Volume 6: The City of the Heart (16)

Xia Qing was stunned, and didn't even react for a while.

When she woke up, she turned pale and asked, "What did you say?" ”

“....”

Chen Zhao didn't open his mouth on the spur of the moment.

He thought about it seriously.

It's true...

Wang Dong expounded the facts that he avoided, did not want to face, and even hidden. After getting out of the car, the biting cold wind made him completely understand something that he should have understood a long time ago...

When he thought that he was about to usher in a happy life, he realized that this was only his own happiness, and this happiness was not a family's. It's not Xia Qing's... If you think that you are ordinary and simple, is it suitable for Xia Qing?

The final answer is no.

Chen Zhao knows that Xia Qing is a very good woman, a very qualified wife, and a very good mother.

But because of this, as Wang Dong said, she should have a life that belongs to and fits her, isn't it?

Divorced, Wang Dong will pursue her, right? Well, it should be for sure. Chen Zhao didn't ask about Xia Qing and Wang Dong's personal past, it's one thing to be unwilling, and it's another thing to not need to. But with his hunch, Xia Qing would finally agree to Wang Dong.

After thinking about it so much, he knew that it was not unacceptable to give up Xia Qing, but his daughter couldn't.

Although he really can't make up for what he owes Xia Qing, his daughter is different, as long as he gives him some time... He will work harder to save money and make good conditions for his daughter......

In Xia Qing's disbelief and even somewhat flustered tone, Chen Zhao lowered his head slightly and did not answer.

He felt that he had spoken very clearly, although the voice was very small, Xia Qing could definitely hear it. But he didn't want to repeat...

"Chen Zhao, did Wang Dong tell you something?" Xia Qing, who had a keen sixth sense, immediately thought of the reason.

"Sure enough!"

Xia Qing, who was so short of Chen Zhao as many centimeters tall, could clearly see Chen Zhao's eyes with many complicated tastes.

This softened her pale face, at least not because he was unhappy with his family. But this relieved mood quickly changed to anger, she couldn't forgive Wang Dong for wanting to destroy her family, took out her mobile phone, and was about to dial.

"Dad, I've washed my hands."

The sudden shout from her daughter made Xia Qing pause when she was about to press down her index finger to dial the number.

Chen Zhao's move of opening his mouth to shout to stop Xia Qing was also accepted.

The daughter trotted towards Chen Zhao in small steps, and looked at the silent Xia Qing who was standing with curious eyes, "Mom, what's wrong?" ”

"Nothing."

Xia Qing immediately smiled and touched her daughter's head. It's just that the smile looks a little far-fetched, and she said, "You and Dad go out to eat, Mom has to work." ”

"Let's go out together..."

However, Chen Zhao's sudden opening surprised Xia Qing, she lowered her head slightly, and finally said, "Okay." ”

...

Midsummer is nothing more than the beautiful morning glow in the evening.

If you have to say it, then you can add this quiet night.

In fact, the usual night is beautiful, with the stars and faint insects chirping accompanied by the rustling of leaves brought by the cool breeze, whether sitting in a narrow corridor or walking in this secluded alley, it is the best choice for most city people to reverie.

But this unpleasant cold wind ruined everything.

It's like breaking some laws that should have gone on as naturally as time and the world.

also destroyed the scenery of the three people who were walking with their daughter, Chen Zhao and Xia Qing. This is a happy and warm view...

Perhaps the smoggy-filled north may like the wind that purposelessly sweeps away everything good and bad.

said that he was taking his daughter out to eat, but Chen Zhao didn't know what to eat. That's just an excuse to get rid of my daughter. And what can a family eat after dinner?

Wandering the streets, the family eventually ends up at a nearby grilled fish shop.

Because it was a windy night, there were not many people who liked to go out, even if it was a lively grilled fish restaurant, in such a late night, there were only guests of Chen Zhao's family. The reason for choosing is only because my daughter likes to eat fish.

During the waiting time of the cooking, Xia Qing and Chen Zhao, who had a lot of concerns, didn't have the heart to play with their daughter, and the two looked at each other from time to time, and lowered their heads from time to time.

"Little music." In this slightly weird atmosphere, Chen Zhao broke it. Looking at her daughter, "Do you like to play with your dad or with mom?" ”

"I like them all!"

"Would you be happy with your dad all the time?"

"Happy..."

She nodded, but she turned her gaze to Xia Qing, "I'm happy with my mother." ”

“....”

This kind of answer from her daughter made Chen Zhao a little helpless.

He knows that Xiaole is well-behaved and sensible. Even if he is young, he is a little too mature in some ways. But at the same time, he also understands that this is caused by the family environment in which he grew up, and the fault is the family environment he created...

She is not as ignorant as other 5-year-old children, but this excessive maturity has drawn a question mark on many of Chen Zhao's choices.

....

"That's enough... Chen Zhao, what are you thinking? ”

Xia Qing's sudden voice interrupted Chen Zhao as he took stock of the questions he could ask in his heart...

He was a little stunned and turned his head to look at Xia Qing, but this time he looked at each other, which made him a little uneasy.

Tears overflowed from her eyes from time to time, she bit her lip, her eyes were indescribably disappointed, and said, "I don't know what Wang Dong said to you." But do you think, are you doing the right thing? Why can you make your choice so easily, self-righteously and selfishly? Have you thought about it for me? ”

“...”

When Chen Zhao first opened his mouth in Xia Qing, he wanted to say, 'My daughter is here, let's talk about it if I have something to say', but the following pile of questions made him unable to say a word...

He finally closed his eyes, let out a long breath, and said slowly, but with seriousness, "Xia Qing, I didn't make a selfish choice. ”

Yes, he doesn't think he's done wrong. It was because of guilt and debt that he made this choice.

Maybe there is no extra love, but why doesn't Chen Zhao want to cherish Xia Qing?

He has also seen examples similar to himself because of life, money, and family background, and he has also seriously pondered some of the ideas expressed between the lines of books, and he has never missed those few sentences: 'Just be together, why do you care so much?' 'point of view.

But what about reality?

This feeling of nakedness made him feel weak.

If he just lived simply, how could Chen Zhao be unwilling? More than anyone else, he would like this family to remain like this forever...

"Xia Qing, do you think I haven't thought about you? I've thought about it, really, I think, you're so beautiful, you have such a good personality, others will always think, how good your husband must be, how good a person he is, but when those people know the result, what do they think of you? ”

"Of course, I know you don't mind. yes, I really wouldn't mind. But what about me? I don't mind. Because I owe you too much, I can't count them. How do I pay it back? We work so hard, take out a loan to buy a car, buy a house, how many teenagers do we have to do before I can start to pay it back? ”

Wang Dong was right. Have you ever bought cosmetics? Have you ever bought a bunch of nice and beautiful clothes? Do you go shopping for perfume bags like other women? Not a single one, right? But if you're with him, or if you have a better life, or if you don't have this home, everything will be different..."

"Xia Qing, this is not a matter of life or emotion. I know you don't think about it at all, but you know what? In this way, this is called cumbersome. What is the existential value of marriage? Is it as easy as you are to sacrifice everything to make up for it? No. Xia Qing, marriage is the pursuit of beauty and happiness. ”

In the silence of the night, the gale seemed to cease for a while.

Finally, the grilled fish came up.

There was the sound of sizzling and boiling water, boiling hot frying and boiling water.

Xia Qing's tears kept falling, she shook her head, shaking her head in denial, but also shaking her head with disappointment.

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