Chapter 44: The Self That Didn't Exist

But it was too late to escape.

I don't know if this unknown reef is a blessing that has been cultivated for several lifetimes, and it has attracted so many gods and men. Surrounded on all sides, there is a chaotic and complex amount of mana, and no mortal timeline can penetrate it. This time, no one could save him, even if he peed his pants.

I couldn't help but change my complexion, lowered my raised chin, flattened the corners of my crooked mouth, and tried to steady my breathing. The calmness that pretended, coupled with the tight round face, actually seemed to have a smile in the corner of the eye.

That smile is a disguise for Chen Feng, but it is kind and cute for Zhao Xu.

He knew that Chen Feng would come to the appointment in a fit of rage, and he also guessed that when he calmed down, he would be so frightened that he wanted to pee his pants. After all, they are brothers, and their temperament will not be much worse. What he didn't expect was that this kid didn't have the slightest intention of running away, and there was a faint smile on his face. It's really unexpected that his younger brother will have such a general's demeanor.

"I'm here, what do you want."

Chen Feng's honesty touched Zhao Xu's heart again, and the soft place in his heart hurt to the bone. It turns out that they are really the same, and what they can say directly, they will never add a word of nonsense. Even if you are afraid, even if you know that you can't fight it, it's still as hard as a stone.

"Come with me and show you something." He said.

The gap in time slipped from Chen Feng's hand and tore open in the other direction. Following behind Zhao Xu, he landed on a day of blue sky and white clouds. The gold-edged white clouds playfully blocked the fierce sun, and the breeze blew the aspens on the roadside.

A tall and broad figure collided on the court, and the tough and thick muscles set off the slightly chubby figure extraordinarily burly. Sweat drenches the whole body, and there are always a few drops left everywhere you go. The bronzed back was glistening with water, full of dust marks, and sweat flowed through it, rushing out of the black ravines. It seems that every time there is a collision, you can feel the sound of "bang".

"Isn't this our school?" Standing behind Zhao Xu, Chen Feng looked at himself on the basketball court from two meters away.

That's right, that's who he is. Not so long ago, it was still a daily routine in his life.

"It's also my school." Zhao Xu didn't look back, muttered to himself, and also said to Chen Feng. He could imagine Chen Feng's surprise and his suspicious eyes. This is the life they should have experienced, and it is also the future that he looks back on again and again.

"It's ......"

"This is today." He interrupted Chen Feng's inquiry, and out of the corner of his eye, he saw him walk to his side in a panic, hesitantly letting go of his guard and fear. "That's how it should be today."

"That silly boy is you."

Finally tentatively twisted his face, looked at Chen Feng who was covered with cold sweat, looked at the hesitant ripples in his eyes, his lips fluttering, and his trembling breathing. He seemed to have been moved, moved by the happy self in front of him. Maybe this time he succeeded, and Chen Feng would give up his last resistance and obediently hand over the power of the wind god to him. He will reinvent the past and grow up with the silly boy in front of him. Only Zhao Xu himself will remember this past history, and will use everything he has to love a new Chen Feng in the rewritten life. At the very least, he won't be allowed to go through these lightning strikes again.

Through the image of the barbed wire fence outside the stadium, Zhao Xu stepped on the green plastic field like the wind. The bare-chested brat yelled in front of him, waving his hands to grab the ball from the sky and hold it tightly in his arms. Suddenly got up, the basketball drew a stunned arc in the air, and flew into the hands of others with a muffled "bang" on the glass backboard like a hammer.

Panting his knees, his eyes circling the basketball through Zhao Xu's body. Sweat slid down his chin like rain, and his open lips closed from time to time, swallowing the salty sweat that flowed from the corners of his mouth.

"I've been here many times, but I haven't been able to touch your face."

"You are the sun god, how can you not write the future?"

