Volume 8: The Season of Romance (2)

The atmosphere is quieter than the lonely path here.

Autumn in September is obviously the cool season, but there is only a faint cool breeze gently sweeping in the air...

The two looked at each other.

One is playful and natural, but there is a certain indifference hidden.

The other is strong and calm but irrepressible panic, and in the depths of his eyes, there is a panic that gradually grows and increases.

The wind stopped.

Eventually, it was the crying of a child in the crib in the room that interrupted the silence.

Yang Xiaoru walked in to comfort the child, while Chen Zhao stood at the gate, his steps were like lead, unable to move. In the end, as if he had pulled a clockwork, step by step, he slowly walked back to the sofa and sat down with his head bowed.

Holding the child who had woken up, Yang Xiaoru walked out. Chen Zhao walked back as if everything was as she predicted, she didn't speak, she didn't mind anything, and fed the child in front of Chen Zhao.

"What do you want to say, be direct, can't you?" Chen Zhao asked.

"It's not a good thing to be direct. Isn't it? The stick does not wake up the person who has made a mistake. It's better to make mistakes understand that mistakes are better than sticks, right? Yang Xiaoru replied.

Chen Zhao couldn't hold back a little.

He gritted his teeth, "You said, you let me go." Isn't it? ”

Yang Xiaoru felt a little funny, she was curious, "When did I say that I was going to turn over the account?" Chen Zhao, saying this doesn't make you get rid of the guilt in your heart. I'm just trying to make you understand something you've been running away from. ”

Chen Zhao had already wanted to face it well.

But in the end, after receiving 'forgiveness', he gave up this idea. But the courage he mustered up at that time is long gone, and this kind of peaceful and stable life is something he does not want to give up.

So naturally, in my heart, a certain one-way mirror was born.

In that mirror, there is only one... but not true.

"Yang Xiaoru... Let's not bring up this topic, okay? Really, I don't want that. I'm afraid that this topic will be completely exploded. ”

Chen Zhao finally said helplessly, "I don't want to face it anymore, I admit it, I'm running away." Escapability is not something difficult to forgive. This can only be regarded as my cowardice. Facing Xia Qing and Zhang Jun, how do you let me face it? I'm not as easy as you think... It's as terrifying as looking up at the top of a towering mountain, you know? ”

"Yes, you're right. I don't love Xia Qing. I don't know how you know, but love doesn't necessarily create marriage. The only thing I want to protect is my daughter, and there is only this family that exists for my daughter. I live like this, you don't understand..."

With a heavy and sincere tone.

Chen Zhao felt that this would be the last time he would talk about this topic. It was his hunch.

But he didn't know what was going to happen. He just wanted Yang Xiaoru to say, 'Then let it be, so be it...', which was similar to disappointment to him, and similar to indifference, and didn't want to care.

"I understand... Why do you think I don't understand? Do you see I'm not like you? Do you think I'm guilty? Yang Xiaoru's seemingly natural answer made Chen Zhao lose his mind.

She's... What do you want to mean?

Chen Zhao was a little shocked in his heart.

"I just don't see you wanting to face it." She added.

The added words made Chen Zhao's horror disappear, he raised his head helplessly, his gaze slowly fell, and finally fell on Yang Xiaoru's eyes.

"You said you didn't want me to be better. Isn't it good not to let play face it, this is a bad thing for me? ”

"Making you feel bad is not the same as harming you. You're doing so well now... Right? ”

“...”

This has finally become a problem that can be solved without facing it.

"Then how do you want me to 'boil' and make myself feel bad? I went and said to Xia Qing, 'Xia Qing, I'm sorry for you, did I cheat?' Or sarcastically said to Zhang Jun, 'Zhang Jun, I'm sorry for you, did Xiaoru and I do that kind of thing?'"

Chen Zhao sneered and continued, "You choose." You said. If you don't let me escape, I'll listen to you. All right? ”

Speaking of this, his smile became cold, "Tear me down, divorce, the family is incomplete, and I broke off my friendship with my good brother, what you want to see is my face like this." ”

Yang Xiaoru's expression did not change.

She lowered her head and gently held the child, whose smile softened when she let go of her mouth, shook her chubby hand, and cried out with a lovely smile.

Then she replied, "You always think things in bad directions. What if your good brother Zhang Jun just looked at you with complicated eyes, and then replied, divorced, it's over, and you don't care? ”

"Or maybe. Xia Qing, a good wife, thought that it was me, a bad woman, who seduced you. It's me who is wrong, you are innocent, everything is excusable. All this is possible. ”

"Facing is just breaking a certain barrier in your mind. Even if you have a hard time living for a while, you will not always be estranged from this family and Xia Qing as you are now. ”

Yang Xiaoru said slowly, raised her head, and saw Chen Zhao's increasingly indifferent expression.

yes, it's the kind of 'you're kidding' and it's ridiculous to her.

This finally made Yang Xiaoru laugh for Chen Zhao.

It's the kind that is approachable, but with some déjà vu that Chen Zhao remembers vividly, "Chen Zhao, do you think that what I let you face must be your family?" Don't you think, I'm saying all this to make you make another choice? For example... To mine. ”

If it is said that in the face of Xia Qing, Chen Zhao will not face it for the sake of his family.

But for Yang Xiaoru, that's the other side of the story.

For his own sake, that's all I can say.

Chen Zhao knows that women are sensitive, and they always think more than men. In other words, some of the thoughts of men, the secrets hidden in their hearts, are actually far controlled by them and are well understood.

This smile reminded Chen Zhao of the first time he saw it in his first year of high school, always with a sunny smile, tied with a ponytail, and when she was exposed, there were still wisps of good-smelling shampoo fragrance floating between her hair.

That's a secret that has been buried in my heart and not dug up....

Finally, Chen Zhao let out a long sigh and said with a bitter smile, "You are the least direct person, really." I really can't understand the meaning of your last sentence. You say, what do you want me to say? Did you have a crush on you in high school? But that's in the past. ”

Maybe there are some feelings left now.

Maybe... The act of making a mistake is just an unwillingness to be dull at the beginning and still to this day.

But Chen Zhao didn't say these two sentences.

"Chen Zhao, no one is really as good as you think. I am, Xia Qing is, Zhang Jun is, your friends, classmates, and teachers are. You too. Everyone is a bad person, but in front of others, he hides his role as a bad person. And people like you are the most gullible to be deceived. ”

Yang Xiaoru said softly, "Yes, many things are in the past. But the past does not mean letting go. Chen Zhao, you are always thinking about yourself, have you thought about me? Have you ever thought about the thoughts of the people around you? You won't. ”

"Can't you just order it?"

"Divorce Xia Qing and stay with me." Yang Xiaoru was direct and said with a smile, "In this way, you will be relieved." You just want to maintain a family, and you don't love Xia Qing, do you? ”

It was one of her choices.

She didn't know why she chose to do so.

.....

The night is quiet, only the insects chirp.

It's not that it's gone after the summer. Maybe only the cold winter will be a little less...

When Chen Zhao returned home, it was 6:10 p.m.

It's been a long time since I talked to Yang Xiaoru. When she got home, Xia Qing had already cooked the meal, and when she saw Chen Zhao coming back, she smiled and asked curiously, "Where have you been?" Didn't I tell you to make roast duck tonight? ”

Xia Qing's smile made Chen Zhao stunned, silent, and replied, "No, I'll just go out for a walk." Didn't Xiaole say it? ”

Speaking of this, he bit his lip and continued, "After eating, I'll tell you something." ”

............

It was done in no time. By the end of winter.