I really like the feeling of the night breeze blowing against the window when I take the bus home in the summer, and I feel that the warmth of the whole city has been collected by me.

Mr. Yuan made a lot of rabbit cookies at home, which were very cute. I packed two copies for Qu Zhi'an, and I made a special trip to bring them to her.

There were a lot of dolls and dolls at the head of her bed, and I didn't react to the girl's heart for a while.

"Why are there so many dolls?"

"Xi Nanqing bought it, he said that I wouldn't be so lonely this way."

Qu Zhi'an went to the kitchen to get plates and fill cookies. I saw a panda doll with a pink cloth sewn on its back, and I took it and looked at it, and it said this:

- I want to be the bear at your bedside and defeat the dragon of your dreams for you.

"Wow! Qu Zhi'an! ”

"What? What for? What's wrong? She poured cookies in the kitchen, startled, and hurried over.

"What's wrong?"

"You can't write that, right? If it's so sweet, how can you copy it? "I held up the panda doll and turned over its back to show Qu Zhi'an.

However, Qu Zhi'an was surprised, looking like I didn't know what it was.

"I don't know?"

"You didn't write it?"

"No, it's not." She stepped forward and took the panda doll I had handed her.

"This is Xi Nanqing's words, it's too embarrassing, how can you write such words?" The first time I saw her blush.

But I think this man is really good, very gentle and considerate, and he still retains your girlish heart everywhere.

"Xiaoqu, I think this man is really good."

"Yes..."Qu Zhi'an's hand kept rubbing these words, but his thoughts seemed to drift somewhere else.

"What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, I just remembered Chen Donghua." The bitter smile on the corner of her mouth was hidden as a relief when she raised her head.

I don't know what moment gave me the impulse: "Let's sing, shall we?" Buying some wine? ”

made a decision immediately, Qu Zhi'an changed his skirt, straightened his hair, and took a taxi with me to sing.

The two of us rarely go singing with guys, or with our boyfriends. More often than not, we prefer to sing loudly and dance and drink together in a box with just the two of us.

The song Qu Zhi'an chose at the beginning turned out to be Liu Ruoying's "Later", that sentence:

- How do you remember me?

With a smile or a lot of silence,

Is there anyone over the years who can keep you from being lonely.

It's really sad to listen to, what we are most afraid of is that at a certain age, we understand a certain song. At that time, things often backfired, and people went to tea and cool.

"Drinking?"

"Don't drink it." I shook my head, one bottle was enough. When he turned to look at her, Qu Zhi'an had already finished drinking two bottles.

"Then I drank... Order a song, the one I haven't heard in a long time. ”

"I haven't heard of it, huh? What kind of song is this, you sing it yourself. ”

"No, you sing with me! You've heard it, I've ordered it before. ”

The screen in the box, the music video shown on the screen, and I remembered it as soon as the animated character appeared, and this song was a kind of pop rap song from four years ago. Rap and hilarious songs are not my favorite tunes, but she is the most memorable.

"It's not been a long time, has it? This was ordered a few years ago when we were singing, right? You were still with Chen Donghua at that time. ”

"yes—that's why I said I hadn't heard it in a long time!"

Qu Zhi'an, do you know, I saw the bright tears in the corners of your eyes.

Do you know, no matter how dark the box is. How the colorful lights are transformed, I can clearly see the appearance of missing that person on your face.

sang the drama "I May Not Love You" that I still like, and the song "I Won't Like You" sung by Li Daren. Qu Zhi'an shouted into the microphone, a burst of harshness.

"You're crazy, aren't you, it's harsh, okay?"

"Hee-hee, forgive."

I really wanted to talk to her about something, but I found that it was just that little bit of a thing, and whoever understood the truth just didn't want to do it. Therefore, it is better to let the wound heal slowly on its own.

Some people's badness is just the result of some of their own experiences.

There are many things that happened to Qu Zhi'an, which I have never experienced. I don't have her persistence to love someone, I don't have her coquettish words from time to time, and I don't have the pressure and helplessness of her work.

