…… It was really a kind of heavenly sound, and I couldn't tell whether it was from the clouds, or from the wind, from the water, or from the waves. Before you know it, it has. Both the soul and the emotions truly feel its existence, and both the blood and the bone marrow truly perceive its flow. It's not loud at all, it's not exaggerated, and it's certainly not silent, it's like your outpouring of words that flows to your eardrums against your face, and eventually emits a melody that resonates with your heart. It's the kind of singing that you can't see, you can only understand. And too much singing in this world is just for people to watch, whether it is a rock musician who pretends to be crazy, or a pop star who pities himself, the sensationalism of the same way, except for the momentary nostalgia and restlessness, has nothing to do with the soul. What would I have done without Enya at this moment? What if there was no Enya world in the world? In any case, the world and I will continue to exist, and the difference between them is kitsch and holiness. Your voice is a trembling of the soul and an aria of the heart, and you only want to say and listen to me, because you know that I am listening to the soul and the heart in the same way! Only in this way can you realize that Enya's singing comes from heaven. It is a pouring of moonlight above the nine heavens, and it is a spirit walking calmly forward in the dark sky. My eyes were closed, but the light kept flickering to the music. It's the kind of river lantern that floats on the stream in the spring, and it's also the kind of torch that you look for in the fields on a snowy night in winter. It may seem like it can only illuminate a little, but it shines deeply on the important places of the world. Your mind has actually been singing all the time, but no one has been aware of it in the past. That's why my grandmother prayed to the one she would meet at the corner of the street to send me to you. I'm glad I didn't live up to it? I learned your singing? …… I can't tell which one is Enya and which one is you. Actually, I don't bother to distinguish between them, because Enya's singing is originally a part of you. As long as Enya is singing, you will come from my soul into my life, or from my life into my soul. Such a movement will allow the mind to regain the feeling it craves. …… The sound of the wind in the mountains, the sound of the water, the collision of clouds in the sky, the squeezing of the underground peaks, the choir under the roof with the cross looking intently at the heavens in praise, and the crowd in the wilderness without the cross bowing their heads and praying with their hearts, this is the ordinary and heartfelt voice of all things in the universe. The heart is listening, the body is bathing...... I was finally able to open my eyes peacefully, and there was a bright light shining through the dark window...... Receiving its illumination, I could not help laughing at the futility of all obstacles. In the face of the night, I will sing even louder!

—No.061 Epistle

A north wind blew on the hillside, and it carried up a lot of invisible sand in the shade, and hit the living and feeling things coldly. The black yellow hair that Qin Si's father put it raised his head and snorted towards the sky. Qin Si's father didn't say to the cow, he told me that although the black yellow slab has a very thick old skin, it still knows itching and pain, cold and heat. This afternoon, after Qin Si's father said such a sentence to me, he didn't say anything more. He watched silently at the road below, and every time a car or a tractor came up around the bend, one or two of his fingers like roots trembled. Fourth Father Qin has been nagging since yesterday afternoon, saying that he senses that those guys are coming back again. He refused to tell me who those guys were, but he said that when they came, I would know. I thought it was the township chief who came down with a group of cadres to eat and drink; and thought that it was those who wore big caps, and were so fat that they still had to come down for three days and two to collect this and that tax; I thought it was someone from the Family Planning Commission who came to arrest the women who were pregnant with their third and fourth children. Qin Si Dad didn't shake his head and say a word, his denial of my conjecture burst out from the dry eye sockets, and when he fell to the ground, he smashed the bluestone slab under his feet and sparked.

Once, Qin Si's father suddenly said, "Those guys are not guys!" ”

I thought about it for a long time, but I couldn't think of the meaning of this, so I had to think that it was just an emotion of the old man, not incoherent. When Qin Sipa's words came out of his mouth, he was very calm, he was definitely not scolding anyone, and after thinking about it carefully, there seemed to be a kind of nostalgia in it.

The sun shone warmly on the col, and the thatch on the ground was thick. I wanted to lie on it several times like Qin Si's father, but I couldn't lie down. The thatch was dry, but the part on the ground was wet, and there was a handful of water to grab it, and the remains of the recent heavy snowfall could rarely be found. There is a piece next to Qin Si's ear. The white snow, though melted and stained by itself, was still white and shining compared to the big blackened ears. When Qin Si Dad turned over on the grass, he tried to stick out his tongue and lick the snow, his tongue was not long enough, if he moved his head, he could reach it, but he didn't seem to be too lazy to do so, so he just saw that he couldn't do it.

Fourth Father Qin turned to me sitting on a stone and said, "You are actually a scholar, why don't you continue to study!" Some things have to be gritted and persistent. ”

I was very reluctant to be mentioned, and I said, "If you say this any more, I will drive your ox away, and you will not be able to catch up with it for the rest of your life." ”

Qin Si's father hurriedly said: "Little bastard, I don't say it, don't lose my wife." ”

I grabbed a stone and made a gesture to throw it at the black yellow scum, seeing that Qin Si's father looked anxious, I still waved my hand out, and at the moment of waving my arm, I let go of my five fingers and let the stone fall from my shoulder, and what I threw out was just a gust of wind. The wind fell on Qin Sipa's face, he was startled, he quickly jumped up, limped and ran two steps, and shouted loudly: "Wow! Wow! Don't be afraid, I'm here! The black yellow squirt was quietly eating the wild grass on the ground, and its tail was swaying lazily in the wind, not caring at all about the movement here. Qin Si Dad knew that he had been fooled, and he still went back to lie down after smiling.

I said, "You are so lazy, you can sleep wherever you want, and the wheat in the field should be dung!" Qin Si's father said: "You can help me do it, and I'll tell you the story of falling in love with a female educated youth back then." I said, "Don't coax me, you're about the same as a cow." Qin Si's father was not angry at all, he said: "Don't underestimate me, back then-"

At this point, Qin Si's father always stopped talking, he used this to seduce me many times, and every time I finished working for him, he sighed repeatedly, looking like he couldn't say anything. At first, I thought he was playing tricks. Until one time I pushed him into a hurry, and he told me fiercely that he didn't want to talk about it now, and if he didn't believe me, he would tell me to fuck off.

When I was very young, I always heard people in the wall saying that none of the educated youths were good, they were lazy to eat, they didn't talk about stealing, and they also took the young people in the wall to learn badly. At that time, I didn't know who the educated youth were, and the adults explained that they were from the city. I asked the cadres in the town who came from the city if they were educated youths. The adults said that they were not as good as the educated youth, but the educated youth were just students from the city. Later, the term educated youth was not mentioned much, and everyone was only worried about the price of pesticides and fertilizers all day long, whether the seeds they bought would be fake, and what the few cadre-like people who were running around with the village cadres were here to do. In addition, everyone also likes to talk about whose daughter-in-law hasn't shown up for a long time, and whether she is hiding somewhere to give birth. I once asked my father if the female intellectuals had ever fallen in love with Qin's fourth father. My father reprimanded me and told me not to worry about it. I thought my father was hiding his ignorance about this, because twenty years ago, he wasn't much older than I am now. Later, I heard him whispering to his mother, saying that Qin Si's father was embarrassed because he didn't eat mutton. What my father meant meant was that Qin Si's father was arrested and imprisoned for three years. All the adults and children in the wall knew about it, because he was the only one in prison. When I was very young, I gathered around his chair with a group of children and listened to him talk over and over again about his cell. He said that the cells were small, the walls were made of blue bricks, the windows were open under the eaves and the ladders were out of reach, only a square hole in the door could be seen out, and a dozen people slept on a bunk. In his description, the cell is not scary, so we kids can't be intimidated by words like arresting you and going to jail. Qin Si's father sometimes misses the days when he was in prison, saying that he didn't have to worry about anything in prison. He said he didn't have a woman to think of, so it was the same inside and outside the prison.

The black jaund cries twice, and it always does this, clamoring to go back as soon as it is full. Qin Sidad whispered something, got up slowly, slapped his back twice, and didn't look at the grass on his body sticking tightly to drop one or two, so he didn't care. He also grabbed me and wouldn't let me help him, saying that he was okay. Qin Si's father had one leg crippled, and he walked up the slope, looking quite comfortable. When he picked up the rope and walked back, it was much more difficult. The black yellow man pressed to his side at this time, and Qin Si Dad stretched out his hand to hold the cow's neck. The black yellow man lowered his head, pressed his steps, and slowly walked down the mountain with Qin Si's father.

Qin Si's father also turned around and shouted at me: "Don't forget the books on the ground!" ”

I picked up the Chinese textbook for the first semester of the first semester of high school in the bushes, walked along the mountain road that was trampled by the hooves of the cows, and walked to the wall below the mountain with a gloomy face.

It was getting dark, and a few children were busy there beside the fire dung burned by the wall, using a few small wooden sticks to stir in the ashes, and when they got closer, they could smell the smell of roasted sweet potatoes.

Qin Sipa, who was walking in his head, turned his head and said to me, "Why are there so many people in front of your house?" ”

I actually saw it earlier, but I didn't say anything. I kept walking with Fourth Father Qin to the door of his hut, and he let Niu go in first, and then he himself entered the door. After crossing that dirty threshold, he asked me to come and tell him what was going on at home. He also guessed it must have something to do with my sister.

The people who could walk around the mounds probably gathered in front of my house, and everyone was looking at a picture of a woman. After seeing me, my mother hurriedly took back the photo from someone else's hand for me to see, when I held the photo, I thought it was a movie star at first, and I always felt familiar when I looked at it, and then I finally found out that the woman was my sister, I was stunned for a moment, and quickly returned the photo to my mother. The man next to him said, "Let the tree read the letter to us again." "My mother literally shoved a letter into my hand.

It was dark, but I could still read the words on it. My sister said in the letter that she has now found a job in a company, working as a secretary, with a lot of salary, and a good environment, and it will not be long before she can earn money to cure her brother's illness. At that time, she either came back or took her brother to the city to see a doctor, as long as she had money, she was not afraid of anything! I read the letter, and without reading a word, I went into the house. Someone behind him sighed and said that it was really unfair for the big tree to be so smart but get sick.

My mother followed me into the house, and she grabbed me in front of the door and asked, "Do you feel pain in your body again?" ”

I broke free of her and threw myself on the bed, ignoring no one.

The father then entered the house, and he said loudly outside: "Whoever has not had three illnesses and two pains in his life, and when he is uncomfortable, he is angry with others, what is it!" ”

Without raising my head, I said, "If you take my sister's picture back and don't show it to outsiders, I won't be angry." ”

The mother muttered: "The photo is for people to see, what a secret!" ”

My mother took the picture back into the house from the outside, put it on the drawer desk where I used to do my homework, and then turned and walked out the door. My sister's good-looking big eyes were staring at me on the other side, her curved willow eyebrows were more moving than before, and her double eyelids didn't even blink. After looking at it for a long time, I suddenly felt that my sister's slight smile was not sweet, but sad. My sister has been working outside for a year, and in the spring she also sent back a photo, which was just an ordinary color enlarged photo, dressed the same as when she was at home, but with a tall building in the background. I counted the windows on the floor in the photo, and even though I only showed half of the building, there were already twenty-two floors. Now there is no trace of the former sister on this photo that has been circulated. The mother was still excitedly telling her father in the outhouse that if this photo was not sent to the family, even if it was her own mother and son, she would not dare to recognize it.

The smell of Chinese herbs wafted through the door, and after a while, my mother walked in with a bowl of soup, and she first pulled out a lump of rock candy from the canned bottle, and then handed me the soup and rock candy together. The taste of the decoction was very strange, I didn't care about anything, I opened my mouth a few times and swallowed it, and before my tongue could fully feel the taste of the medicine, I quickly stuffed the rock sugar into my mouth. My mother looked at me and sighed.

