The girl left, I couldn't help it, I sat in the pavilion and cried silently, I really missed Xu Yan, I missed him playing badminton with me on the playground; I miss him, knowing that my great aunt is in pain and will bring me hot water; I miss the gentleness with which he gave me the topic; I miss him bringing me a cup of hot milk tea to warm my hands when it snows, and holding my hands tightly in his palms to warm my hands; I miss him knowing all my likes and all my habits......

I really miss him.

I walked out of school and thought that if I hadn't followed my dad to a trip organized by his company during the National Day holiday in my junior year of high school.

At that time, during the National Day holiday, my dad's company organized a tour where I could bring my family, and my dad brought me with me, and my mom didn't go because she didn't want to go too far.

That was the time, I found out that my dad turned out to be Xu Yan's father's assistant, I was stunned when I saw Xu Yan at the station, and his parents knew that I was the assistant's child, and they have always taken care of me, especially Xu Yan's mother, who likes me very much, likes to call me "baby", and talked to me about the previous relationship after being arrested, she still wanted to see her little daughter-in-law, but was taken away by my mother, and I never saw it, but I didn't expect to see it now, saying that I was very satisfied.

After that time, my dad would often take me to their house for dinner, and every time his mom saw me, she would call me "daughter", and Xu Yan would giggle on the side.

Xu Yan's father really gets along very well, he is very kind, and he especially supports my father. However, my father's later behavior was really like a white-eyed wolf, I think why Xu Yan's mother likes me so much, it is probably "love the house and Wu", I didn't expect that in my eyes, a good father who loves his wife and daughter is actually like this, a grace will take revenge, and he is a cheating person.

I thought about a lot of things today, my brain was almost out of place, I wanted to sleep well, I was going to the hospital for chemotherapy tomorrow, the first chemotherapy should be painful, I don't know, I'm still scared.

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On this day, Yu Jia woke me up very early, oh my God, what a self-disciplined beauty, she got up early every time, it was so uncomfortable, she actually wanted to bring me up, saying that she wanted to develop a good habit, I really wanted to sleep for a while.

I don't want this habit, whoever loves it wants it.

But Yu Jia said that I was going to the hospital for a check-up today, and I was going to go for chemotherapy, and when I heard this, I didn't think about it at all.

Yu Jia arranged everything for me, told me about her homework in advance along the way, and told me that she would not be afraid of pain or anything, in an attempt to reduce my fear.

We were in the corridor of the hematology ward, and Yu Jia was going through the admission procedures with the nurse, when a male doctor suddenly walked over, he picked up my pathology and examination report, and directly said "chemotherapy".

Then he said that the next schedule and arrangement, in the afternoon, he would first do a bone piercing, put a "tube of this length" in his arm, and his hand would be on him, from the whole arm and then from the shoulder to the collarbone.

I was about to cry, I was so scared that I couldn't speak, I shook my head and refused, but the doctor laughed a little, and said, "You have to do it, or you will die faster." ”

I sat on the chair in the corridor, my head drooped down little by little, and I couldn't lift it up at all when I got to the back, Yu Jia kept holding me, kept telling me that it was okay, it was okay, and drew me a lot of cakes, still trying to give me hope.

After the blood was drawn, two days later, it was the actual first chemotherapy.

I searched a lot of information on the Internet, and the Internet said that bone marrow aspiration is not painful, and it can also help cancer on a regular basis to check for bone marrow lesions. In practice, I was injected with local anesthetic, and I clearly felt that someone was drilling your bones little by little, although it hurt a little but not unbearable, and the whole process lasted about 10 to 20 minutes.

Finally, there is the venipuncture replacement, which involves making a hole in the arm, inserting a tube below the collarbone, and keeping the tube in the body for a long time, which is used to quickly open the venous channel for rapid fluid rehydration, and at the same time prevent the vein damage caused by the highly permeable fluid used by chemotherapy.

When it was really implemented, it didn't hurt at all, two nurses together, ten minutes, I didn't feel anything during the whole process, I kept listening to Yu Jia tell me stories.

After these preparations, the next step is the real part.

The plan that the doctor formulated for me was to use several low-dose chemotherapy to adapt, and then use lethal chemotherapy to completely kill and destroy the cancer cells according to the situation, and then cooperate with hematopoietic stem cell transplantation to rebuild the immune system.

On the first day of chemotherapy, I woke up early, and my whole body trembled, and I waited for a long time, and finally started to infuse the first bag of liquid, because my arm was buried, and it was not convenient to exert force, so I was specially prepared to endure the pain, but I didn't expect that this was just an ordinary saline.

Later, the nurse told me that the only real chemotherapy potion was a bag of potion, which was red in color, commonly known as "red potion". It turned out that the previous infusion was only to protect the liver and gastrointestinal tract and anti-vomiting and anti-nausea.

In the afternoon, the nurse brought in the monitor, put a small pile of things on me, monitored my heart rate and blood pressure in real time, I knew, it was going to start, the "red potion" was coming.

Sure enough, after a while, a big bag of red potion hung up, and Yu Jia immediately brought me the big headphones she bought for me, the kind with super good sound quality, and played Hyunya's "Calm" to me.

It was only a few minutes, and I suddenly felt "ah", my back pain was about to break, Yu Jia's face changed dramatically, and she quickly called the nurse and suspended the chemotherapy. After a while, after losing a bag of saline buffer, I started again, but I didn't feel it anymore.

I thought I would repeat this every day, but in fact, the real chemotherapy was over on the first day, and the next four days were just ordinary medicines, and on the fifth day, I was discharged from the hospital.

Oh my God, the day I was discharged from the hospital, I was so happy that I almost thought I was going to stay in the hospital forever.