Day19 – The Foolishness of a Thousand Thoughts
This week, I and the other "returnees" of the Blood Pupil had a small meeting as usual, but this time it broke up unhappily,
For no other reason, and despite countless reflections and discoveries since we regained consciousness, everything we do is no different from what we once did, which is to manage visions, evaluate job titles, climb up to the elite – and usher in another cycle on the foreseeable 45th day. After 10,000 years of habitual life and work, we have finally been met with enough resistance that we have to start thinking about our future—which brings with it the extreme fear of going beyond death.
Maxi was the first to pose the question: "What if this time wasn't special?" We'll be erased from our memories again, and we'll still be locked up here! ”
"What's the point of us studying ministers?! What's the point of what we're doing now? If we get erased again, or do we simply die here?! When Maxi spat out these disturbing words from his trembling mouth, everyone was silent, no one could give an answer, in fact, even with the memories of the past 10,000 years, we were still just a herd of silent lambs, driven by the "hands of the unknown".
"What the hell are we doing?!" Maxi said, his tone even more hysterical: "If it's to generate energy, why keep us locked up here for so long?!" And why are you attacking those crazy ironbox ministers?! Why don't people from outside pay attention here?! Why ......" The more he spoke, the more anxious he became, and the big tears kept flowing from the corners of his eyes, I hurried up to comfort him, but the general comfort and hug could not stop the fear and anxiety that had been like a dam flooding. Despair is gradually spreading in the hearts of each of us, but fortunately not everyone is crushed by this strong emotion at the moment, reason - this is the only weapon we have at the moment.
The event ended with a detailed analysis by Loki and a rousing speech by Marx, but the aftermath also really brought a heavy question to the table – what exactly should we do now, and what do we need to do to make some changes in the hopeless future? There is no point in escaping, there is only one entrance and exit to this huge dungeon, and it is the product of the important singularity technology of World Wings, which is not only extremely strong, can not be destroyed by any fantasy, but also extremely difficult to crack; There is no point in digging through the walls, this is underground, and all the company facilities, no matter what damage they may have, will be in good condition the next day, and we can't dig through the walls and break through the rock formations in one day; There is no signal sent out here, and no information can be received, not to mention that the brain lobe company is the wings of the world, and it is neither realistic nor meaningful to ask for help from the outside world.
It seems that all we can do is continue to work, day in and day out to please the Illusion to extract energy, but we have repeated it hundreds of thousands of times, can we expect it to be different this time?
I don't know, I can't give an answer, but God didn't give us a chance to fall, death doesn't really come, only by moving on, can we see that faint hope.
Today, the Ministry of Security has newly contained the original owner of the EGO "Feather of Glory" - the Flame Sparrow, as its name suggests, it is a golden bird that shines with brilliant light, when it flapps its wings and takes off, its chirp is bold and pleasant, and the burning ember feathers are dotted under its glorious wings like stars, as if it is a legendary miracle phoenix. Unfortunately, however, the above is the guy's escape posture, but in fact, the normal appearance is much simpler, covered with charred gray feathers, and his eyes are even more frustrated, like a defeated hunter.
In fact, the bird, unlike its usual biomorphic anomaly, will show joy after receiving excellent hospitality and comfortable service, but will appear more lost, and its ashes will gradually rekindle until the reverse Kabbalah counter reaches zero, at which point the bird will be out of the containment unit and wandering around the facility, at which point it will cause real trouble.
After obtaining the Judgment Bird ornament, I was ordered to return to the main rest room of the Control Department, and stationed in the corridors with Camille and Parker to guard against possible tests.
I came to the corridor containing One Sin and White Kindness, stood in front of the door of the containment unit, stared through the porthole, and stared blankly at the old skull that was quietly floating behind the cordon, thinking back to the prayer I had prayed to it, "O-03-03 (One Sin and White Kindness) feeds on the sins that emerge from human language...... "I stared at the most conspicuous line of words hanging on the display board outside the door, and muttered, "Then how heinous sins can you absorb, and how many profound sins can you tolerate?" ”
At present, there is no heinous crime that cannot be absorbed by Bai Shan, but the old skull is extremely resistant to those who conceal the guilt, and those who deliberately conceal it will be "punished" by the old skull, although there is no precedent for such an act to cause death.
In the first few cycles, as an anomaly in early containment, I had the privilege of participating in the intelligence gathering of One Sin and White Shan as an officer of the Intelligence Department. At that time, a colleague named [DATA EXPUNGED] was "fired" from the company after a two-hour blackout after a sudden flash of light in the containment unit after a test of the old skull, and the colleague lost all memories of the past six years, and was finally assessed by Control as unable to continue working, and was "fired" from the company, after which I have not seen him again.
Obviously, the colleague of [DATA EXPUNGED] lied to Yi Sin and Bai Shan, and did an extremely bad concealment, although I have no way of knowing the specific details, but I unconsciously have a great awe of this skull floating in the containment unit all day long, if the judgment bird will still carry out unfair judgments, then the old skull almost represents absolute justice: honesty, confession, and repentance will be rewarded, and betrayal, deception, and lies will be punished. I don't know how it "eats" those sins, and I don't know what it will bring, but I have to admit that in this dungeon full of monsters, One Sin and White Shan is indeed the only one that can bring me a positive effect, through its empty eyes, I can understand my past more deeply and honestly, reflect on my own gains and losses, it is like a loving father, selflessly forgiving all sins...... The past is irretrievable, and as long as there is strength for forgiveness, I must move forward; Deliberate forgetting, self-deception and deception, indulging in it forever, will not reach the future.