When my sister was in her first year of high school, I started to get sick, when I was in my second year of junior high school, I came back from school one day, walked to the door of the house, for some reason, suddenly felt dizzy, and after accidentally falling, I no longer had the strength to get up, and I even had to help others to lift my hands. After half a year of treatment, the family became destitute, and my sister couldn't read, so she helped work at home, and told me her textbooks in her spare time. Occasionally, for a day or two, when the symptoms felt milder, I was able to do all the homework in the third year of junior high school correctly with a pen. Later, my sister decided to go out to work and earn some money to continue my treatment. In the first month after my sister left, my condition suddenly worsened, and the fever was between 39 and 40 degrees for more than ten days. Unexpectedly, I came back to life, not to mention that the fever had subsided, and even the old illness had been alleviated a lot. It was only after the danger period had passed that my sister heard about it, and she sent back a cassette tape with her own voice, and I borrowed a tape recorder from my classmate and played it twice, except for my sister's crying, she repeatedly told me that I must hold on, and as soon as she earned the money, she took me to the city for treatment. My sister said that I had saved her life, and that she had to give me back. My sister had leukemia when she was fourteen years old, and strangely enough, neither my father's nor my mother's blood was suitable for her, only mine had the same blood type as hers. So whenever my sister was in danger, my father rushed to school, dragged me out of the classroom, and rushed me to the hospital to give my sister a blood transfusion. Every time I had a blood transfusion, my sister would hug me and cry when she came to her senses, so when I got sick, she always blamed herself for hurting my brother.

After drinking the decoction, I felt even more uncomfortable, so I took my sister's beautiful photo and walked to Qin Si's father's hut alone.

It was pitch black in the hut, and there was no light at all. I understood that Qin Si's father didn't go out in the house, and when he pushed open the half-hidden broken door, I heard a mouth chewing in the dark. I took out half of the candle from my bosom and lit it with a match, and when the flame jumped, a pair of bull's eyes and a pair of human eyes flashed out of the room.

Qin Sidad held two raw red potatoes in both hands, one in front of his mouth and the other in front of the cow's mouth. He turned his back to the candlelight and said, "I don't want your ghost fire, I can't eat if there is light!" ”

I said, "If there is fish and meat, you can eat it if I put you in the middle of the fire." ”

Qin Si's father laughed dryly, when he heard that I was going to show him something, he didn't care at first, and when his sister's photo flashed in the candlelight, he hurriedly gave the remaining half of the red taro he had eaten to the black yellow scum, and couldn't wait to reach out and take the photo. I wouldn't let him touch it with his hands, but only with his eyes. After looking at it for a while, Qin Si Dad said unhappily: "If you don't let me hold it with my hands, how can I see the mystery inside." ”

I asked him to wash his hands, and he stiffened for a while, but he still went, only to hear a sound of water in the corner, and when he turned back, his hand did not remove much dirt except that it became wet.

Qin Si's father held his sister's photo and looked at it for ten minutes. After reading it, he refused to say a word, until I was really angry and was about to leave, he told me that although my sister's appearance was beyond the ordinary, she looked very beautiful and beautiful, but she was very painful in her heart. Qin Si's father also decided that a mark on the corner of his sister's eye was crow's feet, and he said: "Your sister is only eighteen years old, she is so sad, there must be something unspeakable." ”

I looked at the photos, and I always felt that it wasn't like what Qin Si's father said.

I put away the photo and sat in the hut for a while, Qin Si Dad didn't say a word, the black yellow slab had already fallen down in the grass pile in the corner of the wall opposite the bed where Qin Si Dad slept, and there was a strong smell of cow dung in the hut. I asked Qin Si Dad if I could tell me the story of the white-haired girl today, Qin Si Dad shook his head and said nothing, I had to go home.

As soon as he walked out of the hut, he heard Qin Si's father whispering in the house: "In this world now, Xi'er is not like Xi'er, and Huang Shiren is not like Huang Shiren!" ”

When I got back to the house, I met my mother who wanted to go out and call me to eat, and the two of us almost ran into each other, so I lowered my head and got into the house from under my mother's armpit. My father sat alone at the dining table in the hall, sipping a glass of wine, and when he saw me, he asked if he had taken out his sister's picture to show off in front of his classmates. I didn't think much of it, saying that he had a superfluous head at all times except when he wanted to drink. My father was not ashamed to say that he hadn't studied for a long time, and of course his head was rusty. I went up and slapped my father's glass, which spilled all over the floor. My mother hurriedly came up and pulled me away and scolded me for being too much, and my father wanted to drink for a few months before he decided to buy half a catty of wine.

The father didn't wait for the mother to finish speaking, and then said, "I'm in a good mood today, I don't care about this wine!" ”

Before going to bed, I embedded my sister's picture in a glass frame, and I took a few of my own photos to make room. Under the light, new photographs hanging on the walls make the room shine. But I couldn't sleep, thinking about the stories of the hard-working girls written in the colorful tabloids on the newsstands in the town.

When I woke up in the morning, my mother asked me what nightmare I had last night, and I yelled in the middle of the night, I don't remember any nightmares I had, not even ordinary dreams.

As soon as I finished breakfast, Fourth Father Qin called me outside and asked me to help him drive the cattle to the back mountain, and he himself arrived later. Seeing that Qin Si's father was a little flustered, I asked what happened. Qin Si Dad pointed to the winding mountain road in the distance, and several cars were slowly crawling towards the wall.

Qin Si's father said: "Those educated youths are here again. ”

I'm a little surprised, Fourth Father Qin has never been afraid of anyone in his life!

Qin Si's father didn't let me ask more, I drove the black yellow stump in my head and walked quickly, although he followed him in a hurry, he was still pulled away a long distance. The frost on the mountain has not yet melted, like snow, and the feet squeak when they step on it. The black jaws snorted incessantly, and turned their heads to moo at the approaching cars. At this time, people and cattle should stay in the sun, and after Qin Si's father caught up, he had to drive the cattle into the cold and cold mountain col. I didn't want to follow, standing on the edge of the sun, looking at the busy Fourth Father Qin in the field.

Qin Si's father quickly found a pile of dead branches, and he struck several matches to light the dead branches, and after a while, the fire burned very strongly. He beckoned to me, and I couldn't help it, so I had to go over.

Qin Si's father squatted beside the fire, refusing to say a word for a while, his eyes only staring at the flames. Then he told me to go back, so I don't have to accompany him today. He asked me not to tell people where he was grazing cattle when I went back, especially not to let the young people know that he didn't want to see them.

When I walked a few feet away from the fire, Fourth Father Qin stopped me again, and he said, "You pay careful attention to whether there is a woman named Wenlan." ”

I said, "Is she also an educated youth?" ”

Qin Si's father waved his hand and asked me to leave quickly.

Before I could go back to the mound, the cars went into the mound first. In the distance, I heard some men and women speaking in the half-baked local dialect, shouting the names of the people in the mounds with great fanfare. Their father's name appeared loudly in their mouths several times, they called him Qin Xiaoshu, and they deliberately mixed the words of the city with the local dialect, and a somewhat flirtatious children's character sounded behind the tree character.

My father was one of the few people in the village who showed excitement. He repeatedly said that there were sixteen people at this educated youth spot, eight men and eight women, but how come there are several fewer today. The father called the white dog to a very rich man. The old intellectual, named White Dog, said that now everyone is the pillar of their respective positions, and it is even more difficult to come back than to climb to the sky.

When my father let the white dogs into the house, my room had not yet had time to be cleaned up, and my mother did not want the guests to see the mess, so she hurriedly closed the door. I counted outside the gate, and eleven people I didn't know entered my house. I immediately said to myself that this was enough for my father to keep himself busy for a while, because there were only eight stools in the house. I had a hunch that my father was going to call me to a neighbor's house to borrow a stool, and I was about to walk away when my father called out first. I had to go to my neighbor's house and move three stools back to the house. Since I deliberately moved one less, my father didn't sit down, and he stood in the middle of the pile, looking more backbone than when he was sitting.

My father introduced me to the white dogs, saying that I was his son, whose scientific name was Taishu. They all laughed and said almost in unison, "I didn't expect a small tree to raise a big tree." ”

I was very dissatisfied with their tone, so I said: "You don't even understand this truth, heaven and earth are originally small trees raising big trees, and only idiots say that big trees raise small trees." ”

After they were stunned for a moment, the white dog said, "This is really good, that's the case!" ”

At this time, my father asked: "White dog, do you also want to engage in poverty alleviation when you come back in a big car?" ”

The people next to him laughed together and said, "Now you can't call him a white dog anymore, everyone calls him Mr. Bai and Boss Bai!" ”

The white dog also laughed, and he said: "In front of Qin Xiaoshu, what boss is, all of them are old sows and old hens. ”

Everyone laughed even harder.

The mother took the opportunity to say: "If you come to help the poor, there will be hope for the Qin family, and you will really help the poor here after you have suffered here." ”

Mother's words caused some embarrassment in the room.

After a while, the white dog said: "Poverty alleviation is the government's business, we can't save the emergency, if you have personal difficulties, we can definitely help." ”

Hearing this, my father and mother looked at me at the same time. I understood that they wanted to talk about me, so I deliberately kicked the hen who was laying eggs in the coop. The hen was startled and flapped her wings and flew into the arms of the white dog. The people next to him immediately coaxed, saying that the white dog was really blessed, and there was a little lover who threw himself into his arms wherever he went. My father and mother saw what I was thinking, and after glaring at me, they took the hen and put it back in the coop. The hen was frightened and refused to stay in the nest, and after a few tosses, she jumped to the ground and spread her wings and ran out of the gate.

After chatting for a while, it became clear that they had only come to revisit the old place. Several large-scale parties are being organized in the provincial capital to commemorate the 30th anniversary of the educated youth going to the mountains and going to the countryside, so the white dog pays for everyone to come back and feel it and find some inspiration.

Mother thinks it's unbelievable that they spend so much money just to arrange a few shows.

However, the white dog said that people's spiritual life is more important than material life, and it is worth spending more for spiritual needs. He also cited the return of Hong Kong to the motherland in the summer as an example, saying that it stands to reason that once the printing and flag are changed, they will be taken back, but why spend hundreds of millions of dollars on celebrations, because it is for spiritual needs. White Dog also specifically mentions the importance of human history to itself.

My mother looked at my father with some confusion, as if to say, where have you hidden my history?

Speaking of this, Bai Gouzi suddenly remembered something, and he asked, "Qin Lao Sili, how is he now?" ”

My father didn't look at me, so he said, "It's not good, I only have the company of that black yellow head from morning to night." A few years ago, he always talked about going to the city to find Vinland, but now that he is old, he doesn't mention that anymore. ”

The father suddenly changed the subject and asked, "Is Vinland okay?" ”

The white dogs all became mute all of a sudden, and it took a long time for someone to whisper: "Wen Lan, she is dead, very miserable!" ”

When my father heard that it was not long ago, he stopped asking. Everyone in the room sighed, and several women sitting by the wall had tears streaming down their eyes. Seeing this, the mother hurriedly went to the kitchen to prepare hot water for them to wash their faces. Several women followed the stream without being greeted by their mothers.

There was first the whispering of the women, then the sobbing, and in a moment all the women began to cry aloud, even the mother, even more so than the others.

The father looked at the white dog in astonishment.

The white dog said in a voice that was almost inaudible: "Vinland committed suicide!" She jumped from the Yangtze River Bridge into the Yangtze River, and her body was not found. ”

I couldn't control myself for a while, and I couldn't help but tell Fourth Father Qin the news.

The pile of dead branches in the col was turning to ashes, and the sparks were all extinguished, and when you smell it, you know that it was drenched in urine. I screamed a few times, but I didn't answer and was about to look for it, when I suddenly found Qin Si's father behind a tree. He stood straight under the tree, and when he didn't know it, he thought he had hanged himself.

