Dear Nianjun,

Long time no see!

Let's call you Nianjun, after all, I love you year after year.

I've liked a lot of people, but only one person. When other people's first love, they are missed as a beautiful time of youth. However, for a few months later, my twenty-three-year-old, I want to be fine... The boy I once loved, from beginning to end, will miss him with infinite enthusiasm. I also miss all the loneliness and sadness in the ten years when I loved him.

The year we are eighteen years old is a crucial year for you. One is the eighteen-year-old coming-of-age ceremony, and the other is about to face the important college entrance examination. You tell me that your volunteer newspaper can be found everywhere. I joked that when your admission letter came down, you should tell me that I would definitely not be in the same city as you in the school you are in. You laugh, but you don't know, I'm serious. Say goodbye to you seriously, and never see you again in this life.

You have no intention of penetrating the wind, but you are lonely and leading the torrent.

I am a ferryman with a low eyebrow, and only the proverb favors Nong.

You were a spring breeze that inadvertently broke into my life, but it caused a torrent of love in my heart.

The so-called extraneous branches in the stable years are talking about an unexpected heartbeat.

It's my wishful thinking that I've liked you for many years, but I'm so glad I met you. You made me study hard and kept me going. Your self-motivation always pushes me subtly.

Today I saw a sentence that I liked very much:

"What is loneliness?"

"Breeze, sunshine, no smile."

"Can be specific"

"Left hug, right hug, no lust."

"Can you be more specific?"

"Not you."

No one will believe that when I was very young, I wanted to catch your eye. I like it in the bottom of my heart, and I don't know anyone but myself.

When we were elementary school students, we became classmates. While other kids are showing off their stacked paper boats, I don't. You folded and dismantled and taught me seven times, but I still haven't learned. It's not that I'm stupid and can't learn. But... I want to stay with you a little longer... Shame on your face, pretending to be stupid and stupid.

My family praised me for my ingenuity and ability to learn everything. But when it comes to you, I'm an idiot. How can a little girl be dumber than a boy in stacking paper flowers? It's not all children's little ninety-nine, but I didn't know what liking was at that time.

While everyone else sees themselves as the heroine in life, I live as a heroine. It's not the kind of ruthless female partner, but the kind of... The most inconspicuous female supporting actress.

After six years of elementary school life, it is time for junior high school education. I really didn't expect to continue to be a classmate with you, and I have been a classmate for three years so peacefully.

I remember the day I first wrote a love letter to you, and you didn't happen to be at school. Usually I'm the last to enter the class, and you are the first to enter the class. I remember using just a very ordinary piece of paper and writing a lot of repetitive words. It was the first time I came to school early in the afternoon and discussed with a friend to write a love letter to you. I blushed, endured the nervousness in my heart, and wrote a very childish love letter. It's as if I've been infused with the power of courage, so cowardly, I've put love letters in your drawer. Then I began to wait for twenty minutes, and then I secretly took it back because of my cowardice before class.

And that day, you didn't come to school. You will never know what kind of mood I wrote the first love letter in my life, and how sadly I died. I don't know if it's a blessing or a misfortune, I'm glad you didn't come that day, I'm sorry you didn't come that day.

Maybe I was glad I was at the time. Because now I am full of pity. I always think that if I had been a little more extroverted when I was a kid, I would have had a chance with you. But I also thought that if I hadn't known you, I would have been happy all those years.

Don't be afraid to hide what you like. Don't hide for fear of ridicule when others find out.

When I was a child, I knew that liking someone would make them laugh. So, in the face of the non-existent ridicule, I made an ostrich through and through, and I did it for four years.

Nianjun, you are a very good boy in my understanding. Good learner, cheerful, self-motivated, can play basketball, can write essays, can host shows, and can run.

When you were in elementary school, you were also known as the "Scud" of the school. Run fast, you are in the sports meeting every year.

I don't know what you're like now, but from our chat, you can still tell that you're still such a self-motivated person, at least you're persistent in pursuing your dreams.

Sometimes you feel like you are a special being in your life.

Fate, no one can understand, for example, our birthdays are the wrong day, such as your surname, my surname, for example, you also liked me.

Nianjun, you won't know that on the day I graduated from junior high school, I actually wanted to confess to you. I watched you ride your friend's bike, fall, and hold on to the bike and your face turned red. You are such a bubbly teenager who can't ride a bike, I laughed.

But I flinched again ... Because I thought that the future would be long, but I made a wrong assessment.

One city, two places, one parting turned out to be three years. This moment is really over, these three 365 days, three springs, summers, autumns and winters have completely ended our last possibility. I will be the most inconspicuous of your many memories.

I'm thinking about you, do you feel it?

Nianjun, you always give me hope and disappoint me. I even sensed that you liked me, and then suddenly told me that you hated me, so much that you didn't want to hear me.

But I like a person, and the person I like, please forgive their enthusiasm.

I just want to give you all my enthusiasm, and I should thank you for accepting it or not. Who will love you unconditionally except your parents?

There are some things that you can't help but think about, like my relationship with you. For example, you don't remember that our birthdays are the wrong day, for example, you can't remember the liberal arts I chose, you can't remember what I said, and you can't remember what you promised me.

Like disappointment and grievance, there is no need to explain such things.

And I won't confess again, love is so embarrassing, and you know this hidden poem is so boring.

All these years, my confession to you. It's almost exhausting the dignity of a girl, and now I know. It is also not necessary to give too much to like someone. Nianjun, thank you for your encouragement, I will work hard. Maybe in the future, we will meet again, I hope that I will be that day, and your eyes will light up when you see it.

You are my first love, but it is the salvation of time to end this unrequited love. When I boldly confessed to you, I never wanted to be with you, but I just wanted to hear you say, "Well, thank you, I see." ”

If time is medicine, then life is a game city. Time boils me up little by little, and the things in life, except for the night will be emotional. I've never thought of you.

Before, I would still dream about you. Right now... You're nothing in my life. I am very happy, I like your years, I taste the joys and sorrows of the world, and my love is very colorful. The people I like work so hard and are pleasing to the eye.

Like I love you, I put it in my heart overnight and never mention it.

Like I love you, I only give for you wholeheartedly and don't feel pity.

Like I love you, the great deceased cherishes you in a ten-thousandth of a million.

One day it will be far away, and when we return to dust, I will still love you.

In the future, one day you will be defeated by my time and new love, and turn into dust or dewdrops.

Either blown away by the wind or dried by the air. A hundred times smaller than I am at the moment.

There will come a time when I can't even remember your flamboyant face.

2010.2.15

Chinese New Year's Eve