"Whew!!" Just as I was standing in front of the Gate of One Sin and One Hundred Virtues, absentmindedly sorting out my thoughts that seemed like a jar of oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, the Amber Twilight Test was triggered, and after a loud roar, a large, ugly worm suddenly broke through the wall and entered the hallway.
The Food Chain - an entity that spawns after the enkephalins production reaches the Al Ain limit, the "food chain" has a larger size and a stronger carapace than the Amber Dawn "Fresh Food" entity, and when it travels through the hallway, its bloated body almost fills the hallway, and there are several large amber bubble-like objects growing on it - it looks quite disgusting; The bloody mouth in front of the head is no longer as painless as a small worm attack, and the sharp fangs and sickly bite force can instantly bite off a person's torso, and its strength should not be underestimated.
I raised my sword to fight, and Yui also came from the main lounge to help, she manipulated the sound of the nova to launch towards the food chain entity, and after a strafing head-to-head confrontation, she was surprised to find that the balls that were shot could not be smoothly integrated under the large insect's white resistant carapace, and the direct external blasting had little effect, seeing this, Yui felt a little nervous.
"Be calm, find a way, find a weakness, and solve it in one go." As I spoke, the dual-wielding Justice Inquisitor sprinted toward the food chain entity, the large insect opening its foul-smelling mouth and swaying its head from side to side as it tried to bite the foe that was scurrying in front of it. I was engrossed, forward, backward, and sideways jumping, my legs moving quickly like swimming polyps, carefully dodging the bite of the food chain, "Good chance!" "I found a gap and quickly stabbed the big worm, but the effect was still not ideal, although the carapace was cut, but it did not hurt the flesh; At this time, Yui began to try to gather larger spheres, and began to focus on the carapace of the food chain.
I brandished my twin knives, stepped on the monster's palate, and jumped high with the momentum of the monster's head, somersaulting, sideways, and stretched my arms, like a high-speed spinning top, and launched a stormy slash at the back carapace of the giant insect, "Whew! The wounded giant worm let out an angry roar, and I immediately adjusted my position and landed quietly behind the giant worm like a kitten.
"Bang!" There was a loud explosion, and Yui on the other side fired a cannonball-like sonorous nova at the food chain entity, which seemed to work well, and even temporarily slowed the food chain to move, but it had no intention of stopping, as if the pair of wriggling short limbs under the monster were out of control. The monster couldn't attack the enemies behind it, but Yui couldn't get to my current position without getting hurt, and the hateful big bug seemed to sense this, and immediately sped up and rushed towards Yui at the end of the hallway.
"Damn it!" I immediately rushed forward and slashed at the weak point of the monster's carapace, but despite the considerable size of the food chain, even though my body was covered with the orange slime in the bursting bubbles, and my eyes were almost obscured by the blood of the disgusting creature, Yui, who was trying to gather and concentrate on the sound of the nova, kept bombarding the food chain, but the monster still had no intention of stopping...... Seeing that the corridor is coming to an end, Yue is in danger!
"Senior...... Predecessor! What am I going to do?! I heard Yui's slightly crying voice on the other side, and I didn't dare to stop the double knives that kept waving in my hand, "Yui! Remember what I said! I want the snake to hit seven inches! ”
"The snake hits seven inches...... The snake hits seven inches! Yui kept repeating, but the panicked look on her face faded away, even though the monster's terrifying mouth was approaching step by step, but at this moment she had to force herself to calm down in order to gain a glimmer of life.
"Eyes! Daphna Senpai! Eye! "Yui suddenly had an idea, and kept shouting for my cooperation." Do it! I stood firm, held up the Adjudicator of Justice, and said to Yui, "I'll count three and attack together!" ”
"Okay!" As he spoke, Yui began to gather the energy of the blue nova in his body, compressing and concentrating it into an extremely thin straight line, aiming at the fragile eyes on both sides of the giant worm's head that appeared at that time, and waiting intently for my orders.
"Three!" I tensed the muscles all over my body, trying my best to find the location of the greatest trauma based on what I knew about the monster from memory.
"Two!" Yui gasped, her teeth clenched, and she raised her hands to make the final adjustments to the condensed energy.
"One!" The monster is already close at hand!
"Right now! Attack! ”
"Poof——! At the sound of an order, the Righteous Judge and the Rising Star Voice were launched at the same time, and after a sharp penetrating sound, the exhausted me was suddenly overturned to the ground by a huge shock wave that came from the oncoming direction, and the two Righteous Judges were not spared, sticking to the wall or ceiling.
"Heh!" As I struggled to look up, the giant worm had stopped moving, and through the dead body that had been drilled a large hole, I saw Yui's surprised and unbelievable smile, innocent like a child.
Yes...... This guy also has such a reckless side, he didn't control the strength well, and almost killed me. I smiled, staggered to my feet, and withdrew my weapon. Join Yui, who has come back to his senses, to clear the hallway blocked by this disgusting monster.
Yui smiled again as she slashed the carapace of the food chain and cleared a passage for the hallway, and at this point, I seemed to understand something...... Everything I love and hate about the purpose of my existence here, seems to have an answer in a trance.