I guessed wrong, the two of them didn't say a word about us at the dinner table. The atmosphere is also quite harmonious, that is, Lao Jiang puts a face on me from time to time.

Eating rice, I saw that Lao Jiang was talking to Mr. Yuan so happily. I'm too embarrassed to say anything more, otherwise Lao Jiang will really settle accounts for me.

"Yuan Shubai, is your company going to launch online products recently? I want to get my wedding dress up as well. ”

Mr. Yuan just nodded, ready to answer me. Old Jiang interrupted me: "Jiang Jingmu, eat well, don't talk about work!" ”

He glared at me again...

"Okay, I got it."

"Xiao Yuan, are you about to take a vacation?" Mom asked Yuan Shubai.

"Well, after the project in the first half of the year is done in the next few days, you can rest."

"It's hard, isn't it?"

"Fortunately, young people can endure hardship." He knows how to talk to his mother.

I wanted to go back after dinner, but my mother insisted on staying with us for one night. Lao Jiang's expression was still not good-looking, but seeing that Mr. Yuan agreed, I didn't say anything.

When I returned to my room after taking a shower, Mr. Yuan sat at my desk, flipping through photos of my childhood.

"You looked better when you were a kid than you are now."

"I'm looking good now, too." I retorted to him.

"Last time I sat in this position, looking at the things you drawn, looking at the pictures you took when you were a child."

He was talking about the last time he took me to get the certificate in the middle of the night, and I refused it fiercely. I didn't know how to face me, so I ran to my parents' house.

Mr. Yuan stood up, closed the photo album with his hand, and sat on the edge of the bed: "The last time I stayed with you, I had a very wonderful feeling in my heart. There's really a kind of living in an environment you're familiar with, and where you've been, I've been there. What you've used, I've used. Anyway, it's an amazing feeling. ”

"Isn't it all the same at home?"

"No, why don't you stay with my parents tomorrow for a few days? You don't seem to have stayed in my previous room very often. ”

"Okay, I haven't thanked her for the necklace I gave me last time."

"Jiang Jingmu, call Mom!" His fingers flexed up and flicked at the door of my smooth head.

"Yuan Shubai, you are miserable! See I won't take you. ”

I threw the towel to the ground, and I hooked my legs around his waist. Pressed him under him, smiling sheepishly.

Compared to me, Mr. Yuan only smiled shallowly. Hands on my waist and staring intently at my face.

"Look at what."

"I was thinking, this is probably what it feels like to get closer to you."

"What do you mean?"

"It's just a great sense of accomplishment."

Later, I learned what he meant, coming to the city where you lived, walking the roads you walked, eating what you liked, and having a feeling of getting closer to you.

Later, I called my mother and asked why she didn't ask us at the dinner table that day when we were going to get married.

My mother said that Mr. Yuan said in advance on the way not to ask this question. It's better not to mention it at all, because I'm afraid I'll get bored if I hear too much.

He thinks it's good now, if you don't get married, you won't get married. Anyway, he has a heart and is willing to love me like this.

"I only hope that my daughter will not fail a man who loves you very much and deserves your love." Mom said.

Because I am not good at expressing myself, but in fact, my indifference hides half shyness and half inferiority.

When I was in school, I loved to keep a diary. When I wasn't in love, I also secretly fantasized about what it was like to be in love.

When I saw a good article, I thought about saving this chapter.

I remember that at that time, there was a diary for my future boyfriend.

I like to study quietly in the library, and when I go back, I pass by the café in front of the school. There are very sweet egg tarts in that store, and I usually buy two egg tarts and a cup of milk tea. But after I have you, I'll bring an extra one.

I like to watch movies, and I often go to watch a movie with good reviews by myself. I don't care, it's a person. Because I am fully capable of living happily alone, which is a manifestation of enjoying life.

But with you, I might buy one more ticket. Take you with me to see that movie I'm looking forward to.

I have been to the beach many times, I have seen many shells, the sky and the blue waters.

But with you, I don't mind going again. Because when you're with you, it feels different.

I have written a lot about my life after having a boyfriend, and I have also written a lot of diaries about what I hope my future boyfriend will look like.

I like the boys' clean clothes, which are refreshing and sunny.

He smiled sweetly and had big eyes.

Be polite, filial and self-motivated.

Keep clean short nails and moderately long hair.

Clean white sneakers, sweat-free shirts.

The day I met Mr. Yuan was by the sea, and it just so happened that he met a lot of rules. And over the years, he has also grown from a big boy to a real man.

We're all growing up little by little, things that we've fantasized about in our diaries. Because of him, I gradually forgot how I would be nice to him if I had a boyfriend. How to love him, how to respect each other equally.

I asked Mr. Yuan, "How much time are you unhappy with me?" ”

He said: "Many, many times I was happy, so the unhappiness was ignored, and I don't remember it." ”

Unhappiness is weakened by many, many happy things.

There is a saying that says:

"--I like people who have as many faults as the stars in the sky."

"- What about the merits?"

"—as little as the sun in the sky."

"--Then why do you continue to like her?"

For as soon as the sun comes out, the stars are gone.

――――――

How many people have spoken their hearts under the guise of lyrics.

When was the last time you listened to piano music and wrote a song in the wee hours of the night? I don't quite remember, but what I wrote was a little cold and looked at myself.

Mr. Yuan slept soundly, and his breathing was even. One rolled over and put his left arm around my waist. I was startled, holding the pen and not daring to move for fear of waking him up. In the past few days, it has been work and family urging, and both of us have been very stiff.

After glancing at the time, I closed the notebook. Lying back cautiously, kissing his eyelashes.

I'm thinking, such a nice man. Why did I refuse again and again. It's supposed to be living together, but it's just a proof, why can't I give it? Is it really because I reject marriage in my heart? Or do I really think marriage is going to change our relationship?

Is our future dialogue really inseparable from firewood, rice, oil and salt, children's schooling, and a little salary?

I remember that one day, I was on vacation. He goes to work in the morning and I tie him. He didn't seem to have slept well, and his eyes and face were a little swollen.

"I dream, I dream of our future."

"What did you dream about?"

"At the age of forty, I have a successful career. I've taken you away from your least favorite life, but you're still so good-looking, but I seem to be old. ”

"What do you mean? Don't think about it, work hard, and be careful when driving. ”

He patted my tie and smiled. I still don't understand what the end of the dream means in the second half of the sentence that I interrupted.

While cleaning, I saw a crumpled mass of printer paper under the table.

Open inside is:

I enjoy and exhaust this life.

When you are unwilling, you can't let go of this way.

No matter how old we are, we are all traumatized by love.

Anyway, I have nothing to lose.

That beer, with ice in it.

You seem to be the brightest indicator at the foot of the mountain,

I can't seem to remember,

I can't remember you saying you wouldn't leave me

I can't remember you saying you will always love me

I remember

I remember when you were there, it was sunny all over the world

After you're gone

It's all rainy in this city.

"Lyrics? I don't think I've heard any songs. "When I went to get my phone to check, I didn't find anything. It took me a moment to have an epiphany, maybe this is the lyrics he wrote.

But... It's so sad.