I said, "Why don't you say yes?" ”

Qin Si's father said: "You are a mourning ghost, who will pay attention to you." ”

I was stunned and said, "Who told you, so fast?" ”

Qin Si's father said: "I expected that Wenlan would have this day. If she can't escape, sooner or later she will die at their hands. ”

Qin Sipa's voice suddenly raised his voice and said, "No matter how you explain it, she was also killed by the white dogs." If she had married me, she would never have ended up like this! ”

I said, "You can only feed one cow now, and people don't just eat grass, but the women of the city have to drink milk every day." ”

Qin Si's father said: "Wen Lan is gone, I am discouraged. Back then, I was the captain, and I was in charge of the food, drink, life and death of more than 1,000 people. The commune was also preparing to promote me to deputy secretary. They all suffered the losses of the white dogs, and insisted that I raped Vinland and put me in prison. They steal chickens and dogs inside and outside the wall, commit murder and fight, only I dare to discipline them, they remember their hatred, and they want to take revenge on me when they seize the opportunity. In fact, Vinland is really good with me! But I never understood why she changed her conscience at a critical time. ”

Fourth Father Qin was very sad, but he didn't shed tears. I don't believe how a female intellectual, from the city, could fall in love with him. Qin Si's father said that he sang model plays better than anyone else back then, not only the educated youth spots here, but also the urban students on several educated youth spots near and far admired him, and he always played model plays on important occasions, Guo Jianguang, Li Yuhe and Yang Zirong were always played by him, and Wen Lan only played the girl who was robbed by Diao Xiaosan in "Sha Jiabang". Qin Si's father learned a sentence as he spoke: Grab things, I still have to rob people! This is Diao Xiaosan's line. Qin Si's father told me that one night when he went to the Zhiqing Point to have a look, Wen Lan was the only one in the house, he joked at her, learned Diao Xiaosan's words, and gently pulled Wen Lan with his hands, but Wen Lan fell into his arms and refused to leave. Wen Lan told Qin Si's father that her life was too bitter, her parents were fighting and died in "**", her brother was missing, and she was the only one left in the family, so she wanted to find an honest and reliable person to start a family. Wen Lan chose Qin Si Daddy, which was too unexpected for everyone, when Wen Lan's belly got bigger, the educated youths never thought that the other party was Qin Si Daddy. Wen Lan refused to say it herself, and in the end, it was Qin Si's father who admitted it himself. Originally, Wen Lan had already been angry with Qin Si's father in advance, she only said that she was killed by a bad person she didn't know on the mountain, and then asked Qin Si's father to come forward to propose, and she could marry him openly. But Qin Si's father refused, he didn't want others to say that he was married to a broken man, and he didn't want Wenlan to pour this non-existent basin of stinky water. On the third day after he came forward to confess, he was handcuffed away by people from the Public Security Bureau. By the time he was released from prison, Vinland had already returned to the city, and he almost couldn't find out if the child in Vinlan's womb had been saved or not.

I told Qin Si's father that the white dogs came back to find inspiration for acting. Fourth Father Qin snorted for a while and said, "They can act those as dramas now, but we still have to get through it." ”

Looking from the mountain, the white dog took out a lot of things from the car, and walked back and forth to the small river beach on the edge of the wall, the white dog was the fattest, and I could recognize it at a glance no matter how far away. Qin Si Dad couldn't see clearly, at such a distance, he could only recognize a small black dot. I told him that the white dog was fat and fat, to say the least, it was one hundred and eighty pounds.

Qin Si's father seemed to recall: "This dog thing has doubled, and at that time it was only ninety catties at most, and it was so thin that only one tendon remained. ”

I said, "They don't have to quadruple to be well-off." ”

As he spoke, something like a few flowers bloomed on the small river beach. At first I didn't understand what it was, but when I saw that people could go in and out of it, I realized that it was a travel tent. They used the Qin family's compound as a tourist spot. I want Qin Sidad to go back and see the tent and the car, especially the white dog's car, I have seen it in the playing cards, called Cadillac, which is printed on the small trump card, and the big trump card is printed on the Rolls-Royce. Qin Si Dad is not interested in these, no matter how good the car is, it is not as good as his black yellow head. Qin Si Dad concluded that the white dog must want to see him, and he said that it was not impossible to see him, and he had to wait until he was interested.

I really wanted to see those tents, and Fourth Father Qin didn't want me to accompany him, so he asked me to go to those old intellectuals to hear some news. Especially Vinland, find out how she died.

On the way down the hill to the mound, I met many people who walked back, they had seen the freshness of the tents, and they all said the same thing, saying that the people in the city would live in the end, a few pieces of cloth could be pulled, and a small house could be built anywhere, and how comfortable it would be for a man and a woman to sleep in it. By the time I got closer, the crowd of onlookers was almost gone. When I peeked in the door of a tent, I saw the white dog arguing with another man inside. I listened to the middle two sentences without paying attention, as if it was a question of ranking. When the white dog saw me, he pulled me in and told me to try their inflatable bed. I sat up and tried it, and he asked me what it was like, and I said it was like riding on the back of a cow. The white dog laughed and said that unless the cow was allowed to sit on the belly of the cow on all fours, he said that when I got married, I would know what it was like. The man who was arguing with him just now immediately laughed when he heard this. I could hear something evil in that voice.

I was about to leave, but the white dog held me down and asked, "Why don't you go to school?" ”

I didn't want to be honest with him, so I said, "I don't want to study." ”

The white dog blinked and said, "I grew up by the wharf of Wangjia Lane in Hankou, and if I can't do anything else, my eyes are terrible." As he spoke, he reached out and took out my sister's freshman textbook from my pocket, "I don't want to read, what are you doing with the textbook?" ”

I was anxious by him, and I wanted to snatch back the textbook, but I couldn't beat the white dog, so I had to say, "I don't want it, and you won't have to send it to my house in person later." ”

I pretended to leave, but the white dog didn't care at all, and he said, "You don't want that, we don't have toilet paper, just enough to use to rub your ass." ”

This made me angry, and I said, "You dare to move a page, I will bring a few yellow stalks in the middle of the night, and even the shed will lead people to step on it." ”

The white dog grinned and returned the book to me. He said: "I didn't expect you to be more powerful than Qin Laosi back then!" ”

The white dog took out a very beautiful pen from his pocket, shook it at me, and then said to me that he had a few questions, and as long as I answered them truthfully, he would give them to me.

I thought about it for a moment, but nodded.

The white dog then asked: "Do the people in the wall usually remember that a group of educated youths came here?" ”

I said: "No one remembers, but two years ago, when we were discussing how to become well-off, someone proposed to go to the city to find those educated youths who had joined the queue here and ask them to help them with a project that could make them rich." However, after the discussion, everyone not only forgot about the educated youth, but also forgot about Ben Xiaokang. Everyone said that anyway, it was all the people in the city who were full of food, and they ran down to play a famous hall and walked away, forgetting to have less trouble. ”

The white dog said: "This is not like what a person like Qin Laosi said!" ”

I said, "You haven't heard it, Fourth Father Qin's words are of a higher level." After a pause, I said, "Believe it or not, he agreed yesterday that you were coming in the next two days!" ”

The white dog's eyes widened, and after a while, he said, "Didn't you say that no one remembers the educated youth?" ”

I said, "Fourth Father Qin is thinking about Wenlan in his heart. You are remembered because of the light of Vinland. ”

The white dog said, "I'll ask the same question again, do your classmates know about Qing?" ”

I said, "Many who don't know, few who know." But once the teacher mentioned the educated youth in class, saying that they always wrote articles complaining about how much suffering they suffered and how much persecution they suffered in the countryside, as if the local people who were born and raised should suffer hardships, they should not be like this. The teacher also said that since the educated youth came, the hooligans here have become much bolder, as if someone is backing them. ”

The white dog said: "You don't like educated youth as students? ”

I said, "Why do you like educated youth?" ”

I remembered Qin Si's father's words, so I said again: "You educated youths have never liked the countryside. ”

The white dog stopped talking, and he lowered his head and played with the pen in his hand repeatedly. Later he handed me the pen. I'm embarrassed to take other people's things and leave, it's not good to stand there, it's not good to sit.

Just as I was hesitating, the white dog suddenly yelled at me: "It's none of your business, what are you still standing here for?" ”

The white dog's voice was as thick as the thunder of spring, and it trembled wherever it rolled.

The educated youths who came with the white dog were scurrying around in the wall, they were very familiar with the situation in the wall, and they even remembered Qin Datie's home. Especially the guy who was arguing with the white dog in the tent. Everyone called him Lao Wu, and I didn't know if it was his surname or his first name. Lao Wu stood in front of the door sealed by the barren grass and said that Qin Datie used to brag that his technology was the best in the country, and as long as it was steel, he could make it into the shape he wanted like kneading flour. When they returned to the city to visit relatives, they deliberately took a piece of stainless steel from the factory where their father worked, and asked Qin Datie to make it into a kitchen knife. Qin Datie is now in the house. He listened to other people's words, took his wife and children, and took the burden of iron-making to the city to make money. He didn't understand the depth and shallowness of the water in an unfamiliar place, and as soon as he arrived, he took on a batch of jobs, all of which were long and short knives. After he handed over the goods, before he got the money, he was beheaded all over the house at night. It is said that it was a gang fight, and one side suffered the loss of those long and short knives made by Qin Datie, and when it came to fighting, Qin Datie's knife was still a knife, and other people's knives became mud. Those who suffered losses fell on Qin Datie. Lao Wu sighed a few times at what happened to Qin Datie, saying that not everyone in the city can eat well. No matter how rural it is, there is a piece of land that can support the family. In the city, wherever you stand on both feet, there are thousands of people who want it. As he spoke, Lao Wu suddenly remembered the smell of dog meat in the hanging jar on the stove in this house.

When the fifth child spoke, his father was standing next to him, and he said, "At that time, all the dogs in this area were eaten by you intellectuals. ”

Lao Wu said, "Didn't you also eat a lot of dog meat?" ”

The father said, "Shit, you always give me the bones that you can't gnaw on." ”

Lao Wu said: "But you haven't eaten it with relish." ”

My father smiled and said, "But you don't know, one year when it was snowing heavily, you killed a dog raised in the commune, and it was just cooked, and I ran to lie to you that it was a mad dog, and you were too scared to eat it, so I took it out and threw it away." I only threw a few pieces, and the rest left me and two other children to hide in the woods, make chopsticks out of branches, and have a full meal. ”

Lao Wu also laughed, and he said, "Then you don't know what happened, we ate your two chickens that night." ”

The father said: "Who said we don't know, we also found leftover chicken feathers, and there are also shoe prints next to them, which can only be worn by you young people." If Qin Laosi hadn't stepped forward to stop him, my father would have cut off one of your three hands with a knife. Qin Laosi said that you are all mountain carvings, and everyone wants to set up a hundred chicken feasts, too many of them are difficult to deal with. ”

The father told the fifth child that in order to stop the educated youth from messing around in the wall, Qin Si's father ran to the commune twice in three days, asking for recruitment indicators, sending one away if he wanted one, and walking one in the wall would give him more peace, and whoever was the most mischievous would let him go first. Lao Wu is the third to go at this point. The day he left happened to be the day when Qin Si's father was arrested, and he also took the car to escort Qin's fourth father to the county seat by the way. I heard Qin Si's father say that on the way into the city in handcuffs, a young man kept spitting at his feet, and he couldn't bear it anymore and finally kicked the young man hard. He said that this educated youth didn't know what to do, and that the indicator of returning to the city was exchanged for a pack of swimming cigarettes from the captain of the neighboring brigade. I understand that this person is the fifth child in front of me. Qin Si's father also said that among the sixteen educated youths of men and women, the fifth is the worst, and what Qin Si's father said is mischievous. He said that in the third month after the fifth child came down, he made the belly of another girl on the young spot, and the rest stole chickens and dogs, digging peanuts in the team, picking pumpkins in the team, which is the leader of the fifth child, at least a second-in-command. Lao Wu's trick is to go outside to catch chickens. He bent a pin into the shape of a fishhook, tied it with a thin thread and rolled it into a ball in his trouser purse, and then pretended to pass in front of someone else's wall. When people are not paying attention, with a flick of two fingers, the hook that hooks the worm is bulleted in front of a group of chickens. If any chicken pecks at the hook, it will not be able to get out, and it will follow him obediently without saying a word. When they came across someone, they stopped, and the chicken did not go forward, and the line was so thin that no one could see the flaw. When he walked to a place where there was no one, he put away the thread again, wrapped the chicken in his coat, and sang the favorite song of the educated youth, "Goodbye, Jiangcheng", and walked back as if no one was around. This secret was discovered by Qin Si's father later. Except for small things such as cats and dogs, which like to walk behind people, other animals do not have this habit. That day, he saw a rooster following Lao Wu and stopped and stopped, and he became suspicious. He picked up a stone and threw it at the rooster, which was startled and flew up with a thin thread. For this matter, Qin Si's father deducted fifty points of work, and transferred the deducted points to my family's account page. Qin Si's father once said that although ten points of work were not as valuable as two chickens, they were more important than two chickens. At that time, I don't know how difficult it was to earn an extra ten points, and when the accounts were settled at the end of the year, ten points of work could often determine which category the person belonged to.

