It was another sunny day, and the sunlight was shining through the glass, shining directly on Chen Feng's body. He was so exhausted by the events of last night that he didn't even have the strength to dream after falling asleep again.

Like every morning, the sun rises in the east as usual. Since he was a child, he liked the feeling of the sun on his body, and when he was a child, he often ran to the open space where the grain was drying at noon, stripped naked and tanned his body. Later, when I grew up, I didn't dare to go so far. But once you have the opportunity to come into contact with the sun, it is still an inseparable enjoyment.

"Big fat bear, get up."

Chen Feng didn't open his eyes, and turned over in a daze. "It's only a few o'clock, don't make a fuss."

"Get up, it's ten o'clock." Another slap slapped Chen Feng on the back.

This time he really woke up, turned his head and lay on the bed, and saw Hong Liang looking up at him. His right hand was holding on to the bed rail, and his left hand was raised again. Seeing that Chen Feng opened his eyes, he took his hand back.

"What the hell happened last night?"

"I don't know."

Maybe it's because it's daytime, maybe it's really gone. The madness of the night seemed to be just a dream scene, and there were no more strange phenomena on Chen Feng's body.

The two sat at their respective computer desks, Hong Liang looked at Chen Feng's back, while Chen Feng opened his laptop to browse the day's news.

The ghost could tell that he didn't understand what was written on the web page at all. Just a mechanical mouse slide, left click, right click. Anyway, the first few days of summer vacation are wasted, the teacher won't look for you, and the classmates have gone home. There are only a few who remain in school to do the project here. But everyone knows that it's just a disguise, it's just a matter of wanting to live a lazy life for a few days, grab the tail of youth and go crazy at the end.

However, for these two people, this is too crazy.

"I want to go back to Qingdao for a few days." Chen Feng spoke, "My sister told me to go home and have a look. ”

Hong Liang was stunned for a moment, and then easily echoed and said, "Go back and see my father and mother." I'm going to see my ex-girlfriend ......"

He smiled, knowing that Chen Feng was lying. has been a classmate for two years, and the fact that he is talking nonsense can't deceive anyone. Since the beginning of the summer vacation, the two of them have traveled to the capital for most of ×, and they are almost inseparable. Chen Feng had long said to his family that he would not go back, and he had not called anyone since last night, but now he ......

yes, go back. If it were him, he would have left.

Fortunately, the tide of students returning to their hometowns has passed, and high-speed rail tickets are easy to buy. Chen Feng sat in the window seat, leaning his head against the window and looking out, his mind full of questions.

Is it that the people of Hebei have stopped farming? After the train left Beijing× I saw that the cultivated land was barren, and occasionally the green of two crops contrasted with the gray and white of the surrounding area, like an old man with vitiligo.

Perhaps it was my mistake, the train passed through Cangzhou, and the crops became dense. There is a river here. The turquoise water flashed in front of you from far and near. He couldn't help but laugh when he saw two teenagers climbing up from the water and the other two peeing into the river......

When he was a child, he was like this, swimming in the river, muddying the water in the pond, and catching a large bunch of fish in the morning. Then he will be beaten by his father. Every time he was beaten, he would run to the yard where his grandfather lived. With Grandpa here, no one dares to touch him, not even Daddy.

He is not the only boy in the family, but he is also the grandson of his grandfather's most beloved.

At that time, my family was so poor! I don't think he's got any new clothes. Dad tried his best to support the family, but in the end there was no improvement. What can be done? In order to treat the uncle he had never met, and to save his brother, who had been sick since childhood, he could only borrow money everywhere. The borrowed money has not been paid off for 20 years, and the old accounts may not be paid off.

But at that time he was still young, and the difficulties in his memory were not very clear. What's more, as the youngest son, the love of the whole family has never left him.

may be because of the serious illness of his brother when he was a child, and grandpa cherishes these two grandsons very much.

My brother contracted acute pleurisy when he was less than one year old, and his sick grandfather refused to be treated and waited for death in order to treat him. Hehe, what does it mean that there is no way to heaven and no door to the earth? This kind of thing is not something that people can control. It was at this time that the uncle was diagnosed with blood cancer.

What it would be like, he couldn't even imagine. I only heard that my brother was misdiagnosed one after another, and his life hung by a thread. The mother will only hold the child and cry all day long. And the uncle, after two surgeries, sawed off a leg, but did not survive after all. Fortunately, God still has a little conscience, and Grandpa miraculously stood up. Although my brother was missing two ribs, he finally picked up a life.

The uncle didn't marry, he couldn't enter the ancestral grave of the Chen family, and he didn't even have a decent coffin at the end. He was hastily buried in a cement coffin, and there was a piece of wood inside, which was supposed to be the sawn off leg.

It must have been a bitter day, right? Borrowed so much money.

Five years later he was born, a chubby black boy.

As long as there is a chance, grandpa will hold him in his arms, and no one can take him away. After such a catastrophe, no one is completely sure that my brother will be able to grow up. The blood and bones of the entire Chen family were pinned on the fat boy in his arms.

