Gu Yingqing didn't know what he said at the moment, and the look on his face was not regret.

All she knew was that every word he said made her heart choke even more.

"As I said, I didn't come to the state port because of you." Gu Yingqing choked up and said word by word, "I also said that I want you not to pity me!"

Of course she knew that he didn't have a deep affection for her, and it would be a lie if he said anything now until death, but she preferred that he wanted her to be with him out of emotional and physical possessiveness.

The last thing she wants is guilt and responsibility.

"I'm here because I can't take it anymore, I don't have the time and energy to find someone else who can help me! My grandfather doesn't have much time, Zhao Jin forced me Xu Anrong to play, I still have a Shen Shujun who can't get used to me, Shen Jinyou wants to tie me up, if I don't come, he has a way to force me to come, who can I play? I just want to get it done quickly!"

In order to prove himself, Gu Yingqing desperately found powerful details from that painful memory and put them in front of him.

Her tears fell uncontrollably: "Zhao Jin said that he wanted to kill me, sent me threatening text messages every day, and sent snakes to my house, I was really afraid of that thing......

Gu Yingqing's expression was painful, and he couldn't help but rub his fingertips and pinch his forearm with one hand.

Cheng Yuesheng didn't speak, his eyebrows and eyes gradually crawled with a chill in her words, and his eyes were drawn by her movements.

His eyes were shocked, and he quietly broke her hands away, and squeezed her two hands together in the palms of his hands.

"Every day I can't sleep or eat, and all the time it's like someone is taking an awl to drill my head; When someone next to me accidentally bumped into me, I thought he would pull out a knife and stab me to death in the next second; There was a car in front of me, and I thought it was coming at me, and I was always worried that I would die. If Zhao Jin gives the video to Xu Anrong, I will still have no good end, and I only feel that I am more guilty of living than dying every day."

Now I think back like a demon, at first it was just insomnia, I don't know how, I can't feel pain, I can't feel hungry, I am in a trance, like I am soaking in a deep pool in fear, waiting for death and unable to escape.

It seems that on top of the dark days of pregnancy and childbirth, there is also a sense of oppression of the countdown to life, which makes her have an obsession that wants to end.

But she really died once, and she didn't dare to say that she still had the courage to do it a second time, but she was worried that that "obsession" would come back.

She still remembers the fear of perceiving her numbness and loss of control, but powerless to stop it.

She sobbed and said, "I'm not here for you, I just want to end my pain."

Cheng Yuesheng's face trapped in the night was deeply shadowed, and it seemed to be clenched at the root of his teeth in the blur, and with force, the contours of his facial features were cold and hard and tense due to this force.

He knew she had deliberately obscured one of the details.

It was during that time that she was reluctant to look for him, not to tell him these things, not to ask him for help.

He silently broke open the finger bones that she kept trying to clench, and kneaded them one by one, "If there is such a thing again, no matter what, tell me first, put life first, life is more important than things, do you know?"

"What about you?" Gu Yingqing forced him to ask him with reddened eyes, "You only think about settling other people's lives and arranging the second half of other people's lives, because you are ready to die at any time......

He whispered, "I am not afraid of death."

I'm afraid that I will die too soon, and I won't get revenge.

I'm afraid that like Cheng Yunzhi, I was still worried about a person's life and death before I took my last breath, and I didn't close my eyes when I was thrown downstairs.

"I'm afraid!" Gu Yingqing cried, and tears swept away her sight, "I'm afraid that you will die, okay?"

"What do you want me to choose? It's true that you forced me, it was you who forced me to admit that I liked you again and again, and it was you who forced me to see the reality clearly, so that I could recognize that I needed you, and then what about it...... Do you think I'll go kissing and sleeping with another man again? Don't forget what you told me before, you must get what you want, and what kind of generosity do you pretend to be when you get it now!"

Cheng Yuesheng frowned, and the action of rubbing her hand paused, and she was speechless.

After a pause, he changed his words and said:

"I'm really duplicitous at this time."

He would never be able to push her away, and last time he was negligent, she was almost gone.

He really can't help her.

"Bastard! You're a complete bastard......" Gu Yingqing withdrew his hand, didn't let him touch it, and wiped his tears himself.

Cheng Yuesheng ignored her obstruction, reached out to wipe her tears, she hid, and he fixed her face.

Gu Yingqing froze with him for two seconds and held his fingers.

She still couldn't take his words.

"I promise to be with you, I want your protection, and of course I'm willing to take your risks. According to you, you just want to raise a woman who satisfies you in bed, is at your mercy in everything, and can control her emotions freely, not only likes you, but also can say that she will leave you...... After all, that's what you thought from the beginning, right? In fact, when you were engaged, you didn't want to break up with me, but it was not all because you had feelings for me, because you found out that I liked you, and because the situation became complicated, I couldn't save my life without you, so you felt that you had to take responsibility?"

Cheng Yuesheng froze as if she was being said.

Gu Yingqing's heart was cold.

His face made her heart move before, and now it makes her sad.

Gu Yingqing looked at him and said, "If you are more responsible and guilty than emotional, don't say that I will follow you, it will be nice to me. I understood, 'Well, not out of guilt and pity for me, but to take over my safety and plan for my future.'"

This is on the day of the hospital, when Cheng Yuesheng said that he wanted her to follow him, he kept it in his heart and didn't want to think about it.

She still couldn't ignore it completely.

"You sympathize with me, I pity you, we are worthy." Cheng Yuesheng hooked her fingers, and suddenly said something like a smile.

Gu Yingqing looked at him with teary eyes, as if he hadn't reacted.

The next second, he remembered the words that angered him that morning.

The expression on her face seemed to be crying, and she suddenly leaned over and hugged him, and said in a muffled voice, "I don't sympathize with you......

"I don't pity you," Cheng Yuesheng put his chin against his face buried in the neck socket, and comforted, "It's just that the Shen family hasn't fallen, Shen Jingyao will resist and retaliate, the matter is not over yet, I'm afraid that there will be another accident, I have to make a few more plans, don't think about it."

Gu Yingqing knew that his feelings and bonds for her were not deep, and he would plan for her future, but he didn't think about how far he could go with her.

But if ......

She closed her eyes and said, "I like you."

Gu Yingqing noticed that he was stunned, and then tightened the arm that hugged her, and after she got a response, she gently rubbed his face and whispered, "I like it."

At first she begged him for help, then he became interested in her, and at that time no one expected to be emotional.

But that's already the way it happened.

Cheng Yuesheng raised the corners of his lips and kissed her cheek, "Stay here tonight?" After watching the sunrise tomorrow morning, I'll take you down the mountain to eat the clear soup belly."