Qin Datie's house was uninhabited, and even a lonely old man like Qin Si's father refused to ask for that house, and everyone watched it collapse day by day. Lao Wu said that if he cares about the reason in the city, as long as it is like a house, there will be people rushing to live in it. The father asked the fifth child if he dared to enter the house. Lao Wu said that thirty years ago, he dared to lie in the grave and sleep in the coffin, but now he can't, he has worries, he has a restaurant, and he can't let the business get into trouble. My father didn't maliciously say that the fifth child, when they were educated youths, they always laughed at the peasants, this feudal and backward, how can they be more feudal and backward than the peasants when they have money. Lao Wu said a very profound thing, it is impossible for people to have no cultural traditions, and it is impossible not to criticize traditional culture. At this moment, an accordion sound came from the tent on the small river beach.

Everyone turned their heads to look at it in unison.

Lao Wu said: "This is the white dog pulling." When he was a young man, he was crazy to think that he could have an accordion, and now he can buy all the accordions produced in the country in a year. ”

The father said, "But the music he played is not as good as it used to be!" In the past, he pulled "Evening on the outskirts of Moscow", needless to say that you cried, even I wanted to cry! ”

The white dog pulled "Evening on the outskirts of Moscow".

Lao Wu frowned and said, "This song should be listened to in the dead of night!" It's too early for people to listen! ”

I looked back at the mountain, and the sun was still high, and the dusk was still in sight. I searched twice, but there was no shadow of Qin Si's father on the mountain, and I didn't see the black yellow stump.

When dusk came, a puff of green smoke first rose from the small river beach, which was thick black at first, and rose very quickly, and looked a little fierce. In just a few moments, the cloud-like smoke in the lead climbed up the mountain to the top of the mountain, and under the reflection of the setting sun, it quickly transformed into a colorful glow. The ensuing green smoke does not have this kind of character, it is slow, and even a little weak, and it is dissolved by the rising twilight before it reaches the halfway point of the mountain. Because of this green smoke, you can see the appearance of the evening breeze. The evening breeze is indeed like Chang'e's long sleeves stretched in the moon, it wafts in the air, but leaves a lot of vitality and hope on the ground. The flickering fire was called a bonfire by the white dog and the fifth child, and there were women singing eagerly by the fire, faintly drifting intermittently in the wind.

My father and the people in the wall were saying that they were still in the old temper, and that they had made themselves very sad, as if the sky was about to fall, but they had nothing to do with anyone else.

Qin Si Dad has not come back, Bai Gouzi has asked several times, and he said that he will meet Qin Si Dad as soon as possible no matter what. The white dog drove his Cadillac to town to make calls before dark, and his phone didn't work in the area, just a useless piece of scrap plastic. When the white dog drove away, Lao Wu smiled next to him and said that he had just received a little honey, and his heart was itchy when he didn't see him for a day. The white dog jokingly hit him with a Cadillac. Accidentally, the front of the car hit the stone stone on the edge of the rice field. After the white dog stopped the car and opened the door to take a look, he blamed the fifth child a little unhappily. Lao Wu said disapprerovingly, this little thing is also worth hurting and angry, and it will cost 10,000 yuan to repair it, who can't afford it! After hearing the words of the fifth child, the people in the wall suddenly stuck out their tongues. The white dog seemed to have figured it out, smiled and got into the car door, only to see the colorful lights on the whole body, and the Cadillac suddenly jumped out of the way. The white dog's car ran very fast, and it came back after a while on a dozen miles of mountain road, and before the person got out of the car, the happy smile on his face first opened out of the car window like a flower.

Qin Si's father still didn't come back. I went to the door of his hut and looked at it, but there was no movement in the house. It was completely dark, and I was a little anxious, so I told my father that I was going up the mountain to find Qin Si's father. My father glared at me, said nothing, went back to the house, grabbed a flashlight, and walked alone to the back mountain.

Father's call to Qin Si's father kept echoing in the back mountain.

With the brightness of the bonfire, the singing voices of the old intellectuals became clear. They all gathered around the campfire. The white dog was still playing his accordion, and the fifth was playing something like an iron pipe they called a saxophone. The music of these two things is especially good when there is no singing, and whether it is an accordion or a saxophone, when they are played alone, it is even more moving. Many people in the wall came to see the strange, and everyone stood not far away, not mixing with the white dogs.

When the young women were whispering a song that sounded familiar to me, the white dog suddenly stood up, pulled the accordion violently, and then lowered the key, and suddenly sang in a deep voice.

I remembered that the song was called "Three Sets of Cars".

When I was very young, my father used to hum this song in the house. But he never sang in front of his mother, and several times he was singing until he suddenly stopped singing, and when I asked him why he didn't sing, he said that he didn't want to sing, he just didn't want to sing. Later, I figured out that if my father's singing suddenly stopped, my mother would inevitably appear in a few moments. I thought my father was afraid that he would not sing well and spoil his image in my mother's heart. My father did like it, and I didn't hear him sing anything else.

Mother also loved to listen to this song. Once, my father came home in the evening and brought a bucket of water to the back door to shower. The sound of rushing water prevented him from noticing his mother's return. The mother did not alarm the father, and let him finish singing, and then appeared in front of the father pretending to have just returned.

After the white dog finished singing, Lao Wu used the saxophone to blow the tune several times.

At some point, my mother stood behind me, and I felt her body tremble. When I wanted to turn back, my mother held my head tightly with her hands and wouldn't let me look back. I also heard my mother muttering to herself, "Why don't they cry?" In those years, as long as they sat together and sang this song, they all cried to death! "Indeed, I saw a puff of sad smoke around the campfire: the men around the campfire were smoking violently, and the women were holding their cheeks with their hands, and there was no second sound except the melody of the song. Later, one of the women in the wall ran away crying, and then another woman staggered into the night with her hands over her mouth. My mother trembled even more, her hands hung limply on my shoulders, and she said to me in a very small voice: "Big tree, send my mother, my mother wants to go back!" ”

When I got home, seeing that my father hadn't returned, my mother finally couldn't help but lie on the bed and cover her head with the quilt and cry loudly. I had a premonition in my heart, and I felt a little sad for my father. I took a lump of rock candy from my room, put it in a cup, rinsed half a glass of water, and handed it to my mother. After drinking the rock sugar water, the mother calmed down a little. She told me that she and the two women used to be members of the commune's propaganda team, that the two women had begotten along with two male intellectuals in the propaganda team, that they had secretly conceived their children, and that the two women had five abortions for them, and that she had taken care of them secretly each time. When the male intellectuals returned to the city, they said that they would pick them up immediately, but there was no news of them since. After waiting for a few years, they married into the Qin family. I've heard before that neither of these two women can have children, the reason is that ** was scratched, and it was not clear that it was with the educated youth. I call both women aunts, and my two uncles of the same clan treat them very badly, they mess around outside, and when they come back, they beat these two aunts at every turn, scolding them for broken jars. At such moments, my mother never tried to persuade her, she always pleaded with others and asked others to persuade her. When I was young, I thought my mother was too timid to go forward. Once, I occasionally saw my mother and the two sisters-in-law hiding in my sister's room, hugging their heads and crying, and my mother was more sad and energetic than they were.

The mother cried in bed for a while, and suddenly looked up.

Outside the window, the song "Why Are Flowers So Red" came from the window.

After listening to it for a while, my mother couldn't help but say: "At that time, there was a man named Ouyang in the propaganda team, he was the smallest, but he had the largest amount of food, and he couldn't even eat half a full meal. He played the four dragons in "Shajiabang" and the small furnace maker in "Outwitting Tiger Mountain". His family was in the worst situation, with five people in prison and all of them political prisoners. None of his relatives dared to associate with him. When I saw that he was pitiful, I used to bring him some sweet potatoes from my house to eat. In the winter of that year, it was snowing heavily during the Chinese New Year, and all the educated youths went back to the city for the New Year, but he had nowhere to go alone, so he came to my house on the morning of the 30th, crying and calling my sister, asking me to leave him at home for a reunion. I have to beg your grandmother to keep him. At night, he repeatedly taught me to sing this song "Why Are Flowers So Red", he sang so well, if it wasn't for the Chinese New Year, I would really cry again. At night, when the adults were asleep, he insisted that I wait with him by the fire to hear the New Year's bell at midnight. As soon as the New Year's bell rang, your fourth father Qin took the militia to arrest him, saying that he poisoned me with a bad song. The snow was so big, and there were almost waists in some places, so I rolled behind them, and I had to ask Fourth Father Qin to let Ouyang go. Qin Si's father was so entangled that he had no choice but to tell me the truth. He said that educated youth have harmed a lot of rural girls, and he can't watch me being harmed by Ouyang! ”

The mother sighed and said, "Later, Fourth Father Qin still released Ouyang, but he sent someone to send Ouyang all the way back to the educated youth point on the other side of the mountain. ”

As she spoke, her mother sang in a low voice: "Why are the flowers so red? Why is it so red? Hey, it's as red as it is, it's as red as a burning fire, it symbolizes pure friendship and love. Why are flowers fresh? Why is it so fresh? Hey, it is so fresh that it makes people, so fresh that people can't bear to leave, it is watered with the blood of youth. ”

I had never heard my mother sing, and I never expected her to sing so well. After my mother finished singing, we were silent for a while. The melody hovering over the river beach has changed. My mother later told me that the song was called "The Path" and that it was a Russian song.

I said, "Mom, tell me the truth, did you fall in love with Ouyang later?" The mother was stunned for a long time and did not respond.

I understood a little in my heart, so I said, "I know, you don't have to worry, I won't tell Dad." ”

Mother sighed and said, "He knows everything about your father." When Ouyang left, I secretly sent him, or your father explored the way in front. I'm afraid of being bumped into by your grandparents. ”

I said, "Have you ever had children?" ”

The mother shook her head vigorously, and she said, "Ouyang is sick all over his body, and I just take care of him." After a pause, the mother said, "When he left, he promised to come back and marry me when he was cured!" But they're all the same, and they don't look back once they're gone! Like the water in a river. His father was later rehabilitated, and he always appeared on TV a few years ago, and they looked very much alike. On one occasion, his father's conversation with a student was broadcast on television, and one of them asked him in person why he didn't control his only son's misdeeds. Lao Ouyang wiped a handful of tears in public, saying that his son was "**" because of his parents' problems, and he wanted to compensate his son after being rehabilitated, but it backfired. Listening to that tone, it was like committing something and being arrested and imprisoned. ”

Mother had calmed down a lot by this time.

I went out to walk on the beach and met my father on the way. He said that he couldn't find Qin Si's father, so he came back and invited a few people to go up the mountain again. I suddenly remembered that Qin Si's father often mentioned the combat readiness hole, so he told my father not to go, Qin Si's father must be hiding in the combat readiness hole with the black yellow turtle. My father suddenly let out an "ah". As he walked home with his arm around my shoulder, I suddenly said something.

I said, "Dad, you're amazing!" "I really admire my father for being so kind to my mother. My father didn't seem to care what I meant and went on his own way. After walking a few steps, my father turned around and asked, "Is your mother okay?" ”

I said, "It's okay, she still loves you!" ”

My father laughed softly, and I thought he was not saying anything more, but after he was far away from me, he said alone: "After all these years, what are you doing back?" ”

There are almost no young people singing around the bonfire and onlookers. The people who sing are devoted, and the people who watch are even more engaged. Especially those few female intellectuals who are a little fat, when they dance a dance with Tibetan flavor, the eyes of several very old men and women around them are shining. They said that this dance was called "Laundry Song", and in the past, it was a must-dance for young people to perform on shows, which was really fascinating. Now that they are blessed, their figures are not as good-looking as before, but between their eyebrows and eyes, the smell on their hands, feet and waist is still there. They also recognized the fattest woman in front of them with the most gray hair on her head, the little girl who danced solo back then. What made them feel pity was that the male intellectuals who played the People's Liberation Army did not come. The white dog said that the male intellectuals went to Australia to help people wash dishes and earn foreign exchange. The white dog was the B corner back then, he put down the accordion to the middle of the female intellectuals, as soon as he raised his siblings, the people around him laughed, and the older people said that he could only play the fat officer of the Kuomintang now.

