No artist can be satisfied with simply creating art. His desire for his art to be recognized by the world is insurmountable.

- Agatha. Christie

I put this sentence on the front page of the magazine. The picture is my work, the ballet.

Seriously, everyone wants their work to be recognized and praised by others. Even if it's sarcastic, it's comforting. This proves that someone has seen your work, and this is fate.

From the beginning, a job was about making money, and I designed it to make money, and I was excited to get attention and praise from others.

When I was learning to draw, I knew very well how ordinary my drawings were. Even if there is talent. But talent is nothing compared to other people's efforts.

Because you are talented, you often feel that you are good now, and you don't feel like being prepared for danger in times of peace.

The design of the dance costume and the design of the whole group were handed over together. They looked at me with a smug expression: "I'm a wedding dress designer, but I paint a ballet." I heard this kind of thing many times in the company bathroom when it was finalized.

I'm not disappointed, it's sad to be denied by others. But the scope of a topic is so wide that there is no way to start. Either you draw a Western-style wedding dress or you draw a Chinese-style wedding dress, and it is always a design that does not match the theme name.

I had already made a plan when I submitted the drawings for review, but I had to start anew. But if he says I'm finding fault, I'll refute it.

For example, the retort is this: "You say I find fault? I'll give you a big theme, and you're going to try it? Isn't it a backache when you stand and talk? ”

If I don't deserve to be a designer, then I'll say, "Oh! If you don't know how to draw a design that matches the theme, you just say that I don't deserve to be a designer? If you give a college entrance examination question to a primary school student, do you have to let a group of parents praise you for being smart and say that the child is stupid? ”

However... When I was called to the office, I...

"Come in!"

"All... Total..."

There was my blueprint sitting in front of his desk, and I swallowed nervously, not daring to take a breath.

"You drew it?"

"Hmm...", the voice is as low as a mosquito.

"Do you know what the theme is for your group?"

"I know..."

"Why do you draw ballet costumes?"

"I... It's because I saw a swan at the zoo and thought it was elegant. There is a kind of sunshine and elegance that we have to remember to bring with us no matter what the weather. No matter what happens, you must remember to fill your heart with fairy tales. It's similar, the spirit that is born towards the sun. ”

"Hmph, you've got a lot of ideas. Take back all the designs from your group. He poked the design that was set aside with the tip of his pen, took it all with his right hand, and threw it on the corner of the table.

I scratched my head and stepped forward to get it. And cautiously tried to lower his eyelids and touch my drawings.

When I looked at the computer, I saw me all of a sudden. Pull it out of the pen holder, the carbon pen you just used. Snapping on the back of my hand, I held the drawings and didn't even dare to lift my head.

"What? Jiang Jingmu? ”

"Nothing... I... I take my drawings. ”

"Did I let you take it?" Sitting in the office chair, the whole body was upright, and his eyes were sharp, staring straight at me.

“……”

"Take all the other designs of your group back and redraw them! Your blueprints were passed at the meeting and left. No. 26 produces finished products, not takeaways, only magazine covers. I said that you are a team leader, why are the employees you lead so rigid? I'm not saying it's bad to follow the rules, but we do design, we want to be creative! Do you understand creativity? Don't have an idea? Yes? Then the wedding dress designer can only design the wedding dress? Go, go, go, get out, your group will have to be cleaned up by me sooner or later, get out! ”

The whole face of the whole person was not good-looking, and he impatiently pushed me out. I was stunned by all this suddenness. I don't know if this is a blessing in disguise, so I trotted to the lounge to send a message to Mr. Yuan, but there was no reply.

"Probably busy."

After drinking the last sip of coffee, it's time to go to the department to face the cunning members.

didn't care about the person in front of him, and crashed straight into Dai Linchuan. He hooked his hand to look at the drawings in my hand, and clicked a few times.

"Didn't you put it? Haven't even been? ”

"Hmm..."

"All denied?"

"There's one more."

"I'll go, O survivor, tell me who it is, so lucky. Is it Sister Xin or Xiaozhou? ”

He flipped through the drawings again, trying to get some news out of them.

"Don't look for it, it's me..."

"Huh? Ballet costumes? ”

"Hmm."

"Then why do you have such an expression?"

"What do you say?" I raised my chin and showed him the people in the department, my group.

After Dai Linchuan looked at it, he laughed awkwardly. Patted me on the shoulder: "You... Come on. There are a lot of big brothers in your group. ”

What kind of big brother, I don't want to pay attention to him at all, it's all uncle, okay?

When they entered the department, they still had a few people eating melon seeds and chasing dramas. I clapped my hands and shouted at them to pay attention.

Sister Xin was the first to ask, "How is it?" Ginger group? Is it over? ”

"Hit them all back, redraw them!"

"What? Hit them all back? Haven't there been any of them? ”

"Yes, me!"

I don't know since when, when facing some people in the group who don't work hard and complain all the time. My courage and self-confidence come out easily.

is no longer the person who just became the team leader at the beginning, but was bullied by the old team members.

I will not be weak in the face of these people.

"Why? Your blueprint is a ballerina, is it wrong? ”

"Mistaken? What's wrong? Shan Xiaoyuan, have you taken a good look at your design drawings? Let's not talk about the theme this time, according to the usual wedding dress design, don't you have creativity? Running out of novelties? This style has been outdated for many years, and you fool yourself with these few similar designs, who do you think you can fool? ”

I was angry that I threw a dozen blueprints in front of their desks.

But not because of the arrogance and pride that I deliberately showed because of a blessing in disguise. It's just that because we can't bear it, we have always been a group, and the tacit understanding is not enough. But there are always some people who scatter in the group and destroy the team's sense of honor.

"Do you know what the ACFTU said about me? What do you say about our group? Every time! Every time you do the wrong thing, get the wrong list, get the wrong dress, get the wrong time, delay the launch! All! Of all the wrong things, which time was not solved by me, the team leader? Do you owe anything to me? ”

There are some things I thought I could not say, and every time I was scolded by the leader. When I came back, no matter how sad I was, I didn't tell them. I didn't tell them what the leaders scolded us.

"Li Xinqi, Shan Xiaoyuan, Zhao Xiaozhou. Is it interesting for you guys to fool around here every day? You made a mistake, I went to wipe your ass, did you say thank you to me? Do you have a sense of collective pride? What are you doing when I'm being scolded and ridiculed by other departments? You add oil and vinegar to the bathroom! And... Aren't you ashamed that other departments laugh at their team leaders together? ”

Li Fangyu came over from the other side and pulled me: "Jiang Group, don't be angry. We will work overtime tonight to draw out the new design drawings and teach them to the ACFTU early tomorrow morning. ”

"Yes, the ginger group is angry. Originally, a few of them are that kind of people, so there is no need to say more, let's not be like them. ”

"Let me tell you three, you are higher than me in terms of seniority. I joined the company earlier than me, but haven't you ever thought about why you are still in this position and still getting a dead salary? ”

"Re-drawing, I don't care if you work overtime or if your painting collapses. Tomorrow before ten o'clock, I want to see your different blueprints, not yet, tomorrow... Just wait for the dismissal of you. ”

When the door was slammed and he went out, people from other departments were secretly watching outside. At that moment, I didn't know whether to laugh or ridicule, I envied the tacit understanding of other departments, their collective sense of honor, and the show they performed together at the annual meeting.

Compared to our group, those team leaders are really happy.

Probably, it's not that they're wrong. I'm also at fault, I'm not good enough to be their team leader.