twenty-eight

No matter how hard Sang Zixin tried, her son still didn't let her worry, no matter what she said and taught repeatedly, she couldn't make her hard-hearted son enlighten. Although her son opened his mouth for food, stretched out his hand for clothes, and picked thorns from time to time, although her son distracted her and Yu Houcheng's good deeds, and despite her so many troubles and dissatisfactions, she still worked until retirement.

The leaders of the bureau attach great importance to Sang Zixin's departure and are ready to say goodbye. This kind of move has aroused the doubts of many comrades? There are retirees every year...... But the director said to her sincerely: "After all, he is an old comrade who has been retiring...... It's time to go, let's get together and get together. ”

"Thank you, Director, let me leave without stopping." She declined the director's kindness.

“…… Your excellent work has earned the bureau honors......" said the director emotionally.

Sang Zixin still came to the "meal" in the bureau easily. When she walked into the private room of the hotel, people had already arrived. She sat down, and the dishes were ready. The director held the wine glass in his hand and said, "All the people sitting here are the elites and backbones of the bureau, and there is such an opportunity for everyone to sit together." Comrade Sang Zixin has always been a role model in the bureau, working conscientiously and diligently...... The bureau is still where you work and study...... You are always welcome. The director raised his glass, and everyone at the table took a sip at the same time. When the wine glass was put down, people turned the topic to retirement, and then asked Sang Zixin to talk about how she felt about retirement.

"When I reach retirement age, I don't know if it's a good thing or ...... In short, it is an irresistible fact, and it is better to go with the flow. Since joining the work, I have spent more than 30 years of beautiful and unforgettable time with everyone, although the cold, summer, cold and warm, colleagues have jointly supported this responsibility, and at the same time have gained achievements and honors, and these are inseparable from the leadership of the bureau...... "Sang Zixin's words have been recognized by everyone.

The atmosphere in the banquet was warm and unrestrained, and everyone spoke freely and talked about it from all over the world. The aroma of wine is accompanied by the aroma of vegetables, which is constantly transported to the stomach. And the stomach fed back the information to the owner, and the stomach gradually bulged, constantly burping. At the suggestion of the director, the last sip of wine was swallowed, and the people at the table wiped their mouths, then picked up their clothes and walked out of the hotel.

Only when she retires, there is such a big move? Although she had thought about it more than once, maybe it was one time or another. In this gathering, people have experienced, and the relationship between people has gradually faded, mellow and thin as paper. Although everyone has the ability to withstand the heat and coldness of the world, everyone must gradually drift away according to their own survival. Sang Zixin knew her strength in drinking, she felt overloaded helpless, she squinted her eyes, shook her head gently, and then stood up and walked out of the restaurant with the scattered people.

It was already dark, the director let Sang Zixin get into the car, she looked at the director who was talking in a daze, and then turned to the driver next to her, she wanted to say something to the driver, but she didn't say anything, and she didn't refuse to help her. In the car, she sat almost paralyzed, her eyes closed, and in her mind, she repeatedly avoided the loss and sadness that appeared, but she could not get rid of the existence of this consciousness. Although in front of his son...... Her popularity in the unit is very good, and everyone calls her Sister Xin. Today, she is indeed very happy, in the face of decades of colleagues, she does not know how to be good, how to get along in the future? She had to let go of the amount of alcohol she had...... The car had stopped, and she was helped out of the car by the driver, who looked up, "It's home." She thought. Then she went upstairs with the driver, similar to the driver holding her, which made Sang Zixin very puzzled? But she had no intention of getting rid of it. They walked through the department to the director's office. She seems to know what she does? But she doesn't have the ability to defuse some kind of crisis. The double bed in the room is stylish, with bedside tables on either side. Sang Zixin blinked while looking around. Although she had never entered the director's lounge, she had the illusion of being all too familiar, she sat on the bed, staring at the driver in a daze, she took off her shoes awkwardly, and then moved into the bed. "Sister Xin, go to sleep." The driver said, helping Sang Zixin take off her coat. "Sister Xin, just lie down." Said the driver. He repeatedly suppressed the heat of his body...... Stand there and don't want to move. The director was already waiting outside, and he hurried out of the house, went downstairs, and drove away.

The director walked in easily, and he saw Sang Zixin, who was sleepy...... Put the money you have prepared on the bedside table. Then he took off his clothes and gently undressed Sang Zixin...... The director finally realized his long-cherished wish for many years, and returned to the beauties one by one.

When Sang Zixin was more than halfway through the wine, after opening her eyes, she understood everything. She was amazed to know what she had done, but she couldn't remember how she got to the director's office...... She slowly closed her eyes, tears streaming down her beautiful face...... She turned to her side and lay there quietly. She seemed to be thinking about something, but she couldn't think of anything, and her head ached. At this time, the director put a comforting arm on her body, and she reluctantly pushed the director's arm away.

The jade-white ketones were already covered in dirt, she thought.

