Chapter 343: But I Know, I'm Not Going to Be Okay
"I ate the sweet potato leaves planted by the dean's mother in the backyard for a whole year."
The breeze carried away the softness, and the past seemed to drift away in the wind; But she knew that this past engraved in her memory not only did not disappear, but also turned into a spike and pierced her heart.
Every time she dreamed back in the middle of the night, she was stabbed with blood and her heart hurt.
"I don't understand why I've been so nice to him, why we've gotten to where we are. It wasn't until later that I learned that Jiang He thought An Nan was the little girl who left him food. ”
The drooping hair messed with her eyes, Jiang Teng raised his hand to pin it behind her ear, and suddenly felt ridiculous: "He is good to her, even the little red flower that he got from the dean's mother has to be left for An Nan; Even when they met again later, although they heard that they were not together, Jiang He still gave An Nan everything he could. ”
"His kindness to her makes me extremely jealous."
Sometimes she wants to become the kind of bad actress in the ancient bubble drama, and she can destroy the relationship between Jiang He and An Nan without scruples; Or in front of Jiang He, tell him that she was the little girl who ate sweet potato leaves for a whole year in order to keep food for him.
But she couldn't.
If the emotions of other factors are mixed with the affection of other factors, then the relationship between her and Jiang He will no longer be pure.
It wasn't what she wanted.
"Hunger in my childhood left a huge shadow on me, so even later, I always had to have food in my hands to make me feel at ease. The psychiatrist in the base prescribed me medicine and thought of a solution; But in the end, it all ended in failure. ”
"She advised me to let go of the past, maybe this disease can be cured without medicine."
"But I know I'm not going to be fine."
The sigh in her tone was filled with compassion, not longing for the understanding of others, but pity for the past self who squatted in the dark kitchen and cooked sweet potato leaves for herself.
At that time, she may never have thought of getting something in return, but when Jiang He's feedback was all added to another person, she still felt sad.
She felt stupid and sad.
"At that time, what kind of mentality did you have to leave food for Jiang He?"
Is it just pathetic?
Maybe it was finally the past that was suppressed in her heart to say it, Jiang Teng's face was a little relaxed, she lowered her eyes and thought for a moment, and said with a little hesitation: "The dean's mother said that Jiang He and I are both surnamed Jiang, he is the elder brother, and I am the younger sister; So it should be taken for granted that my sister takes care of my brother? ”
Looking at this reason now, she doesn't believe it herself.
"If you can't put it down, then you won't put it down, but I'll tie Jiang He up and let you toss it at will, and I'll give you a cover if you don't die; The memory spray produced by Nalan Yi is in the experimental stage, and the person in charge of the second district is also a good guinea pig. ”
As he spoke, Hua Wei took out his mobile phone and prepared to order medicine from Nalan Yi.
"Good fellow, when did you become so vicious."
Eto pressed her hand to make a call, the corners of her lips curled slightly, and she shook her head.
"That's good, I don't want to have anything to do with Jiang He anymore. Little peanut, I'll learn to let go. He Jiang He doesn't know that my good is his loss, you know enough. ”
She didn't have nothing, and it was enough to have them standing behind her forever.
Hua Wei sighed softly in his heart, raised his hand and patted Jiang Teng's shoulder: "You're still like this...... Stupid makes me angry. ”
(End of chapter)