The terrain seemed to have become higher, and the poplars on both sides of the railway rushed back quickly, and disappeared in the blink of an eye. Arrived in Shandong, right? It doesn't seem to be any different from Hebei. Will this train pass by my hometown in Texas? Forgotten, there is no need to remember.

He grew up under his grandfather's bed. Every night, whenever he ran around on the kang with his bare buttocks, his grandfather would laugh from ear to ear. Then he grabbed his arm and held him in his arms, touched his head, patted his buttocks, and pinched the little × cock, no matter how close he was, he couldn't kiss enough.

He was too afraid of losing his brother, and he really cherished the blood in front of him.

The day I went to college, it was like nothing had happened at home. Dad and my brother went out early to take care of the business, and Mom prepared lunch for four as usual, but it was a little early. My sister didn't have to go to work that day and came back to pack his bags. The nagging in the mouth is even more annoying than that of the mother.

Chen Feng himself was very free, anyway, he didn't need to bring any books, he lay naked on the sofa and played with his mobile phone, and let his sister stuff a bunch of clothes into the suitcase.

Grandpa sat next to him on crutches and watched as his suitcase filled up little by little. Touching him from time to time, muttering instructions in his mouth. The voice was so hoarse that I didn't understand a word. Speaking of emotion, I also patted my grandson's thigh and pulled my fat belly. They all say that they are next generation, and they are really reluctant.

The sun is sinking to the west, and the high-speed train is still rushing forward.

"In half an hour, it's time to get home, right?" He muttered to himself.

"Twenty-five minutes." The guy next to him thought he was talking to him and corrected Chen Feng's estimate. As soon as you hear the accent, you know that you are an authentic Qingdao person. "My brother is still in school, right? Got a holiday? ”

"How do you know?"

"It's not very old, I can see it." The old man said confidently, "It's not from Qingdao." ”

"My hometown is Texas, and then I went to Qingdao." "Mom and Dad in Qingdao?" "Dad, Mom, sister and brother, and Grandpa."

……

I haven't spoken my hometown dialect for a long time, and suddenly it's a little strange to use. Although Hong Liang is also from Shandong, he still doesn't say much in school.

Time flies, from early spring to summer is only a matter of moments. Over the years, I have been accustomed to drifting in × Beijing, and I am no longer familiar with Shandong. I remember once going back to Texas, walking in the village where I was born in the evening, a white sedan suddenly stopped. The window fell, and a woman asked him in the passenger seat: "Brother, where does ××× family live?" But Chen Feng said in an authentic local accent: "I don't know, I'm not a local." ”

To this day, he still clearly remembers the woman's indescribable expression, as if to say: This kid is naïve, right?!

After a three-and-a-half-hour train ride, my head was groggy. He doesn't like crowding the bus the most, he can't stand the smell of low-quality plastic on the bus, and he doesn't like the sweaty crowding. Forget it, take a black car and go home.

"Where are you going?"

"Yan'an Road."

When I walked into the house, my mother was cooking dinner, and there were only two people in the house, her and my grandfather. She didn't show surprise at Chen Feng's sudden appearance, and casually asked why she didn't say hello in advance, and hurriedly took out a bunch of food from the refrigerator. It's all meat!!

Before I knew what to do with the freshly cooked noodles, a lot of pig's trotters had been dismantled on the board. No matter how much he picked up a piece and stuffed it into his mouth, his mother glared at him, but still smiled.

"It's so big, and you still grab something to eat."

He smiled, turned back to the living room, and stuffed another piece of beef into his mouth.

When he turned around, he almost crashed into his grandfather's arms. The old man trembled on his crutches and handed out a popsicle in one hand. He smiled with his mouth open, but there were some tears in his eyes. A mouthful of white dentures almost fell to the ground.

"Why didn't Tie Niu say anything to your mother when he came back?"

Iron Bull is his milk name.

"Stop snacking and keep your stomach for dinner." A reprimand from my mother came from the kitchen. "Go take a shower, sweat all over."

Watching the water flow from head to toe, a stomach of doubts rolled in my heart. Tonight, will it be the same as yesterday?

Coming out of the bathroom, Dad had returned. Sitting on the couch in the living room and fiddling with the TV. Seeing Chen Feng coming back, he didn't say much, he was used to his son coming home without warning. Just take out a bottle of wine from the cupboard that you are usually reluctant to drink before eating.

"Do you want to drink some Xiaofeng?" Dad asked nonchalantly.

"I don't drink." Chen Feng said, taking the wine bottle and filling it for his father.

The old rule is that grandpa is always the first to finish eating. I'm older, and the amount of food is smaller. After eating a small bowl of noodles, I put down my chopsticks. But today I didn't leave the dinner table immediately, my eyes half-closed, as if I wanted to say something.

"Listen to the old generation," it started again, and I don't know which life of bittersweet memories I remembered. "Our Chen family ancestors are not mortals......