To her, I am a family member and a confidant.

But some of the scars, though they have been experienced together. But it's not everyone's only thing, these things, outsiders put them down, and chess players are still heartbroken because of loss...

"I think Xi Nanqing is really good, he works very decently, and he is very responsible for people and things. The main thing is that he is very attentive to you, and I see that he is very attentive. ”

I sat next to her and toasted her. By the end of a few songs, she herself had already drunk four beers.

"It's good, but Chen Donghua is also quite unforgettable. You said that Xi Nanqing has changed me a lot, but sometimes I feel that I used to be quite happy. It's nothing, it's just that if you have to say that you lose or gain, you can't say clearly. "She drank a lot of alcohol and wasn't drunk.

"Chen Donghua, it's very good."

I nodded, I had said before that he was very similar to Mr. Yuan, and he smiled gently and sunnyly. A man's gentleness and elegance are all used on Qu Zhi'an, but it's a pity... Creation makes people.

"It's so strange, it's so strange, I can always think of Chen Donghua recently. I used to walk with him, but when I went again, I couldn't help but feel sad. Have you ever had one? ”

Qu Zhi'an clinked glasses with me with a wine bottle and poured himself a big sip of beer.

"I haven't been in that much love..."

"Oh, too. You don't understand. ”

"You don't understand, okay, although I haven't been in love that much, but just looking at other people's love lives, I can understand a lot of truths." I retorted to her, saying I didn't understand.

"I mean, you don't know what it's like to love someone when you're young."

"What do you mean?"

"You love him, you love him to the bone - he is your faith, your attachment to a goal of your dreams, your love of life. When he smiles, he warms the winter you are in and brings you to spring. His voice, a few words, you can hear him speak so gently. ”

Unfortunately, I really never understood that. I've never loved someone so much to the core, and I've always felt like I'm a person who isn't suitable for a relationship.

All I know is that I just want to sit on the sidelines until the emotion is extinguished.

Sometimes I think that if I hadn't met Mr. Yuan, I probably had a boyfriend in Qu Zhi'an, and I was still single. Qu Zhi'an is married, and I am still single. Qu Zhian may have children in the future, and I am still single.

It seems that I have never lacked that kind of emotional and spiritual companionship. I think I can take good care of myself when I'm alone. It's just that it's too lonely, but the comfort of a person's life is the most important thing, and he never likes to waste time on unimportant things.

"Qu Zhi'an, you said that if you think about Chen Donghua next time. How about a different way to distract yourself? Let's go to the amusement park next time, shall we? ”

"Pull it down, I'd rather drink."

After singing for less than three hours, Xi Nanqing turned on the phone and started asking. I thought I was leaving, so I took my bag and was about to stand up, but she pulled me: "Why are you going?" ”

"Aren't you leaving?"

"What's the matter, he'll pick me up in a moment. I will continue to sing while I am seated. ”

Sitting in Xi Nanqing's car, I was in the back, and Qu Zhian was in the passenger seat. He took a pillow to protect his neck from behind and brought it to Qu Zhi'an. I didn't dare to whisper to me until she was sleeping peacefully in her seat:

"Zhian... Did she think of Mr. Chen? ”

"Do you know Chen Donghua?" I was surprised that we had never mentioned this person in front of Xi Nanqing.

"I saw it on her Weibo, oh, I accidentally flipped through it, quite a lot of photos with Mr. Chen."

"You don't have to worry too much about Chen Donghua... Because of him, he has died. ”

"I know, I'm just feeling unfair to myself. I was separated from that person by the constant thoughts. What I'm most afraid of is that I'm not good enough for her to forget that person. "Stop at a red light, he looks at me in the rearview mirror, and I smile back at him.

"You're already good, really. You are better than Chen Donghua, you and Qu Zhi'an met at a suitable point, and the timing was better than Chen Donghua's appearance. ”