First of all, I would like to express my greatest apologies to the readers who are still waiting for my update, and the greatest degree of thanks, thank you for believing and waiting during this time, really, very much, thank you, and very, very sorry.

The original purpose of this single chapter was to inform that the book would be reinstated, but it had been broken many times before, so I don't expect everyone to believe it from the beginning, and please continue to push me.

It's just that this book has been interrupted for nearly two months now.,And the author hasn't said anything.,It's actually a very inexplicable and even annoying state.,It doesn't seem possible to pretend to be okay and come back and start the update like this.,So I think,It's still necessary for me to send a single chapter to explain what's going on before I start updating.。

The cause of the incident, as I said before, was a spinal problem, because of the back injury, I was restless for nearly a month, I couldn't sit properly at all, and I spent a considerable part of my time in the hospital for physiotherapy, and there was really no way to update it during that time.

Of course, this is only the cause.

After the cause, it was because I hadn't written anything for a month, and I couldn't keep up with my thoughts or state, which caused me to fall into a situation where I didn't know how to continue for a while. In this case, my work unit ushered in a period of rush and overtime, and my poor physical condition led to my performance at work repeatedly made mistakes, and even received criticism from the unit leaders, so my mental state was relatively low, and I felt that the words I wrote became unrecognizable, and I could not return to the creative state and level I wanted.

In fact, to this day, the next 48 chapters alone have been rewritten at least seven or eight times, and although the plot I want to express is written on the outline, my own state of mind cannot be substituted for the world I imagined myself, and I am even beginning to feel strange to my own characters, and I can't think of what they are thinking in my mind, and I can't write interesting expressions in a harmonious and reasonable way.

My personality is actually very flawed, and the way I deal with difficult problems has always been to avoid it, and I will choose to bury my head in the face of difficult things and not look at them.

Therefore, it is true that I am busy with work during this time, but it is also an excuse, in fact, "I chose to be busy at work".

It's so difficult and hard to update, I can't write it, so what should I do? It just so happens that the unit is not very busy and has to work overtime, so let's devote ourselves to overtime.

If it was written at the beginning that I was looking for a spiritual harbor for myself to escape from my busy work, then in the past two months, I have escaped back to work in order to escape my spiritual internal friction.

Speaking of which, some readers may ask: why not say it?

yes, why not say it?

Maybe this is also related to my own creative philosophy, because I want to extract the existence of "author" from creation, I personally don't like to see the author open a single chapter every day, which will make my sense of substitution lower, so I actually hope that readers will not be aware of my personal existence when reading books.

In addition, when the previous update was unstable, I was also said to "don't post chapters if you don't update, no one wants to read the leave note", this point of view made me enter a very neurotic self-pull.

I got into a state of mind where I felt like I didn't want to stand up again until I wrote an update.

Rather than bring a disappointing news with a leave notice, it is better to come out with a big chapter update and announce "I wrote it out".

That's what I thought at the time.

But in fact, I'm so useless that I still can't write it.

The scrapped manuscript was one page after another, so much so that I felt the same taste as the plot I was writing now, and my creative enthusiasm became less and less, and I still couldn't write something good enough.

And I began to feel in my heart: I have been interrupted for so long, and taking a poorly written new chapter may disappoint everyone even more, so I am still holding back, revising, and deleting.

And that's where things get to their worst: everyone is out of place.

Readers are still waiting for me to update with anticipation, the management of the book circle is still sandwiched in the middle, and the editor is still waiting for me to regain my status, and me? I'm still in a strange circle.

During this period, there were actually many readers scolding me in private messages, and I thought the scolding was right, but because I was holding my breath, I didn't see it. So it was another misalignment: I missed even the private message of encouragement.

It was a terrible handling.

To be honest, even if I announced the resumption of the update today, I still don't feel like I've recovered my state, but the repeated procrastination will only make the reader feel more uncertain, and I have to stand up and come back here with a manuscript that I am not satisfied with, and continue to walk.

This notice is an apology and promise to readers, and it is also an ultimatum for me to myself, I can't continue to stay in the cycle of internal friction, no matter what the state, I have to send out the update.

Speaking of which,The cause of this single chapter is actually a character line in a new anime that season.,That line may be just a trivial statement in the animation.,But I was hit a lot at that moment.。

"Why don't you always say something important?"

yes, why can't important words be said?

Perhaps this is a kind of distrust and alienation, because they are afraid to say it and not get the response they want, so they dare not say it.

Because I am afraid that the truth will be despised or questioned, I only use jokes or silence to embellish and cover up.

Whenever the person who writes the text is full of enthusiasm, he or she should share his fantasy world with the people who believe in the story.

I have not yet become such a person, and my limited level and undulating mentality make the fantasy world in my heart often close the door to me, and I stand outside the closed door, feeling uneasy and helpless about the loss of light.

But in any case, that original intention will not change.

I have to tell people who have read this story that the world behind the door is beautiful.

Maybe I should say something important, from the bottom of my heart. No matter how ridiculous or immature this reason is, I should not hide it, as it will only cause more suspicion and resentment.

So, I apologize and resolve with this single chapter, and today's update should be sent out in the evening after I get home from work and make some final adjustments to the old draft.

Please wait a moment for us to resume our journey at a later date.

(End of chapter)