"Yes!" Mom took over the conversation, "Your Chen family has been a god in the old life. ”

Hearing this, Chen Feng's hand trembled, and a piece of luncheon meat fell from the chopsticks onto the table. Dad looked at him and didn't speak.

"You should also go and beg the ancestors to bless your grandson to bring back a granddaughter-in-law for you." Mom quipped.

Is it a coincidence? Grandpa's story.

I don't know how many times I've heard this story, and I've heard it since I was a child. From the surprise at the beginning, to the tastelessness when I grew up. The legend of the old man coaxing the child now has an extra layer of mystery. Is it true? The light on his body is the legacy of the ancestors of the Chen family? But why is it only on him, and the others are just mortals. Who knows?

The night breeze in Qingdao is always full of water vapor, blowing cool on the body. Dad rarely took him out for a walk, and his brother was by his side from childhood to adulthood. The feeling of home is so delicate, and many times, although I know that I am the closest person, I am always a little alienated invisibly.

There have been very few words between this father and son, and it is incredible to walk side by side and be quiet. The son wanted to open his mouth to say something, but every topic seemed abrupt. Dad sometimes looked back at his son, and always looked away quickly.

"Your brother's shop is okay." As always, his brother's shop has become almost his entire world. "In a few years, your brother and your sister's children will also grow up, and the two houses in the family will be used by the two of them to marry their daughters-in-law." Speaking of which, he laughed heartily. It was as if I had seen my grandson and grandson standing in the auditorium.

Chen Feng didn't say anything, and put his hands in the pockets of his shorts. The drooping branches of the dragon's claw locust on the side of the road swept his head hard, and the short poor hair barely stood in the way, and the branches passed viciously through his head.

"These two boys are growing so fast," he continued, "that it won't be a few years before they start growing beards." Your sister wants to have another ......."

For the future, Dad's heart is very bright. My brother's small shop is enough to feed the family, and with the family's house, there are no worries at all. My sister's family also has no worries about food and clothing, and the little nephew has become a young man in a blink of an eye.

Happiness is such a thing as this group of people in his eyes. The future of a group of people, the joy of a group of people. His life consisted of watching them grow up, get married, and have children. Then the children grow up and get married......

"After graduating next year, I won't be coming back." Chen Feng said.

"Stay in × capital?"

"Yes."

"You don't have anything there."

"I don't have anything in Qingdao."

Heart knots are sometimes untied. Especially when you can't hate.

The two sat side by side on a bench by the roadside, Chen Feng with his elbows on his knees, his hands habitually clasped together. Strangely, he never appeared in his father's conversation. The picture painted by Dad was too perfect for him to stand on.

That year, when he finished the college entrance examination and came back from the beach, his parents asked: Do you know where you went after graduation? He replied yes.

He had no choice and was used to obedience. Someone arranges the second half of your life for you, will you refuse? He refused. Only that time, he upset the peace of the whole family. In an instant, he became an unforgivable brute.

This time, he didn't. Because his brother-in-law was able to arrange a bright future for him. It doesn't matter if he likes it or not.

That's a bet, a bet that's four years. Four years later, in the late spring, the gamble was revealed. The promised future came to naught, and his bitter wait turned into a joke.

Dad gave him an embarrassed look and didn't speak.

"My brother bought a house that year, just in time for me to graduate." He said, "My brother-in-law said that the job he arranged required tens of thousands of yuan......

"It's been all these years...... "Dad looked cramped.

"I'll call you, and you'll say it's all for my brother. The rest of the money will be kept for the renovation......"

"I know you've been wronged and hate me......"

"Who has called me over the years?" Chen Feng turned his head to look at his father, and then said, "How many words have you said to me over the years?" ”

"I know you've been wronged and hate me......"

"I can't hate anyone." He interrupted his father again, "There's no place to sell regret pills." ”

Oh, this should be the first time he's been so ignorant. Maybe it's deliberately ignorant. Every sentence was like a knife straight into Dad's heart. This anger came from nowhere, but it came so legitimately.

Do you care? No.

He knew that his parents felt guilty about his brother, and he also knew that it was because of the illness. They were so afraid of losing this son that they were willing to use everything they had to make up for the indelible traces of past disasters.

He became a joke in front of all his friends. An honor student, several good jobs slipped away from him one after another. Every time it's because of the group's "Is this necessary?" ”

When the gamble was revealed, there was no need to become necessary, and only he was left standing in the center of the gambling game, and everyone was far away.

For four years, he became a guest at home.

Who can blame it? If time could be turned back, anyone would have 10,000 reasons why the past never happened. However, no one will admit that everything today is a matter of choice. It's just that it's always easier to condemn others than to reflect on yourself.

However, for four years, he has been waiting for someone to ask him if he is doing well. rushed to work in × capital in embarrassment, and became an operator like a coolie. Later, I quit my job and lost my job, lived in a house full of cockroaches, and finally got admitted to graduate school. Has anyone ever asked him if he's doing well?

I usually call and always hear the excitement at home. But every time he came home, he was always lonely.

Heart knots are sometimes untied. Especially when you can't hate.