twenty-two

After Hui Lan and Sang Zixuan separated, they have been paying attention to him. When she knew that Sang Zixuan had remarried and had children, the remorse and self-blame that worried about her stomach were finally alleviated and released. At the same time, her emotions can at least breathe a sigh of relief over time. Otherwise, she will spend her life in the torment of repentance.

Hui Lan was with Wei Daping the day she came out. Although she was not disturbed and confused by loneliness, she was comforted and satisfied at the same time; Although the ordinary life later could soothe the pain in her heart, she would never be able to get rid of the harm to Sang Zixuan and Fang's mother. When she thought of her family's kindness to her, she cried sadly and couldn't cry. She thought: Zixuan and Fang's mother no longer have the joy they used to be? Pain and helplessness ensued. When she learned that Sang Zixuan had a wife and children, Huilan's mood showed signs of stability. It is obvious that her and Wei Daping's relationship with her has come to an end, and all that remains is "illegal" cohabitation. Therefore, in their intense work and love between men and women, displeasure, annoyance, and self-blame have become smooth, natural and dependent on each other after their physical contact. In contrast, Hui Lan is not so relaxed, since she separated from Sang Zixuan, she has been listless, she can't lift her spirits, she has no appetite, and she doesn't sleep steadily, since she is asleep, she is often awakened, and her mind is full of Sang Zixuan's shadow. When she was not divorced, she was a person with a family and a husband, and now she can only be called a "partner". At the same time, she lost herself again, and that inaction and confusion always accompanied her. However, when she became pregnant, she was pleasantly surprised, and then there was a lot of panic. Overwhelmed, this sinful act, she didn't know what to do. She wondered: Will it bring a good ending? This fear haunted them at the same time. However, the state of mind that is in flux has a direct impact on their work and life. But no matter what, it's a life after all, not to mention that Huilan is so looking forward to her child. Only when you have a child can you feel the fullness of a woman's life; When you have children, you also have support and hope. When she learned that Sang Zixuan had a child, she was happy and blessed for him and said: Sang Zixuan was blessed by "misfortune". However, the strange thing is that the two surprises between her and Wei Daping came to naught, one or two pregnancies, and two miscarriages. Although Wei Daping was frightened every time, they were very happy every time they were pregnant. No matter what, they are still running to have another child. However, when Wei Daping remembered what the doctor said to him, "If you curettage twice, it will be difficult to get pregnant again." ”

As the saying goes: there are three unfilial pieties, and no queen is greater. Huilan is convinced of this sentence, if a woman does not give birth to children, it is equivalent to coming to the world in vain. However, this is easier said than done. She didn't understand: why didn't she have any children with Zixuan? The hospital and the doctor concluded that neither of them had reached the level of infertility. Is it the genes that are at work? Or are the chromosomes beating the child? Or do genes and chromosomes simply not match? Or is it the result of mutual exclusion? Hui Lan doesn't think about these things anymore. However, it is a fact that she and Sang Zixuan have not had children for so many years. As for the joy of marriage and pregnancy after the two separated, and the fact that they were pregnant. However, for such accidental and inevitable things, not only can they not explain clearly, but even doctors are difficult to have a correct explanation plan.

For a long time, Wei Daping has treated Huilan like Sang Zixin, from beginning to end. Similarly, Hui Lan is also a virtuous woman. Although they lived in repentance, the formation, continuation and development of the bitter fruit were planted by their own hands. Now that Sang Zixuan has a child, their guilt and remorse have been relieved at the same time. However, since Huilan and Wei Daping have lived together, she, a married woman, has never been stable, after all, it is a matter of harming others and herself, and it is an unacceptable fact for anyone, if it rises to the legal level...... Hui Lan and Wei Daping, who live in pain all the time, feel the punishment and condemnation of stealing the forbidden fruit at the same time. Wei Daping knew that he was sorry for his wife and children, and that kind of disordered thoughts and thoughts often tormented him, so he had to work hard to dilute this state of mind. Although he racked his brains and searched for reasons and reasons over and over again, he couldn't explain it to his wife and children. If he had spoken, he would not have suffered so much. However, when Huilan was pregnant, he was still very happy, and at the same time, he devoted his body and mind to Huilan and took care of her daily life. The more this happens, the more negative the effect, and the reality of miscarriage crushes them to pieces. They are frustrated, helpless and regretful. Defender Daping advised Huilan, "...... It's going to get better. "However, he, a mud bodhisattva who crosses the river and cannot protect himself, can he still protect Huilan? Fortunately, Huilan has been separated from Zixuan, and she can only survive for a day or be able to escape for a day.

Wei Daping never returned home when he came out of the house. During the Chinese New Year, his family asked him to come back, and he tried every possible means to find excuses. Sang Zixin didn't think too much about it, and she didn't mean to blame him. The more she is like this, the more Wei Daping is upset. In short, he always felt heartache and confusion when he lied. For the first two months after he came out, he didn't send money to his family, but later he set aside the cost of rent and food, and sent the rest of the money home. Only in this way can the heart feel better. His actions were sympathetic and supportive to Hui Lan at the same time. "My salary is enough for us to live," she said. Only by hearing Hui Lan's kind comfort did he have hope in his heart. And Huilan saw that Wei Daping was happy, and she was also happy.

Now Huilan is a single woman, talking and doing things, thinking about Wei Daping everywhere, and working hard for their family, so she has an orderly family. Whenever she calms down, Huilan will also feel sorry for her sister, her son is really uneasy, he doesn't study and embarrass his mother everywhere. And Wei Daping, who was thousands of miles away, could only send money, and nothing else could help. Every time he sends money to his son, his son's attitude towards him is better, otherwise his son will always be unforgiving to him, and sometimes he will beat or scold. Despite this, Wei Daping wanted to ask his son a few words after sending the money, but the words came to his mouth and swallowed back. Huilan and Wei Daping both knew that they were not qualified to say anything more. His son's unfriendly attitude hurt Wei Daping's heart, but he never said a word. When Wei Daping put down the phone and smiled awkwardly at Hui Lan, Hui Lan would always say a few words of comfort. Who has such a child...... Today's children are so willful that they are gone.

Life has to go by day by day, Huilan and Wei Daping's lives are plain and frugal, and they never spend money that shouldn't be spent. They had never gone out to eat, and they refused to do so even though they had been invited by their co-workers. They know that they have violated their conscience, ethics, and morals. Therefore, they need to use their actions to bring a little comfort to themselves. For a long time, Huilan and Wei Daping have never talked about the two of them, and their future plans, maybe they are like mirrors in their hearts, but they don't say anything about it.

When they get home from work, the two of them cook and cook together, do laundry, and clean up the house together.

"Huilan, it's time to eat." Wei Daping called Huilan who was washing clothes. She wiped her hands and agreed to sit down at the table. After eating, the two cleaned up the table together. It wasn't until they were done at home that they sat down, talked about their work, and then lay down. Huilan pillowed on Wei Daping's arm, and the two of them whispered and fell asleep......