Bai Jingxuan once had a dream.

When she was still ignorant and her family was still happy, she dreamed of becoming a music artist.

Although her childhood memories are a little blurry, Bai Jingxuan can vaguely remember that her young self once owned a music box. It seemed to be a music box given to her by her parents, and whenever she was in pain, the soothing and light music of the music box would liberate her from the pain.

Although she can only recall staccato melodies nowadays, it does not prevent her from having a good impression of music.

It was only later that her parents were killed due to the attack of the cruel beast, and Bai Jingxuan was sent to a welfare home. The music box in my memory was also lost in the accident, and it never appeared in Bai Jingxuan's life again.

The orphanage wasn't that bad, but it wasn't able to help her find what she had lost. Even if a nurse gave her another one according to her description, it was a different thing after all, and it no longer had the effect of soothing the pain. Her dream has become a dusty memory.

Perhaps, not just dreams. From a point in time that Bai Jingxuan didn't even notice herself, she lost her "desire".

The feeling of joy and anger has lost its coordinates, and the concept of good and evil cannot find a scale. I don't know why I'm happy, I don't know why I'm sad, I can only observe words and looks, and follow the emotions expressed by others.

She is very well-behaved because there is nothing to resist; She was quiet as there was no personal need. Like a doll with no self-conscious mind, it looks like it mimics the human body, but inside it is nothing.

There was once a child of the same age who used words like "empty shell" to describe her. However, even if she was called so, Bai Jingxuan was still unaware of it.

Why are you an "empty shell"? She didn't understand.

But she really didn't know what she wanted, a blank piece of desire, a blank piece of emotion. There is not even anything that can rivet her in a direction to find her own existence.

She was like a ship lost in the depths of the sea, and there was no difference in either direction. It's just that the boat she pilots is called "Self", and the surrounding ocean is called "Life".

Do you want money? Or do you want fame and fortune? Do you want to become a doctor? Or do you want to become a teacher?

She is constantly asking questions, observing the dreams of others. Then take these dreams and put them on yourself. Just like a customer who is constantly trying clothes in a clothing store, he doesn't know what he wants, so he has the momentum of wearing all the clothes in the store with the intention of finding the one that suits him.

The confusion lasted until months ago, until the moment Moco appeared in front of her after the orphanage was attacked.

Will "Magical Girl" be the direction she wants to find, and will it be the dress she wants? Become a magical girl, can you find the emotions you have forgotten, the desires you have lost?

Bai Jingxuan didn't know the answer.

But whenever she recalls the scene when she was saved by Sakura, she still feels longing and throbbing in her heart, and she feels happy and grateful. The feelings at that time seem so vivid now, so that she has found a feeling of "alive" for a long time.

- "So, I told myself that I wanted to be a magical girl like Sakura-sen. ”

Walking slowly on the streets of Lixing District, Bai Jingxuan said softly: "At least I have been moved and grateful for such an act, and that kind of emotion is not false." ”

“…… I see. ”

Tian Sheng walked side by side beside her, and listened to Bai Jingxuan's story with a somewhat solemn expression: "Although I still can't recall the details, but at that time, when you were in the welfare home, you became a magical girl because of this, right?" ”

"Hmm." Bai Jingxuan nodded.

The time was morning, and the location was near the "Lakeside Spring" community in Lixing District. Three weeks after the Full Moon Festival, the Bureau of Aliens approved a request from Team 3 to search the residential area, allowing them to travel to "Lakeside Spring" to search for traces of Ember Dawn.

On the way to Lakeside Spring, the third team bumped into Bai Jingxuan, who was patrolling here, and then, there was a small tail behind their team.

As the captain, Li Yingwei repeatedly tried to persuade him, but with little success. The rest of the team didn't know how to persuade a magical girl, so this troublesome task ended up falling on Tian Sheng.

This is bitter Tian Sheng.

Because he didn't know how to communicate with Bai Jingxuan.

Although he used to be a nurse in a welfare home and knew Bai Jingxuan's child, it was impossible for a male nurse to take care of the girl's life after all, so he was not very familiar with him.

He just likes this child more because Bai Jingxuan is well-behaved and sensible, and he usually chats with him. But considering that a child living in a welfare home probably doesn't want to mention the past, the content of the conversation between the two is also a clear soup and trivial in daily life, and they will not deliberately touch on deeper things.

If Bai Jingxuan hadn't taken the initiative and was willing to tell him his past story, he probably wouldn't have figured out what he should say now.

"However, the senior you are talking about, she has ...... Passed away. ”

He struggled to organize his language to avoid touching on the other party's scars: "Ember Dawn is probably the murderer, that's why you hate them so much and want to capture them, right?" ”

"It's ...... abuse"

Bai Jingxuan spoke seriously, but halfway through the conversation, she probably remembered something, lowered her gaze again, and silently changed her words, "I want to punish them." ”

"You wanted to say that word again, didn't you?"

Tian Sheng scratched his head a little helplessly: "I don't understand, is this also what you said about the 'Sakura senior'?" ”

"No, that's the teacher's way."

Bai Jingxuan raised her hand and clenched her fist: "But the teacher is a teammate of Sakura's seniors, and she also did this for her seniors, I think that's right, that's cool!" ”

"Even if that could be wrong?"

"Surely right?" Bai Jingxuan tilted her head.

“…… That's what she said, Director. ”

Sighing, Tian Sheng took the phone out of the pocket on the other side and put it next to his ear: "You also heard it, these are her reasons, I really can't persuade her." ”

After saying this, he fell silent, listening to the voice on the other side of the phone, nodding his head from time to time.

Then, he handed the mobile phone to Bai Jingxuan, ignored Bai Jingxuan's shocked, aggrieved gaze like a traitor, looked sideways, scratched his cheek and said:

"Xiaoxuan, the director asked you to answer the phone."

Bai Jingxuan, who seemed to be not afraid of heaven and earth before, and spoke at length in her mouth, suddenly took over the mobile phone like a primary school student who had done something wrong.

Then, glancing at Tian Sheng again with a heartbreaking gaze like a traitor, she picked up the phone:

"Hey, Dad...... Uncle. ”

2k, touch day.

Thank you for the social animal uncle who sells pies and the leader of Aitna Yinyue for your reward, thank you for the book friend Yuemeng, the insomniac sweet potato, and the helmsman west of the twilight river for your reward, and thank you for your support.

(End of chapter)