She slowly opened her eyes and saw the money on the bedside table, and she closed her eyes again. She wanted to avoid everything in front of her, but could she avoid it? It's all the trouble caused when you get carried away and greed for a cup...... Everything has become an indelible fact, an irremediable dirt, as if it is a floating cloud from the past? She didn't want to associate the things in front of her with the displeasure of her family and the ignorance of her son, if she really wanted to blame it, she could only blame herself for being frivolous and debauched? Thinking of this, Sang Zixin turned her face and cast a friendly look at the director. The director raised his head in understanding and propped up his body...... After the two of them experienced happiness and joy at the same time, Sang Zixin immediately got dressed, picked up the money on the table casually, and left the house without looking back.

At night, the moon hides half of its face, and the stars blink their eyes. As she walked home, the breeze blew away the tears from her face, so she quickened her pace home.

For a period of time, Sang Zixin knew about her shameless behavior, but she still responded to her requests and kept hot with the director. Perhaps, this is her way out? The son has already got her salary in his hands, and he has to reach out to him for the family's expenses, and every time he takes money from his son, he always asks his grandfather to sue his grandmother. Although she wants to lose her temper with her son when she is in a bad mood, she doesn't want to be different from her son who doesn't eat oil and salt. Moreover, today's children are not like they were then, and they have both followed the rules and listened to their parents from childhood to adulthood. My mother once said: You can't look at today's children with old eyes, you have to learn to adapt, otherwise you will suffer a big loss. Sang Zixin didn't ask her mother, what does "big loss" mean? But she remembered her mother's words. If the mother didn't say it, what could she do? Are you arguing and angry with your son all day? If anger really works, it's worth it. Sang Zixin thought about it repeatedly, but couldn't think of a clue. Therefore, in the days to come, she still had friendly contacts with the director.

Sang Zixin's retirement life seems glamorous and colorful, but she has always had bitter water in her heart. The son more or less knew his mother's whereabouts and trajectory, so she told her son objectively, but she didn't make things so clear, and she didn't know how her son felt when he heard her words? But the son really learned to be obedient, and he didn't interfere in his mother's affairs, and he rarely embarrassed Sang Zixin.

However, when Sang Zixin retired for nearly a year, the director had rumors, and this kind of rumor became more and more unfavorable to the director, if he didn't make arrangements in advance, I was afraid that something would happen. After the director thought about it carefully, he told Sang Zixin about the cause and effect of the matter, and asked her to come forward to settle the matter. This stumped Sang Zixin, how could he be? If you don't get it right, you'll put yourself in it. However, after a struggle in her heart, she still did this risky thing according to the director's instructions. Although the human affection is as light as water, the director is not thin on her, whether it is economic or sophisticated, the director is interesting enough to her. She kept asking herself: Can you do it, do you have the ability? However, at least she knows the truth, and a very small number of leaders care about her very much...... That's why she dared to take a risk here.

You can't sit still, can you? Only dead horses are live horse doctors. After her questioning and refusal, the director said to her kindly.

For more than a year, she and the director have always used each other, but everyone's interests are different, but they all have their own thoughts, thoughts, and wants. Driven by such interests, the two sides are constantly heating up, and no matter which aspect or level, there is an unshakable foundation. It's okay to use each other; It's okay to help each other, since there is a mistake...... Otherwise......

Sang Zixin sat on the train, her heart couldn't calm down, and the "pounding" made her upset and restless. In short, she came to work with hope. The director said: Success or failure is up to you.

The train stopped at the station where she was going, and she got out of the train and began to enter the house. She first came to the leader's unit and found the leader she wanted to meet. Sang Zixin first introduced herself: I am the director...... Then the conversation changed...... After the leader shook hands with Sang Zixin, he kept staring at her, and his eyes kept searching for Sang Zixin's body, so the leader couldn't wait to take her to the private room of the organ restaurant, and the two began to eat. While responding to the leader who was overwhelmed by alcohol, she thought: In this money omnipotence...... has a beautiful face and a slender figure, how fragrant it is, no wonder the director ...... After she accompanied the leader for two weeks, the leader finally said what she wanted to do to Sang Zixin, and gave the money that the director gave to the leader instead.

In the director's incident, there are two key figures, both under Sang Zixin's "pomegranate skirt...... From this, the director's affairs have basically been alleviated, at least no longer asked, or the big things have been turned into small things, and the small things have been turned into small things.

Sang Zixin remembered an old saying: If you want milk to eat, the child and his mother will come, and if you miss her mother's family, the child and his uncle will come. And she and the director of the bureau are just grasping the joy and good ...... of the leaders However, when she did everything, her heart was dripping with blood, and that kind of insult and shame always accompanied her. And when she can't choose, she can only accept her fate and be at the mercy of fate.

In the past two years, Sang Zixin finally said to her son: With the transfer of the director, she and the director have completely severed their relationship. Fortunately, everything is gone, and all that remains is reflection and lessons...... There is still a long way to go, and it is the right way to grasp your own steps and the pulse of progress.

Wei Wei agreed with his mother's words.