantasy or a fantasy, but I want to make it happen, and that's a dream, isn't it!? ”
Emiya Shirou clearly expressed that the ending of the story must not be perfect.
However, he just wants to try to achieve a perfect ending.
What's wrong with that?
Don't people all look forward to the good and work hard for it?
Therefore...
"Baihua Arthur Doyle, you listen to me, no matter what you say, I will go to achieve my dreams, even if magic imprisons my mind, my body will act on its own!"
Emiya Shirou said affirmatively, his voice a little higher with anger.
Bai Hua let out a long sigh and nodded slightly.
"I know, if I want to stop you, I can only stop you if I kill you and make you stop completely, right?"
Exactly.
The boy named 'Emiya Shirou' has no intention of abandoning anyone, nor does he change himself.
"I chose a path full of thorns..." Bai Hua muttered.
For a long time, Bai Hua regarded Emiya Shirou as a weak person who needed to be protected, so he didn't want Emiya Shirou to embark on that difficult path.
But he was wrong, Emiya Shirou was a hero who protected others from the beginning, not a weak person who needed to be protected, and stood on an equal footing with him.
"Well, even I can't say anything."
"Sure enough, it's the same as that person..." Illya murmured to the side, an inexplicable look in her eyes.
"Huh? Illya · Right? Did you just say something? Emiya Shirou looked at him suspiciously.
Illya smiled happily and shook her head slightly.
"Nothing, big brother doesn't need to care."