Chapter 50: Finding the Uniqueness of the Self
Chapter 50
"I'm sorry."
After these three words were spoken, after this first step was taken, he could finally say the next words.
Zhang Changde said sincerely: "I'm sorry, Fang Shiyi." Actually, it was my fault at first, I shouldn't have shown off in front of you, and then you tricked me back; I shouldn't have found someone to hit you and get beaten by you; I shouldn't have played tricks in front of you, only to be calculated back by you; I shouldn't have flaunted my awesomeness in front of you and then been ...... by you."
As he spoke, it didn't taste right.
Hey, don't say you don't know, I'm scared when I say it. Didn't he take advantage of Fang Shiyi at all? In that case—
He didn't kneel anymore - although the wool blanket was also very comfortable to kneel, but stood up directly, and pointed to Fang Shiyi's nose and said, "Obviously you took advantage of it, why should I apologize!" ”
In this regard, Fang Shiyi also agreed: "Yes, so why do you apologize?" ”
After getting the reply, Zhang Changde's eyes were red, and he couldn't speak. It was a long time before he finally let out a breath, and after this time, he said sincerely:
"I'm sorry for my childish behavior. Although you have wittily rebounded, in the end it is just a passive counterattack. To be honest, I didn't want to deal with you because I had ill will towards you, but just because I wanted to find my missing sense of existence. After all, as long as I'm in front of you, my existence seems to make sense. ”
It took him about half a month to return to Zhang's house, and after being away from Fang Shiyi for a long time, he figured out his previous actions and those unreliable and childish thoughts.
He often thinks that if he follows the steward, the path that others have arranged for him, and designed for him, then probably no matter who he is, he can become "Zhang Changde", or even do better than him.
Since anyone can become "Zhang Changde", what is the point of his existence?
Man is such an animal, and after having a mind, he is constantly searching for meaning. Find the meaning of self in adolescence, find the meaning of work after work, and find the meaning of life when you are old.
So, when he was an adolescent, after awakening his sense of self, he began to find meaning in himself.
During this period, in fact, every teenager and girl has similar thoughts, and they feel that "I" can't follow other people's ideas, "I" is "me", and if I go on completely according to the path planned by others, then even if it's not "me", can't I still do this?
I am no longer me, my existence is obliterated.
So are you still a person?
Therefore, adolescent teenagers and girls like to disobey other people's advice, and therefore, this period is also called the "rebellious period".
At that time, Zhang Changde was looking for his missing sense of existence.
After all, if you want to show off, if you want to tease, if you want to disdain or something, no one in the class at that time would do that except him. Even, it doesn't matter if you are teased in turn or slapped in the face in turn.
Because......
Can anyone else do it.jpg
When he is the only one who can do this kind of thing, then he is not a "rich second generation", he is not a "suitor", he is not a "trickster" and so on. He is Zhang Changde, because only Zhang Changde can do it.
Although later "Zhang Changde" became a sign of "not very good brain".
However, if only he can become such a "Zhang Changde", and no one else can do it, then he will succeed.
Ah this,
Gu Fang Shiyi listened a little big.
Although your brain is not very good, I feel that you can still save it, but don't think like this, don't give up treatment, don't become a shaker!
Fang Shiyi sighed: "And then? ”
"Then, I apologize to you for my childish behavior." Zhang Changde looked up and saw a luxurious huge crystal lamp in his eyes. On top of the crystal clear, his figure was cut in several parts, as if there were many responsible thoughts lingering in his heart. It's just that at this time, he has already figured it out.
"I understand, Zhang Changde, who studied with you, became a beast master together, and entered the aquatic habitat adventure together, is originally unique, so I don't need to make a bull's horn. History is doomed, and no one can replace me as Zhang Changde.
The true self is looking at what I do, not just thinking about it. ”
This......
Fang Shiyi's gaze at Zhang Changde became surprised.
This guy can't be taking the wrong medicine, right, it's obviously a brainless character, but he said something that seems to be very philosophical?
"I just want to use this 'Zhang Changde' this time, please come and assist me to defeat my eldest brother." Zhang Changde's eyes gradually became firm: "After becoming a unique Zhang Changde, I want to become a great Zhang Changde." ”
Hearing this, Fang Shiyi breathed a sigh of relief.
It's still the guy who doesn't have a good brain and has some middle two guys.
In that case, he's not welcome.
"How do you want me to help you, and what price are you going to pay?" I'm not cheap. ”
Fang Shiyi was ready to bargain.
But Zhang Changde was very unexpected and directly took out a brilliant diamond the size of a glass ball.
"If you want to evolve into a Vajra ruler, it's actually not that difficult. However, diamonds also have different grades, and diamonds with insufficient purity are just stones with super hardness, and the potential is not great at all. And if you want to become a legend, you have to become a diamond that can be sung for thousands of years. ”
"This is a very famous diamond 'Sky Blue', which can also be used as an 'evolution stone' for the diamond ruler."
Evolution Stones?
It was the first time Fang Shiyi had heard such a statement.
At the same time, the housekeeper Zhang Ji also explained beside him: "The name of the diamond 'Sky Blue' comes from 'the frog at the bottom of the well, but knows the blue of the sky'. Its name can be heard by the frog at the bottom of the well, and its charm can be appreciated even by the frog at the bottom of the well. If this is used as an evolution stone, then the Vajra ruler will form a new body with the 'blue of the sky', which is called an expensive diamond ruler. Its price will directly increase hundreds of times. ”
A diamond the size of a glass sphere is already extremely expensive, and after evolution, the ruler is full of this kind of diamond. Diamonds have become hundreds of times larger, and their prices have naturally increased hundreds of times.
Well, it's a lot more expensive.
Xiao Tian trembled: Shouldn't he be sold if he evolved like this?
So Fang Shiyi directly stretched out his hand: "Okay, deal." ”