The white dog didn't care, he drew for a while with his hands and feet, which was not very obedient, and suddenly stopped, and sang loudly: "Hey, who will wash our clothes!" ”

There was almost no pause, and the male intellectuals on the side immediately sang: "-No one!" ”

The white dog sang again: "-Who will make breakfast for us!" ”

The male intellectuals sang again: "-No one wins!" ”

When I heard that this word was different from the original words of "Laundry Song", I understood that they made it up when they were sighing and pitying themselves, and they sang a lot of songs, all of which were based on the ready-made tunes, and their mood was a little low when they sang and sang. Among the people who listened, first the adults began to withdraw, and then the children also left, and the white dog and the fifth child took turns shouting loudly around the bonfire, asking everyone to come back tomorrow night, and they wanted to officially perform a few shows for the villagers to see.

When I came home, I saw my father and mother sitting on a bench and hugging each other. When he saw that I was back, my father wanted to let go, but my mother tied him to death. I felt my face was hot, so I went into my room, looked up at my sister's picture, and then applauded in the room and said, "What a romantic movie!" ”

The singing on the beach of the creek rang out until late. After the song disappeared, the accordion disappeared, and I thought that the remaining saxophone would soon disappear as well, but it would not leave the night sky; Sometimes it becomes so faint that there is almost no sound, and only a little melody drifts in the wind like a gossamer, if there is nothing, it is also illusory; When the heart is quiet with the night, it quietly floats out of nowhere. When I first heard it, I thought it was an illusion, and I couldn't believe that the sound down was real, and it wasn't until all this was done that the sound of the saxophone completely swirled again. The sound of the saxophone is like a mother's hand caressing my heart in a time of great pain. In the sound of the saxophone, I kept looking into my sister's eyes. Behind those sad smiles, I felt my sister's slightly trembling lips murmuring: Go home. Go home.

When the saxophone's voice was melodious, a long cow's howl came from the dark mountain behind the window, and it was Qin Sipa's black yellow head barking. I really don't understand why Qin Si's father is still hiding when he sees an old intellectual. The bomb shelter was dark and cold, and maybe there was some wild thing, and what was the point of staying in it.

At night, I dreamed of my sister, and for some reason she was crying, and she didn't say anything to me, but begged me not to tell my father and mother about her. When I woke up, I stared at the window of the black hole for a long time.

After dawn, the mother got up. She let the chickens out of the cage first, and when I got dressed and walked out, my mother was looking in the direction of the city.

I asked her, "Are people dreaming the opposite of what they actually are?" ”

The mother said, "Yes! The year before last, when I dreamed that your grandparents had been cured, they would laugh at people, and they would die not long after. ”

I put my mind at ease, said goodbye to my mother, and climbed the back hill when I went out.

The tents rested silently on the small river beach. There was a dark shadow beside the tent, at first I thought it was a small tree, but after a few closer looks, I realized that it was a person, and I thought it could only be a white dog, like something written on a piece of paper on his knees.

The battle preparation cave is on a dirt cliff halfway up the mountainside, and the entrance of the cave is somewhat collapsed. I was not wrong at all: a line of hoof prints led to the hole. As soon as I climbed to the entrance of the cave, I heard Fourth Father Qin talking inside.

Qin Si's father said: "Even Wenlan is dead, what's the point of me living." Such a good girl was forced into a corner. I don't mean to hurt her, she has a bad temperament, she loves to be worried and depressed alone, she sheds tears alone, her health is not good, and she can't work in the fields on dog days. Whoever asked me to be the captain of the brigade, I want to take care of her when I see her like that. She is grateful to me and wants to be good with me, I don't have a wife, who else can I find if I don't look for her! It's just that I was a little anxious, so I went to bed and slept with her in such a hurry, but she didn't hate me. The Qin family is like this here, how can a man take the initiative to accommodate you! Just keep it up afterwards. But they have brought the rules of the city here to ask me for my sin. What crime do I have, if I am really guilty, Wenlan will not be so reluctant to kill the fetus! I'm in jail too. My son was killed before he was born, and then I waited for so many years, always thinking that Vinland would come back, and now it's good, I'm afraid I won't even see the soul. She doesn't know which country, county, city, or unit she is assigned to in the underworld, and she tells me how to find her! Wen Lan told me that life is my person, and death is my ghost, otherwise how could I wait for her so stupidly. I believed her, she said at the time that I was forced to harm her, that was not the truth, it was taught to her by the white dogs. The white dogs have always been dissatisfied with me and want to bring me down, and no one dares to care about them anymore. I have heard them scold Wen Lan, they say that Wen Lan is the scum of the educated youth, and she has lost the face of the educated youth, so many male educated youths she doesn't love, but she wants to fool around with Tuxi. They also swore not to break up Vinland and me, and they jumped off the cliff en masse. They also promised Wenlan that as long as she didn't say that she had a relationship with me voluntarily, and there was an index to recruit workers to return to the city, they would give priority to Wenlan to go first. Vinlan was so confused by their repeated torture that he agreed to them in a daze. After I went to prison, Vinland gave me nine sugar buns. The guards didn't tell me who the person who delivered the buns was, but I knew it was Vinland. Because I told her that the beautiful peaks on her chest were as alluring as two sugar buns. Why send nine, that is the meaning of eternity, she told me to wait for her no matter how long it takes. The sugar buns are round, so she also said that after waiting for a long time, there will be our reunion day. She later wrote me several letters, all of which were embezzled by the guards. They were very curious about me and Vinland, and on a few occasions asked me if I felt very special when I was with a female intellectual. I wouldn't tell them, because they must be very angry, and I wanted to peek at what the letters said. In everyone's eyes, those female intellectuals are as good-looking as fairies. I'm not such a person, Vinland and I really love each other, otherwise I would never have a bad mind about her. If I am that kind of person, why don't I look for a woman in the future, I just want to show those young people who look at me crookedly that I am loyal to Vinland, and I only have her in my heart in this life. Vinlan felt very bitter when she couldn't receive my reply, and she couldn't help the people in the city around her, so she had to be at their mercy. If they let her marry, she will marry, and if they let her marry, she will marry. But she only has me in her heart, and her heart will never marry someone else. Others want her like marrying a cow, she has no love for others, and she will not give her heart. Others abused her day by day, she had no food, no drink, no clothes or no wear, only a piece of skin wrapped in a handful of bones was left on her body, and she only had to jump into the river. Jumping into the river, the river is so deep, so wide, so long, no one can see her appearance, not even me, this is her last wish, she only shows that she still loves me. Are you right? When your wife died of old age last year, didn't you want to take a look? It's better not to look at it for this part. The key is for two people's hearts to be together. Others say that I am suffering, but that's just someone else's business, they think that this kind of suffering will make them feel bitter, and if I don't regard this as suffering, then it will not be bitter. When I put Vinland in my heart, I put happiness in my heart. Happiness in the heart is known only to oneself. When there is hope in my heart, that is true happiness, and the thought of Vinland suddenly coming back one day makes me die of joy. The key to happiness or unhappiness is in the heart. Look at the white dogs, a car is worth more than all the belongings of the whole people, and the clothes they wear are all modernized, but why do they still run to this place where they have been cursed not 10,000 times but 9,999 times to see, it must be that they can't find a happy feeling in their hearts. I thought that it would be happiness to be able to go back to the city, but when I returned to the city, I thought that it was happiness to be promoted and make a fortune and achieve a career, but now I think that happiness is only when I go to the United States? This is the retribution that happiness retributes to them. If people are too greedy, they will make it impossible for you to find it. I'm not greedy, I have my happiness. Do you think I'm right? Vinland must be like that, I know her character too well, she would do that. ”

It was very dark in the cave, and in addition to the voice of Qin Sipa, I could also hear the sound of the ox's tail flapping on the ground. I closed my eyes for a while, and when I opened them again, I saw that Fourth Father Qin was still talking to the black yellow slab like a dream.

I sat next to him for a while. He closed his eyes and said to me, "Is it dawn?" ”

I said, "It's almost sun!" ”

Qin Si's father said: "Last night, I finally thought through everything about Vinland. She was a good woman. ”

I said, "Neither the white dog nor the fifth child wants to talk about her!" ”

Qin Si's father said: "How can they be unwilling, they don't dare!" ”

I said, "Have you eaten anything from yesterday to today?" ”

Qin Si's father said: "I went to your field and picked up some red taro, ate a few raw, and roasted a few with fire, don't worry, I won't die of hunger." ”

Since my grandfather's death, my family's red taro field has always been unclean, according to Qin's fourth father's estimate, one out of ten red taro has not been dug out of the soil. My parents didn't care much about that, and neither did the people in the wall. Now planting red taro is no longer the purpose of the mother who was anxious about Ouyang and secretly used red taro to supplement his nutrition, and now every family uses red taro to feed pigs. In previous years, my parents always asked my sister to take a few pigs from the family every few days and go to the field to use the long-mouthed tube to turn over the shallow arch and eat the red taro that was not dug up on the spot, saving a lot of manpower. This year, my sister went to work in the city, and no one did it. My parents didn't let me do it, and the custom was that boys could only herd cattle and sheep, but not pigs.

The ground in the cave was clean, and half of the red taro skin and half of the red taro were nowhere to be found.

Qin Si's father said, "Don't look for it." Only those educated youths who eat red taro are peeled and peeled. When I criticized them, they said that if the rice did not shed its husks and the wheat did not bran, they would eat the red taro with the skin. It is also said that eating red taro is already a lot of fart, and then eating the skin and hitting a fart will cause three small whirlwinds. ”

Qin Sidad smiled lightly as he spoke, and he said: "Those little mongrels are also very cute, not only can sing, but also make up songs, those songs that are very good in the movie, as soon as they change the words, they will run away, and the happy ones will become sad." ”

Qin Si's father suddenly sang: "Cherries are delicious, trees are difficult to plant, I don't understand if I don't go to the countryside, the work will not fall from the sky, and the fairy cave can't be moved." ”

After my mother, I found out that Qin Si's voice was really good, which shows that he didn't brag about his role in the model play. After Qin Sidad only sang these few words, he stopped singing, and after he stood up and touched the top of the cave, he asked me if I knew who dug the hole. I said that I had heard that it was dug up by educated youth.

Indeed, I have heard about the intellectuals digging holes for war readiness.

In those years, water conservancy construction began in the winter and spring, and almost all the male and female laborers had to go to the construction site, and only a few half-laborers were left in the family to cope with the old, weak, sick and disabled. The above also requires all educated youths to go to the construction site to receive exercise. My father was only 16 years old when he was a commando on a reservoir construction site more than 100 miles from home. Every day, more than 100 loads of soil were picked up from the bottom of the dam to the dam that was rising day by day. But the sixteen men and women on the Zhiqing Point did not add up to more than 100 loads of soil on the construction site. The educated youths either sat on a mound and handed out badges to the people in the mound, or marked a straight letter on the dam for each person who poured a load of soil, or they were not working as propagandists to write a war report on the construction site. Father, they have a lot of opinions about Qin Si's father for this. My father was always bullied because he was too young to grow. After he fought with the white dog, everyone began to look at each other differently. My father still hasn't figured out whether the white dog is deliberately correcting himself, because he said that the educated youth are either "cultivated" or petty bourgeois. My father only started to get angry after he found out that the white dog had to draw one less stroke of his own "positive" character for three consecutive days, especially on that day, the white dog actually drew two less strokes of "positive" character for him. Father can't say that he is a white dog, and he can't talk about him if he is reasonable. This is the common weakness of the Qin family's Dayuan people. When everyone gathered to debate with the educated youth, they were all refuted to the fullest. My father is not the kind of person who finds fault and deliberately defaults on his debts, which can be discerned only from his affection for his mother. It was when my father was settling accounts with the white dog that he saw his mother for the first time. At that time, my mother didn't know why she came to find the white dog, and my father didn't ask about it, but it was probably for Ouyang. As soon as the father saw that his mother was watching in the crowd, his heart became excited, and he went up and grabbed the pen of the white dog, saying that he didn't care about the two "positive" words, and the key was to ask the white dog to make a compensatory and say sorry. The white dog refused to admit his mistakes, and scolded his father for being a bastard. In a hurry, the father slapped the white dog. The white dog immediately pounced and twisted his father to death. Although the white dog is tall and big, his father will never suffer a loss in a one-on-one situation. The problem is that the people next to him thought that their father would suffer, and they couldn't wait to get involved, and when they rescued their father, they put down the white dog by the way. The white dog rolled on the ground a few times, got up and summoned around the construction site, and in the blink of an eye, hundreds of educated youths gathered in front of their father, viciously wanting blood for blood and tooth for tooth. Father, they weren't intimidated. They didn't say anything, they just slung their poles across their waists. Behind them are thousands of people who look like them. However, the conflict did not happen. Father and Qin Si's father both said that if it weren't for the educated youth who retreated first, they would definitely suffer a big loss. The people on the construction site have long complained about the educated youth. When the meal is served, they always form a group to help each other rob, always pick the lightest work, walk sideways in groups of three or five, see no one give way, and like the good-looking local girl. The retreat of the two sides began when the mother and Ouyang appeared at the same time, the mother pushed the father back on one side, and Ouyang dragged the white dog back on the other side.

