Chapter 17: Breaking the Ice (2)
"Changning, what's wrong?" Looking at her eyebrows, which sometimes spread and sometimes furrowed, Shi An asked with some concern.
Ever since he learned about what happened on her family's Chinese New Year's Eve, bad premonitions subconsciously came to his heart and piled up in his heart dullly.
That is, after that night...... Found her on the outskirts of town.
On Chinese New Year's Eve, Xie Changning and his parents returned to their hometown. It was supposed to be a family reunion and a happy time for the family, but her parents fought until they finally met each other.
In the end, her father poured gasoline on the house and wanted to die with her mother.
Their quarrels and actions have never avoided her, and Xie Changning has become as commonplace as these things. It's not that she hasn't stopped it, but she's too weak, and that bit of strength seems to hit cotton, and it's soft and useless.
She couldn't stop it, and it didn't do anything, as they used to say, what did it have to do with her.
Yes, what does it have to do with her, she is nothing more than a seed that came to earth at an inopportune time, a false continuation.
She is powerless to change, and can only witness all kinds of violence happen again and again, and finally blame herself for the mistake.
If only she had been braver.
If only she were stronger.
If...... She wasn't born, and that's fine.
So, sad about it?
Xie Changning was confused for a moment, but finally shook his head and said with a smile: "No, it's just a little sad." The rest, presumably, is a condemnation of myself. ”
"What are you condemned for? You didn't do anything wrong, it's because they have a bad relationship, what does it have to do with you. Shi An couldn't understand her thoughts.
Xie Changning's expression was gloomy, and she smiled casually, "It's nothing, it's my problem." ”
Shi An's brows jumped when she heard this, and she really wanted to break her head and see what kind of brain circuits could form such a strange logic.
He took a deep breath and decided to skip the infuriating topic first.
"Let's call my aunt and uncle first and ask for their opinions."
Xie Changning nodded hesitantly, as if since that night, they were a little different from before?
After making the call, Xie Changning held the mobile phone, and his expression looked a little dull.
"What's the matter, won't they agree?" Shi An asked tentatively.
Xie Changning shook his head, naturally incredulous: "No, they agreed, and...... It was very refreshing to say yes and let me have some fun. ”
Her expression was puzzled, as if she had not expected such a reply at all.
Shi An was not surprised.
He reached out and rubbed her head: "This time something so big happened to you, I think, they should have thought a lot."
Seeing Xie Changning's look of shock, Shi An sighed, flicked her head, and scolded: "You, don't be so negative all the time, be happy, since they are all changing, you have to gradually come out of the past."
"I will accompany you, we will go down together, like when we were children, encourage each other, accompany each other...... No one gives up on anyone, okay? ”
Shi An took her hand and put it to her heart, and through a layer of fabric, Xie Changning could still feel the scorching temperature.
The sound of her heartbeat was pounding, as if it was also telling her master's intentions, so firm and scorching, it came into her mind at once, stirring her heart.
But...... Can someone like her, really have a future?
Xie Changning frowned deeply, and his heart was full of contradictions.
The sky is as blue as the sea, and the twilight is vast.
The green grass swayed in the wind, the orange-red sunset approached quietly, shattering the blue sky and white clouds, and the sweet orange and lime blended, tasting the obscure youth.
The grassland was endless, Shi An took Xie Changning's hand and walked quietly in the empty world.
"Changning, do you like it here?"
The breeze blew a faint scent of grass, which also stirred the ripples in Xie Changning's heart.
"I like it." She narrowed her eyes slightly, rarely relaxed.
"If you like it." Shi An laughed, and the starlight in his eyes lit up again.
"It's not just that." Xie Changning looked into his eyes and suddenly spoke.
"Huh? What? Shi An turned his head sideways and looked at her with some puzzlement.
The girl leaned into his ear and whispered, "Because of you, I like it."
Everything in front of him became unreal, and the grass seemed to have turned into fireworks, blooming in Shi Anxin's heart.
"Let's go, let's go over there."
The two of them walked in the vast grassland, their minds flew to the horizon, feeling that the world was unprecedentedly vast, and they became incomparably small, but they really felt the existence of life.
Compared with before, Xie Changning's mood is much calmer.
She closed her eyes and felt the moment of tranquility, the breeze passing through the fingertips of the two of them, carving an indelible trace in her memory.