"I can only see what the future can do, but I can't do anything. Because it hasn't happened yet. There was a sweet smile on his face, and he reached out to stroke the hedgehog-like round head in front of him, but it was like grabbing a cloud of smoke floating in the air, and he found nothing. It's like watching a movie, you can't touch anything. ”

A little tear swirled in Zhao Xu's eyes, and he tried to hold back, expecting the breeze to dry it before it dripped. The white clouds running with the wind alternately blocked the blazing sun, and his face was bright and dark. The future Chen Feng is still running on the court, greeting everyone with his mouth wide open. That kind of undisguised happiness swept Zhao Xu's heart, and it also hurt Chen Feng's eyes.

"How nice is that!" Zhao Xu watched him pass through his chest again, and in the happy shout, he was the brightest teenager in the entire court.

The tear finally dripped from his face, and the sunlight as clear as flowing water reflected the three identical faces.

"Give it to me, I'll grow up with you."

The faint blue light was only slightly traced in the crystal sunlight, like a thin silk like a cicada's wings gently brushing through the hustle and bustle of the northern Γ— capital.

Dressed in black, Chen Feng stepped over the gradually clear barbed wire fence and stepped onto the familiar plastic field, standing in front of himself with a blank face.

When the wind stopped, so did the people.

The silly boy's laughter froze for a moment, and the scene in front of him seemed to make him incomprehensible. Everything seemed to stand still, like a fish frozen in ice, with a strange serenity.

"Second brother?"

The moment he saw Chen Feng, the black silly boy seemed to regard him as Zhao Xu. The moment the affectionate "second brother" was called, he realized his mistake. I want to take it back, but I can't.

"Are you...... Are you me? ”

Chen Feng didn't answer, but just raised his hand to wipe the grass clippings stuck to his shoulders for himself in front of him. At this moment, he fell in love with this self. The firmness in his heart is becoming more and more worthless, and the word "agree" is leaping on the tip of his tongue, and it may jump out of his mouth at any time. Until the future self looked at him with a crooked mouth.

"How is this possible? I never touched the past me, how did you do that? ”

The stupid boy didn't know that when Chen Feng broke into this future world, the second brother in his mouth was blocked out of time. For Zhao Xu, the two closest people in front of him are like two sketches of activities, standing upright from the paper, walking in this beautiful world, and coming to him, just to pass by him.

Maybe he was wrong, it was the same person standing in front of him. It's just that at the right time, in the right place, a false shadow has broken in. And this shadow, looking at the chubby brother seriously, with thin tears in his eyes, seemed to have a thousand words, but he didn't know where to start.

"Don't talk, I'll see for myself."

It was difficult to hide his surprise, Chen Feng never thought that his future self would be so domineering. In my memory, although my grandfather loved him in every way, he was very strict with his upbringing. At least, under no circumstances would he interrupt what someone was about to say for no reason, even if it was in front of him.

But he still felt that the person in front of him was very cute, with a soul as transparent as clear water. Clear eyes, childlike smiles, domineering who doesn't understand the world. Isn't this who he wants to be? Doesn't he just want to be like that?

A clean memory, not stained with a trace of the filth of the world. Perhaps in the past twenty-three years, he has perfectly escaped the past that he does not want to look back on. I didn't leave my hometown that winter, I didn't have that gas, I didn't stay by my grandfather's side for more than ten years, I didn't witness Haizi's madness, and I didn't have Erbao's dirty stinky hands...... There is no sound of cars fleeing in the summer night, no mother's broken liver and sausage, no red rope on my sister's wrist, no brother's indifferent eyes, no brother-in-law's angry accusation......

He'll be him, the brightest boy on the court!

When the four eyes met, Chen Feng opened his memory, and the stubbornness in his heart slowly awakened. He fell in love with his future self, but that little dignity stood up stunned, as if to declare, even if you are doing well, I have had very happy days in the past twenty years.

Search quickly, what should I show him?

The moment their eyes met, the domineering silly boy couldn't help but turn his head in his head.

"Just kidding, huh? How can you still fight with your second brother? Isn't this the Valley of the Wind God? ”

Although I was a little angry, it was like my schoolbag was recklessly opened and rummaged through, and the contents were thrown everywhere. But Chen Feng still didn't stop the silly boy from talking to himself, and even enjoyed the fearless expression a little, admiring the crooked corners of his mouth with a little hooliganism.