Qin Si's father was on the third day after the incident, and suddenly all the educated youths in the wall were withdrawn, and let them make a war preparation hole in the back mountain.

The intellectuals of this war preparation cave dug for two winters and springs, and Qin Si's father said that his union with Vinland began in this cave, and his father and the white dog also formed a life-and-death friendship because of this hole.

The battle preparation hole has to make the first turn at a depth of ten meters, and how to turn this bend must listen to Qin Si's father. Qin Si's father rushed back from the reservoir construction site, and after a glance, he decided to turn right. Qin Si's father almost didn't settle down in the wall and came to the reservoir construction site again, it was obviously a tense moment for the battalions and companies to catch up with the progress, but he asked his father to wait for a few of the hardest working male laborers to go back to the wall to rest for a few days. When his father went home, Qin Si's father instructed them to stay at home only and not run around, because they were afraid of bad influences.

On the afternoon of the second day when my father arrived home, all the roof tiles in the mound rang overhead. Then some people shouted that the war readiness hole had collapsed, and the educated youth were all buried in the hole. My father immediately grabbed his tools and called the few people on leave to run up the back hill, and the entrance of the war preparation cave completely collapsed, and the movement in the cave was not heard at all. Father, they didn't think much about it, and lay on the mouth of the cave desperately digging out the earth. My father had been planing for six hours, without taking a breath or even a sip of water. After dark, my father shoveled down with a shovel, revealing a black rumbling hole in front of him. When the father climbed in through the hole, all the people were unconscious, except for the white dog who could still open his eyes to look at him. At this time, the father could no longer remember the unhappiness on the construction site, so he picked up the white dog, which was nearly half taller than himself, and pushed it out through the small hole, while the others continued to pull it out with their hands outside. There was almost no light in the cave. Except for some usefulness in the vicinity of the cave entrance, the more he walked inside, the more useless it became. After rescuing thirteen people, my father searched for a long time to find the other two, and my father couldn't get rid of the four hands they were holding tightly together anyway, and my father could still deal with the hand of the male intellectual, and he couldn't break the female intellectual's hand anyway. Qin Si's father once said to me that the hands of those female intellectuals are indeed very special, even if they usually meet and shake them so much, there will be a feeling of overpower, which makes people unable to control themselves, so that he did not dare to shake hands with female intellectuals later. Qin Si's father said that at that time, no matter whether it was a man or a woman in this area, there was no one who did not worship female intellectuals, especially men, and their eyes would light up when they saw female intellectuals. Everyone doesn't say much about the father's rescue of sixteen educated youths from the war preparation hole, but the legend is that the father was able to touch the eight female educated youths on the Zhiqing Point at one time, and his words were full of jealousy. In the end, the father did not separate the pair of young people who were in love, but got them out of the hole together. Later, the people who answered outside said that he ate alone, and he should call someone to come in and help.

The last thing my father found was Vinland. In order to find Vinland, it took him more than ten minutes. He searched almost every corner of the cave, but he couldn't find it. He asked the people outside to count it, and the people outside said that it was indeed true, there were only fifteen people, and clearly pointed out that it was a lack of Wenlan. At that time, his father felt that Vinlan must have been crushed by the landslide, so he called someone in. The two men were nervously digging from the inside out, when suddenly a dark figure appeared behind them, and she silently walked up to them and whispered, "I'm here!" My father broke out in a cold sweat, and the man was even more miserable, and he sat down on the ground. Afterwards, Wen Lan said to Qin Si's father that after the entrance of the cave was blocked by a landslide, everyone else felt that the end was coming, crying and crying, and those pairs of good friends were desperate to make love. She was very calm, she didn't think about anything, she found an undisturbed earthen platform at the bottom of the cave and lay quietly, and she fell asleep for a while in a daze, so she didn't have anything to do.

Those rescued educated youths are grateful to their fathers, especially the white dogs, who have vowed to repay the grace of rebirth. Later, after the white dog knew that his father liked his mother, he came forward to Ouyang several times and asked Ouyang not to stir things up. His words of persuasion to Ouyang are said to be like this: Only the most unpromising educated youth will really like a country girl. This is what Qin Si's father told me. He didn't make it clear what he was talking about, as if he was referring to all educated youths in general. I'm only now telling that it has something to do with my parents.

Qin Sidad stomped on the ground with his foot, saying that the landslide of the year was in this position.

Fourth Father Qin looked at me and said, "There's a secret here. I told you you you can't say it to the outside. I deliberately caused that accident. I have long seen that the entrance of the cave is going to collapse, and I don't remind the intellectuals that I want to teach them a lesson, let them take on a bag of kindness debts, and be polite to the locals in the future. If not, how could I have brought your father and them back from the construction site on vacation? I was sent to the rescue team, and it turned out that my trick was the most effective. ”

I stared at me for a long time before I said, "You are really bold and cunning. ”

Fourth Father Qin laughed proudly, and the black yellow snort also snorted on the ground.

Qin Si's father said that soon after the collapse, the combat readiness hole began to fork. Vinlan insisted on digging a small house on the wall of a forked hole, but everyone couldn't resist her, so she went, and no one else would help her anyway. Vinland is very enthusiastic about this small house, and every day she goes to work, always coming before others and leaving later than others. After the small house took shape, Vinland left a few more mounds in it, one she said was a bed, one was a small table, and the other was a dresser. It was no longer the reason she had insisted on digging the little house, she had said that she had to have a headquarters that could be kept secret. Qin Si's father said that he really got along with Wenlan in that small house. That day, he went to the team on the other side of the mountain to inspect the work, and when he came back late, he borrowed a flashlight. When he passed by the battle preparation cave, he somehow wanted to go in and have a look. As soon as he left, he walked into the small house that Wen Lan had dug and found Wen Lan sleeping alone in that bed. The flashlight shone past, and Wen Lan didn't know how to wake up. At that time, he suddenly remembered many of Wen Lan's usual expressions of affection for him. From the very beginning when he told Vinlan not to dry and wet work from now on, Wen Lan looked at his amorous eyes, to the tenderness and sweetness when he took off his flowering blouse and carefully sewed it in front of everyone at the meeting a few days ago. Qin Si's father said that he couldn't control himself when he thought of this, he almost rushed over and hugged Wen Lan, and said loudly regardless of whether she woke up or not: I am Qin Laosi. As he spoke, he went crazy like never before. Wen Lan didn't resist at all, Qin Si Dad thought that Wen Lan hadn't woken up after he was busy, he turned on the flashlight and saw that Wen Lan was staring at him with big eyes.

When Qin Si's father said that Wen Lan did not resist, there was some grievance in his words in addition to affection. After Wen Lan had a tryst with Qin's fourth father a few times, he had obviously grown better, his body had gained a lot of weight, and his face was much more ruddy. Just when everyone admired Vinlan getting more beautiful day by day, Vinlan's belly unexpectedly stood up.

I told Fourth Father Qin that the white dog had not seriously looked for him, but had only asked a few times. Fourth Father Qin was very concerned about this matter. My statement did not disappoint Qin Sipa, who said that the longer he hid, the more the white dog wanted to see him. He asked me to find a way to let the white dog go to his hut first, which would increase the psychological pressure on the white dog.

I said disapprerovingly, "You're abusing yourself by doing this." ”

Qin Si's father said: "There is no Wenlan, I am a thing alone." That's what I want to do, so that they feel uncomfortable and ashamed when they see it, and they don't feel so good about themselves in the future. ”

The black yellow slammed its hind legs and jerked itself to its feet, and as it turned and twisted its head towards the hole, its sticky tail brushed past my eyes. Fourth Father Qin told me that someone was coming. Sure enough, a voice followed. Even I could hear that the people who came were white dogs, and that the tone of the string of tunes always gliding on a high place was only found in the city.

The voice of the white dog could be heard from afar, and he shouted excitedly: "**, this hole is still there, and it hasn't collapsed at all." ”

Then the fifth child said: "Next time I come back, I must build a monument here to commemorate our resurrection from the dead." ”

Then there was a chatter, and I listened to it for a long time, but I didn't hear them mention that my father had saved them. Finally, they waited for such a moment, and after a few exclamations of real danger, they quickly talked about the situation when they woke up. Only two female intellectuals mentioned that the timing of their father's rescue was too critical after they said that they woke up with almost a pile of cow dung on the tip of their noses. But the white dog immediately made fun of them, saying that once people are facing death, they understand how important it is to enjoy life. The female intellectuals immediately begged for mercy and asked everyone not to mention what happened at that time. Only the fifth child thought of Wen Lan, and he said that he really didn't expect that Wen Lan, who could be extremely calm in the face of life and death tests, would fall into the love network of a peasant. The white dog immediately said that it was not that she fell but was lured in, and it was Qin Laosi who harmed her with despicable means. Lao Wu can't fully agree with this point of view, he thinks that the main reason is that Vinlan has been hit too much, and she especially needs the protection of a man who can make her feel reliable. He also felt that the white dog's approach at that time was excessive, patronizing and maintaining the face of the educated youth collective without caring about Wenlan's mood, and as a result, he harmed Wenlan for the rest of his life. A female intellectual, also said that Wen Lan later insisted on going back to the city to give birth to the child, which shows that she made up her mind. When Qin Laosi was arrested, she cried and fainted several times, if it wasn't for the fetus that was miscarried, she would really go to the Public Security Bureau to bring Qin Laosi back. Bai Gouzi said that it was precisely because of this that he gave Wen Lan the index of returning to the city that he had finally obtained. As soon as Wen Lan returned to the city, he forgot about Qin Laosi, and married the next year. Lao Wu said that in his opinion, Wen Lan had not forgotten Qin Lao Si, otherwise how could she not get along with a man who was so duty, and she was also hot and cold at work. Her sudden jump into the river was even more surprising. Seventy percent of the people in her unit were laid off, and everyone thought she would not be able to escape this catastrophe, but she stayed in 30 percent. At such a time, she couldn't laugh enough, but she chose to die.

Fourth Father Qin trembled gently in front of my eyes.

Lao Wu continued: "I later learned that Wen Lan had not returned home for three days before the accident, nor did he go to work at the unit. I did the math, and it happened to start on the night of the first educated youth party. Someone saw her leave the party before it was over, and she didn't get on the bus after going out, and walked down the street alone in a daze. I think it must have been that party that stimulated her! ”

There was silence outside the entrance of the cave for a while, and after a while, someone said that it might have been an irreparable mistake for them to forcibly separate Wen Lan and Qin Laosi at the beginning. If she is allowed to marry Qin Laosi, at least she will not take the current path. Bai Gouzi objected to such an assumption, he reminded everyone to see what kind of life Qin Laosi was living now, Wen Lan really followed this person at the beginning, maybe he would have starved to death a long time ago. Lao Wu disagreed, saying that true love and a happy marriage can change the entire path of a person's life. For example, he said that the white dog only found a beautiful and lovely girl as a lover a few months ago, bought a house and raised it like a canary, and the person was radiant, and the business was more profitable than one another, and he didn't quarrel with his wife when he came home. And people like Qin Laosi are more likely to be satisfied, and it is easier to regard ordinary things as great happiness. In this way, he will work harder to get by.

The white dog didn't seem to want to discuss it, so he asked everyone to take a look in the combat preparation cave first, and maybe they could find the cocoons that fell from the palms of their hands all over the ground.

