After accompanying Aunt Ya to eat this Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, the three of us expressed our thoughts in our hearts, and to my surprise, Aunt Ya was very opposed to this.

In fact, it is no wonder that in the eyes of the older generation, many benefits are not as good as staying by their own side in peace and stability for their juniors.

"Nineteen, you guys, you are still young, I often heard about Maoshan when I was young, but I only heard about it, it is a legendary place, and the people in Maoshan behave strangely, and they will never go down the mountain unless they are in a big dispute."

"They are very special existences outside the four sects, a few of you go, even if Qingyun and Zhao Ling take the lead, there is no advantage in front of others."

"What can you do if people ignore you if you say something ugly? Hard robbery? Isn't that naïve? ”

"Back then, the heads of the four sects all had discussions with Maoshan, although they were all up to the point, but if you think about it, isn't this enough to prove the strength of Maoshan's lineage?"

The more Ya Gu spoke, the more excited she became, and then she turned her head to look at Zhang Qingyun and shouted loudly: "Qingyun, if someone goes to your Dragon Tiger Mountain and says that they want to borrow the Five Elements Recipe to read it, will you agree?" ”

When the words fell, the sharp-tongued Zhang Qingyun was also silent.

"I don't care about a few of you, but if you ask me for my opinion, then I don't agree."

Brother Li took the words, took the initiative to fill a glass of wine for Yagu and said with a smile: "Yagu, don't be angry, it's the New Year, aren't we also discussing!" ”

Ya Gu breathed a sigh of relief, and before I could reply, I interjected, this sentence was actually what I wanted to say after I came out of 215, and it was also something I suppressed in my heart for a long, long time.

"I think I'm going for two reasons!"

Then everyone's eyes turned to me.

"One: Qingyun is my friend, a brother who can live and die together, extraordinary predecessors have been crazy for many years, if the Maoshan Dao Sutra can be cured, then I have to give it a try."

"Second: I don't want to go on like this, last time I relied on Yagu, this time I relied on Qingyun, I don't want to always rely on this other person, my fate, I want to hold it in my own hands, how to live, I have the final say."

The first sentence is a decent reason, but the latter sentence, to be honest, is more like I'm fighting with myself.

Sure enough, after I finished speaking, there was a short silence in the room, everyone look at me, I look at you, no one is answering my words, but very tacitly bowed their heads and ate the food, diverting the topic.

Yes, except for Su Dongxue, no one here is unclear about my situation, and they have all seen it with their own eyes what I have experienced.

I didn't want to be an outlier in the eyes of everyone, and I kept trying to fit into their circle, humbling, bending, and even kneeling.

But this big circle didn't accept me.

Well, then I will walk my own way, and tread the way under my feet, and whoever stops me will be my enemy, my opponent.

In a word, I don't want to act in the womb of looking at people's faces, I want to live happily.

After the Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, Aunt Ya rested early, Su Dongxue was clamoring to set off fireworks, and the three of us were not sleepy, so we just followed his wishes.

The river is full of young people who come out to set off fireworks and lights, they look forward to the future, chatting about their parents, this scene makes me envious.

Leaning against the car, I lit a cigarette and smoked it leisurely.

Now I love the smell of cigarettes, and I'm almost obsessed with the smoke that fills my fingertips.

Yes, now I almost need two packs of cigarettes a day...... This is still an exaggeration for a new smoker.

And I still like to drink a lot, even if it's fine, I will drink it for about half a pound before going to bed at night.

This is a big taboo for people in practice, and it is all a vice, but I don't think so, Lao Tzu doesn't even know if he will be alive tomorrow, and he still cares about doing so much?

"Nineteen, I understand your feelings, there will be a solution."

Zhang Qingyun leaned over, snatched the wine jug in my hand, took a sip, and grinned with spicy teeth.

"What are you talking about, why do you two always whisper behind my back."

Then Brother Li also followed, took the wine jug, and took a big sip.

"I didn't talk about anything, and you didn't know anything about Nineteen, hey......"

I grinned and patted Zhang Qingyun on the shoulder: "What are you sighing for, how unlucky it is for the New Year, Qingyun, in fact, in my opinion, I really envy you." ”

"What do you envy me?"

"The first disciple of Longhu Mountain, the eldest grandson of Zhang Tianshi, the future head of Longhu Mountain, the guest of 215, and the leader of the younger generation of Xuanmen, these identities, even if I give one, I am content."

I took a puff of cigarette, squinted my eyes and continued to add with a smile on the corner of my mouth: "Don't think I'm vulgar, your brother and I are just a layman, you don't know what it's like to send people under the fence, and you haven't been subjected to those strange eyes, once, I didn't have the opportunity, and I didn't even dare to think about the so-called opportunity, but now that the opportunity comes, I must grasp it." ”

At this time, Zhang Qingyun suddenly interjected: "Nineteen, it was after Wufeng Mountain that your mind changed, right?" ”

Of course, I knew what Zhang Qingyun was asking, so I replied bluntly: "You want to ask me, did you only have this idea after mastering the divine power of the drought fish?" ”

Brother Li and Zhang Qingyun smiled helplessly after glancing at each other, although they didn't reply, but I naturally understood the meaning.

When I killed Miao Ziwei that day, both of them were present, and both of them saw the process of my demutation.

However, I was not tired of the two of them asking this, because I knew that they were both worried about me, worried that I had really taken a wrong step, and that I had really fallen into the devil's path as the old monk Huizhi said.

"Indeed, I won't tell you two, my current state of mind was born because of the battle of Wufeng Mountain, and even I somewhat agree with Miao Ziwei's words, if you want not to be eaten, then you have to become stronger, this world is like this."

Then, I changed my words and asked with a little seriousness: "If I really become a demon, will you still treat me as a friend?" ”

Zhang Qingyun raised his eyebrows, snuffed out his cigarette, and replied proudly: "Just based on what we have experienced, I am enough to be presumptuous in your life for a lifetime, and you want to break off friendship with me, in the next life!" ”

Brother Li raised his head and laughed a few times, and took another big sip of wine.

"A pot of wine, a lifetime, is in the wine!"

In the early morning of Chinese New Year's Eve, by the lake, a small town in southern Sichuan, the three of us sang wine until dawn, and the cups did not stop.

Well...... Another incident happened that night, with the help of the stars, the three of us fell to our knees, and the sun and the moon could be seen, and we became brothers.

Brother Li is the oldest, then Qingyun, and finally me.

It's very funny, no one has mentioned it since I woke up, and the title has never changed.

But from the many things that happened later, it is very likely that the three of us were not drunk that night, but just said all the words that were suppressed in our hearts through the strength of alcohol.