"You're still fighting Thor? How many people do you want to offend? I have such a good relationship with him, what's wrong? ”

The soft gaze flooded in Chen Feng's eyes, and it seemed that the thunder god was not as he had always thought, at least he didn't beat his future self inexplicably. Looking at the silly boy's tightly frowning brows, he talked to himself to find the reason for the opposite of Thor, but his heart was indescribably warm.

"Isn't this Ma Hongliang?"

The smile has permeated Chen Feng's dark round face, and the memory that Hong Liang left him is the happiest time he has had in recent years, making him feel like himself, like the person he wants to be. This memory is a treasure in his heart, and it is also what he wants to show the silly boy the most.

"That stupid man, I was angry when I saw him, and I was looking for an opportunity to kill him with a thunderbolt, how could I be friends with him?"

The smile froze, like a mirror falling from the wall, rushing to the hard floor. Although it is still a crystal clear piece, anyone can imagine that it will be shattered in an instant.

"Who the hell are you?"

After all, he could not forgive others for slandering his friends, so he hurriedly dug out the treasure from the bottom of the memory box and told him that I had been very happy in the past. He took out his memory, and in the bright sun after the heavy rain, in the warm rain of the small courtyard, on the slippery soil, grandpa held him in his arms with one hand, and held the white and tender chick Γ—with the other hand, and a splash of water splashed in the puddle.

There is also the woods under the haze, the little fat man knelt on the soft sandy ground, sweat moistened the land, and also moistened the unforgettable people under him. And the white shirt that was spread on the floor, dyed a little bright red that couldn't fade......

"I'm you."

"Impossible!" The silly boy unquestionably denied Chen Feng's answer, and his two eyes stared at him like sharp knives, as if he wanted to dig out his heart and take a closer look. "I went to Qingdao when I was five years old, how could my grandfather hold me to play in the water. It's even more impossible for me to give Zhang Ying in the grove, I've only met her a few times in total...... Who are you? ”

"I'm you!"

"You don't ...... from the future"

"This is the future!" This time, it was Chen Feng's turn to interrupt him, "You are me who has never appeared!" ”

The unmistakable domineering spirit disappeared, and a hesitant look wandered over the stupid boy's face. He looked at Chen Feng, and then at the basketball that was still suspended in the air, as well as the partner who froze his smile, and the sweat that floated in the air and couldn't land.

He is the wind god of this world, and everything Chen Feng said is not unusual to him. It's just that he knows better that as long as Chen Feng leaves, as long as he disappears from his eyes, himself, along with the undoubted happiness of the past twenty years, will disappear.

Perhaps even more terrifying, the vanishing at least once existed. But when Chen Feng left, everything he experienced never happened. After all, he is just a possibility in Chen Feng's life.

"Don't go!"

He took Chen Feng's hand and looked at Chen Feng's eyes like a command. Chen Feng saw his happiness, the happiness of the family, the pampering he received as the youngest son of the family, the girlfriends he had one after another, and Hong Liang and his strangers.

"See how good it is here? I've never been wronged so much by you. Stay, you're me. ”

"I'm sorry, I'm not you. You were meant never to exist. ”

Two dark faces reflected the light of sweat in the sun, and the two strong bodies were like two bulls with their heads bowed to each other, no matter how the sun god shouted from the side, they were unmoved.

Apologies swirled across Chen Feng's face, and bursts of heartache ravaged his soul. For the people in front of him, he can't bear to erase his happiness, but there is no reason to leave a future that never exists. Although it only takes one of his words, a sigh, a blink of an eye, the future world will become a reality in the past, but he can't. The person in front of him is not himself......

Zhao Xu kept babbling in his ear, he just frowned, and a layer of moisture appeared in his eyes.

I don't know when there was a hint of fierceness on that domineering face, and his eyes were burning, and he slammed into Chen Feng's soul. He couldn't see the second brother who loved him and loved him, and there was only the wind god in his eyes who could erase him from the trajectory of time at any time. He wanted to live.

"As long as you die, I am destined to exist!"