I've seen a figure coming through the cave.

Qin Si's father suddenly slapped the black yellow man on the back, and screamed something. The black yellow slam slammed towards the outside of the cave, followed by a frightened cry from outside the cave.

After the black yellow slump came out of the hole, he chased the white dog all over the mountains with a pair of horns. Fortunately, others, including those female intellectuals, were able to quickly escape to the bottom of the mountain and look back behind the corners of the house. The white dog was too fat to run, and he was about to let the horns pick it up several times, but fortunately the trees on the side of the mountain road, when he saw that the situation was not good, he hid behind the trees, and made a few thrilling scenes, but in the end it was fine. only suffered the pair of leather shoes under his feet, and the fifth child said that the brand of the shoes was a playboy, and a pair cost more than 800 yuan.

Qin Si's father still refused to go down the mountain, he would rather continue to wait and see on the mountain.

When I returned home, my father was talking to the white dog, and my mother was frying melon seeds in the kitchen, and a strong aroma filled every corner of the house. Mother's skill of stir-frying melon seeds is very famous, and even the white dog knows it. When they were educated youths here, they ate their mother's fried melon seeds. Bai Gouzi praised his mother's fried melon seeds as a nutritious product, and if he went to the city to open a fried food shop, he would definitely make a lot of money. My father disagreed, he said that he had seen a lot of mother's methods of frying melon seeds, and he had no tricks at all, except for salt, and then used pine wool wood to burn the fire, just these two points. It's okay to say salt, but where does the pine hair and firewood come from in the city! The white dog said that he could send a car to pull it in the wall. Before my father could say anything, my mother answered in the kitchen. She said that no matter what she was doing now, as long as it was sold, she would always have to be more or less adulterated, and she couldn't do that kind of thing. The mother's words made the father smile.

My parents have obviously talked to the white dog about my sister and me.

When they were talking about melon seeds, the white dog kept looking at me with his eyes. I was a little uncomfortable and was about to get out of the way, but my father stopped me.

The father said, "Uncle Bai wants to take you to the big hospital in the city to treat that disease, are you willing to go?" ”

I said, "I'm not sick, I'm all well." After the New Year, I will continue to go to school. ”

The white dog said: "It won't be long before you don't worry that I will spend more money, the last thing I lack now is money." Don't worry, your father saved my life, and I have long wanted to find an opportunity to repay the favor. ”

I said, "It's your business if you have money, and it's my business whether I can cure the disease or not." ”

After saying this, I suddenly thought about why I was so disgusted with the white dogs, they didn't actually provoke me. But I seem to hate them from the bottom of my heart, especially this white dog.

My father instructed me to show my sister's letter to the white dog. The father said that the white dog had patted his chest and let his sister into his company, and he would take good care of her.

I said, "Didn't my sister do a good job elsewhere?" ”

When I went into the room to look for my sister's letter, I closed the open door again. I took the letter out from under my pillow, read the text from cover to cover, and then tucked it away in my freshman math textbook. I don't want to show my sister's letter to anyone else.

After a while, my father pushed the door in and asked me if I had found the letter, and I said that I couldn't find it, probably because it was dragged into a hole in the corner by a mouse. My father didn't believe it and asked me what was wrong, why did I have frost all the way to the white dog. I told my father that Qin Si's father asked him to bring a message back and asked him to pay more attention to the white dog. Father didn't think so, he thought that Qin Si's father was stubborn, and he couldn't turn around in the past, and he couldn't turn back. The father wanted to find the letter himself, and I was in a hurry, so I threatened that if the father did not trust his son, it would mean that the sick person did not believe the medicine given by the doctor. I picked up the herbs that had not yet been fried on the table and threw them out the window, but my father had to give up.

I heard him say to the white dog after he came out of the room, "The big tree thinks his sister's things are more precious than his life, and he doesn't want to show them to outsiders." He was sick and had to accommodate. ”

My father was such a man, and when he believed whoever he believed, he told the truth in everything.

Mother's melon seeds have been fried, and there is a chirping sound of swallowing melon seeds outside.

The white dog took the time to say: "A boy must have a personality, so that he can have a great future." ”

My father said, "When you are young people, you all have distinct personalities. ”

The white dog said: "Later, it was also called Qin Laosi, and it was almost done." His trick was really good, let us dig a hole for war readiness, nominally to take care of us, but in fact to sharpen our edges and corners. Stay there all day and night, and you can't see the wind, frost, rain and snow. It looks like I'm buried and not dead, I don't have conflicts with others, I dig for two years, and seeing you is like seeing relatives. ”

Father said: "That's also a piece of hard work for the fourth child, he is afraid that when we are together, we will fight and make trouble." ”

The white dog seemed to laugh, and he said, "Now I tell you the truth, I missed your load of soil on the construction site that time, because I felt that you glared at me." But you say that you have missed four loads of soil in three days, and you are wronged. ”

My father's smile was obvious, and he said, "At that time, the main thing was that I was angry in my heart, and it was not pleasing to my eyes to see you sitting there comfortably." If you want to talk about this, fortunately, the fourth brother handled it wisely and transferred you back immediately. Otherwise, you will suffer a big loss, everyone has planned, and we have to find an opportunity to clean you up. ”

The white dog said: "We also have a number in our hearts, and we are also preparing. But even if we suffer from our flesh and skin, it is you who are unlucky. At that time, the educated youth was now the panda. Otherwise, how could Qin Laosi be arrested and put in prison. If Vinland is replaced by a local girl, there is no such thing as a quasi-guarantee fart. ”

I only believe Qin Sipa's words now, and these educated youths feel that they are still so good. I found a lock and locked the door. I don't want my father to show my sister's picture to the white dog after he can't find the letter. As I walked out, my mother caught up and stuffed a handful of hot melon seeds into my purse.

After only a few moments, the clear sky turned gloomy. The cold wind blowing down from the mountain pierced through the cotton clothes and desperately pierced the bones. I shrank back, and before I could straighten up, I heard a cow cry coming from the mountain behind me. The voice echoed in the north wind for a long time.

The educated youth were scattered in various households, and most families lit a fire in the middle of the hall for them. I walked around the mound, and everyone smelled the fragrance of melon seeds in my purse. I understood that someone greeted me to share a few melon seeds, but I pretended not to understand and asked them if they had seen the fifth child. Everyone said they hadn't seen him, so I thought he might be alone in the tent. I hurried to the riverbank, and was surprised to find the two sisters-in-law, who had left the place crying last night, sitting in a tent where there was no one else, weeping opposite each other, and two women of the same disease were holding each other's hands, which were as rough as the bark of a tree tree, and could not say a word except tears.

I quietly stepped back, and as I passed the place where the white dogs had left their cars, I faintly heard a hint of music. As I walked towards the cars, the music became clearer and clearer, like a foreign woman singing in English, I had never heard it, but it was familiar, and I remembered later that it was a lot like the choirs in the churches in foreign movies singing affectionately. The windows of the car are attached to a layer of film that you can't see from the outside, but you can see the outside inside. I kicked the singing car tires, and the door opened, revealing the head of the fifth.

I said, "I'm looking for you everywhere." ”

The fifth said, "Is there something wrong?" As soon as I got inspired, I hid in my car and wrote a show! "Lao Wu let me sit in the car. The car engine was ringing softly, and it was very warm in the car, and the fifth child said that the tent was so cold that he couldn't stretch his fingers, so he had to go to the car to turn on the heating.

This program written by Lao Wu is to tell the real things about the educated youth of the year. At that time, everyone was looking forward to returning to the city, and finally looking forward to a few quota places, everyone was immediately ecstatic, but when they thought that someone had to stay, no matter who they were, they were very sad. Whoever goes and who doesn't go can't open their mouths, and in the end they have to draw lots, but I didn't expect that the person who caught "leaving" was like a criminal, and the person who caught "staying" became a hero for a while.

When Lao Wu told me, he choked up several times and couldn't speak. But I wasn't moved at all.

Lao Wu probably saw it, and said very sadly: "How can this history be forgotten and forgotten!" ”

I can't say anything to him, I only care about what I want to care about.

I asked, "Are all the people in your city looking for a little lover?" ”

Lao Wu was unprepared for my question, he was stunned for a moment before saying, "You are still a child, how can you ask this!" ”

I stubbornly said, "I just want to ask this, do you also have a little lover?" ”

The fifth said: "How can I have." My wife is from the Public Security Bureau, and if she is discovered, she will shoot me with one shot. ”

I said, "How dare the white dog look for it?" ”

Lao Wu said: "You listened to all our words! The white dog is different, his company is big, he has a lot of business, and he soaks in the girls' pile all day long, who cares, unless he stops doing business and goes home to be a poor bastard. ”

I said, "Have you ever seen the little lover of the white dog?" How does she look? Where is it? ”

Lao Wu said: "I have seen all the lovers of the white dog, and it is difficult to describe what this one looks like now, have you seen the movie star Chen Hong who did the sweet dream oral liquid advertisement on TV?" Just like her! ”

I was shocked, almost everyone who had a color TV in the wall said that my sister's appearance was as good-looking as the woman who advertised for sweet dream oral liquid.

Lao Wu may have seen something from my face, and he said, "That girl is from Jinzhai, Anhui." ”

Jinzhai is more than 100 miles away from us. We are under the control of Hubei here. But I was still not at ease, I said: "If you don't know me, you can't believe me when I say I'm from Henan." ”

Lao Wu said: "The white dog is not a person who is easy to deceive, he has seen the girl's ID card, which is clearly written. ”

Although I understand that ID cards can be faked now, I believe my sister will not do this. She never even imagined that there would be such a professional deception trick in the world. The day before my sister went out to work, a pair of socks that a female companion was hanging outside in the wall disappeared, and when people casually asked her if she had seen who took them, my sister was speechless with a red face.

Lao Wu said again: "The white dog likes the innocent girl in the mountains, and he is tempted by one when he sees one." Others are not bad, that's it. This is also when the educated youth came out, we just didn't do it, and the feeling in our hearts is the same. ”

After I put my mind at ease, I said something else to the fifth child. I said: "The man in the mountain is also very innocent, you look at Qin Sipa, let go of a good life, just wait for the one named Wenlan wholeheartedly." ”

Lao Wu said: "His name is Yuan, that is impossible, why bother like this!" ”

I said, "Do you think that the people of the Qin family are all moving?" ”

Lao Wu hurriedly said: "Look at you are so sensitive, how dare you say that you are moving!" ”

I said, "You should go and see what kind of life Qin Si Dad is living." ”

I wanted to get out of the car but couldn't open the door, and the fifth reached out to help. After the car door opened, I stood on the ground and held the car and asked Lao Wu to follow me to Qin's fourth father's house to have a look. Lao Wu looked at the pieces of paper full of words in his hand, hesitated for a moment and got out of the car. I saw him shiver in the cold wind.

The sky was getting even more cloudy. There was hardly a single figure in the huge wall, and everyone was in the house. Before Lao Wu closed the car door, he turned off the recording in the car, and I asked him what music he was listening to, and he took out the song tape for me to see. Before I could recognize the English meaning of the above, the fifth child hid it and took it back like a treasure. When I was talking to the fifth child, the music kept affecting me, and when the music stopped, I felt like I was missing something. Lao Wu felt a little stronger than I did, and he carefully put the tape in the box with both hands. Lao Wu stared at the calm eyes of the foreign woman on the box, looking like he was worshipping Buddha. In the empty rice field, a sow is hurrying to her nest with a ball of straw in her mouth. Lao Wu looked around and said that this was a sign that it was about to snow. Lao Wu was a little proud, and he hadn't forgotten the meteorological knowledge he had learned here many years ago.

Qin Si's house is at the westernmost end of the mound, where the wind is the strongest, and there is no shelter at all. When the limelight comes, it is like ten yellow heads going crazy at the same time, which makes people tremble when they hear it. The dilapidated and low-slung house struggled year after year in such gales. The fifth child asked me where the big house that Qin Si's father used to be. Hearing that it was demolished to make way for the road, the fifth child thought that the relevant departments must return a house to Qin Si's father, and he should never just let him spend half his life in this dilapidated house.

Qin Sipa's door key was placed in a hole in the wall, and this secret was clear to all the children. I asked Fourth Father Qin more than once that there was not a single thing in his house that others wanted, so what was the point of locking this door. Qin Si's father always told me that only when it is locked can it be like a home, otherwise others will think that it is a bullpen and a toilet.

After opening the door, Lao Wu put one foot in and subconsciously retracted it, and he looked back at me, meaning to ask if there was a mistake. I didn't say anything, I went into the house first. Lao Wu had to follow up, and then silently looked at everything in the room, unable to say a word. There was only a broken table and a broken stool in the dimly lit room, and two white porcelain bowls rested on the dark stove. Qin Si's father didn't have a bed, he spread a few bundles of straw on the ground, and a bed of old quilts was thrown on the haystack, less than two feet away was where the cow slept, although there was a smell of shame, the house was quite clean, there was no cow and cow urine, and the straw was also piled up in the place of the pile, and it was rare to see one in other places. After standing in the room for a while and letting your eyes get used to it, you can still see the shine left by the frequent wiping of tables, stools, and stoves.

Lao Wu asked: "Why didn't the village give relief to Qin Lao Si." ”

I said, "There is relief, but he doesn't want it." ”

At this time, the door was dark, and the white dog appeared. He said to the house, "What are you doing in such a place?" ”

I didn't make a sound, it was the fifth child who said to him, this is Qin Laosi's home.

After the white dog understood, he also entered the house in a daze. After watching it more than once, he said, "How could Qin Laosi be like this? He shouldn't be like this. I thought he should be better off than anyone else by now! ”

I remembered Qin Si's father's words, so I asked, "What do you think now, don't you feel uncomfortable?" ”

The white dog asked me rhetorically, "What do you mean by that!" It's not that we call him like this, and no one forces him, he likes to live like this, who cares! ”

I was angry at this, and I looked away from the white dog's face, and when I looked down, I noticed a white flower on the ground. I bent down and picked it up, and saw that it was a letter. I have been playing with Qin Si's father for so many years, and I have never seen anyone write a letter to him, even if it is a mouthpiece, it is rare for someone to give him a few times a year. I was even more surprised to see that the address on the envelope was from the city. Lao Wu came over first, just glanced at it, and then exclaimed. He said it was written by Vinland. The white dog didn't believe it, he took the letter and looked at it carefully in the light at the door for a while before saying that the address was indeed Vinland's. He also looked at the postmark, which was the day Vinland jumped into the river.

A small white thing landed on the envelope. Before we could see its desolate beauty, it turned into a small crystal droplet. We all know it's snowflakes.

It's snowing! The first snowflakes were followed by countless snowflakes that fluttered one after another.

The white dog and the fifth child asked me to open the letter and see what Wen Lan said to Qin Si's father. I don't want to dismantle it, it's not that I don't dare, Qin Sipa's eyes have long been old, and he must ask me to recognize such a small word for him. I just asked them to go up the mountain to find Fourth Father Qin. In the incessant pleas of the white dog and the fifth child, I insisted on not dismantling it, and I had to wait until Qin Si's father was in front of me to open it.

Out of the dilapidated hut, the white dog and the fifth child have been following behind me, and in the blink of an eye, the snow is falling all over the sky. The air was white, chaotic, and vast. When the intellectuals heard the news, they all gathered around, and the women, before their fingers touched Wenlan's letter, their eyes turned red. I couldn't bear it, so I almost said yes. Fortunately, the black yellow snort on the back hill again. I calmed down and told the white dog that they didn't go to Qin Si's father, they just wanted to open his letter, which was too unconscionable. After I finished speaking, they were silent, and a moment later, a group of people walked together towards the back mountain.

I didn't follow, just waited in front of Qin's fourth father's door. As I gazed towards the mountain road, the envelope in my hand quickly covered with a layer of snowflakes.

I don't know how long it took, the white dogs and they walked down the back mountain with Qin Si Daddy and the black yellow mulch. The limping figure of Qin Si's father was particularly dazzling in the crowd. The movements along the way were not at all like what had been said between them.

Qin Si Dad seemed calmer than the educated youth, and the snowflakes hit his face one after another, and the wrinkles on his face did not move, just like the thousands of mountains and ravines in the distance.

After tethering the cow, Fourth Father Qin winked at me. I carefully peeled off the seal. Vinland's letter was short, with only a few lines:

Fourth:

How are you doing now? I'm most afraid that you will be tempered and let yourself suffer. After all, people only have one life. You don't blame anyone else. Like me, I only blame myself. I thought I was marrying an honest man, but I didn't expect him to bring the woman in the hair salon to the house a few days ago. I didn't have a dream, now I just want to go over there and see if there's a hole in the war readiness that used to be there.

Vinland

When I handed the letter to Qin Si's father, it was intercepted halfway by the white dog. The letter turned around in the hands of the intellectuals before it reached the hands of Qin Sipa. Qin Si's father didn't read the letter, he looked into the house. For some reason, everyone felt that their eyes lit up, and they could clearly see that on the opposite wall, there was a portrait of a human head drawn with charcoal.

The white dog took the lead, and everyone said in unison: "It's really like Vinland!" ”

Qin Si's father only came up with a sentence at this time: "It was painted in the dark." ”

After dark, the snow fell heavier and heavier, and the white dogs had no choice but to change their original plan and only perform a few new programs from the Qin family's big wall in my house. Maybe because of Vinland's letter, they were particularly involved. The white dog can still dance with a bucket-like belly. The people in the wall thought it was fun at first. When the educated youths laughed and cried for a recruitment sheet, someone in the wall said: "Why can't you go is like suffering in hell, then we didn't go in the first few lives, and we didn't go in the next few lives, is it natural to be nailed here?" As he spoke, he led the way, and in a moment all the adults were gone, and only a group of ignorant children were left in the hall.

Fourth Father Qin didn't leave from beginning to end. He told me that he could always see Vinland's shadow in that crowd. I asked Qin Si's father, why did the white dog follow him down the mountain as soon as they went. Qin Si's father said that there was no way, the snow was too big, and the black yellow slab couldn't resist it.

I was still going to talk to Qin Si's father, and suddenly I felt that something was wrong with me. I knew it was going to be back again. I hurriedly called out to my father and mother, and they ran over and carried me to the bed and laid me flat. I had never lost consciousness in the past, but this time I was unconscious as soon as I got into bed.

I was awakened by a frightened voice. I've never seen a white dog speak in such an inappropriate tone.

The white dog whispered in confusion: "How can this be! How could she be the daughter of Little Tree! ”

Lao Wu's voice was even quieter: "I also advised you, be careful when looking for Xiaomi, if you don't do well, you will run into your friend's flesh and blood." ”

The white dog said: "How did I know that she has an ID card and learns Jinzhai dialect so well." ”

Lao Wu said: "You better calm down, maybe you will make a mistake." ”

The white dog said: "What's wrong, I accompanied her to the photo studio to take this photo." ”

In an instant, I understood what was going on! I jumped out of bed, ignored the pain all over my body, pounced on it, and bit one of the white dog's hands fiercely. I didn't feel the struggle of the white dog, I only felt that the fifth child was desperately trying to pull me away. I didn't let go, trying to bite off the flesh of the white dog. I almost did it, and when I felt a smell of blood in my teeth, my father came running and forcibly dragged me away. Then my mother came and hugged me tightly. My mother thought I was very sick, and she couldn't help crying and saying that when my sister earned enough money, she could find a doctor to diagnose and cure this strange disease for me. As the mother spoke, her eyes were still looking at the white dog with pity. I have blood dripping from my heart, and I can't say that I just need my father to drive out the white dog and the fifth child.

When my mother and I were the only ones in the room, I looked at my sister's photo account and cried. My mother thought that I missed my sister, so she told me not to worry, and the white dogs and they would go back to the city early tomorrow morning, and ask them to bring a letter to my sister and ask for leave to come back. I put my hands over my mother's mouth to prevent her from talking.

So I cried all night, and at dawn my father came in and said to me with some joy that the white dog had promised to take me into the city today to find the best hospital and the best doctor in the city, and to cure the disease, and all expenses would be paid for by his company. When I heard this, I screamed that I would rather die than go to the city for treatment. He also told his parents to go and get his sister back immediately, and stop staying in the city.

The sky was getting brighter and brighter, and I could see the snow outside from the window. My father couldn't persuade me, so he forcibly dragged me into the black Cadillac. I couldn't resist him, so I cut two deep grooves with my feet in the snow. I repeatedly said that this Cadillac was a black coffin with a dead man, and everyone who sat in it had to die.

Fourth Father Qin came over from the snow at this time, he pushed my father away and pulled me far away to ask what was going on. I told him about my sister. He didn't say a word for a long time, until his father wanted to come and urge me again, and he told me that the disease could not be cured, but not with their money. I watched Fourth Father Qin return to his hut that was about to be crushed by the snow, and after a while, he walked over with a paper bag in his hand.

Qin Si's father put the paper bag into his father's hand, and he said: "This is 10,000 yuan, I don't need it, I was going to give it to Wen Lan when she came back, but now I give it all to Dashu, and then study hard after curing the disease, and be our own educated youth." ”

My father had never seen so much money, and he held the paper bag in his hand and didn't know what to say. The mother said incoherently: "Mr. Bai has already agreed, we can't spend other people's money indiscriminately." ”

Qin Si's father said: "I have worked hard to get this money, and I use it to buy medicine to cure diseases and get quick results!" ”

Qin Si's father asked his parents not to be humble, and quickly discuss who would accompany me into the city to see a doctor, my parents wanted to go, and everyone said that they could go together, and by the way, they could have a fun in the city, it was rare to have such an opportunity, and at the same time they could also see their sister. I don't agree with them going, if they see a flaw in their sister, it will kill their mother. I said that since it was Qin Si's father who spent the money, let Qin Si's father accompany me, Qin Si's father went to the city to hold an activist meeting in the past, and he didn't know anything about the situation in the city compared to his parents. I whispered to Fourth Father Qin that he was asked to go to facilitate the return of his sister.

As soon as Qin's fourth father agreed, his parents would not fight. They quickly helped me pack my luggage, I didn't want to take the white dog and their car, and asked Qin Si's father to take me to the town to take a bus. Fourth Father Qin glared at me and said, "Just take their car, they can sit on us, why can't we!" ”

On the other side, my parents were still saying a lot of thanks to the absent-minded white dog, and I wanted to go over and tear him away, but Qin Si's father held my hand tightly with a pair of old hands and didn't let go.

Qin Si's father touched my head and said, "Remember Mao's words, if you want to struggle, there will be sacrifices, and dead people often happen." ”

The heavens and the earth became silent for a moment, except for the rustle of snowflakes. Suddenly, the foreign woman's singing voice sounded again, and Yukino suddenly became solemn. The others didn't move, only the white dog and the few knowledgeable youths who knew about it, holding their heads with both hands and desperately lowering to the ground.

As soon as you enter the temple door, the bell chime and the city fish will ring together, the cigarette smoke is everywhere, two rows of monks and nuns are separated, and the Buddhist scriptures are recited hummingly, solemn and sacred. Koyanagi, Aihong, Seagull and Mattei, all of them looked like they couldn't help themselves, and they suddenly crawled onto the futon.

- "Twilight Lessons"

The title of the novel is very interesting, borrowing Buddhist terms,

It means that in the evening, the monks chant and praise the rituals.

However, in the author's eyes, recitation is more than just an act,

It's a symbol,

It symbolizes the pure land of tranquility under the tide of socio-economic development.

The story is set in the early nineties of the last century,

The whole country has set off a vigorous tide of reform,

Reform of state-owned enterprises into economic entities,

People are figuring out how to make money.

Reform and reform have eliminated ills and a quiet life.

There are many family contradictions, the units have their own thoughts, and social chaos is common.

The atmosphere of the anxious and restless times can be seen.

In the novel, the head of the Finance Bureau, Liu Unit, came to Lingshan Temple,

It symbolizes the encounter between worldly desires and Buddhist spirituality.

The trivialities of worldly life, the desires of men and women who eat and drink,

It is in stark contrast to the pure dust represented by Master Xianguang.

He is like a ray of light,

reflects the absurd and meaningless nature of this worldly life,

It reflects the spiritual world of people's confusion, emptiness, and nothingness.

Zhao is the same